We miss you. When I first saw you, I loved you so much. When we got to the Meowza, they had let you roam free because you had been through so much and you were also so calm and friendly. I pet your soft tummy, you were so warm and sweet and open. You seemed like you were full of love. You had giant, endearing paws and a handsome face and beautiful, white fur with black markings. And big, expressive, pensive, green eyes. We could not help but take you home with us. When we took you to the vet,they told us that someone might have hurt you or that maybe you had been runover by a car at some point and this hurt me so much to imagine. We got to hang out together through so much, and during hard times and good, you were always there with me. You came over to see me and lie down with my when I couldn't finish my grad work and put your soft little paw on top of my hand. You visited when I was so depressed I couldn't motivate myself to get up, when I became pregnant you slept beside me and after the babies were born you were kind to them. I think you felt how much I loved you and I felt like you understood me and loved me too. You had such a sweet, calming, beautiful soul and brought me so much joy every time I saw you. I hope that you had a happy life. I tried everything I could think of to make you comfortable, healthy and happy. I am sorry that we never got to have a fenced yard while you were here but I am glad that we decided to have you get to roam outdoors anyway as I am sure that it was a happier life for you than being indoors. Thank you for being my friend and part of our family for so long. My heart breaks that you aren't here anymore. I'm so sorry that you passed away from cancer. I did everything I could think of and would have done so much more to help you get better if there had been more treatment options.
Whenever the day starts again without you, I wonder how that can be-it always seem wrong. I will never forget you and will love you always. I know that if there is a heaven, you must be there
I hope I will see you again on the other side, Big J.