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Memories of Gonzo
"for God's sake,let us sit upon the ground and tell sad stories of the death of kings"

"You were only a cat" I tell myself. But, you were so much more, there's an emptiness in my heart, that shall remain empty til we are reunited. I was 50, freshly divorced, and kind of wandering thru life when I found you.
You were only 12 weeks old when i pulled you from the alley, sick, and dying, surrounded by your already dead siblings, from the same respiratory disease. I was determined you would have a comfortable life in2 death & took you in. I became your life long protector that day. "6 months" was all the vet gave you, yet 6 months turned into 13 amazing years, Knowing that at any day, you could turn for the worse.

As a kitten, I had to coax you to eat, taking you to your food dish, and telling you what a "Good boy" you were, and watching you for a few moments. As you got older, You came and got me, and lead me you to your dish, and I still had to tell you that you were a "good boy", and you would eat, occasionally looking back to make sure I was there.. That was the ritual 4-5 times a day for 13 years. Sure it was a pain, at times, but, a good one.

You knew by command what not to do, and obeyed.. after 2 or 3 warnings. I miss your gentle pawing of my knee when you were hungry, that turned into a gentle bite on the hand when I ignored you, then came the hard slap on the arm that forewarned of a fit, if you didnt get your way,soon. I miss holding you, even tho you did not like being held. The few precious moments when you'd put your head on my shoulder b4 wanting back on solid ground. I miss you walking me to the door, and greeting me when I returned.

You were never more than 3 feet away, and God forbid a door should come between us. That was "unacceptable". You were a stickler for the routine, 6am mornings would be my wake up, you, pulling at the covers, purring loudly, on my lap while I had coffee, the sound of the can opener meant you were getting tuna water!! your favorite, tho you would not eat the tuna. At 11pm when it was bedtime, "OR ELSE" a running fit ensued. The day ended, a new one on the way.
When I had a stroke, and after much rehab, found that I could no longer play the drums, I tried to figure uses for them. The Bass drum was laid by my chair, your wool bed placed on top of it, and you were laying at a perfect petting height!. you mustv liked it, you spent enuff time there.

Then the day came that I had dreaded everyday,yet knew was inevitable, for 13 years. When you got sick, The vet gave me medicine you hated, but, I was determined. I watched for 3 weeks, devastated, as you broke the bond between us, staying away from me as much as possible. I knew the end was near. Thanksgiving day i spent with you, begging, pleading with you to live, yet, knowing that the next morning would be your last. I should've died of a stroke, 7 years before, so the Dr.s said, but, you wouldn't allow it. For the weeks I was bedfast, You were always there gently purring in my ear, giving me life. I could not do the same for you. This wasn't right. I am so sorry my baby boy. The next morning I took you to the vet, who eliminated your pain, but, added to mine. When I carried you in, a tech was waiting, and whisked you away from me, your goodbye was a confused, scared, pathetic yowl from another room, that tore me apart inside. A pain i have never felt b4.

Its been a week now, and I am still crying over you. For 65 years, I've been known as a hard, unemotional man. I've never been given to sentimentality. Family, friends, and pets, passing over the years, affected me little. I'd mourn for a day or so, and let it pass over me., yet, I cannot let go of you, my little buddy.

HOW YOU GOT YOUR NAME:
Of all the special souls memorialized here, there is only 1 "Gonzo",i didnt think it THAT odd . Ive only had 3 real pets in my life, all cats. I've never named a pet right away, rather, I let the name reflect the personality. You were called "KAT" for a few weeks, Then I got sum catnip for you. you rolled around for a bit and lay prone, as if really stoned.." wow! i said, laffing... "he's Gonzoed!" and the name stuck!


Its been 3 weeks since you left me little buddy. I walk thru an empty house, and absent mindedly call your name, (us "older" humans are kinda given to that sorta thing,i guess) expecting (hoping) to see you come running from another room. I sit in our favorite chair, remembering you standing, staring as I told you, "well, get up here". and you'd just sit and stare. Then I would say: "fine dont get up here, i dont want you up here anyway". Before I could complete the sentence, you were in my lap, purring, waiting for me to pet you. Our life together was full of these kind of "rituals" or games. I miss them all. I loved you as I have loved no other.

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