You came into my life at an unexpected time. I had lost my previous cat 5 years before, and I was not over her yet. I swore I would never get another cat again. Then you came along. |
Some evil family that owned you when you were young moved away and left you behind. Pushed you and your unborn babies out into the street and didn't look back. Thank God the people on that street looked after you and fed you. They named you "Blue" because of your amazing blue eyes. You were a gorgeous girl.
One person in particular took a special liking to you. Laura. She grew very close to you and thought of you as her own. She bought you toys, gave you a place to sleep on her patio, and made sure you had enough food and water every day. She renamed you Luna and took care of you for 10 years. She wanted so much to invite you into the family home, but with 2 big dogs in the home that were not fond of cats, it would not have been a safe place for you. Laura actively began to look for a new home for you. After 10 years of no luck in finding one, Laura turned to me. I was adamant about it. No more pets. No no no. I gave her every excuse in the book on why I couldn't take you in. But she was persistent. I finally gave in, begrudgingly. I am so happy I did.
Our first month was a little rough. You were not the most affectionate kitty in those days, but a little scratchy and nippy if I petted you too much or too often. So we would retreat into our corners sometimes, a little cautious of one another. And then it happened: Trust. A comfortable companionship that turned into true love. And I do. I love you so much! We had an amazing few years together.
I always thought I had a little longer though. I knew you were elderly when I got you, but I still thought I had at least 7 years. You stopped eating a week ago. Stopped using the litter box. I thought maybe you were depressed or just bored so I waited a couple days before bringing you to the animal hospital. I was not prepared to hear about how sick you really were. They were diagnosing cancer and kidney failure. I am so sorry, my little sweetie. You had such a rough life, being abandoned by your first family, and then living on the streets for so long. You were living the high life of your golden years and now its going to be snatched away. I could not let you suffer. I am devastated today. I am happy your suffering is over. I am heartbroken as mine begins.
I am happy to imagine you running freely in the meadow at rainbow bridge. You are young again, whole again. No more pain. Go find Lucky and Seamus, they will be waiting for you there. They will be your companions until I come to be with you all again. You will love them, as I know they will love you. I love you, dear Girl. Don't forget me. I could never forget you.
06/29/20: I am in an awful mood today. I miss you so much. I still can't stop crying. I hope you are all right. You are on my mind every second today. I love you.
07/02/20: I miss you, sweet girl. Its heartbreaking to come home from work and see no one waiting at the door to greet me. Every morning you did that. Sat right inside the door to wait for me. I felt so proud that you did that. I guess it told me that you missed me as much as I missed you. I really miss you now.
07/03/20: I was in an icky mood last night. I am taking your death rather hard. Please come visit me soon and let me know you are ok. This is always your home. Come home sometimes.
7/25/20: I saw you in my dream! I was so excited you came to visit! And you brought Seamus with you! It was probably the happiest dream I ever had. I was so relieved to see you there, knowing you were all right. It gave me a peace I had not known since before you left. I am so grateful to you both for coming over. I have missed you both so much. It does comfort me a little to know I was able to spend one more day with you. I stayed home from work to be with you that last day, and I am so glad I did. I never had that with Seamus, whose passing was so quick, I didn't have any time at all. I miss you so much, sweetheart. I work more hours now. Nothing to come home to. I look forward to the day when I will see you again. I hope you will visit me again soon. Bring Lucky with you some time! I miss him too. Give him my love. I love you, Pumpkin. Thank you for coming to visit me. You have no idea how happy it made me. Go visit Laura too when you can. She wants to see you too. xxx
7/30/20: I had a horrible night. I was mad at the world and it showed. I acted like a complete idiot at work. I don't know what I am doing anymore. Then we had 2 earthquakes. Such fun. 2020 is probably my last year here, glad to hear it. So tired of this place. I went to get your ashes and your paw print this morning. Finally had it ready. All the sarcasm and anger gone, just me sobbing in the lobby of the pet cremation place as soon as I saw the lock of your hair. I was so sad. You have been gone one month now. I miss you so much.
09/30/20: I miss you, Angel. I have been working like a dog lately. Trying to get those bills paid off. Its just sad to come home to an empty apartment. I miss having you there, watching TV with me and just hanging out together. I hope you are all right and having fun at Rainbow Bridge. Come by and see me again soon. Give Lucky and Seamus a kiss from me. I love you! xxx
06/28/21: Hello, my sweetheart. Its been a whole year since I last saw you alive. What a horrible morning that was. I am so glad we got to spend some time with you beforehand. I am so glad you came into my life. I miss you so much!. I hope you are well and having fun at Rainbow Bridge. I am not feeling well these days, my dear. I keep getting the feeling that I will be seeing you all soon. I can't wait to see you all again. I love you lots! xxx
Please also visit Seamus.