Heaven was only 6 weeks old when I got him. We have so many memories together that are very special. Heaven always thought he was a "little" human. He loved to be around people more than animals. He enjoyed attending parties at the Pet Hotel almost every month. He enjoyed the people more than the animals but that was his personality.|
Heaven loved to sleep in the bed. He had his own side of the bed. Initially Heaven slept at the top of my head like he was protecting me; my angel. My Father passed away 23 years ago and I believe Heaven was looking out for me; that's why he slept at the top of my head. He would get under the cover and sleep right in the center of my back. How he slept under the covers and didn't suffocate; I'll never understand. I would love to hear him snore! It was the funniest thing.
When Heaven was about 5 years old; he got out of the gate and was lost for about 6 hours. I was terrified. I went to almost every house in the subdivision and I remember knocking on the house in the front of the subdivision and Heaven came to the door. He jumped up in my arms. The young man stated that he saw him when he came home and invited the young fellow in until the morning hours and would find out where he belonged when the sun came up. Heaven had a name tag on with his address! That day; I had Heaven microchipped. That was a fear I never wanted to experience again.
Now I have a hole in my heart. I cry tears when I think of you being gone. You loved me unconditionally. I remember how you would lay on my lap when I didn't feel well. You were my best friend. This house is so lonely without you. I know you are not in pain anymore. God gave you to me for 14 years, now I must set you free to run around in Rainbow Bridge. Mommy misses you. It hurts to look at your pictures and toys but now you are an angel. I'll see you again. God will make sure of that. I love you Heaven. Have fun until we meet again and you jump in my arms.
Its been 8 days since you left and went to Rainbow Bridge. Mommy has visited the Guardian and made a few changes. I remember how you loved to take the toilet tissue from the bathroom and roll it through the house. You would have the audacity to try and look innocent!!! "Mommy, I didn't do that!" It was only the two of us in the house.
Yesterday, while in the store, I saw a lady with her dog. I lost it Heaven. He was a small dog like you but not the same breed. I think because that was the closest I had been to a dog since you passed; caught me off guard. A lump came in my throat and tears rolled down my eyes. I miss you my baby!! Have fun in Rainbow Bridge. I cannot be selfish; God wanted to release your pain.
03/05/18 It's been one month since you went to Rainbow Bridge. Mommy misses you dearly. I keep your blanket for you to sleep on when you come to visit. I knew you were here the day I picked up your ashes. It was so many strange things that happened that day prior to me getting the phone call to pick up your ashes. You are again behind my head. I wonder what you and Star talk about now. I know you watch over me daily. I love you baby!!!! Have fun in Rainbow Bridge.
My dear Heaven; it hasn't gotten any easier. I miss you every day I walk into this house. You might not have said anything but I knew you were here. You probably couldn't even hear me because I knew you were losing your hearing, but I knew you were here. I've had signs that you came back to visit; I really believe that. No one can replace you. I shall always cherious those memories. Let me know when it is time to get another dog. Mommy is lonely without you. I love and miss you; you'll never know how much!!!!
I hope you are having lots of fun. It's been very difficult without you. I know you are in no more pain and it is selfish of me to still want you here. I loved you so much and I miss you Heaven. The pain is so intense at times. God help me!!! There are times I feel that you are here in the house. I hear little noises that remind me of you. I truly loved you. Let me know when it is time for Mommy to share the love we had with another dog.