Ollie, you went so fast yesterday and so unexpectedly. The guilt I feel is unbearable. Did the doctor do something to cause this? You were there one moment, and then you were gone. Even though you were sick for so long, I never thought that trip to the vet was your last. I'll never forget the first time I held you as a baby. It was Christmas time, and you had no whiskers on one side of your face because you got too close to the candle. Right then I knew I had picked a baby who would give me lots of laughs. How you sat at the kitchen table and had to have your dish next to my plate so you could eat like the rest of us. How you would fall asleep lying on my chest purring, and the little kisses you would give me. I will never forgot how much love was in that little body, and I grieve that I lost you in such a horrific way. I'll never get out of my head watching you go, and feeling so helpless. Did you hear Michael and me talking to you, and telling you we were there and that we loved you? You and Zach are together again on the other side of the Bridge. Please find Pal and Skippy, and Axl, too. One day we will all be together again and free from the pain and illness you put up with for so long. My baby, I love you. There never will be another like you. If the tears and pain ever stop, and I can get the image of yesterday to stop running through my head like some horrible movie, I will still never forget you. I will come see you at Hartsdale every week, Zach will show you where to find me. Rest my angel. daddy loves you.|
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