It will never be the same Gwen. I will miss when you nuzzled my leg when I came home from school, your "love bites", or trying to teach you how to play video games.

My parents still remember the night you came home from the pound. You'd just had kittens, and they'd very recently been weened, so you were ready to come home. As the years passed, we became very close. Even though I nearly tore your leg off and accidentally left you outside overnight, you were still special. I was always there to comfort you through your asthma fits, but on that fateful morning, it would never be the same.

Once I woke up, I heard my mom calling you. "mow Mow!" she said. You were laying under my mother's bed, and I was still in mine. When I got up, it was too late. My parents and older brother were all surrounding your lifeless body.

I hope that you don't cough all the time up in heaven, and tell me, how's Payton doing? Can he see me? How is he feeling about his still-living sisters and me, the daughter he never got to see? Does he enjoy gaming with you up in heaven? And tell me Gwen, are you having fun with Cheddar up in the sky?

I hope you know that even when he have a new kitten, one that looks just like you did when you were young, that we still love you. You stayed strong through so much, and in your final days, one of your favorite things to do was watch me game. It was a very rare thing to see you scratch or hiss. We always helped you stay alive, even when you were drooling all over yourself and barely able to breathe. Sometimes I wonder if I predicted your death. One day I said it'd be a shame if you died and then you did! It was so sudden that it still shakes me to my core

JUNE 12TH 2023: Hey Gwen! It's been a long time. Yes, Cheddar is STILL alive. We have a new cat now, her name is Persephone, and she doesn't particularly care for video games as much as you. Surprisingly doesn't look that much like you, she's black and white. I still miss you so much. We returned from vacation a few days ago and I visited this place called the Smoky Mountain Cat House. You would've loved it there. Lots of stuff for the average cat lover. Another 6 months before, we went shopping in Gatlinburg, I found a statue at a magic shop of a cat that looked just like you, it sits on my desk with me. I still miss you as much as always.

Sometimes I can still feel the pain of your lungs deflating as you died.

SEPTEMBER 7 2023: hey Gwen, Cheddar's with you now ;)
Augut 25, 2024: I'm sturggling a lot in life right now, Persephone and Frankie want to say hello to you :3 they're your siblings you never got to see, Frankie's the very first male cat we've adopted since I was born, we used to have a staunch no male pet rule in our house, but little Frankie proved us wrong, wit those sad little eyes (that needed a surgery). He's almost, but not quite as much of a wonderful cat as you were

P.S The song is Wherever You Will Go by The Calling, my dad would sing it with me when I was little and years later I'd tune into a radio station I love and sometimes I'd hear it