On a hot July morning in 1991, as I was getting in my car to go to work, a tiny kitten crossed the parking lot and approached me crying every step of the way. She was so hungry and alone. I took her in and immediately fell in love with her. I named her Tigerlily but called her Lily. The colors of her fur were so beautiful, and she had gorgeous golden eyes. She forged a bond with my male cat, Buster, and the two were inseparable. When he died, she was so lost. Throughout her 18 years and 8 months of life, she gave so much love and always maintained a sweet disposition. Her loss is devastating, and I will love her forever.|
2/28/10 My sweet baby Lily, it has been three days since we said goodbye, and my heart still hurts. I know you were greeted by your prescious brothers, Buster, Jazz and Alpha, and your sisters, Snapper, Ashes, Whiskey and Chi. Tell them how much I miss them and love them. Also, please find your cousins Bosch, Alexi, Spider, T-tar, Harley, Suki, and all of the others whose sweet names I cannot remember. I can see all of you running, flying and hopping at Rainbow Bridge and snuggling together. Be safe my dear ones and watch over your mommy who is struggling to reach the point where there is no pain but only beautiful memories. We shall all be together again.
3/2/10 Sweet angel, mommy brought your ashes home this morning and now you are back with your family who love you so much. I only wish that you, my prescious one, were here for me to hold and kiss. I miss you so much, Lily baby, and I ache to see you. Are you having a good time with Joey, Brande, your brothers, sisters and all of the other dear babies? Go find Mac and tell him that your mommy is so sorry for all of the pain he had to endure and that he never knew the love and care of a gentle person, but that she is happy that he is with all of you and that she loves him. I know you are playing in the beautiful fields and chasing butterflies and birds. You never got a chance to do that during your life here on earth because you were an indoor kitty. I had always hoped that before your time here ended that we would finally have a home with a screened porch so that you all could be outside, at least to that extent, and enjoy gentle breezes and sunshine. Now you have that my little girl. Francis, Raz and Rosy miss you so much. They know things at home are just not the same. Play well baby and send mommy kisses.
I forgot to tell you that you were remembered at the Candle Ceremony last night. We prayed for you and all of the other dear babies that you will be happy, healthy and protected. I know you are looking down on me, Francis, Raz and Rosy and sending us your prescious kisses and love. My baby, my heart hurts so without you here. I expect to see you lying in all of your favorite places, and you're not there. I will love you forever my special kitty. I have sent you a lilac bush because it is my favorite flower of all and the fragrance is heavenly. Also, Joey's mommy, Carolanne, sent me all of the adorable graphic pictures I put in your photo album.
3/3/10. Hi my baby girl. It has been six days since you left me. I just wanted to tell you that I have some more pictures to put in your album that Joey's mommy sent to me. I hope you and Joey have become good friends and are having a wonderful time. I miss you so much Lily, and I just want to hold you again and tell you how much you are loved. My life has really been turned upside down with your leaving me. I know you are looking down on all of us and sending sweet purrs and kisses. You were always purring, even when you were so sick. I miss that so much. Take care my special kitty. We will be together again and then all will be right. Love you baby.
3/4/10. My sweet Lily baby. It has been one week since you left me. I thought back to that day last week and the absolute pain I felt because of the decision I had to make. You were so weak and sick, and there was no other choice my prescious one. It took everything I had to be able to let you go. My heart broke in a million pieces that day and still has not mended. You meant so much to me and always will. You are a beautiful, sweet baby girl, and I love you so much. I have so many graphic art pictures of you from Carolanne, and I'm going to put them all in a special album just of you. I love the picture of you and Joey. I hope you are good friends, as I have become a good friend of his mommy. Be happy my Lily. Love you forever.
3/7/10. Hi my darling Lily. Even though I haven't visited in three days, not one has gone by that I haven't had you in my thoughts. I miss you so much my sweet little furgirl. I have been able to look at your picture without dissolving into tears, but the tears are in my heart. Jordan spent the night on Saturday, and we visited you here together. She misses you so much. She has your picture in a frame on her dresser. Be happy my little love and wait for me. I love you my sweet baby.
3/10/08. My Lily, you have been in my thoughts constantly. I miss you so much my baby. I hope that you are happy and are running and playing or just lying in the sun feeling the warmth on your sweet little body. Do you remember when you loved to find a little sunny place on the carpet to lie down? I wish you were here with me now so you could do that. I love you my darling Lily and always will. Goodnight my baby.
3/18/10. Hi my sweet girl. I'm sorry I haven't visited in awhile. It's not because I miss you less; in fact, I miss you more. Things have been so crazy at home because we have to move to another apartment complex. Oh how I wish you were physically going with us. I am so thankful that I have your ashes to take with me no matter where I go so you will always be near us. I love you my darling Lily and long to hold you again and feel your sweet little body in my arms. I know that you are happy and healthy and safe now and are with your brothers and sisters and sweet Joey at the Bridge. I will be with you all one day, and we will never be parted again. You are my most prescious love. Goodnight my baby.
3/25/10. Good morning my beautiful girl. It has been one month since you left me for the Bridge. I miss you so much my darling Lily. Every day I think of you with so much love. Your picture sits on the bedside table along with pictures of Ashes, Whiskey and Buster. I talk to you all every morning and night before I go to bed to let you know how much you are loved and missed. Be happy my sweetheart. We will all be together again. I love you Lily. xoxoxo
4/3/10. Hi my darling Lily. Tomorrow is Easter, and I wanted to give you Easter gifts. I miss you so much my baby, and wish you were here with us. You are always in my thoughts, and I know you are happy at the Bridge. I love you my darling furgirl. xoxoxoxo
4/4/10. Happy Easter my prescious baby. We all love and miss you so much. Look down on us Lily and send kisses and head bumps. We send them right back to you. xoxoxoxo
4/13/10. Hi my sweet baby girl. I know it's been awhile since I've visited you, but now that we've moved to our new home, I wanted to let you know how much we miss having you with us. You will always be my little love. I miss you so much, Lily, and wish I could hold you again. I know that time will come, but it's so hard not seeing you. You and Joey and your brothers and sisters
4/19/10. My darling Lily. Today I'm missing you so very much. I love you my prescious girl. I received a beautiful poem last week entitled "A Letter From Your Pet in Heaven". It makes me cry every time I read it, but it gives me hope too. I know you are safe and healthy now, and I just have to accept that you are in a far better place at the Bridge. Tell Joey that his mommy told me the circumstances of his death and that it broke my heart. I am glad that you are friends and are together with all of your sweet furfamily members. I will always love you my beautiful baby. Send me purrs and kisses. xoxoxoxo
4/25/10. My dearest baby girl. It has now been 2 months since you left me for the Bridge. Not one single day goes by that I don't think of you and long to hold you again. I know we will be together again my sweet Lily. Until then, know that you are loved and remembered every day and always will be. You are my darling furgirl.xoxoxoxo
5/17/10. Hi my prescious sweetheart. I miss you so much and sometimes I just can't stand it. You were so special to me my Lily. Every morning when I wake up and every night when I go to sleep, your beautiful picture is next to me. I wish so much that you were here with me and that I could hold and pet you again. I miss your kisses and purrs. Live free and happy at the Bridge with Joey and all your brothers and sisters. Soak up the warm sunshine and chase butterflies. We will all be together again in time my baby. I love you so much. xoxoxoxo
5/27/10. My sweet Lily. It was three months on the 25th since you left for the Bridge. I wanted so much to visit you here that day but just never was able to. I miss you with all my heart my beautiful furgirl. Your sweet face is always in my mind, and I just want to be able to feel you near. Be happy and free at the Bridge with all of your friends. Until we are together again my sweet baby look down on us with love. xoxoxoxox
6/10/10. Happy Birthday my prescious girl. Since I don't know when in June you were born, I am declaring June 10th your birthday. I so wish you were here so we could celebrate your 19th birthday. My heart aches my baby. I hope you are having a party at the Bridge with Joey and your brothers and sisters. I will never forget you my sweet girl. I love and miss you so much. xoxoxo
6/25/10. My darling Lil. It has been 4 months since you left me. It doesn't matter how many months go by, I miss you as if it were yesterday. How I wish I could hold you and rub my face in your sweet fur and feel your sweet kisses. What a prescious gift you were to me, and I'll never get over losing you. I hope you had a wonderful party on your birthday. I know you are safe and happy at the Bridge and that gives me consolation. Until we are together again, know how much I love you my sweet girl. xoxoxoxoxo
7/25/10. Hi my sweet baby. It has now been 5 months since you left for the Bridge and my heart still aches. I love you so much Lily and miss your sweet presence in my life. Sometimes it's just so unbearably hard. I want to hold and kiss you and tell you that you are loved every second of every day. This will never change. Be happy with your brothers and sisters whom I also love and miss so much and with Joey and other friends you have made at the Bridge. I send kisses up to you my darling girl. We will be together again in time. Send your sweet kisses down to us. xoxoxoxo.
8/25/10. Oh my sweet little love, mommy misses you so much. It has been six lomg months since you left me. Recently I have seen pictures of kitties who look so much like you it brings tears to my eyes. Lily, you are so prescious to me. I will never forget you or how much I love you. Be happy at the Bridge with Joey and your brothers and sisters. Gather Ashes, Buster, Whiskey, Snapper, Jazz and Chi to you and Joey. I love and miss all of you prescious babies. You have been gone for many years, but I have never forgotten you or stopped loving you. Stay close to one another. We will be together agsin one day my darling Lily. xoxoxoxoxo
9/27/10. Hi my darling Lily. It's been seven months now since you went to Rainbow Bridge where I know you are healthy and happy and where you are surrounded by your brothers, sisters Joey and other new friends you have made. I love you my sweet girl just as much today as when you were here with me. That will never change. You are missed so much my little love, and I want to hold you and cuddle you once again. It just doesn't seem possible that seven months have gone by and Fall and Winter are approaching. Christmas just won't be the same without you, Francis, Raz and Rosy milling around the tree and trying to walk on the presents. My heart hurts wanting you here with us. I love you so. Be happy my baby. xoxoxoxoxo
10/25/10. Hi my darling baby girl. It's now Fall and getting colder, and how I wish you were here with us to cuddle and keep warm. As Winter approaches, I will feel you near my sweet Lily. In my dreams I will hold you and cuddle you and tell you how much I love you. It is 8 months today that you left me, and I still feel such sadness. I know that you are happy at the Bridge and look down on us with love. The love you gave all of your life stays in my heart, but it is so difficult to not have you physically here. I love you my sweet baby. Rest well and be happy with your brothers and sisters and Joey. Good night my little love. xoxoxoxoxo
11/26/10. My prescious girl, yesterday was Thanksgiving and your sweet little face was missing. I would love nothing better than to snuggle with you and show you how much you are loved. My heart longs to have you twining around my legs and jumping up on the couch with me in perfect health. I love you so much my darling Lily and miss you with all my heart. Be warm and safe at Rainbow Bridge and know that you have not and will not ever be forgotten. xoxoxoxoxo
12/26/10. Merry Christmas my sweet Lily. I know I'm a day late but my thoughts and love were with you yesterday. It wasn't the same with your sweet face missing from the celebration. This is the first Christmas since you left me for Rainbow Bridge, and it breaks my heart. I love you so much my dear baby. I know that you and all of the sweet pets at the Bridge had a wonderous Christmas and that you are happy and well. That helps my broken heart. Send down your sweet kisses and purrs to me, Francis, Raz and Rosy. I send you kisses and hugs and wish I could give them to you in person. You are never forgotten my dear one.
1/2/11. Happy New Year Lily. I love you my baby. xoxoxoxoxo
1/26/11. Hi my darling Lily. I am so sorry I wasn't able to visit you yesterday which marked the 11th month since you went to the Bridge. I thought of you all during the day yesterday and just couldn't believe that it has been almost a year since I last held you. My sweet baby girl, I love you as much today as I did when you were with me. I hope you are happy and warm and having fun with Joey and your brothers and sisters. I love you with all my heart, and we will all be together one day never to be parted again. xoxoxoxoxo
2/25/11. My dear, sweet Lily. It has been one year today that I had to let you go to Rainbow Bridge. My sweet baby, it seems like yesterday, not a whole year ago. You are missed just as much
3/25/11. Hi my little love. I can't believe that another month has gone by. I think of you every day and miss you so. Easter is coming in a few weeks so I decided to put Easter things out for you now instead of waiting. I wish every day that you were still here with me, but I know that can't be. However, I also know we (every one of you dear pets and me) will be together again in time. Find sunny spots to lie in and play and cuddle together and wait for me my dear furbabies. Even though this is Lily's residency and the rest of you don't have one of your own, you know I love each and every one of you equally. Rest well my dears. xoxoxoxoxo
5/13/11. My sweet baby, I am so sorry it has taken me this long to visit you again. You are in my thoughts every single day. I love you so much my dear Lily. Your birthday is coming up next month, and I know you and all of your brothers, sisters, cousins and friends will be celebrating at the Bridge. Until we are together again, I love you little one. xoxoxoxoxo
5/31/11. Hi my darling girl. Such sad news for us but good news for you and all of your brothers, sisters and cousins. Tiny E died today which has brought great sorrow to Rena and to me as well. I know by now you have all gathered around him to show him how much you love him and how happy all of you are at the Bridge. Now he too has been restored to health and can run and play with all of you. Give him lots of head butts and kisses and let him know how much he is missed just like all of you are. It is so hard to lose you sweet, loving babies and it takes a great deal of time to be able to think of you without falling to pieces. I love all of you so much. Tell E I love him too. Help E to chase lots of butterflies and then bask in the sunshine. Your birthday is coming soon my baby and I will visit you then. xoxoxoxoxo
6/12/11. Happy Birthday my little one. I am two days late in visiting on your birthday and I am so sorry, but I did not forget my sweet girl. There is a new furbaby who arrived today and her name is Major. She has no family except her one tiny baby kitten and my sister who had taken care of them the best she could. Major lived long enough to wean her sweet baby and then could not go on any longer. Find her and bring her into our loving famly at the Bridge. She is now a loved sister of you all and is restored to a healthy kitty. Show her how peaceful it is there and how much happiness you all feel. Give her head butts and kisses and tell her we love her, and her baby will be taken care of. I hope you had a wonderful birthday party at the Bridge. I miss you so much dear Lily. xoxoxoxoxo
6/26/11. Hi my prescious Lily. Once again I'm late visiting you but only by one day, and you are always on my mind. I love you so much Lily and wish I could hold and kiss you once again. Major's kitten, Minor, disappeared from my sister's house last week, and we don't know if he's okay or not. If he has died, find him and bring him into our family and have him reunite with his mommy. I have been so sad since he disappeared. It seems like I'm always crying over one dear furbaby or another. I love and miss all of you so very much, but I know that you are all happy and healthy and waiting for the day we will all be together again. xoxoxoxoxo
8/25/11. My darling Lily, I can't believe it has been two months since I last visited you here. I didn't mean for it to be so long. You know that I am thinking of you every day and have your sweet picture next to my bed so that I can say good morning and good night to you. I will never stop missing you my sweet baby. Every time I see a calico who looks like you I can hardly stand it. I know all of my darlings who are there at the Bridge and all of you cousins and dear friends such as Joey and Major are together and know nothing but happiness and contentment. Stay close to them, my Lily, and send head bumps and kisses down to me. Until we are all together again, I love and miss you so. xoxoxoxoxoxo
11/28/11. Hi my beautiful girl. Three more months have gone by since I last visited you. It seems that there is never enough time in my days to do all that I do but that is no excuse for not visiting you often my dear one. I continue to wish with all my heart thst you were still with me because I miss you just as much as ever, and I continue to wish you good morning and good night every day. Your sweet picture is always by my bed. It is Fall now and the leaves are turning color and it will be very cold soon. How I wish I could hold your warm, precious body in my arms once again and feel your sweet kisses. Tell all of your brothers, sisters and cousins that I miss them so terribly too. I mention all of you in my prayers every night and want to have you all with me again. I know you and Joey are staying close. I just know you would have been such great friends in life. Be happy my darlings; we will be together one day. xoxoxoxoxo
12/18/11. Dear little Lily. It is one week before Christmas, and I am missing you so much. How I wish you and your sweet brothers, sisters and cousins could be here with me. Since that cannot be, then I wish for you all to be together at the Bridge and know how much you are all loved and missed. My sweet furbabies and featherbaby you are always in my prayers. Share the warmth and love with Joey and all of the animals who have no family there. Merry Christmas my loves. xoxoxoxo
1/3/12 My sweet Lily. Christmas has come and gone again and how I wish you were still here and could share Christmas Day with us. You are so loved and missed my darling girl. I pray you and all of my other dear ones had a beautiful Christmas at the Bridge, and I hope Joey joined you too.
2/25/12. Oh my darling Lil, today marks two years since you left me. I can't belive this much time has gone by. I miss you as if you only left yesterday. I love you so much my precious baby and even though I know you are safe, happy and in good health and have your brothers, sisters, cousins and friends with you, I still want you to be with me so I can hold you and feel your sweet little body in my arms. I think of you every single morning and evening as I look at your picture beside my bed. Dear Lily know how much you are, and have always been, loved. Be happy my little love. We shall be together again. I love you so. xoxoxoxo
You're peacefully now sleeping
3/14/12. Hi my sweet girl. I wanted to visit to change the scene to Spring and the flowers and toys as well. I wish you were here to see the change from the bare trees to the beautiful flowers and leaves. You would have loved going out on the porch and watching the birds fly by. I miss you every single day and want you back here with us. I know that can't happen and that you are happy at the Bridge. That is the only thing that makes it easier for me to bear losing you. I love you so much Lily. Tell all my other dear ones how much they are loved too. Be well my darlings--we will be together again one day. xoxoxo
5/14/12. My sweet Lily, I can't believe it's been 2 months to the day since I last visited you. You know you are in my thoughts every day, but I feel badly that it has taken this much time to talk to you. Not one day goes by that I don't wish you here with me. I want to hold your sweet little body next to me and tell you how much you are loved. Your cousin, Cirrus, should have arrived at the Bridge last week and in my prayers I asked you to find him and bring him into the family. He was so old and sick just like you were and I know now he is retored to good health and is running and playing with all of you. I miss you so much my dear little one. Be happy my darling and keep each other close. xoxoxoxoxo
6/10/12. Happy Birthday my preious Lily! I know you had a wonderful party today with all of your brothers, sisters, cousins and friends. I so wish you were here with us so we could have celebrated with you. How I miss you my love, but I know that you are in a magical place and are healthy, happy and surrounded by love. Just know how much we love you still and miss you every day. Until we are together once again, I send you kisses and hugs on your special day. Good night my Lily. xoxoxoxoxo
12/12/12. My sweet girl. It is inconceivable that it has been 6 months since the last time I visited you. You know that not one day goes by that I don't tell you how much I love you and miss you. Christmas is coming soon my little one and we will miss your sweet face on that day. It breaks my heart that you are no longer able to share Christmas and every other day with us, and I feel the same about your dear brothers, sisters and cousins. I am thankful that they are all with you at Rainbow Bridge and I'm sure there will be a wonderful Christmas celebration just for all of the residents. I hope you spend time with sweet Joey and Gretchen. My darling Lil, I love you so and even after almost three years, I miss you like it was yesterday. Know that you are loved by all of us. We will be together again one day never to be seperated again. Merry Christmas to you and all my other dear babies. xoxoxoxoxoxo
1/25/13. My darling Lily. Christmas has come and gone again. In February it will be 3 years since you went to the Bridge. I can hardly believe this much time has passed. I thnk of you every day and miss you so. Time passing has not lessened how I feel. You mean so much to me and it's still so hard knowing that I can't hold you and show you how much I love you. Be happy my little one and stay close to your Rainbow Bridge family. One day we will all be together again never to be parted. I love you Lily. xoxoxoxo
2/10/13. Hi my little one. I was going to copy a poem here for you but couldn't get it to work. I love you my baby and I will be back on the 25th which is the anniversary of your leaving me. It is so sad every year at this time because I remember how hard it was for me to let you go. You are always in my thoughts little Lily. xoxoxoxoxo
2/25/13. My dear little Lily. Today marks 3 years since you left me for Rainbow Bridge. I know you are happy there and are in perfect health and are surrounded by your brothers, sisters, cousins and friends. It helps to know this, but I still miss you so much sweet girl. I want to hold you close and stroke your beautiful fur and give you kisses and feel your sweet kisses in return. You mean so much to me Lily, and I will never get over losing you. Run in the meadows, chase butterflies and lay in the sun my dear one. There will be a time when we will be together again--ALL of us--and we will never be separated again. I love you my Lily. xoxoxoxoxo
I stood by your bed last night
I whimpered to you softly
I was close to you at breakfast,
I was with you at the shops today,
I was with you at my grave today,
I walked with you towards the house,
You looked so very tired,
It's possible for me,
You sat there very quietly,
The day is over...
And when the time is right for you
I have so many things to show you,
6/16/13. Happy belated birthday my darling Lil. I am so sorry that I am 6 days late; I didn't mean to be. I miss you so much my little love. How I wish you were still here to celebrate your birthday each year. Every night and morning I kiss your picture and wish you good morning or goodnight but wish instead that I was holding and kissing you. It's been 3 years since you left me, and I still long for your presence in my life. I know you are surrounded by everyone you love who love you in return. I miss all of my other sweet furbabies who are with you at the Bridge. I will never stop loving you or them. Bask in the warmth of the sun my dear little girl. We all will be reunited one day never to be apart again. I love you with all my heart, dear Lily. xoxoxo
12/23/13. My sweet Lily. It has been six months since I last visited you. Please forgive me and know that even though I haven't been here that you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. Your sweet cousin Lucy died today. She was so sick just like you and my other precious furbabies were and there was no hope for her. Meet her at the entrance to the Bridge along with all your brothers, sisters and cousins and take her into your fold. Love her and let her know how dearly she is missed. My heart is breaking as it has when each and every one of you has had to leave me. I love you all so very much and miss you. Merry Christmas my darling Lili, Alpha, Jazz, Chi, Snapper, Buster, Ashes, Whiskey, Bosch, Alexi, Lemmi, Spider, Tiny e, Ttar, Radio, Suki, Harley, Lucy, Stitch, Lady Jane, Bleu, Cirrus, and Wolf. I know you are all warm and well at the Bridge and that Lucy will romp and play with all of you. I send you all my love and kisses. Stay close to Lucy and let her know how precious she is to all of us and how much we miss her. Be happy my sweet babies. Until we are together again, I will know that you are all safe in the arms of God. xoxoxoxoxxoxo
12/30/13. Hi again my precious girl. I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas, but I wish everyone was here instead of at the Bridge. My love to all of you dear, sweet furbabies. I miss you so much. Dear little Lucy, I know you are no longer ill and infirm and are now happy with all of your brothers, sisters and cousins. xoxoxoxo
2/25/14. Oh my precious little girl, it's 4 years ago today that you left me for Rainbow's Bridge, and I miss you as much today as I did on that unbearable day. I think of you every single day and wish so much that you were still here with me. I love you my sweet baby and always will. I miss your sweet kisses and the way you loved to lay next to me. You will never be forgotten, and we will be together again. So for now, be happy and bask in the sun and play with all of your brothers, sisters, cousins and friends, and know that one day we will all be joined together for eternity. I love you my Lily. xoxoxoxoxoxo
3/28/14. Hi, my sweet Lily. There is a new resident at the Bridge today. He's your cousin Zeus. What a sweet dear little guinea pig he was and how much loved by all of us. Take him into the family fold and show him how his life at the Bridge will be wonderous and free from pain and fear. Let him know that he will be joined with his beloved Jordan in time but until that time he will be with his fur family and will bask in the sun and warmth of Rainbow Bridge. Tell him how much I love him and will miss him as I do all of you sweet pets. xoxoxoxo
5/22/14. Oh my darling baby Lily. Your brother Francis has just entered Rainbow Bridge, and I know you were there to meet him and bring him back with you. Please love him and let him know how much my heart is breaking having lost him. I love you Francis, and it hurt me so much to have to let you go. Lily knows this as do all of your brothers, sisters and cousins because I still love and miss them. Be happy now Francis my beautiful boy and bask in the sunlight in good health once more and run and play with your loved ones and know that I love you and all of them and that we will all be together again. Be well my dearest love. xoxoxoxo.
For my Francie, my Frannie, my Fran the Man, my Mr. Moo, my darling. I can't bear this pain of losing you this morning. I remember the feel of your fur against my face and the love I saw in your eyes. You were so special to me my precious little boy. Even though I am in pain, I do know you are safe and happy at the Bridge and will suffer no more. I love you so and will miss you so. Here is a poem just for you my darling. Until we meet again know mommy loves you with all her heart. xxxxxxxx
I wish somehow to tell you,
I wish I'd once more hear you,
I wish I had you back again,
Love is love. Beings are beings. There isn't a sliding scale on the hierarchy of the loss of a loved one, a breathing affectionate personality with whom you shared your life. Be it a purring presence in your bed, warming your feet or chirping you good morning. We invest our attention and love in these creatures and they in us. A loss of a loved one is profound, moving, devastating and as valuable as any loss. Love is love.
5/24/14. My precious Franny. It has now been 2 days since you left me for the Bridge. My heart is hurting so much. I see you wherever I look--waiting at the utility room door for the fresh water to be put on the mat, sitting on the toilet seat while I take a shower just waiting until you can jump in the bathtub to lick the water droplets, on the porch lying in the wicker rocker and so many other places. I have your picture in a frame and I take it with me from room to room. I can't stop crying my baby because I want so much for you to be here with me but not sick like you were. I know you are happy and healthy now and have so much to do there and that's the only thing that brings me comfort. If I hadn't let you go when I did, I don't think you'd be here with me now and I would have subjected you to more misery. I did what I thought was best for you, just like I had to do for Lily, Ashes and Whiskey, but the heartbreak for me is unbearable. My sweet Snapper and Buster were taken from me so I was never even able to hold them and love them when they died. I love you and everyone else so very much and I know we will all be together one day. Know I love you my darling Francis and I would give anything to hold you once again and kiss you. I would love to feel your kisses and hear your sweet purrs. Be happy my sweet little boy. xoxoxoxo.
5/25/14. My dearest Lily. Today marks 4 years and 3 months since you left me to go to the Bridge. It seems like yesterday my precious girl and I still miss you so much. I think of you every day and still have your picture next to my bed. I love you baby girl and the only thing that helps me is knowing that you are healthy and happy at the Bridge with all of your loved ones. I know Francis is there with you every moment. The wound of his death is still so deep and painful whereas I can now think of you with such loving memories and no raging pain. Be happy my love and know that I love you so very much and that we will all be together again one day. I wish I could hold you and stroke your fur and tell you in person how much I love and miss you. xoxoxoxoxo
5/27/14. My sweet, sweet Francis. I picked up your ashes this afternoon at the vet's office and inside the carrying bag was a terracotta clay plaque with your name, years of birth and death and your precious paw print. Oh my boy, my heart broke again and I cried all the way home. Even though I am devastated, at least you are home with me. I love you so much my baby. I just can't believe you are gone and that you're not just in another room and will appear any minute. I will never get rid of your mouse toy because I can still see you playing with it. You were the only one who even paid attention to it. I keep remembering how you'd put both of your beautiful paws on my sneaker and move your paws back and forth over the shoe laces. You were the only one to do that. I see you everywhere in my mind my darling and wish so desperately that I could see you for real. There has never and will never be another kitty like you. You were so awesome Francis. I love and miss you so much my love. xoxoxoxo
5/29/14. Hi my darling Frannie. Today is one week since you left me to go to the Bridge. My heart is breaking so much. I wake up every morning with such an overwhelming feeling of sadness I just don't know how to stop. I know you are in a better place my love and that you just couldn't stay here with me any longer, but it's so hard not seeing your sweet face every day and being able to touch you. It just seems that I'm never going to be free of this grief that I feel. I know that I eventually will just as I did when my precious Lily, Snapper, Buster, Ashes and Whiskey left me, but in the meantime, I am in such a dark place. Know that I love you with all my heart and that will never change. Be happy my love. xoxoxoxo
For my Lily. Even though the horrible grief has passed, you are always in my thoughts and I have never stopped wishing that you were here with me too. I love you as much now as I did all the years you were here with me. Be happy my love. xoxoxoxoxo
For Ashes, Snapper, Buster and Whiskey. Many years have passed since you sweet babies left me. I have never forgotten how much I loved you and how much I still miss you. I know you are all happy and together at the Bridge waiting for the day we are together again. Be happy my loves. xooxoxoxo
6/1/14. Francis, my little love. Carol sent a beautiful poem to me and I'm putting it here. I miss you my darling boy so much I can't stand it. I look in all the special places you used to lie and am heartbroken when you are in none of them. I want to hold you and kiss you again. I feel like the pain of losing you will never go away. It just keeps rolling and rolling over me. The picture I have of you by my bed is so lifelike I feel you are truly looking into my eyes. I love you Frannie and always will. Till we are all together again, be safe and happy with your brothers, sisters and cousins. xoxoxo
Who can say for certain, maybe you're still here ...
You're still an inspiration ~
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star
I carry you my sweetheart always in my heart
And this one I know would be from you, Lily, Snapper, Ashes, Buster and Whiskey to me:
please don't mourn for me
My body is gone but I'm always near.
I'll never wander out of your sight
I'm the brightest star on a summer night.
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach.
I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around
I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,
When you start thinking there's no one to love you,
I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
6/5/14. My darling Frannie. Today marks two weeks since you left me for the Bridge. I am having such a hard time. My tears just keep coming. I am heartbroken my baby. I feel like I'll never get over you're being gone. I know I felt that way after each of my precious furbabies left me, but this wound of your loss seems like the first time. I expect to see you in so many different places doing your adorable things, and it hurts so much to see that you aren't there. I know you are whole again and happy at the Bridge, and that at least helps since you were so sick, but I just want to hold you and kiss you and feel your sweet purrs and kisses as well. Be happy my dear one. Until we meet again, xoxoxoxoxo.
6/22/14. Hi my precious Frannie. Today marks one month since you went to the Bridge. My heart is still so heavy with missing you. Every time I take a shower, I feel your presence there waiting for me to pull back the shower curtain so you can jump into the tub and lick the water droplets. I see you in so many places my sweet love, and I want you here so badly I can hardly stand it. Your picture goes into the living room every morning and then back into my room every night where it stands beside Lily's picture. My love for you is still as strong as always and will never change. You were my special boy and there will never be another like you my sweet baby. Be happy and safe and run and play and bask in the sun. We will all be joined together in time my love. xoxoxoxo
Hi my little Lily. The anniversary of your death will be in 3 days so I wanted to write to you today instead of waiting. You are always in my thoughts even though it has been over 4 years since you went to the Bridge. I know you are happy being with Francis and all of your brothers, sisters and cousins, and I know Joey and Gretchen are with you too. Know that I love you as much as ever my darling Lil and know that we will all be together again one day in health and happiness never to be parted again. Until then my dear little girl, I love you with all my heart. Please tell Snapper, Ashes, Buster and Whiskey that I love and miss them too. xoxoxoxoxoxo
7/22/14. My darling little boy. Another month has gone by since you left me and my heart still breaks every single day. I still can't believe that you're gone my baby. It seems like this is a nightmare that just won't go away. I know you are happy, safe and well at the Bridge and are surrounded by your furry family and that's the only thing that helps me deal with losing you. I know in time my pain will lessen enough for me to think of you without falling apart. I love you so much Fran the man, and I miss you so. There will never be another kitty like you. Just know that you are in my thoughts and my heart every second of every day. Until we are together again.....xoxoxoxoxo
My precious lily. It amazes me that you and Francis left this world nearly on the same date even though it was 4 years apart. My broken heart over my recent loss of Frannie doesn't diminish how much I still miss and love you. It's just that his death happened such a short time ago. Know that I love you my little girl just as much today as when you were here with me. I love and miss my other dear kitties who are there with you as well. Be happy all of my precious ones and know that we will be together again. xoxoxoxoxo
8/25/14. Hi my sweet Fran the Man. I am sorry this is three days late. For some reason I thought your anniversary date was the 25th, but now I see it's the 22nd. I think of you every single day and still take your picture into the living room each morning and return it to my bedroom every night. I love you so much my dear little guy and would give anything to hold you once again and kiss your sweet face. I know you are having a wonderful time at the Bridge with all of your family and one day I will see you all once again never to be apart. I send you kisses my sweet Frannie. xoxoxoxoxo
My dear precious Lilly. You are forever in my thoughts, and I miss you just as much now as I did when you first left me. Knowing that you are safe and with all of your darling furry family members makes it less hard not having you here. I love you my sweet girl. Give kisses to everyone and know that we will all be together again. xoxoxoxoxo
2/2/15. My dearest Lilly and Francis. I didn't let you know at Christmas how very much I missed you both and wished that you were here with me, Rosy and Raz. It is a time for all family members to be together and feel the love generated by them, and your not being here was hard. I know you had a wonderful Christmas at the Bridge with all of your sweet brothers, sisters and cousins. One day we will all be together never to be parted again. I love you both and my other sweet furbabies so much and will never stop missing you. Be happy my loves. xoxoxoxo
5/25/15. My most precious Fran the Man. Today marks one year since you left me for the Bridge. My heart still aches for your sweet presence in my life. Thanks to your sweet, loving ways, you took me to the HALO rescue store in February, a place I would most likely never have visited, and there I found your twin. His name was Aloha and he'd been at the shelter for all of his 4 1/2 years of life just waiting for the perfect person to find him. When I looked into his eyes, I knew he was going home with me and that it was you, loving me the way you did, who steered me to him that day. In honor of you, my love, I named him Fancois and I call him Franny, like I did you. I love him so dearly but he hasn't taken your place in my heart, he only resides there with you and all of my other dear fur babies who are at the Bridge and are still at home with me. I know you are happy my dear one and that you are with your fur family waiting for the time we will all be together again. It is so hard for me to believe that a whole year has gone by since that fateful day of sorrow and pain, but I know you are safe, happy and healthy and not alone and that's what really matters. I miss your sweet face and your funny little quirks my Franny. I love you with all my heart my dear little boy. xoxoxoxo
2/25/16. My darling Lil, my sweet baby, I can't believe 6 years have gone by since you went to the Bridge. You know how much I love you and have you in my thoughts. Every night I wish you Good Night, and your picture is on my night stand and has been since you left me. You were a wonderful, sweet, loving companion, and I know one day we, and all of your brothers and sisters, will be joined once again never to be parted. I am so sorry I have been remiss in visiting you here like I used to do. I will be better, I promise you. It's never because I don't think of you. Stay safe and warm my beautiful girl and know that my love goes on throughout eternity. I love you my Lily. Give kisses to Franny, Ashes, Buster, Whiskey and Snapper and tell them I love them so very much. Franny, your 2nd anniversary of arriving at Rainbow Bridge is on May 22nd, and I will visit you here to tell you what you still mean to me. I love you, sweet Mr. Moo. xoxoxox Mommy.
5/23/16. Hi my precious Francis. I am so sorry I did not come to Rainbow Bridge yesterday which was the 2-year anniversary of your death. My darling boy, I miss you today as much as the day you left me. You were so special and I love you so much. Francois is so like you my baby. He looks like you and he loves to lie on my sneakers and put his face inside just like you did. I remember every sweet thing you used to do and I wish you were still here and that you and Francois could be the buddies I know you would have been. I miss you so much and I miss Lily, Snapper, Ashes, Buster and Whiskey too. You all are always in my thoughts. I could never forget any of you, my special babies. Be happy my darling boy and we will meet again. xxxxxoooooo. Mommy.
9/3/16. My darling babies, your precious cousin, Oreo, died today. Find him and bring him into your fold where he will be loved and safe. He was such a dear little boy and my heart is so broken. I know he is with all of you at the Bridge and that we will all be together again one day. Until then my dear ones, I love and miss all of you so much but knowing that you are safe and happy and together helps heal the sadness. Tell Oreo how much I love him and will miss seeing his little face and his punk rocker hair. xoxoxoxoxxo. Mommy.
12/15/16. My dear Lily, your sister, Annie, arrived at the Bridge today. Please find her and show her the love that you all share. Love to you, Ashes, Buster, Whiskey, Snapper and my dear Francis. I love you all and Annie as much as I did when you were here with me.
To Annie, my sweet little girl. I am so sorry that I had to make the decision today to send you to the Bridge. I know it is the best thing I could have done for you because there were just too many things going wrong in your tiny body. I know you will be happy at the Bridge with all of your sisters, brothers and cousins. Your health and beauty have been restored and you can now spend your days in the sun playing like you did when you were a kitten. I love you little one and I will see you and all of the rest of my fur children again in eternity. Know that you were loved my precious Annie. I will never forget you. xoxoxoxoxo Love, Mommy
1/30/17. My sweet Lily, Ashes, Buster, Whiskey, Franny, Annie and Snapper. I miss you all so much and wish with all my heart that you were here with me. You are always in my thoughts and no matter how much time has passed since you left me, my love for you never diminishes. I know you are all together at the Bridge along with all of your cousins and that you are all happy and well. We will be together again and will never be apart. I love you all so much. xoxoxoxoxo Mommy
2/13/17. My precious boy, Raz. I hurt so much having had to make the decision to let you go to the Bridge this morning. I love you so much my sweet baby and the house feels so different without you in it. I know you were met at the Bridge by Snapper, Buster, Ashes, Whiskey, Lily, Francis, Annie and all of your dear cousins and that you are now whole, never to feel pain again. Be happy my baby and bask in the sun. Chase butterflies with your family and know that we will all be together one day. I miss you so much Raz and I will love you forever. xoxoxoxo Mommy
2/25/17. My darling Lily. I can't believe it's been 7 years that you've been at the Bridge. I love you so much my little girl and still wish you were here with me. I know you are happy at the Bridge and have so many family members there with you now so that you all feel love all the time. Lily, I miss you so and know that one day we will all be together never to be separated again. Until then my sweet baby stay close to your family and continue to bask in the warmth of the sun. xoxoxoxoxo Mommy
2/25/17. Dear little Raz, the house is missing something now that you are at the Bridge. I miss you so much my baby. Know how much I love you and always will. Be happy my love with your family and enjoy the restoration of your youth. Until we are together again, I love you. xoxoxoxoxo Mommy
Snapper, Ashes, Buster, Whiskey, Franny and Annie, my darlings. You are all in my thoughts every day along with Lily and Raz. I love every one of you and miss you as if it were yesterday when you left. We will all be together one day never to be parted. Until then, stay happy and safe and know that my love for you is as strong as always. xoxoxoxoxo Mommy