Little Miss Sunshine left me here on earth a couple nights ago. Her departure was really sudden and I feel extremely unprepared and at a loss for words as I'm typing this. It has been less than 2 days since she passed away from sudden heart failure and I'm still feeling bouts of denial. I lost her brother, Mr. Happy 3 months ago and I don't remember ever being this sad before in my life. I don't know what to do with myself. Right when I think I'm better, the sadness overwhelms me out of nowhere. |
Her twin brother passed away on July 31st, 2013 and I honestly believe that Sunshine passed away from a broken heart. Ever since Mr. Happy left us, she was never the same again. She missed him a lot and was inconsolably sad. I know they are together again at the rainbow bridge. Mr. Happy was there to greet her and introduce her to all his new friends. I can actually see them running around, chasing each other.
I first met Mr. Happy and Little Miss Sunshine in April, 2003 and it was love at first sight. They were inseparable and it eases my heart a bit to know that they are together again.
Sunshine was the sweetest daughter I could ever ask for. She always cuddled with me in my arms when she slept...like my live stuffed toy. She was the love of my life. All my friends knew how much I loved her because I talked about her so much. She was attached to me and I was attached to her. She was perfect.
The night she fell sick, I kept telling myself, "I can't do this...I can't go thru this again." but only to remind myself a few seconds later that it wasn't about how I was feeling and that I had to be strong for her. I kept telling her I love her. She was having a lot of difficulty breathing, but she still managed to look up at me to let me know she heard me.
Her episode started at 1030pm, October 31st and she passed away at 240am, November 1st (4 hours later).
When it was time for her to go, I put her hand in mind and she grasped on. A few seconds later she was gone.
YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE
Mr. Happy and Little Miss Sunshine: Please take care of each other and wait for Mommy at the rainbow bridge. We'll all be reunited one day. In the meantime, meet lots of new friends, play, eat a lot, drink water, and cuddle each other to sleep every night.
I love you 2 always and forever.
Mr. Happy's rainbow bridge residency: