I missed you before you even left..|
Early this morning, I lost the most important thing in the world to me. He was more than a dog, more than a best friend. Our hearts and souls were intertwined and I will have a gaping hole in my heart for the rest of my life. I truly cannot imagine a life without him. I used to lay and cry thinking about this day even when he was a puppy. Every evening, all weekend, we'd spend all of our time together, side by side, attached at the hip, inseparable. I was completely content spending all of my free time with him, it will be hard knowing we can no longer do that. He was the sweetest, silliest puppy I've ever known. Always happy, always smiling. The biggest, laziest butterball. 100lbs of pure innocent sweetness, he didn't have 1 bad bone in his body. He loved having stuffed animals in his mouth, loved picking up a sock to greet you. He always knew when I was upset, he'd roll over onto me or put his head up on my knee and just fall asleep. He always needed someone with him, whether it was one of us or his brother Bear, he couldn't be alone. Something I'll always think back on is from 2 years ago, on a perfect sunny Spring day, I asked Greg how Gunner was doing and he said "great, he's chasing butterflies in the grass". Can you die from a broken heart? I'm not sure, but it feels like I could right now. I will love and miss him until the end of time.