July 10th 2014 9 years have passed and still it hurts just like it did then.|
11/27/14 Thanksgiving day. You love the holidays. I have put your Christmas tree up and left your presents, and I know you so well that I know you will not touch them until Mommy says it is ok. I know you will sniff around them and watch them as you always did. I love you my sweet precious girl. Happy Thanksgiving my darling xoxoxox Mommy
12/25/14 Merry Christmas at the Bridge sweet girl Mommy loves you, the 9th Christmas without you. It will never be the same without you.
12/31/14 9 yrs our 9th New Years Eve with out you.
01/01/2015 Happy New year at the Bridge my sweet girl xoxoxoxox
03/25/2015 HAPPY BIRTHDAY THIS IS YOUR 21ST BIRTHDAY MY SWEET GIRL Happy 21st birthday my sweet sweet girl my Mee Mee....xoxoxoxoxox
April 5th 2015 Happy Easter my sweet sweet girl xoxoxoxoxo
JULY 10TH 2015: Oh how can it be? 10years now you left me and my heart still breaks.I love you so much my sweet little girl. My Mee Mee, I miss you more then ever.I'm so sorry baby. I'm so sorry and love drops fall. Forever and always you will be with me I carry you in my heart.Oh baby Mommy will never forgive herself because I should have got a second opinion. I love you my sweetMesha Gail.
Nov. 26, 2015: Happy Thanksgiving at the Bridge baby. Shane and I love you xoxoxox
DEC. 31, 2015... So sorry I did not visit you during the Christmas Holidays sweetheart..Poppy passed away 12/11/15 and it was hard/ I did not even put your Tree up. But I know the Angels took care of everything for you in my absence. Now we are going into a new year. Merry Christmas late baby. I know you love your presents.
MARCH 25, 2016, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET HEART THIS YOUR 22 BIRTHDAY. xoxoxo
April 2016 Happy Spring sweet heart my sweet girl. I love you so xoxoxo
JULY 10, 2016 16 years ago today you left me. No farewell words were spoken I will
never forget. I love you sweet girls. xoxoxoxo
Nov.24th 2016 Happy Thanksgiving my sweet darling I love you xoxoxox
Dec. 24, 2016 Merry Christmas my sweet girl the 11th one with out you. Oh how I miss you.
JAN. 1ST 2017 HAPPY NEW YEAR MY SWEET SWEET GIRL. LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK
March 25 2017 Happy Birthday darling you are now 23 and been at the Bridge 12 yrs. xoxox
Love is what you are. You are the meaning of love. LOVE DROPS will flow until we are together again.
Momas baby girl ,sky blue eyes you loved your dolly, your soccer ball, to play in water, food, go bye bye, you sang little songs. Her grunts, her teddy bear, her morning biskets, Christmas she loved her presents and would open them with excitement. She smiles. Pretty little smiles. Clean little eyes. Your big backyard, Your home, You loved to go bye bye but loved to come back to your home. Watched everything I did. You knew the difference when I would say Momma has to go to work or momma has to go to the store. You knocked at the back door when wanting back in. When I would come home you would go get your dolly (a rope toy). You would always bring me a prize, a leaf or a pine cone or a stick or anything that was available at the time a piece of paper. When I cooked you would set and watch me the whole time. At night you would go to bed like a person on your own. You loved it when I would get out all the yard tools you would get so excited as you knew I would be outside for a while working in the yard. All I had to do is get my yard shoes out. Clean Clean, washing the car. You loved it because water would be involved. You had the most beautiful sky blue eyes and when outside all you could see is white eyes in the middle of all that black hair. You was a short hired baby black with a patch of white on your chest. Short front legs and back legs longer. You had flying nun ears I called them. So very smart. My baby.
Such a well behaved baby. Almost human. You knew every word I said. There are so many things to tell. 11 years worth. You were born from a mother that was left behind by neighbors. I used to feed the mother. The mother had the babies in the woods behind the home. Another neighbor's little girl got the babies and took them to her house the home of a mean man. He took the mother off some where later when the pups where old enough. I was working in my yard and heard pups crying. No one was at home at the time so I went over to look, two pups in the back of an old truck no food or water. I took some to them. My son came home age 17, It is just me and him I told him there are two pups in the back of that truck one with sky blue eyes. He went to see. He came back with her. He says I'm keeping her. The next day that mean man came to my house. He says you want to keep that dog? I say yes he said you better keep it in your yard. I say Mr.! you don't know me! I take care of what is mine! You will never have the chance to take this one off and dump it somewhere like you did her mother and if you do not get out of my yard I will report you to the SPCA! the other pup was taken out of the back of the truck by the mean man and it would go up and down the street crying looking for his sister or his mom. We took him in too. We found him a home.
I had you spayed at 6 months. You hurt your leg one time I had to take her to emergency hospital at 10:00 pm you pulled a ligament and had to stay all night. I had to have moles cut off and tumors twice. You looked like a pot belly pig up until 2005. When got sick May 2005. June 24th was taken to doctor with what I thought was a kidney infection and is what she was treated for. I had to take her back again. July 8th I had to go get more medication. I'm thinking it takes time for it to get into her system good as the doctor said. Hurricane Dennis is coming Sat 7/9/05. I take her back to Doc again. More shots. You are not eating or drinking. I pack up and we go to my mom & dads to wait out the hurricane. You keeps wanting to tt and keep squatting and nothing is coming out I keep thinking the Doc says give the medication time. You sleep with me and all along I know you are hurting. Sunday 7/10/05. All day same thing over & over and it is raining I keep drying you off still has not drank or eaten. I think to myself there is something more then an infection. That evening I set in a chair and she by me. You start shaking. The curfew is lifted. I tell mom I'm taking you home where you are more at ease. I load the car up. it is 6:30 about. You can not get into the back seat. I pick your back side up and lift you in on your blanket. We leave 20 min. to our house. You get sick and throw up I keep saying it's ok honey moma is taking you home. I had to drive slow because the roads are wet and limbs and trash in the road from the winds of the hurricane. On the way home I call my son Shane to say Mesha is not doing good.
I get home get all things out of the car you can not get out.
Your eyes are so very big now you are so swollen. I can not pick her up you are too heavy ( by the way) you went from 54 lb to 43 lb in just a few days and that doctor never questioned that either. It is 7:30 pm now. Shane gets home. You are spiting something, You look at us saying please help me I do not know what is wrong I'm so scared. I run in and call that doctor you might know I had to leave a message . He is not calling back fast enough so I call an emergency hospital. While on the phone with them they are telling me $$ to just come in I say I don't care I have to bring her can I bring her in? then I hear her cry out Shane comes to the door says never mind she is gone. I ask the man if I can bring her in anyway, Shane is saying never mind mom she's gone. I hang up on the man. Shane says he kept cleaning her little mouth and she just acted like she did not know him ( she went into shock ). I went out there she is in the back seat of my car her little head laying down , Shane says I had to close her eyes. I do not want to except it.
We check her out no heart beat. There lay my precious girl that I thought I tried to help and would let no harm ever come to her. Lifeless. the phone rang it was her doctor I told him never mind now she is gone. My baby took her last car ride.
Her last bye bye. Mommas Mee Mee. Oh my Mee Mee...my baby.
I could not figure out what happened, what went wrong? She was berried in one of the places she loved out back next to Maggie.
It all happened so fast. I never knew about kidney failure until a day or two later. I called that doctor and made an appt. to talk to him. He said there is no way to tell with out having ran test on her. ** HELLO ** why did he not do that back in June.
It is all still too hard for me to except and now it is 7 months ago today at abt 7:45 pm today. Your brain was still good your eyes was still good but something happened to you inside. My baby can no longer lay out in the yard and look up at the trees and smell the air and see and hear the birds. To lay in the sunshine. I miss you so bad I almost did not want to live anymore
I miss having her to take care of. You were so much like a child
You were so special. I have had smart dogs before but this one was something else. I love that baby with all of my being. I want to hold her so bad.
Mommas Mee Mee , Mommas baby Thats Mommas Girl I love you my darling. Mommy is so so sorry. I tried to get you help sweetheart, I failed. Mommy did not know anything about Kidney Failure. I never heard of it and never even thought of it. I was just doing what the Doctor , the man I trusted for your health, said to do. I never ever would have let any harm come to you. Mommy is so sorry baby I love you so much.
You have the most beautiful eyes, Your black hair shined and so pretty. Your have the most beautiful face. You are so smart,
Mommy is so so very sorry baby, my love, my precious heart.
My girl. I will never forget your smiles. Her had pretty little smiles.
My precious I'm so sorry you took your last bye bye July 10th 2005. When I was standing there looking at you, you looked at me saying Mom what is wrong, I don't understand, what is happening to me please help me. My darling mommy is so sorry. My baby I would have never let anything happen to you but this was beyond my control I tried to get help and I failed. I had no idea what was happening. I miss you sweetie and I will be with you again one day my love. I'm so sorry I failed you.
You looked to me for everything.
I will never forget the day you came into our life. Shane got
you and brought you into our home which became your home.
You became a big part of our life. Shane age 17 had never had a dog of his own so I agreed to let him keep you.
When he moved out in 1999 you did not understand where he went. It was just you and me now. All the memories. Dear God.
When he would leave to go to school or work you watched from the front door. See Shane leave. Mommies Mee Mee. You would always set and look out the door or at the back door
looking around the corner of the house watching for him to pull up in the driveway. Your Shane. You would get so excited.
The greetings that you gave when we would come home are missed.
2005 Thanksgiving you are not with us, the 1st one without you.
December 25, 2005 our first Christmas without you in 11 years.
We had no tree, no decorations. It just hurts too bad to not have you with us. You loved Christmas so much.
2/21/06 She loves Spring time. Spring will be here soon.
I love you baby. Happy belated Valentines my precious.
2/25/06 Your uncle Brett visited you today baby. Your Shane
and I miss you so much. We love you Mee Mee.
March 10th 2006: Oh my darling, You have been gone from me 8 months now and Mommy's heart is still broken. I miss you so very much. Last year at this time you were with me. We had your 11th birthday. Now this month is your 12th birthday and I can I can not hug you or kiss you I can not love on you.
Mommy is so so very sorry but the tears just will not stop.
Oh my sweet sweet baby. I'm so sorry you had to hurt.
Mommy did not know what was happening. I tried to get you
help. Please forgive me my love. I always protected you
and would never ever let any harm come to you. Oh baby the
look in your eyes at the last minutes of your life are fixed
in my mind forever. Oh baby mommy is so sorry. I love you
forever and always. You will always be my little girl. You
were always such a good girl and so very smart. There is no
other like you. When you were made the mold was broken.
I love you darling always your mommy.
March 30,2006 This is your Springtime precious. Mommy sees you Mommy watches you from the back door. My precious girl.Mommy loves you forever and forever. This is the first Spring without you since 1994 when you came in to our lives as little baby. Your Shane loves you and misses you too. You are mommy's heart.
April 10th 2006 This day you have been gone from me 9 months now
Precious sweet baby girl of mine. I love you so so much.
4/16/06 Happy Easter baby the 1st one with out you in 12 yrs
5/10/06 10 months baby. You have been gone from me. I miss you and love you so much.
5/14/06 Mothers day,1st one with out you on this 12th yr.
Oh my baby, my sweet girl I love you.
6/10/06 11 months ago I lost you my precious. Oh but it seems like yesterday. Thank you for loving me so much , you will forever and always be in my heart . Mamma loves you sweetheart
July 10th 2006: 6:45 pm you left me 1 year ago today. My heart still breaks, what is left of it.
September 10, 2006 My baby girl 14 months today. Still my heart is broken. You are with me everyday sweetheart. Mammas girl.
Nov.23 2006 Thanksgiving with out you a second time since you left me. It is not the same with out you my heart. I love you
Dec. 25,2006 Our second Christmas with out you my sweet girl and still we had no tree no decorations. We just can't do it.
*** Max oh darling we love you Shane and I. I'm so sorry sweet sweet boy (((MAX))) xox 12/1/09
12/24/09 Oh my sweet girls, my 4th Christmas with out your precious body here on earth with me.
March 25, 2010 Happy 16th birthday my sweet girls, yes hers is! that's momma's sweet girls!
FEBRUARY 7TH 2011 6:45 PM Your Moddy , my Mommy passed away and I hope you see her
JULY 10, 2014 Thursday At a little after 6 pm this afternoon Shane & I lost you 9 years ago.