Hi Jake. I love you and miss you so much. I keep looking around for you thinking you are at my feet or going to meet me at the door when I get home. Last night I dreamed of you and dreamed that I was calling your name. I could hear you bark, but couldn't find you. I rolled over on my side thinking you would be there and you weren't. I know I still have Amber, and Sissy, Tara, Isadora, T.J. and Jack, but the house still is sooo empty with you. When I was in the grocery store today I was looking at items on a shelf and I thought of how much I looked forward to getting home to you even when I only went to the store for a few minutes. I had a huge lump in my throat and tears welled up in my eyes as I thought about you. I had to compose myself, but I think about you every minute. Driving home from work at night I couldn't wait to scoop you up and kiss you and snuggle you up. Although I will cuddle the other fur family members I won't have you. I will always remember when you stood at the kitchen doorway watching me go out the door and I would tell you every time I left that I would be back. I won't see those beautiful brown sparkling eyes looking up at me any more or the way you trotted at my heels every where I went through the house. I won't hear you snore any more or bark teasing for a bite of apple, banana or popcorn that we shared together. I thought I was going to be strong today, but really I knew better. Your whole being filled my heart. I feel like my heart has been yanked out of my chest. I know things will get better. Like I told you when I cuddled you that I would love you forever and ever and I will.|
12/31/12 Hi Jake, I love you. I feel your presence here at times. Want so much to cuddle you. Three months ago I was driving to work and along side the road were two men trying to capture a little dog that was loose but they were not successful. Seeing that they were having difficulty I pulled over and the little dog came running over to me and jumped into my arms. Since he wouldn't go with the two men who were trying to keep him from going into the busy highway. I put him in my car and he went to the passenger side seat and looked up at me the way you did the time I first picked you up from your former owners. He went to sleep and awoke when I arrived at the stray house. The stray house advertised the little guy, but no one claimed him so I took him. He is very affectionate. He is a rat terrier. I love him. Jake know that there is no dog that will ever take your place. Ever. I love you with all my heart and miss you. I just wanted to write this even though I tell you frequently that I love you and not to feel like another dog has taken your place. It is impossible for any dog to take your place. My love and kisses and hugs to you.