You came into our lives when you were 12 weeks old. We brought you home on July 6, 2000. You were so tiny, barely weighing 3 lbs. We instantly fell in love with you.|
You were so sweet and loving and with us constantly. When we traveled to see family, we drove so you would be comfortable. We never put you in a kennel if we journeyed a great distance. We saw to it you went home with our special friends who loved you as much as we did.
You filled our condo, our apartment and our home with joy. You were instantly loved by our grown children and eventually our grandchildren grew to love you as well.
You were a tiny baby but had the heart and personality of a lion. People, especially small children, marveled at your toy-like quality.
You slept between us in bed and I often looked at your beautiful face while you were sleeping. I especially loved to kiss the bottom of your paws...strange, but comforting to me. I just adored the way you smelled.
When you were ill, I nursed you. When Mommy and Daddy had various illnesses and surgeries, you were right beside us to give us comfort and support. When my Father was terminally ill 13 years ago, you laid in bed with him until he passed. After he passed, you slept under his bed for days.
You made us smile, laugh and gave us pure love and pleasure always. Even as you aged, you still acted as a puppy. You were full of personality until the end.
I loved singing to you and enjoyed our private times when I would dance with you.
When you suffered your final illness, I was alone with you while Daddy worked in another state. You were diagnosed with a collapsed trachea but always managed to overcome all your illnesses through the years. I hoped this time you would bounce back. When you started deteriorating, I was terrified, so Daddy flew immediately home to be with you. We never left you alone at the end and would stay up all night to try to feed you. But, we soon realized you were staying only for us and knew we had to let you go. That decision was absolutely painful for us, but you deserved to pass with dignity and in peace, surrounded by the unconditional love you always gave Daddy and I.
Friends and family came by to give their goodbyes, love and kisses. Daddy and I had you all to ourselves your final couple of days. We cried together, slept together, took our last photos and I had one more dance with you. We sat outside enjoying a sunny day, which always made you happy.
We stayed with you as you passed peacefully in my lap surrounded by your favorite toys. We said our goodbyes to you and showered you with kisses while you crossed over the Rainbow Bridge.
Our hearts are breaking now as we miss you terribly. The thought that we will no longer see you is unbearable.
Please know that you brought such love and happiness to Daddy and I. You will always live in our hearts and memory.
With all our love, my sweet baby, Maxie. May you be forever at peace and free to run and play as you did when you were a tiny puppy.
Mommy and Daddy XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (1 for each year of your precious life)
May 15, 2015
It's 2 weeks since you left us...I am really hurting now. I have your photo everywhere. I look at you each morning to kiss your photo good morning and I kiss your photo before going to bed at night. I find myself talking out loud to you. I sleep with your favorite comforter and your stuffed puppy. These make me feel closer to you. I found a Maltese stuffed animal online that is about your size and put your collar on it. I keep this toy Maltese sitting by our front door looking out so I will see you when I leave and be greeted by you when I come home. The family thinks I am losing my mind, but I need these few crutches to make the pain more bearable for me. No one understands that you and I were always together fior 15 years and when Daddy goes to work the quiet is too much for me.
I miss you mostly in the morning when we shared a banana and then went outside to soak up the morning sun. You so loved being outside. I hope you have nothing but sunny days where you are. Knowing you are not coughing anymore or stumbling when you try to walk gives me comfort. You were always my best buddy and so very good.
I love you, my sweet baby boy, Mommy❤️
I had copies made of 6 of my favorite photos of you and framed them tonight. I found myself getting upset about you again this morning, I never know what triggers my tears. Tried to keep myself busy but thoughts of you creep into my day. I find myself talking about you a lot and showing your photos to everyone I meet.
Jessie and Wyatt just found out about your passing and were very sad...especially for me. Ginger has also expressed wishes to see you again. Lilly was here this weekend and was kissing your stuffed Maltese puppy toy I have posed by the front door. All our grandchildren loved you and miss you terribly. They all sleep with your precious photo beside their beds.
I tried to reassure them that you are in Heaven and no longer sick. I hope they understand as I often have to convince myself that you are in a better place. I desperately want you here with me. But, want you whole and well.
When will this sadness pass? My precious baby boy, my love for you is stronger than ever. Love and kisses from Mommy.💞🌈💧
May 26, 2015
Daddy and I are in Baltimore visiting Ginger, Kim and John. This visit you were supposed to be with us. Ginger wanted to see you on her 4th birthday. I gave her a picture of you in a lovely picture frame to keep on her bedside table. She kisses your picture every night before she goes to bed and also first thing in the morning. She has been talking to you to tell you how much she misses you and loves you, it is very sweet. I know how much you loved Ginger. She was your special playmate.
I still cry at night because I miss you cuddling with me in bed. I know you are with me in spirit as I had a special sign the other day and saw a red bird. But, I do miss actually holding you. Remember how much I loved kissing the bottom of your paws? They were so soft. I always said they smelled like popcorn, which you know is my favorite snack.
I have been taking your puppy toy with me everywhere. To Maddie's rodeo in SC, to Baltimore where you wait for Mommy and Daddy each night tucked in bed and I will take it to NYC, PA and LI then we will all return again to SC.
The sadness is still with me and I miss you terribly. You were my best sweet boy.
I will always love you, forever and ever, Mommy
PS - I hope you are happy and making new friends.
Daddy and I arrived in apartment in NY. Another painful reminder you are not here. I have 5 photos of you which make me think of happier times with you. You were so playful all the time. I miss the fun we had together.
It is especially difficult as today is my birthday and you will not be here to share our cupcake. Tonight we are seeing Jessie and Wyatt and I know they will ask me dozens of questions about you. Jessie is old enough to understand that you are in Heaven, but Wyatt does not understNd he will never see you again. Death is to difficult for a 6 year old to understand. I do not fully understand it.
I was so fortunate that we had you with us for 15 years. But, that time went by much too quickly.
The last day with you, I realized you wanted me to let you go. You were especially cuddly our last hours together.
My sweet boy, I know you are at peace. I love you, Mommy
My precious boy. I want to thank you for giving me such wonderful memories of you the past 15 years. You were my best baby and will always be in my heart. I am sad that I could not do more to keep you healthier. But, unfortunately it was your time to leave us. My heart still aches and I still cry, but I do smile when I look at your beautiful photos. Love, always, Mommy
Hi, my sweet boy, Daddy and I were in NY for my birthday and then Wyatt's birthday yesterday. We bought him an X-Box with games and he was very excited.
We drove to Baltimore early this morning and had lunch and dinner with Kim, Ginger and Cooper. We had a great time with them. Ginger did not have camp today, but will go tomorrow. Mommy, Daddy and I will spend the day together.
Saturday morning Daddy and I drive back to South Carolina. The drive seems very strange without you in the back seat sleeping on the bed I always made for you.
I am still sleeping with your puppy, and I probably will always do the same. It brings me closer to you. I still think of you all the time and have been upset because no one mentions you anymore to me. I will not miss a day thinking about you...I promise you.
I do not know where the time has gone since you left. I still miss holding you and kissing you. You were my best buddy.
I hope you are happy now and getting on well with new friends.
I miss you every minute of every day.......I love you, my sweet boy, Mommy
Daddy and I are back in a South Carolina. I smiled as your "Max" stuffed dog was waiting for us at the front door. Of course, it was not the wonderful greeting you always gave us, but it helped my heart to ache less. One of the things we found in the mail was a card and note from the vet's office in Florida where you made your last journey. She took the time to send us two sets of your precious paw prints with a comforting message to us about you. We both cried liked babies. I now keep a copy of your prints along with your picture on my bedside table. I look at them before I go to sleep and kiss your photo and wish you sweet dreams. Every morning yours is the first face I see.
The past couple of days have been extremely difficult for me. Daddy is adjusting as best he can, but I am still crying very much. The house is so quiet without you here. Every room I go into has it's reminders of you not being here any longer. I do not know if I will ever be as I once was before losing you. I feel like a part of me died along with you. I go through the motions, but am suffering each minute of each day. Being with Larry, our children and grandchildren are wonderful but they are momentary diversions.
I want to heal as I have to. There are far too many people depending on me. I want to try to find the strength to go on without you here beside me. It just hurts so much.
Mommy and Daddy had to let you go - to stop your suffering, which only adds to my suffering without you here.
My sweet boy, you gave me so much love, happiness and wonderful memories. I want to dwell on the memories and to finally heal. But, I need your help. I wish I knew that you were ok.
All my love, Mommy😂😂😂😂😂💘💘💘💘💘
Another week has passed since you left us. I am still having bouts of sadness and crying...but able to look at your many photos and remember what a sweet and wonderful boy you were. Always so happy and playful...I miss your playfulness as when you tugged on my bed covers to get me up. I miss you each and every day. I sit and stare at your pretty face looking back at me in your photos I have everywhere. I now keep your leash in my nightstand beside my bed along with a copy of your paw prints. Wish I could hold you again and kiss the bottoms f your paws - I always thought they smelled like popcorn, which was my favorite...yours as well, I suspect.
Daddy thinks I dwell on you too much after all this time, but I do not. You were a big part of my life for so many years. You were my responsibility...you depended on me as I depended on you.
I know in time I will be better...but for now, your spirit lives within my heart. I have to believe letting you go was for your own good. But, the pain of feeling your life leave your body is so difficult for me to think about. I wish I could be as strong as Daddy.
Mommy loves you, Maxie! 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞
Daddy and I miss you so much. This is Daddy's first Father's Day without you and it hurts. Sending you lots of hugs and kisses to our precious little boy. Love, always, Mommy and Daddy
Daddy and I are back in FL. I now have your stuffed "Max" on your leopard sofa in living room. He is there to greet me when I come home. These crutches are helping me to cope with you not being with me.
Tomorrow we go to Boca to work with a realtor looking for a house. I need a change! Things are so different without you here. You are in my thoughts constantly. I so wish I could hold you again. I miss that. I have no one to share my snacks with.
Be happy my precious Max. You are forever in my heart. I love you, Mommy
Hello, my baby boy.
Daddy and I are looking to move from our condo into a home. Life is difficult without you beside me. I do miss your company. You were a good buddy for me. I relied on you as much as you relied on me.
Know that if we do move into a new place, you will always be with us.
I love you more each day. Love, Mommy
My precious boy. Sole brought your ashes home today. I slept with you last night and kept you so close to me all night. I jumped when I felt something walk on my stomach. I knew it was you telling me you were here with me. Sole told me your the paw prints I gave her kept falling on the floor while she was cleaning the bedroom. You always wanted her to stop cleaning the bedroom to play with him. She knew you were also there being your mischievous self wanting to play.
I do not think I ever not think of you during some part of the day. I was so glad that you came into my life when I needed you the most. You were the best and companion ever. I tried to give you as much love back as you gave me, but you were an exceptional soul. I never thought of you as a pet nor a dog. You were my son. Love you forever, Mommy
July 1, 2015
I sat in the kitchen earlier today and kept looking at the door waiting for you to walk in, especially when we are snacking. It still hurts so much. I miss your presence everywhere. The house is so empty and quiet. You were such a little guy with a huge presence. It's difficult for me but I have been keeping very busy. If I am idle, I remember that you are not coming back to me. That thought is still very painful and hard for me to accept. I still have all your favorite toys and wish they still had your sweet scent on them. But, I always did such a good job always washing your toys and beds each week. Any trace of you has long gone. I especially miss the touch of your paws and long for your sweet kisses.
Hope you are happy, my angel. I am convinced you have been looking over me in all I do. You have brought me good luck the past couple of weeks. Love you, eternally...Mommy😓💋
Happy Holiday...my sweet boy. I hope you won't be scared of fireworks tonight. I always held you tight as they made you whimper and shake.
Missing you, forever. Love, Mommy
My sweet little boy. Today is the 15th anniversary of the day Daddy and I first brought you home to live with us. You barely weighed 3 lbs, and were so incredible beautiful. You were so tiny I feared I would step on you as you were always following me everywhere. I fell in love with you the minute I held you in my arms. Our love for you grew each day. I miss you, my love, so much. The day we lost you was incredible painful for us. We hated to let you go, but did not want you to suffer. You were such a brave little boy. I hope you foregive us for our decision to let you go in peace. There are moments when I cannot foregive myself. My angel, in Heaven...I will love you always, Mommy 💋💋💋💋💋🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
Hi Baby Boy. Today, Dady and I went to see new house for inspection. The more I see the place, the more I am in love with it. I so wish that you were able to be there with us. Love you always, Mommy
Hi, Sweetheart - where do the days, weeks and months go? My thoughts are still flooded with you. I still find it difficult to believe I will not see you walking around the house. I miss seeing you every day. Please, can you let me see you again? I will always love you, my sweet boy, Mommy
Good morning my sweet baby boy. Thoughts of you are always with me. I have not been feeling very well these past few days and new that I could always count on you to keep me company during these episodes I go through. I could see your emotions in your beautiful eyes. You and I had a connection beyond words. I just had to look deep into your eyes to touch your soul. Knew that at the end I only had to look into your eyes one last time to know that I had to let you go. It was time for you. But, no matter, it was never the time for me. When you kept licking my face those last days and hours, I knew you were begging me to let you go.
Now it's over 21/2 months and I still cry for you. Will this pain ever go away? I miss you beyond words to express. My days and nights are so empty without your presence around me. There are so many wonderful moments I had still hoped to share with you.
I realize now that you are ok but, know that I am not. Nor will I ever be...without you, my sweet baby boy. With all my love, forever, Mommy😍😍😥😥😪😪😭😭💋💋🐾🐾🌈🌈
Another sleepless night without you beside me. Missing you just never stops. Love looking at the photos of you beside my bed. I go to sleep and wake up looking at your sweet face. I also love to look at your paw prints. Touching them is the closest thing I have to touching you. Love you, forever, Mommy😍😍😘💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
Today is Daddy and my 43rd wedding anniversary and I am still sitting in the bedroom in my pjs. I am so depressed and have to get out of this mood before Daddy comes home. He is expecting us to celebrate tonight and all I want to do is stay in bed and cry. I miss having you to talk to. All I had to do was look into your beautiful eyes to know you understood what I was upset about. You were always there for me, as I tried to be there for you, as well.
I miss holding you so much. Will the pain ever stop for me? I have everything in the world to be thankful for and the future looks amazing...but, I feel so empty not having you to make me smile. Please...please...help me! Love you forever, Mommy
How I wish you were here tonight. I am feeling really sick. Went to doctor today and she found a mass on my left side. She immediately sent me to the hospital for an ultrasound. Waiting for results...praying it's not serious. I am pretty scared at the moment, though trying not to show it. Talking with your puppy toy is the closest I have to being with you. I so miss you now. You always kept me company when I was sick. I knew that you would never leave my side. My sweet boy, please look down on me and hope everything will be ok with me. I have to believe I will get through this. It's difficult to be upbeat when I feel like crying. Hoping the pain will let me sleep tonight so I can dream of you! Love you, forever. Mommy😍😍😘😘🙋🙋💋💋🙏🙏🐾🐾🌈🌈
Three months since you left us. Still difficult without you here. I talk with you throughout the day. But, it is not the same without you here. Miss you every second I am awake. Love you forever, Mommy😍😍😍😍😍😍😘😘😘😘😘😘💋💋💋💋💋💋🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
My life is so empty without you. Miss you terribly! Love, Mommy😭
To my Sweet Boy. I have not been feeling that well lately. Went to ER yesterday for more tests. All came back negative. But, I am still experiencing some pain. Dad thinks that I am so stressed over losing you and may be making me more sick.
Know I love you, but it's time for me not to sleep with your stuffed animals anymore. I need to heal. But, know I still think of you every minute of each day...with love, sweet memories and gratitude you shared your life with me for 15 years. Love, forever, Mommy🌈🐾🐾🐾💋💋💋
September 7, 2015
My Sweet Boy. Mommy and Daddy have been away for nearly 4 weeks. While we were away, my iPad was not working. That is why I have not written to you. Please know that I continued to talk with you at least twice a day. When I woke up in the morning and when I went to sleep at night. While in Scotland, I purchased a small souvenir for myself with a picture of a baby resembling you to carry in my handbag every day. I still find it difficult that you are not here with me in body. I hate that I have to talk with you in a box on a shelf in our living room. I so wish you were still here with us. I still sleep with your two puppy toys, one which still wears your precious collar you wore. I have list so many people in my life, but listing you has been the most difficult for me. I still expect you to see you when I come home. When will these tears end? It just turned 4 months since you left us and it seems as though we lost you today. The pain is still so fresh. I pray that you are ok up in Heaven, and have earned your angel wings. I know you will always be my sweet angel. I love you each painful second of the day, Mommy 😘😘😘😘😘😢😢😢😢😢🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔
October 3, 2015
My precious baby boy. I still miss you terribly.
Daddy and I were away on a trip. The hurt part was coming back tonal empty house. The worst is driving back to SC. I keep looking in the back to see you...realizing you are not there.
When I drove up to our house. I cried like a baby listening to a sad song on the radio which made me think of you. I do feel your presence with me at home, but so miss holding and kissing you. I talk to you each morning and night. I never leave the house without saying goodbye to you...nor never forget to say hello to you when I come back home.
I want to keep you always in my mind as well as in my heart.
Remember, no matter where I am you are with me. I will always love you...forever. Mommy💕💕💕💕❤️❤️❤️❤️😘😘😘😘😍😍😍😍😪
October 21, 2015
My Previous Baby Boy.
I wake up each morning sending my kisses and love to the Heavens...I also do the same each night before going to bed. I do hope you get my kisses.
Th house is terribly quiet without you here. I miss you more each passing day.
Halloween is just around the corner and it reminds me how cute you looked in all your costumes...though I knew you hated to be dressed up. In the past you were a chicken, a Harley biker, a vampire and the last Halloween you were a cheeseburger. This will be my first Halloween without you on my lap and I know it will make me sad. One year, a teenage girl said you were so cute she wanted you instead of candy. I would give up everything to have you with me this Halloween.
Does the pain ever go away?
Love you, as always and forever, Mommy
Hello my precious baby boy. This has been a sad time as Maddie's horse, Moon, passed on Friday. I am sure you and Chopper were there to greet him. Maddie is very upset and she has taken losing hm very hard. It only brought up memories of losing you again.
I still think of you each day, with Love, Mommy
Missed my sweet boy this Halloween. Not the same without you.
We lost you 6 months ago today. Very sad day for me. I felt quite ill all day and I know it was because I was missing you so much. We know we had to let you go but miss you terribly that it hurts!
Love, always, Mommy
The days turn into weeks then into months. The time passes by, but youvarecalways on my mind...constantly. Josh bought a puppy that is as small as you were when we first brought you home. She looks similar to you but is white and black. While holding her (Dallas), I instantly knew I would never have another dog in my life. You were and still are IRREPLACEABLE.
I love you, always and forever, Mommy💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
When will losing you get easier on my heart? Miss you, my sweet boy!😢💋💋💋💋💋💋🌈
Sending you all the love my heart can hold. Missing you terribly. I love you, Mommy💔💔💔💔💔💔💌💌💌💌💌💌
My Maxie - it has been 7 months since you left us. Last night I kept staring at your picture looking deeply into your beautiful dark eyes. I swear, there was more humanness in your eyes. They reached down into my soul. I notice other dogs around me, but, they pale in comparison to your beauty. I keep smelling those toys and pillows I have saved of yours to catch your scent. But, I have to be content with our special memories.
I love you, Mommy
First night of Chanukah and you are not here to get your present. Yesterday, while going through closet at Ryan's guest room, I found your bed the kids bought you. I was so happy that I could still smell your sweet scent. It was almost like holding you again. My baby boy, I still cry over your not beng here. I know I will miss you forever.
Happy Chanukah, my boy! I love you, Mommy 💔💔💔💋💋💋😢😢😢🍗🍗🍗😪😪😪😥😥😥🔯🔯🔯
Max, I am still haunted by the fact that you ever knew that our LAST DAY together was your LAST DAY? I am so sorry...we could not bear seeing you suffer. The thought of letting you go makes my heart ache. Please foregive me...those wonderful 15 years were not enough to have you with us. I love you...please know just how much, Mommy
Thinking of you more during these lonely holidays without you here. Missing you terribly, but, I have my wonderful memories of you in my heart. Love you fiercely, Mommy💋💋💋😪😪😪
Missing you, my sweet baby boy. All our houses are so empty without you. Though you were such a little guy, your presence here was BIGGER THAN LIFE. The quiet here leaves such a void. There is a huge hole in my heart that will not heal. Oh, I miss you more each passing day and it hurts to not hold you and kiss you. I will love you forever, Mommy
Happy New Year, my sweet boy. It is 7 months today since we lost you. I could not celebrate last night, but dat in bed with your puppy toy. I am still not feeling well. Everyone left today so we have our condo again to ourselves. 7 days with houseguests was too much for Dad and I. Dad leaves Monday morning for SC, while I stay here. I still have this nasty cough and am anxious to go to doctor Monday for stronger medication. We leave on the 13th for our trip. I will be leaving your puppy here on my bed. I know you will look after things while we are away.
My baby, I miss you so much. It still hurts that you are not here. I love you, my boy, Love and kisses, Mommy
My baby boy...missing you a lot today - Mommy's sick and in bed and could use your company. 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋😪😪😪😪😪😪
My Sweet boy. Mommy is starting to feel better. I feel you wherever I go. Missing holding you...though. I will never forget you for one minute. Love, Mommy💋💋💋💋💕💕💕💕
Maxie. Mommy and Daddy leave on a long cruise. Know that we take your memory with us in our hearts. I promise to never let you go. Love and sweet kisses, Mommy💋💋💋💋
Today is the 29th which occurs every 4 years during Leap Year. Daddy's birthday was yesterday. I have been pretty sick with virus and stomach problems since returning from our recent trip. So miss you when I am sick in bed. Miss your companionship and cuddling in bed.
Nine months now and my heart aches every minute for you. Sorry you had to leave us. Hated ending your life, but did it out of love for you. I look at your photos several times a day and that makes me smile. I still cannot believe you were mine for 15 glorious years.
When I first got back from trip last week, I slept with your box of ashes trying to feel you closer to me. You were a big comfort especially when I was feeling so sick.
I love you, my sweet little boy...forever and ever, Mommy😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
My sweet little boy. I cannot believe I have not written to you for over three weeks. I am so sorry. Daddy and I moved into our new house. You, Rags and Harley sit in Daddy's office so we talk with you each day.
I never go to sleep without talking with. I hope you can hear me. I would like to believe that you can.
The house is really pretty. I wish you could see it as you would love being here. Though, there are no dogs for you to bark at when looking outside. It is totally different living in a house.
We have so much to do but have accomplished a great deal in 13 days since we moved here.
While unpacking, I found your tee-shirt you wore on your 1st. birthday. I cannot remember your being so small. Though I remember your sitting in the palm of my hand.
Yesterday was Lilly's 8th birthday. I wanted to give her something special. I gave her the Max puppet I bought. It is wearing your Harley tee-shirt, a Harley bandana and a Harley hat. Whenever Likly came over to visit, she always picked the puppet up to kiss it.
When I spoke with Lully last night, she was so excited by my gift. She told me that the puppet was wearing your LV collar, and that she was giving it back to me so I would remember you. That was sweet! I completely forgot the puppet was wearing your collar. I would hate to lose that. I still have your LV leash, as well.
I also kept several of your squeaky toys you loved. Your food and water bowls are sitting in our Media Room...your leopard sofa is upstairs in Dad's den. Your puppy, Max, is sitting in Maestro's hand by the piano. So you see, my boy, you are always around.
I just today ordered return address labels, note cards, business cards with your picture on them. So, you are always in my thoughts everyday.
I still miss you and wish I could hold you again. I especially miss your early morning kisses to me and I miss smelling the bottom of your feet. They smelled like popcorn.
Hope you are running around playing with Rags and Harley. We miss you all so much.
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY my sweet angel! I miss you today, more than ever. Loved celebrating your birthdays. Unfortunately you had too few. You really loved your vanilla cupcakes each year.
I talk with you each night and I hope you hear me! I so miss you. I look at people with their dogs and I wish it was you and I together again.
Love❤️ and 😘😘😘😘💋💋💋💋🎂 (sending you a birthday cake!). Mommy
May 1, 2016
One year has passed since you left Daddy and I. This has been a long year for me especially.
You were by my side all the time. My day began with the way you tugging at the bedcovers to get me out of bed to feed you. Mealtime was usually your favorite...chicken. You would prance around the room in anticipation of your morning meal. Then later, you would run to me giving me your sweet "kisses".
Our days were filled with you running from window window spotting another dog. I so loved dancing with you...missing our special time outside in the sunshine. Oh how you always wanted to be outside no matter the weather. Sitting outside now is not the same without you, Coming home now is not as joyful without how excited you were to see me. I think that is the most difficult time for me. Our houses are so empty and quiet without you. You were just a little guy in size but with the biggest heart and personality.
I knew it was time to let you go. We could not bear to see you suffering trying to eat. It was so hard to watch. But, though I knew you were having irreversible health issues, you still manageable to bevverybplayful.
You will always be my precious baby boy. Oh Max...I miss you terribly........love, Mommy💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
May 10, 2016
I have tried writing you several times since my last post marking your first anniversary. I was scared not being able to send my thoughts. But I still talk with you every night before I go to sleep. There is not a day that passes when you are not in my thoughts. You were only here for 15 years but became such a huge part of my life. Loving you forever, Mommy💜💜💜💜💋💋💋💋❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍
May 18, 2016
Good Morning, my precious boy. Oh how I miss you every morning. You would be anxious for me to fee you CHICKEN and would pull the covers off me and playfully growl until I woke up and went into the kitchen...then you would spin around while waiting for your breakfast. You always made me so happy. Oh how I miss that! Love, Mommy😘🙋❤️💋😢🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔
May 28, 2016
Cannot sleep...I keep thinking of you and wish you were here with me. I need a sign you are ok. Loving you always, Mommy💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔🐔
May 31, 2016
It was too difficult to write to you on my Birthday the other day. It has been 2 birthdays without you and it hurt too much. I realized your passing enabled Daddy and I to move on with our lives. If you were still here with us, we would never have moved. I often feel guilty in our new house as I remember you are the only reason we are here, Love always, Mommy❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😏😏😏😢😏
June 5, 2016
My baby. Had foot surgery last Friday and wish you were here to comfort me as you did with all my other surgeries. Your sweet kisses made the pain disappear. Wish you were here...though it helps to look at your beautiful photos. Missing you
June 13, 2016
My precious little angel. I just have so much trouble believing you are no longer here with us. I am so lonely without you and miss your company. I was never lonely when you were with me. But, I know you were so ill and we had to let you go. I will always love and adore you. Mommy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾💕💕💕💕💕💕💋💋💋💋💋💋😍😍😍😍😍😍😢😢😢😢😢😢😩😩😩😩😩😩😭😭😭😭😭😭
June 21, 2016
My baby, Angel. I am so lonely without you. I do not know how to get out of this loneliness? I love you, Mommy❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
July 1, 2016
My sweet Max...I will love you forever❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🙋🙋🙋 Mommy
July 6, 2016
Baby...it is hard to believe just 16 years ago we picked you up and brought you to live with us. The time just flew by. Oh how I wish I could turn back the clock 16 years ago to first have you back in my heart. I would give the World to see you again.
I will never ever stop wishing you were back with me again. I love you, Mommy❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥
July 25, 2016
Daddy and I celebrated our 44th anniversary - sadly, without you. When I come home, I am always hoping to see you waiting at the door for me! I miss that the most! Have not seen any dog that compares with your beauty and sweet personality. Just love looking at your beautiful photos I keep around me.
Lilly told me to put all your photos in a scrapbook to remember you. I loved the idea but not ready for that task. I told her I hold you in my heart, always and she smiled! Love you, Baby💕💕💕 from Mommy
August 1, 2016
Missing you terribly!!😭😭😭😭❤️💕🙋 Mommy
September 5, 2016
My precious puppy. Missing you every hour of every day. It helps that I often talk with you during the day. But, I still want you here with me. I found several of your toys tonight and was sad as they no longer had your scent on them. You will always be my baby.
Loving you, as ever, Mommy ❤️💕💋❤️💕💋🙋😍😘😔
October 6, 2016
Maxie...one month since I have written...but I talk with you dozens of times each day. You know that you are always a big part of my heart.
Daddy and I were traveling this past few weeks and you are never far away from us.
We will love you always, Love, Mommy❤️💋💕🙋💏😘😍
October 26, 2016
My precious baby boy. I realize it has nearly been 3 weeks since I wrote you. But, I do talk with you at least 3 x each day when I am in bed. Wish you were here last week when Kim was here with John and the kids visiting from Baltimore. You would have had a great time with them. Ginger always talks about you as the only dog she ever loved. Wish you could have met Cooper. He would have loved you, as much as his sister.
Dad and I are doing ok, though there is a huge void in our lives.
Always remember, you are our best little boy and we both love you and miss you terribly.
December 4, 2016
My sweet boy. I love you and that has not changed. But, we have a new little puppy Maltese...he looks like you...we called him Baby. He is very tiny and still getting used to us. But, you still have my heart.
Love forever, Mmmy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
January 1, 2017
Another new year without you. Still missing you, as always and I still talk with you a couple of times each day. We just got Baby groomed the other day and it is scary how he resembles you. He does make me smile though, and I know you would be happy about that.
Does the hurt ever stop? Love you, as always, Mommy😘😘😘😘😘😘🙋💋💋💋💋💋🙋🙋💋🙋💋💋🙋❤️❤💕❤💕😘💕❤💕😘💏💏💏💏💏💏💏💏💏😩😩😩😩😩😩
January 13, 2017
My Sweet Maxie
Daddy and I are getting ready to go on a much-needed vacation. Soledad has Baby to take care of. She cried because she remembers you, with love, as we all do.
Please know how much I still grieve for you but life must go on. You will always be my special "baby"
I love you, Mommy ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😇🙋😩🙏
My Precious Max
The last year for me has been very traumatic. Since November of 2017 I gave evenings hospital 4 times and gave another stay scheduled the end of May, 2018. I had a LTKR last November then contracted an infection. Second surgery was to get rid infection. Then I was in nursing home for 6 weeks on IV antibiotics. Then I tire my quadriceps and dislocated knee cap. Back for another surgery. I am home and it has been 2 weeks since my surgery and must wear a brace immobilizer for 6 weeks. Leg just remain straight. After brace is removed I go back to hospital to have scar tissue broken up and have knee bend,. I am hoping that will be my last surgery.
I have not gone anywhere since last November and looks as though I might have another couple of months before I go to see our 7 grandkids.
Whenever I napnor sleep for the night I always call your name and tell you how much I love you. This will never stop.
You were such a good part of my life and I so miss your presence. Though you cannot be with me during my recoveries, just thinking of you and remembering you comforted me keeps up my spirits.
Uncle Josh and Aunt Shannon gave me a Maltese puppy, Baby when he was just 3 months old. He was the spitting image of you. Though he had a different personality, it was too painful to keep him. While he was a sweetheart and I lived him the second I held him, he was not you. After 7 months I gave Baby back to Uncle Josh, I was not ready for another puppy.
I lived Babyvtge 7 months we had him and he was pure love and joy...He was not you. Though he made me feel good, their was also a sadness. Losing you was terribly painful for Daddy and I and we just could not go through this again. So I decided to return him to Uncle Josh as I loved him and knew he would have a better life with them,. They have a big fenced in property with horses, chickens, goats and 3 other dogs. Though it was painful leaving him that first day, he loved his new home. Uncle renamed him Alex. He is over a year old and our 3 grandkids adore him. Aunt Shannon takes him everywhere and he sleeps with them.
My heart feels glad he is in a good home but my heart still hurts losing my Baby. You would have loved Baby.
But, your memories comfort me during my recovery period. I often sleep with your box of ashes so I can be near you. My love for you grows stronger. You are forever in my heart. I hope you are running around with your new friends and no longer have pain.
Know I will continue to talk with you each day at bedtime,. I hope you hear me.
It was just your 18th birthday on the 8th and I had a drink and toasted your birthday.
Loving thoughts always, Mommy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
My previous Max. You were taken from us 3 years ago today. It feels like yesterday.
Oh, how I wished I had you here with me to soothe me while I have been having so many health issues. You were such good company to me. You gave us do much love and joy. Everytime I saw you walk you made me smile. You were so full of life that I never thought we would lose you.
But, unfortunately you were very gravely ill and we could not see you in pain,. We had to let you crross over the Bridge. I pray that you are running with Rags and Harley. I am sure they will protect you.
I will love you always, Mommy and Daddy ❤️💋❤️💋❤️💋❤️💋❤️💋❤️💋❤️💋😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
My precious little baby Max
I know it is nearly a year since I have written on your page. But, you know that you are always on my mind and in my heart. There is not a day when I do not talk with you before bedtime. Sometimes, several times a day.
Today is your birthday and you would have been 19 years. Wishing you a very Happy Birthday, my sweetheart. Until we meet again...I love you, Mommy❤️❤️❤️🎂💔💔💔💔💔💔
My sweet Baby Boy
4 years later today since we lost you. My thoughts have been on you all day today. I miss you terribly and really wish I could hold you once more. Losing you has caused me much pain these 4 years. I pray things will get better for me.
I try to talk with you at least once daily...always at bedtime when the house is quiet I wish you were still here.
I will love you forever and pray we will meet again. Love, Mommy❤️❤️
My sweet angel! I know I do not write my thoughts very often any more, it I talk to you several times a day...especially before I go to sleep at night.
Today is 19 years since Daddy and I brought you home to live with us. What a wonderful day that was. You were so tiny and sat on my lap in your black bed all the ride home. I was terrified you were so little that we would step on you. I nearly returned you as you were always under foot but after several days you learned how to walk with me.
The first few nights we kept you in the bathroom with a radio playing and the lights on all night. I could not wait to see you in the morning. Before long, you started sleeping with us and were always in bed with us. As you got a little bigger, I bought steps for you to climb in bed with us so you could use the pee pad when you needed during the night. You were always running into the kitchen for water and a snack and I would smile watching you run down the hallway to jump back in bed. Oh, how I loved watching you. You were so adorable.
Missing you so much each and every day since you left us. I pray we will be reunited one day.
Love and kisses, Mommy ❤️💋