Three years have passed and you will always be in our hearts, Lulu. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

am barely able to function. My sweet innocent Lulu was supposed to make a good recovery after surgery to remove a tumor from her lung. There was no evidence of spread anywhere else in her body. It was a solitary tumor that was caught early. I put all of my trust in the best veterinary medical facility anywhere on the Northeast. My sweet Lulu had terrible complications after surgery that I do not fully understand. I will never forgive myself for thinking that surgery was the only option for her. If I could turn back time no matter what the personal expense, i would do it in a flash. If I had listened to Lulu she would have told me that she wanted to spend her remaining time close to my 98 year old mother, Lulu's long time life companion, and that she didn't want surgery. Now I have taken her life away from her and have taken Lulu away from my mother. I will not forgive myself. I have learned the hardest lesson of my life. All I can do now is learn from this and do everything in my power to honor Lulu and never forget her and what she meant to us. I know that many on this website will understand the bottomless pit of grief that I have. The veterinary community has not given me satisfactory answers. They say that Lulu fell in the 5% that had complications. How do I really know what happened to Lulu? I wish she could tell me herself what happened to her. I do not understand. She was supposed to survive. I am heartbroken forever. I had to have her put down. I will never forget - ever - what that experience did to me. I will never forget this. I failed her. And no matter what anyone says, I know I failed her.