Ollie was the dog that gave more than he asked. You had been cast away by so many and had given up on life. You endured so much sadness and hopelessness in your life dear Ollie. For the short time I had with you I am so lucky. You made my world a good place and there is not a day that goes by that I don't wish I had gotten one more day with you. Your life mattered and I am so sad without you.|
Ollie I can't believe it has been two years. I would give anything to have one more day with you. Each day is so sad without you. I wish I could have done more to save you. I wish I could have been a better mom. I only wanted you happy and loved every day. I am so sad we didn't have more time together. You should have never had to endure all you had to in life. I hope when I adopted you that the last two years of your life you knew how incredible you were. You touched my heart in ways that I can't even begin to explain. You saved my life in so many ways and I just want you to know that you meant and mean the world to me. I know you are running free at Rainbow Bridge and feel no pain and only know happiness. I know I will see you again and nothing will separate us. I miss falling asleep and looking over and seeing you snoozing. I miss hitting Starbucks in the am for coffee and croissants and then heading to Arbor Hills for a long hike and then grabbing lunch. I only wish I could have had years with you and ensured every day was amazing for you. I loved that you held things like your ice cream cone with your paws so cute. I love that you loved Pudge the kitty. When I had to leave you and you were at Betty's you never lost hope we would be reunited and we were. Not for long enough but we were. I am sorry that I wasn't more stable in life and couldn't afford trying everything to save you. I know that you were in pain and the right thing was to let you go to Rainbow Bridge. I still question whether we should have waited a few days. I wish I wasn't so depressed at the time and could have done more for you. Know that I loved you more than anything and am thankful for all you did for me by being my bff. I had so much fun going to the feed the feral colonies with you each night. You always let the kitties know we were there and ensured they were okay. They knew you were safe and were there to help them. I will be happy when I get to see you again. To honor your memory I am helping as many dogs as I can. Mateo right now. You would love him and we are working hard on finding him a home. He has such a huge heart like you do. I still remember that day lying on the floor with you. Three injections it took. Your body fighting it and your heart fighting it. I kept wanting to tell them to stop. Reverse. But I needed to let you be at peace and not in pain. I am so sorry buddy for not having the resources or asking for them so that we could have tried everything. You made my life incredible and I cannot begin to thank you enough for letting me be your mom. I love you and miss you so much. I will get Ollie's Wish funded so we can do so much in your honor. I wish we could have done Ollie's Cafe together. It isn't the same without you. I may still do it but so hard without you. Love you. Miss you. Most incredible Ollie.