If only we had known the journey we would take in 2001 when you graced us with your love. You are the light of our lives and although deeply saddened we know you are free from all your pains to run free with all your cousins (Max, Sadie, Kuma, Lexxi, Koda and Daytona) until we meet again. We look forward to the day we will see you come running from across the hillside to greet us once again. Your kisses and forever long bear hugs will be long awaited. Our pain is deep and our loss great but without the pain we'd have never known the dance! A dance we would embark on again and again to hold you one more time. Throughout your life you showed tremendous strength at each challenge you faced, always coming out wagging your tail in the end. Today we experience the challenge of a lifetime and in the end we will come out stronger, gentler, better humans because of the life lessons you taught us. We love you to the moon and back baby!!!! |
My precious little boy,,, Almost a week has passed and still my heart aches as it did when I last said goodbye. Everywhere I look you are there, Every moment my eyes are closed I see you, I long to hear your bark one more time, your nails on the tile floor, your door open or simply one more of those awesome hugs you reserved only for me! I know your are here watching over me, protecting me and I know that in time we will meet again to run and play ball. For now I will grieve and in time will heal but know forever you will hold my heart in yours until we meet again. Garth Brooks wrote a song " if tomorrow never comes" I changes a few words to show how much you meant to me. If you ever wonder my dear sweet boy just give it a read and know that my love for you is stronger than ever!
Sometimes late at night
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
As I look out the window today looking at the snow in the backyard I know you are still with us. The trails around the yard there as if you were out on patrol. Its been nine weeks now and still I cry most days wishing you were with me. I look for ways to fill the void left in my heart but so far everything is to small to fill the hole created by our loss. I now wonder, although I know in time the pain will lessen, whether I'll ever find anything remotely to fill that void. You had a hold of such a big piece of my heart that I feel as though the grand canyon now exists in my heart. I know that you are healthy and loving the time with all your new friends and some of the old ones but what I wouldn't give to have you by my side even if only for a moment. All your cousins try to lick, hug, and give me love but there is no comparison. For me all it does is make me miss you all the more. My best buddy I miss you more today that i did a month ago. Until next time
Hey buddy it's Christmas and your not here to help me open Christmas presents. Destroying the wrapping paper was one of your favorite things. Who cares what's in it just give me the paper and box. You were always so adorable as you carefully picked it apart piece by piece until a masterful creation of paper was all that remained. Mom found a tiny piece of one of your cookies today by your door. Proof positive you are still here with us watching us, loving us, guarding us! We still miss you more than either of us can stand and wish we could be with you! Merry Christmas my little boy I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!
I still miss you so much! Your momma and I ache for the kisses, hugs, talking and everything you did that made us smile. I hope that you are doing well and still enjoying being able to run, jump, and play. Just wanted you to know that we still miss you and LOVE you to the moon and back!
Hey Baby! Today is your birthday! Happy birthday buddy! I hope you are up early for a little run and fun in the sun with all your friends and cousins! Followed by a little birthday cake and some ice cream. 🎂 Mommy and I still miss you every second of every day. We know you are with us in spirit but wish we could hold, kiss and smell you! Sending you all our love today and everyday!
Hey buddy today is Mar. 19, 2018. Oh where does the time go. Today I am paying bills and look over my shoulder to see if your there. God how i miss your hansom face staring up at me. We are doing okay learning to live again without you in our day to day lives. I still think of you daily, miss you daily, wish that I could have one more kiss and hug. I hope that you are well and still running and playing! I had a dream of you a couple weeks ago... It was so real to me that when I woke I burst into tears as the pain of realizing your gone came rushing back as if it was that first day. The warmth you brought to me in that moment though... oh how great it felt. I still love you today as much as ever. Ill talk to you later buddy