I got both my babies, Mia and Hannah at a pet adoption day at Petco. I didn't necessarily want a kitten but Mia was four months old and she snuggled and rubbed her little face on my ear. Hannah was two years old and what a sweetie. I have yet to put up a memorial for Hannah but I will. I had Mia longer. Hannah was 13 when she passed and Mia was 18. I knew both of them were for me. We know it when they're destined to be for us. Mia was always a handful, she was always bad and my Hannah was the perfect kitty. She looked like a lioness. She never clawed the couch, just her scratch pole, she would take her toys out of her little toy box and run with them around the apartment. Mia was always into something. She jumped into the refrigerator as a kitten and did it again at age 16! She would scream her head off when I cooked wild caught salmon from Scotland and of course, I gave lots to her. She would scream -- it was so funny -- when I brought home one of the chickens cooked on a rotisserie. She clawed everything. She really didn't like toys much either. Hannah played with everything. Mia only wanted me and after Hannah passed it was just the two of us. My most peaceful moments were being on the couch covered by a blanket and having them both snuggled on me. That was heaven to me.|
I love them so much.
8/23/19 - Last night when I made fish for dinner, I thought, this is when you would keep trying to grab the fish from my plate. I would have to scold you. No matter how many times I said, "stop Mia, stop" stop, a word you understood, no.... you could't stand the smell of the fish without having any. LOL. You would keep putting your paw in my dish. I always gave you some fish, the best most expensive fish, but you still wanted mine. My baby, you always made me laugh.
9/9/19 - I guess I won't be able to ever come home and NOT miss you. I know you are with Hannah but I want you both with me. I did not put up a memorial for Hannah because at the time I had to focus on you and other things in life that were pulling me. I will put up a virtual memorial for her. I read that it helps if you send your furry loves good thoughts and propel love from your heart, that it helps you on the other side. I hope my big love radiation is helping you because I am sending love all the time. But I'm still lonely and sad without you. You saved my life so many times. I guess I'll never be able to open a can of tuna either again without crying. I did the other night because you were not here for me to give you the delicious pieces to lick in the can. And it was the only way I could get you to take your medicine. Tonight is the candle service. I'm crying now so I'll stop writing.
My baby Mia, this is around Thanksgiving and it snowed, 2 Dec. This is the week I'm off from work and this is when we would be snuggling. We would be snuggling in blankets, you with your favorite blanket. I keep holding your blanket and sniffing it. I knew it would be hard living without you but damn, I am in so much pain. I know hhe animal communicator Karen anderson says in her book that our animals want us to be happy. I'm trying. I got your signs. I'm not sure about your jumping on the bed but I think you are. And wow I heard you purring! It woke me up! Thank you for your signs. I love you forever.
8 December - I came home and the apartment is so empty. I just can't get used to coming home and you're not here to greet me and meow your big meow.
Christmas 2019 - my first without you. I purposely didn't write here because I was having a good Christmas with my friends but quietly I kept crying. Into February now and today I looked at so many photos of you on my chest, you hugging my face. I'm in so much pain now. I talk to you all the time. I know you can hear me and I know you are jumping on the bed with me! I'm lying perfectly still and I feel you jump near me, I feel the bed movement like when you were here with me. Photos of you and Hannah together are just making me long for you. I love you and can't wait until I see you again. I'm home alone tonight on a Saturday night. I wish you were here.
You made me laugh so many times. Remember when you jumped into the refrigerator? hahahaha
3/3/0/20 My baby my baby, with this isolation now, you would be happy because I would be here all the time. But no, we are separated and I am so lonely and so lonely for you my baby. You and Hannah, my babies! I'm sleeping with your blankets tonight.
6/29/20 You know that I talk to you every day. I don't have to write here. I talk to you and Hannah every day and wow you were both in my dreams last week. Thank you for the visit. This is the week although you are so happy you won't know what day it is here on Earth because there's no time where you are. You and Hannah are so happy and are playing with all the Rainbow Bridge babies that their moms and dads mourn here on Earth. I can't wait to see you again. It's a year ago on Thursday you passed. I don't doubt that I let you pass quietly, it's just that the cancer you had upset me the most. I keep working to forget those last images and that last night. My baby, my little loyal friend, send me some signs. My heart still cries out for you and Hannah.
9/4/20. I wish you were here all these months that I'm working from home. Life is lonely without you both. I'm looking for the right memory box. Haven't found one yet. I love you forever.