10/12 Hi my baby. I miss you so much. I picked up your ashes today and they are here with me in our bedroom. I so miss you sleeping next to me. I'm so lonely without you. Please forgive me for taking you for that surgery. I never should have done it. You would be here with me now if I didn't do it. I'm so sorry baby. I will never forgive myself. I hope you have made a friend or two and are having fun. I can't stop crying for you. I love you. Sleep good tonite and I will write to you again tomorrow. Good night my baby|
10/17 Sorry I haven't written to you it's just so hard to think of you not with me. I can't sleep or eat without you here. I see you everywhere here in our house. Today is a week since you left me and my heart still hurts so much. I don't think it will ever stop hurting. I hope you are running around with some friends and are having some fun. I received a heart necklace to put some of your ashes in to wear around my neck so you will always be with me. Kevin is going to fill it for me. He misses you too. I am waiting for a special box I ordered to put your ashes in with your picture on it so you can sleep next to me like we always did. Sleep well my baby and I will write again. I love you and miss you with all my heart. Mom
1/8/2014 hi baby Sorry I haven't written but Mom has had an operation and I wasn't in a good place for a long while. Thank god for Kevin for pushing me to do it. I thought I would be joining you but I guess it's not my time yet. I hope you enjoyed Christmas with your new friends. I still miss you as much as ever. I wish you could come back to me. I can't stop grieving for you. Be good my baby and have lots of fun with your friends. I'll write again soon. Miss you and love you soo much Mommy
10/10/14 Good morning my sweetheart Happy 1st Birthday in heaven. 1 year ago today I lost you and I'm still as devastated as I was then. I miss you so much! I hope your having fun and made lots of friends. I'm sorry I haven't written to you it's just so hard. When I write to you I can't stop crying. I have made a memorial for you in my room on my small bookcase with lots of things that are all you. I still wish I never took you to that butcher of a vet. I'm so sorry. I wish you could come back to me. I know that's impossible
09/15/15 Hello my baby I know i haven't written to you in a long time. I'm sorry i just still hurt so much when i think of you. I miss you as much as the day I lost you. I hope you are having a lot of fun with your friends. When will this pain go away. I think never. Hope you had a great summer. I have been doing nothing but working and staying home on weekends thinking of you. I miss you so much I'm crying while I write this. Oh my baby enjoy your friends I know i will see you at the Rainbow Bridge some day.
10/10/15 Happy 2nd Anniversary in Heaven. Two years ago you left and it hurts as much now as it did then. I miss you so much. I hope your having fun with your friends. Please know that i love you so much and always will. Enjoy your day with yourn friends. I think of you everyday and cry. I kiss your box with your ashes in it every morning and night. I wish we could go back 2 years. How i would change that day. I'm sorry baby. Well go run and play and I will write you again soon. With heavy heart I Love You and Miss You
11/22/16. Hi baby I didn't write you on the 3rd anniversary it still hurts so much I miss you so much. Mommy has a cat now. His name is Toby I was so lonely without you so I got a cat. I wouldn't get a dog I feel that would disrespect you. Toby is cute but he can't relieve the pain. Oh baby why did this have to happen. I'm so sorry I let you down. I wish I could have that day back how I would change it. Mommy is retired now We could be doing so much together now. I'm sorry. I hope you are enjoying the other pups there. A friend of mine lost his pup a couple of weeks ago. His name is Peanut Cox. Try to find him and become friends. His dad would like that. Enjoy your friends and I will see you at Rainbow Bridge some day. I love you and miss you more and more each day. Mommy
2/14/17 happy Valentine's Day my baby. I'm missing you still as much as the day you left me. It never gets easier. Kevin is getting married to Kelly next week on Feb 24th. I wish u could be here to see it. They are both so happy. But Kelly's dog died last nite. I told her I would tell u to watch for him so you can have another playmate He will be new there so take care of him for Kelly Did you find Peanut Cox? I hope so . Oh baby I love you and miss you so much. Take care of yourself and be happy. I will see you again someday and we will be together forever! 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋
7/10/17. Happy Birthday on your 17th birthday. Hope you have lots of friends and are happy. I am still as sad as I was the day I lost you. I still am so mad at myself for taking you to that awful place. I can't forget seeing your face in that hospital bed looking at me as if to say "why did you bring me here. Please take me home now". I should have taken you then to die in my arms. I'm so so sorry. I miss you so much as if were yesterday. I don't think I will ever stop crying until I'm with you again I have added an angel to your plot to watch over you for me I hope you have a great birthday with all your friends. Remember I love you with all my heart and miss you. Until I see you at Rainbow
7/10/18. Good morning my baby. Today would have been your 18th birthday with me so Happy Birthday my love. I hope you're having a great birthday with your friends🎂🎂 Mikey bought me a puppy. He said it was time I'm not sure if he's right or not. Her name is Gracie and she is 4 months old. I got her when she was only 2 months old She is very active. She chases Toby around and nips at my feet and ankles I do love her but my 1st love will always be with you. It seems I don't have the full love for her that I should. That piece will be with you forever. I hope you're happy for me It still hurts so much. I guess it always will
9/23/18. Morning my love.
07/10/19. Happy 6th Birthday in Heaven my sweetheart. Still missing you as much as ever. Toby and Gracie wish you Happy Birthday! I hope you are having fun today You are 19 yrs old today. I wonder if you would still be with me growing old together if I hadn't gone to that murderer. I'm soo sorry!! I wish everyday that I could take that day back ! I still can see you looking at me in that cage with all the tubes in you. I still hate myself for leaving you there. I should have ripped the tubes out of you and taken you home. I with blamed myself for what happened to you for the rest of my life. I miss you soo much. I'm sorry that I am talking about this on your birthday but I wish we were celebrating it together Well I hope you have a great day. Say hello to Peanut and Kelly's dog. I forgot his name maybe I can add it later Enjoy your birthday and always remember mommy is thinking of you everyday. I love you and I will see you at Rainbows Bridge 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋🎂🎂🎂🎂❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️