5/6/17 - Dear Lacey, I haven't been able to write to you because I couldn't think of the words to describe the impact you had on my life, express how amazing you were and can't bear to think that you are gone. To many people, a dog is just a pet, but to me you were a special member of our family. On Monday, May 1st, you suddenly left us. I have always worried that this day would come. While you were just diagnosed with cancer, you were doing so well and were feeling so much better. As I watched you in your last moments on earth with tears flowing down my face, I tried to tell you how much we love you so that you weren't scared. Over the past 11 years and 3 months, you have provided me so much happiness. From that first day we saw you, we knew that you belonged in our home. You loved playing in the snow, running around trying to herd us, chasing squirrels, barking at the mailman and calling me when you wanted to come inside or were hungry. You were more clever then I could imagine, opening car doors, stealing treats without anyone knowing and understanding the words we would say to you. Each day I came home, you were waiting by the steps smiling, looking for me to greet you. You made the most of each day and taught me how to live each day to the fullest. Every where I turn, I expect you to be there wagging your tail or begging for a treat. I hope you enjoyed your life with our family. I will cherish and remember these memories and so many more through the wind that blows and the birds that chirp. I am so thankful for the time we spent together, but I wish we could have had more and spoiled you with peanut butter and chicken. I am so proud to be your big brother (even though you were older than me in dog years). I hope you are running around in heaven being the social butterfly you were down here and getting any food you could grab your paws on. You were my sunshine and best friend, and I will miss you forever! You will always be in my heart. Rest in peace Lacey Love. Enjoy your time on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge. <3 <3 <3 -- feeling heartbroken. Matthew|
5/2/2017--My beautiful Lacey Love, how do I say good bye to you. My heart is so heavy. On Monday, May 1st, five months to the date of your 12th birthday, at approximately 8:20 pm you took your last breath. You stretched your angel wings and are now flying high into the sky where Heaven awaits. Forgive me for not being able to protect you and be with you in your last moments. I wish I was there to help you not be so scared. I am so heartbroken that you are not here by our side. Some people may say "she was just a dog" but that couldn't be further from the truth. You were such a sweet, trusting, loyal and loving member of our family. You came into our lives over 11 years ago. We rescued you at 16 weeks old but it was more like you rescued us. A little puppy with a beautiful little face, with piercing eyes you looked up at us and our hearts melted and we immediately fell in love. You are the one who pushed away my fears of dogs. Oh gosh how I fell in love with you, you were and always will be my sweet baby girl. What wonderful memories we have shared along our journey and I am not ready to let you go. Five weeks ago we got the devastating news that you had a mast cell tumor on your elbow. We immediately started you on chemotherapy and you were doing so well. Your tumor on your arm shrunk so much and it seemed to disappear. You were and always will be my sweet baby. The vet said that the mast cell tumor possibly released a large amount of histamine and you must have gotten an anaphylactic shock reaction causing you to die immediately. I don't understand how this could have happened. I can't accept this. You were always such a strong and spirited girl. Oh cancer how I hate you. I am so crushed, it just doesn't seem fair. You were doing amazingly well and were always so happy. When I left the house I said I would see you later but never would have I imagined that was the last time we would see each other. I'm so sorry I wasn't with you. I'm so sorry we didn't take another walk together. I'm so sorry I didn't spoil you more. I'm so sorry we never got to say good bye. We all miss you being the first one we saw in the morning, when we would come downstairs, wagging your tail. Oh, how I will miss your huge smile every second of the day, your fluffy fur, how you wiggled your butt when going out for our walks, laying down on the landing and trusting us not to trip over you, you waiting by the front door, sitting by my feet, or waiting nearby because you knew I always saved you some food..... So many things that we will miss. I want you back so badly, my heart is shattered. Our home feels so empty without you. Not once did you show you were in pain. You brought so much joy and happiness into our lives and will always live in our hearts forever. RIP baby girl and run in the wind through Rainbow Bridge, you so loved the wind. Go play with Taffy and the other fur babies. I'm sure you'll find that spot in the shade that you are always looking for. There will be your favorite treats waiting for you, especially peanut butter, chicken and of course some spaghetti too. The bond that we shared was so special and we were so blessed to have you in our lives. You were such a wonderful gift and we are so lucky to have loved you. We will love you with our heart and soul always and forever my beautiful Lacey Love. Fly with the wind until we meet again. May you forever rest in peace. xoxoxoxoxoxo Mommy and Daddy
It all happened way too fast..it almost feels like a blur. You were doing so much better that I didn't expect this at all. You were jumping up onto your back two paws; you were playing peak-a-boo; you were running around; you were happy..then last night you started barking, and before I knew it Matthew was calling my name. I didn't know what to expect as I ran downstairs..and saw you on your side trying to breathe. You were gone just like that and I had no idea what to do..if there was some type of way I could just try to help you. The doctor said that whatever little bit that was left of your tumor let out Histamine that caused an allergic reaction causing your lungs to have a stroke. 11 years and 3 months with you..you were supposed to stay with me forever; you were supposed to always be with me; you were supposed to never leave me..but you have. I've been having such a hard time with you leaving. I haven't stopped crying..all I can see is you helpless as you tried your best to breathe, and I wish beyond anything else that I could've helped you. I hope you are eating all the peanut butter you can get your paws on, and that you and Taffy are having a relaxed time together. You will always be my best friend, my sister, my love, my ster, my loof and my pupper. I'll love you forever and always..Rest in Peace, and we'll see each other again someday. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo <3 Jessica
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