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Lola Debra "Keke" Spearman

May 27th, 2007 - February 14th, 2018

Lola was a one of a kind dog, even though she didn't know she was a dog, she thought she was human like the rest of us. She loved going on walks feeling the warm breeze, sitting in the grass and playing with her immense collection of squeaky toys we called her "babies". Lola also had a huge appetite as most Beagles do and looked forward to her meals every day, especially on Sunday's when her mama would treat her to waffles, which she'd go absolutely ballistic over. She lived like a Princess because she was, she ruled over the home and called all the shots. Lola and her mama had a special bond that only few people can know, she knew how loved she was and adored her mom like no one else. When she joined our home in Summer 2007, we never knew what an impact she would make on our lives. We will miss you forever, sweet girl.

Lola, we loved you before we even met you. In 2006 I learned that after years of begging and pleading, I was finally getting a beagle puppy of my very own, like I had always wanted ever since I saw the first "Peanuts" movie. You came into this world on a beautiful spring day, May 27th 2007 in Florida, and you were brought home that July and I cried when I first saw you, you were so cute and small. The next 10 years we'd grow up together, you saw me grow from a young girl to a young woman and we have so many memories together I could write a novel about them.

My sweet girl, you were in a lot of pain towards the end and me and your mama knew it, we just didn't want to admit it. We cherished every day we had with you and we'll cherish those special times even more now. You left us on Valentine's Day, a day which is supposed to be full of love and happiness is now forever going to be a day of tears and grief, it doesn't feel real that you aren't here anymore. The house is too quiet (yes, even with your baby brother Arthur) and reminders of you are taking over the apartment. Me and your mama don't really know where to go from here, all we can do is lay in bed and cry, hoping for it to be a dream and that's you'll be waiting for us on the couch watching TV with your favorite chew bone hanging out of your mouth. You were very special to us, your mama called you her second daughter because you were her baby, she called you "her girl" for a reason. I don't think I've ever seen anyone love a dog as much as she loved you.

It will be a hard adjustment for Arthur, you're all he knows. He loved you more than anyone, more than any of us, and I imagine he'll be a little lost for awhile just like your mom and I will be. I was looking forward to Spring because you're a spring baby, you loved the warm weather and loved all the holidays, especially Easter because you were so spoiled that you got a basket of your own filled with toys and gifts but now it'll be a slow season, missing you every time the sun shines and every time the rain falls. I know you're probably happy up there with Mister and Lucy, it's been so long since you've seen Lucy, I'm sure she's missed you. Mister is probably sitting pretty with his mama since she's up there in Heaven too but your mama is still down here on Earth, so please watch over her.

You'll easily make friends up there because of how sweet you are, and how gentle your nature is. You were truly one of a kind. I don't know what to do from here but I promise I will update you every chance I can get. I'll never forget you.


Mama, Alex, and Arthur


Hey Keke, it's Alex. Our first night without you was a tough one, your mom and I slept in the same bed together so we wouldn't be alone and we laughed talking about memories of you and funny things you did. The memories brought us some temporary relief but we soon began to cry again because we miss you so much and we'd do anything to bring you back. Your mom and I have decided to have you cremated because we want to be able to keep you close and take you wherever we go, we already have a place for you right next to your favorite kitty--I do hope you've found him up there by now, but if not, keep looking! We can't wait to have you home, it'll bring us some peace. We're going to Disney World soon and your mama said she wanted to get you some gifts, I suggested we get you a Mickey ears hat and have them stitch your name onto the back of it, pink of course, your favorite color, and have it put with your urn. She and I always joked every time we went to Disney how if you were a real little girl, which you practically were, you'd have one of those hats. Keke, we're really lonely without you and the house is too quiet, your brother keeps wandering around and going into all your favorite rooms hoping you'll be there and it breaks my heart when we see that it's empty now. I have to return to work in a few days and I'm already dreading it because I'm going to want to talk about you and I don't know how to do it without crying, please give me the strength. I'll update you soon, love you.

Mom and Alex


Hi sweet girl, it's been 2 days since you left us and it seems like the pain is only getting worse. You know how your mom never cries, right? She's been crying nonstop since you've been gone saying how much she wishes she could just kiss you and hold you one last time. I know you would've stayed if you could Keke but your body was just tired and it gave out, it's nothing that you could've controlled. Mom keeps asking me if you knew how much she loved you and I say, "Of course she did" because anybody with eyes could see how much your mama loved you, she said her heart is broken and that she just wants the pain to go away but you were so special that I don't think the pain will ever go away for good. We both hate waking up, we hate coming home, we hate everything now that we used to enjoy because you're no longer here with us. You were such a light in our lives that every day seems dark, now. We love and miss you so much.

Mom and Alex


Hi Keke, it's late and I'm sorry I didn't write to you earlier today but I had to return to work and I just got home a few hours ago. Your mom got a huge crate of flowers that she put your name on to put on the porch and she told me she cried when she was picking them out and then cried later on at the grocery store when she walked by your favorite treats, knowing you can't have them anymore. The pain hasn't gotten any easier, I had a huge lump in my throat the entire day and I just want to scream and break down because life isn't fair and I miss you so much. Mom and Arthur got me from work today, do you remember a few years ago when mom would go get me from work and you always had to ride in the car with her? You didn't care what time it was, as soon as my shift was over and mom was grabbing her keys, you were at the front door ready to go--Arthur didn't enjoy it as much as you did, he was pretty fussy so I don't think mom will try that again. I know I've been saying this a lot, but, we're really lonely without you and the house just isn't the same anymore, we want to move away because living in the place you died in is just too painful. I'm still sleeping in the same bed with mom at night because I cry when I try to sleep on my own. I'd do anything in this world to have you back, you were so special to us and this is so hard. I hope you're happy, at least. Goodnight and sweet dreams, my angel.

Mom and Alex


Hey Lola, it's early in the morning here and it's officially been one week since I saw you for the last time before you went to Heaven. The pain has started to get more bearable with me at least, but I know your mom is still having a terrible time with it. She cries while she puts on her makeup before work, she cries during work and before bed every night and tonight she and I cried together when we came across old photos of you I took a few years ago, you were always so beautiful and photogenic. I'm sorry I haven't written to you in a few days but to be honest, it's really hard to come on here sometimes; so many people have signed your guestbook and written lovely things but I can't read even one without breaking down because I can't accept the fact that you're no longer living when you were supposed to live a longer life. We've been having all sorts of neighbors coming to the house offering their condolences and your mom talks about you like you're still with us, she probably always will. I've added some more photos of you from a few Summers ago, one of them was from when I got my little Polaroid camera and I kept following you around the house snapping photos of you, remember that? It hurts so bad to look back on old photos of you at the beach, the lake, playing because I'd honestly give everything in the world to go back and do it again, run through the yard with you one last time, rub your belly again, put you in the car and drive around with the windows rolled down so you could stick your head out and see the world passing by. I miss you terribly. I miss you waking me up every weekend with your loud barking early in the morning because you were awake and anxious to start your day, it was way too quiet this past Saturday and it always will be from now on. I told mom you're watching over her and looking out for her, but can you watch over me, too? And your little brother? He's been extra clingy since you left. We all miss you beyond words and we hope you're doing alright up there, please be safe and have fun. Goodnight sweet girl

Mom and Alex


Hard to believe that another week has come and gone, this is the longest I've ever gone without seeing you. We get your ashes back today and it's going to be nice to have you home, but obviously of course very sad too because all that's left after 10 years of memories and laughter is an urn full of ashes. We miss you so much, every single day, there isn't a day that goes by that we don't think of you and talk about you. Tomorrow is the first day of March and it feels so strange going into a new month without you; your garden is flourishing by the way. Your mom buys you new flowers every single week and it's looking great. I hope you're having fun up there and making lots of new friends and I'll talk to you soon. Love you!

Mom and Alex


I can't sleep, Lola. It's been almost 3 weeks since you left and it isn't getting any easier. We got your ashes back along with lovely cards and flowers from your vet which we added to your garden, I hope you're enjoying them. Mom has already gotten out your easter basket, remember the one from last year? She had your initial put on it, one for you and Arthur and she's already started filling it with toys because she insists that you still have a basket this year. It breaks my heart to see it though knowing you'll never get a chance to play with those toys and go through your basket like you did every Easter, it'll be a very lonely holiday this year for us. I miss you so much, I don't have words for it...I hate this life without you, it's too lonely and too quiet, I don't like it! I hate that you're gone and I'm angry that you didn't get to live as long as you deserved to live, I just want to scream and punch something until I feel no more pain but I don't think my pain will ever completely go away. You were one of a kind and I can't not miss you and think of you. I just want you to come home.



It's been another week, nearly a month since you've been gone and I wish I could say it was getting easier but it really isn't. Mom noticed that all the flowers we have for you in your garden have grown in one direction, towards the sun, and we think it might be you that's guiding them. We miss you so much and there's not one day that goes by where we don't think of you. You were so loved and you still are, I just hope you know that

Mom and Alex


One month ago today you left us suddenly and crossed over to a better place. One month ago, I saw you for the last time. It's been a hard month and I wish I could say it was getting easier, but it really isn't. You're on our minds every single day, there isn't one day that goes by where we don't talk about you or think of you or say how we wish we could just have you back. We'd do anything to have you back, if it meant living in that run down house we moved out of a few years back, we'd do it in a heartbeat if it meant we could hold you again. I hope you're doing well and having fun, we miss you so much.

Mom and Alex

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