Thank you for reading Mazie's story. She was gone from this earth when I got back from work today, Monday December 21st, 2009. How awful to have lost her while I was stuck at work!!!!!!|
I knew she was dying, the vet diagnosed her with feline renal failure. By the time I realized she was seriously ill, it was too late. My heart is just broken into a million pieces.
I thought her being a young kitty would mean she wouldn't die for a long time. She was only 7.
It all happened so fast, just a month ago, I lost my "yard" kitty (belonged to the neighbor, but hung with me). I worry I spent too much time with the other kitty, and not enough with my precious little Mazie. Not knowing she was sick, makes me so angry with myself. I can't believe I didn't notice in time. I feel so worthless. I couldn't save my sweet little kitty that trusted me unconditionally. She was so kind and loving, I feel I let her down without measure.
I can only hope she is at the Rainbow bridge and I get to see her again some day. I will tell her how sorry I was to been such a careless person. I shouldn't have let other things get in the way of spending time with her.
She used to hurry to the door when I was leaving the house. To try to get me to pet her and stay a little longer, she would twist around sometimes let out a little sound (she wasn't very talkative unless I really encouraged her). Sometimes I would sit on the step, stop and pet her. Just didn't do it nearly enough. I though we would have years together to do that. I was so wrong.
I will post a picture of her, but most of the ones I have don't do her justice. She was an orange tabby (short-hair) with big gold eyes. She had some white on her too. People who saw her always said how pretty she was. I got her and her sister when a lady at my work needed to find a new home for them. They thought Mazie was the "unfriendly" one and couldn't believe it when she allowed me to pet her immediately. I got my kitty girls 5 years ago last spring.
I have so many memories of her, and I'm sure every day will remind me of another one.
I hope she can forgive me for not being there today and so many days. I will miss her forever.
December 4, 2012
December 21, 2012
December 21, 2015