It's been a year since you passed my sweet boy. I still remember that day with dread and remember holding you in my arms and rushing you to the vet. And I know the exact moment you passed, you sighed real big and stiffened as I was holding your body tightly to my chest in the car ride there. I'm not sure I have ever been so heartbroken in my life before. I just wanted to start CPR on you and bring you back. I wasn't ready for my sweetness to be gone from this world, but I know you were finally out of pain and in peace. I hope you've made friends in puppy heaven and are having fun and not worrying about us anymore. I still watch your videos and your suffering was so evident, I was so selfish to have you endure that simply because I wasn't ready for you to leave me. I just kept holding out hoping for a miracle. I love you and will always my baby boy. If it's really true that we will be reunited, I can't wait for that day. And I'm not sure if puppy heaven is with human heaven, but if so, I'm sure by now you've met my sweet mother and it brings me peace that she is with you. As well as my sister and other family members that have passed. I know you're a light to them as you were to us, I'm still so happy the day Amber found your posting on that website. Salt and pepper boy! <3<3
Merry Christmas my beloved Milo. I think of you every day still and miss you. I have your photo as my phone's background pic so see your handsome self every day, many times a day :) I Love you so much baby boy. I wish you were still here. Little sister Mia misses you as well. She tries to make mommy happy when she can tell I'm sad about you, but I'm sure she also misses you playing with her and protecting her from all the "noises" in the house! You were always such a protector. Even when you were a baby and in the car and someone you didn't know would approach to talk to Amber (usually one of her friends at school as I was picking her up) you would get up on the window and start low growling and then barking so big! You were a small boy with a HUGE presence and a love for those in your family.
Thinking of you today and was reading your guest book posts and this one really spoke to me today reminding me of God's great love for you:
What a beautiful fur baby!!!!! Hi, please take comfort in knowing your baby is at the Bridge waiting on you, running and playing with the others. Clearly God loves animals. He filled the Garden of Eden with them, preserved them during the Flood, and expressed concern about the cattle of Nineveh at the end of the book of Jonah. He even makes the surprising statement in Proverbs 12:10 that righteousness includes treating our animals well. God undoubtedly created animals to be lessons for us. God Bless...."
I always think we take care of you guys, but it is clearly a two way street with you taking care of us as well and providing us daily reminders of God's unconditional love for us, just as yours always was/is. xoxoxo
I miss you so much still... just when you think the pain is gone, a memory or photo surfaces and you realize it is still a very open and deep wound. He was so gentle to his loved ones but such a fierce protector, especially when Amber was younger and a stranger would come near our home or car. God, I hope you know just how very much of an impact you have on our family and how so very loved you are!
Today is your birthday, March 13th, the first one since you passed last month. We all miss you so much. I find myself coming into the house and looking for your cute face, or getting up during the night to see if you need to go outside or need anything. Although the last month of your month the disease progressed so rapidly, I'm so thankful we had the extra time to say goodbye to you. You are forever my little boy. I know with time, the pain in our hearts will lessen, but our love for you will never dim. You were such a good, gentle, loving boy and we were so blessed to have been your human guardians during your time here. Fifteen years wasn't enough, I want to ask for 15 more, but then I know, I would greedily want 15 more.
You are forever loved my sweet Milo and missed by everyone who ever knew your sweet self.