May 9, 2018 -|
Time goes by, yet I hear you and see here in the house. I know it's you and sometimes it's Rudy, but I can tell the difference. I love when you visit me. We have Mickey (a Singapura like Rudy) and Duke (a Tabby like you) but neither will ever be you and Rudy. Of course I love them, but just never in the same way that I love you. You were the one. I think everyone has their one special angel and you are it for me. I am going to change your toys and song now. I love you so much it really hurts, but I know you are safe and pain free with God and Rudy and all the other babies there.
October 9, 2017
Hello my precious one,
I'm sorry I haven't been here in so long, but it's very hard right now. I love you and miss you more than words could ever express. I always felt so very loved by you. I was thinking about how you always laid against my stomach at night and how the last few weeks you would try to do that, but would only last a few seconds or minutes before you went back to your bed. I think you were in pain and it was more comfortable for you to be in your bed next to me. I have no plans of getting another baby. In the past that is how I would heal myself. Remember I got you after your sister Tiger died. I know you never met her, but maybe you have now. Santa will be coming soon and I will look at all the toys and tell him what you like. I change your song a lot because there are so many that remind me of you. Please tell God your mama asked him to take special care of you. I'm working on a poem for you, but I want it to be special like you and not put down words just because they rhyme. Enough for now my sweet angel. I want to talk with Rudy now. I love you, Mama
September 30th, 2017
Hello Mr Man my precious boy. I hope you have found Rudy, Tiger and Ollie. I miss you so much and the bed is so very lonely without you. I still keep the door closed because I just can't stand the thought yet of Mickey or Duke getting in your place. I slept with your orange blankie last night.It smells like you. I love you my angel, Goodnight for now Mama
September 25th, 2017
Hey Mr. Man,
You came home to me yesterday and are on the mantle with your brother. Leo I have so much pain in my heart. I miss you so much. I know it was the right thing to do, but I just want you back so bad. I put the necklace around your kittie urn that says "You are my Sunshine" since that was our song. They have it on the music list, but I like to change your music. Now is Time in a Bottle. I love you my precious, precious boy. Mama
September 17, 2017 - At the bottom I wrote how I got you. Yesterday you went to join your brother Rudy at Rainbow Bridge. My heart still breaks for Rudy and now for you. You were always my baby, just as Rudy was your daddy's baby. But of course you were both of ours. I gave you the greatest gift I could, which was to let you go, but God knows it hurts really, really bad. They had your and mines song on here "You are my Sunshine". Goodnight for now sweet bug man. I love you so much, Mama
I got Leo a few days after losing another beloved fur baby. Leo was at a rescue place called Allied Cats. He was about 12 weeks old. The people there said he had been thrown out in the dead of cold in October and was only about 3 weeks old, his eyes barely open. They didn't think he would live through the night. When he did they nicknamed him "Will" because he had the will to live. He was always afraid of loud noises and strangers. I was the only one who could really love on him and pet him. He was truly mine. When I was sick or in pain he always knew and would snuggle next to me. He slept beside me for almost 15 years. When he was about 10 or 11 years old he was diagnosed with pancreatitis. When he would have an attack he would be in such pain, but they only came every couple of months and we had pain medication for him. About 3-4 months ago he stopped eating and we took him into his vet immediately. He was x-rayed, given a vitamin B shot and medication to stimulate his appetite. He improved greatly. Then a few weeks ago he stopped eating again. This time we did an MRI and it was determined he had cancer. I always promised him I would not force feed him. He started getting pain medication every 12 hours. He was eating, but losing weight. He stayed in his bed on my bed except to eat and potty. One day when I had to give him pain medication, appetite stimulant medication, and drops in his eyes I knew it was his time. I made the appointment for the next day.
Leo had a small rubber baby that he had chewed the hands off of, but he loved it and slept with it. He also has a teddy bear and believe it or not a pacifier that he loved to chew on. I have pictures of him with it in his mouth.
Leo was a beautiful grey tabby with a pure white belly and lots of gold. He was beautiful inside and out. He loved me and God knows I loved him. He was too precious for words to me. I will miss him until the day I join him.
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