i miss you so much Flower, you were always so happy, loyal and stayed by me. You showed me what unconditional love feels like and my heart aches every day without you.|
I have lost custody of you to my (soon to be) ex-husband. I wish so much I had fought to keep you instead of letting you go so easily. My fate is easier because you are still alive and well, but my mother's heart is broken from not being able to care for you anymore. I did not realize then how painful it would be to lose you.
Follow-up. I was filled with joy to be able to spend one single day with you (19 hours). It was like a dream come true. I saw your happy little face as you gave me so many puppy kisses. You ran with joy at the dog park, and still knew all of your special tricks. I got to sleep and pet you by my side. I made your dog food just the way you like it, moistened with warm water like gravy soup.
I now cry as I count the minutes until you are taken away again. I am overwhelmed with grief even though you are still sleeping a few inches away. My tears flow and I cry because I now know why I have struggled so much in the past few months. Losing a baby girl as sweet as you is a devastating loss. Taking care of you and feeling your pure love has been what helped me cope with life's troubles. That is why I feel so empty and lost of hope now. You were the reason to carry on each day even though the burdens I carry are so many.
I don't know when I will next see you again, if ever, but I will always remember our one special day. I love my sweet baby Flower.