A very caring person sent this to us and I want to add it to Duchess's Memories.|
KEEP MY MEMORY
Keep my memory with you,
I will be there in the clouds,
You will feel me in the tenderness,
When your hearts are heavy,
As she got older, she was having issues with her hind legs, and it got to the point that we had to have a ramp for her to go down the steps on our deck. Thank goodness her front legs were still good. It was hard to take her for walks because she slowed down considerably. I did make sure she got a little exercise tho, even tho she was slow. We lost our precious little girl yesterday morning due to complications from fluid on her lungs, and we think she had congestive heart failure. She died on our bed, and we hugged her, pet her, kissed her and just loved her. Unconditionally, we loved her with all our hearts, and there is such a huge void in our lives right now. It's so hard to believe she's gone. Everywhere we go, we see her, remember her little face looking up at us and wondering when we're going bye-bye. We had her cremated and will be happy to have her back home tomorrow. Now, she's up in Rainbows Bridge with her sister, Gretchen, and cousin, Buster. I hope and pray she's happy and not afraid of things anymore. Sweet Dreams little Duchess. Mommy and Daddy miss you so terribly.
DEC 25, 2014 - Merry Christmas little Duchess - you can't imagine how sad and devastated we are without you on this special day. It's been almost a week now and we just can't get over the lose. We walk by your little bed all the time and bend down to love and kiss and pet you, knowing you're really not there. We just have to do what we can to keep you alive. We get up in the morning and go bye-bye to read the paper and take a walk just like we always did, so we take your little chest and bundle you up in it so you can go with us. And, of course, we take you with us for lunch too. This has been the worst time ever for us losing you like we did. We opened our presents this morning, but we didn't even care what was under the tree - we just wanted you there under the tree. I even had your little treats in your stocking ready for you, but they were still there. Mommy and Daddy can't hardly cope with you gone Duch - We're going to Cindy's and William's for Christmas this afternoon, and you will go with us. My precious little girl. Please come home to see us . We look and listen for a sign all the time since you've been gone. We love you so much, sweetie. Be with Gretchen and Buster and keep happy little girl. Mommy will be back soon to see you. HUGS, HUGS, KISSES, KISSES.
JAN 14, 2015 - Hi my little girl. Mommy just wanted to come and visit again. Daddy and I miss you so, so very much, it hurts. You know we've been seeing a couple little dogs to adopt the past couple weeks, only because we can't stand not having you around. We need a little companion just like we had you for almost 16 years. I prayed to God to give us a sign, we were so torn, and he helped us, along with your help, I know. The other day, we had a beautiful huge rainbow come over us, double rainbow, in fact. it was the sign we needed to see that you were watching over us and telling us you wanted us to be happy again and get another little dog to help us thru this. It's still so hard little girl, I can't believe you're gone, but we did make a decision yesterday, and got a very cute little Chi/terrier, just like you, only she has rusty colored hair. She's around 1-2 years old and we'll be adopting her tomorrow. I know it's only been almost a month to the day we lost you, but it was just about that time we got you after losing Gretchen back in 1999 - 1 month later. Now you know who Gretchen is after all these years of hearing her name, huh, sweetie. Our new little girl's name is Harlee. Won't change it because she's had it for awhile, and your sister, Cindy, and William like it because of their Harlee Rider. Now we have TWO Harlees. My blessed little Duchess, please don't think Mommy and Daddy have left you and won't ever think of you again - we will never do that, but Harlee reminds us of you, except except for the color and doesn't have the long fur you had. She really looks more like a Chihuahua than terrier, and you were just the opposite. But she's loveable like you and has some of the mannerisms you had. She doesn't like other dogs, like you didn't, but she is very friendly with people, and you were more shy. Doesn't make one bit of difference sweetie - Mommy and Daddy would much rather have you back in our lives than looking for another little girl. We still take you with us every morning out to read the paper, and when we go for lunch you're right there with us, tho sometimes we have to leave you in the car,but we always go to the same places to eat when you were here. Oh, little Duchess, Mommy just cries and cries for you. Please don't leave us forever - come back when Mommy calls your name , just to visit. We love you so much, little girl. It's going to take a long time to get past this, but I know it'll get easier some day. We love you, sweetie and will be back soon to tell you more about Harlee, but I know you'll be here to help her get adjusted to her new home. I have no doubt about that. Hugs, love and kisses to you from Mommy and Daddy, and your big sister, Cindy.
JAN 18, 2015 - Hi my sweetie pie. Mommy just back to update you on Harlee. She's been doing some piddeling around our house - thought she was supposed to be house trained, but maybe it's because she's just not used to the place quite yet. She does love to be held and follows Mommy and Daddy around everywhere. I caught her getting in your little bed yesterday, and laid right down beside you. I hope that's a sign you've approved of us having a new little dog with us. I didn't want her to sleep on your robe, but she seemed so content sleeping next to you. I had to get a picture of it. How are you adjusting up in Rainbow Bridge with all the other little animals and Gretchen and Buster? I'm still so afraid you're scared up there without your Mommy and Daddy being close by. I don't think that God lets any little furbaby sad and scared where you're at. Mommy waits for you to come back for a visit, Duchess. I keep talking to you so you won't be too far away. I love you so much. You know it was one month ago yesterday, (Saturday) that you left us so alone. It's so hard to believe you've been gone that long already. Well, Mommy is going to get some work done, so you be a good little girl and run as fast as you can, now that your little legs are all healed. Mommy had to carry you around so much because your walking was just so slow. Can't say that about Harlee - she's quite the little runner. Plus, she doesn't come to me very well when I call her, so I hope I can her to mind me better. Don't want her running off some where and not be able to catch her. I'll be back again to see you. XXXXOOOOOO
MARCH 11, 2015 - Hello my sweet little Duchess, how have you been? Your Mommy just misses you soooo much I can hardly stand it. I still cry for you every day and night. I don't know how I still have any tears left to cry. Today is the 16th anniversary of Gretchen's passing and I miss her too. Do you know I forgot to wish you a Happy Birthday Feb 14th? My sweet little valentine doggie. Mommy isn't thinking very well anymore. I guess I just can't stand having you gone from us and that's all that's on my mind. We picked you up a month after Gretchen died and still can remember that wonderful day you came into our lives. Daddy remembers you looking up at him while he was holding you in the car, and you were just the sweetest little puppy. You grew to be a wonderful pet for us, Duch. I still think your little spirit is with us. I talk to you all the time and when we go out for our walks in the morning and read the paper, I take you along so you can still go bye-bye with us. Harlee often wonders what that little box is and why I'm talking to it, just like you did when we had you and I would talk to Gretchen and Buster. Now you know, don't you sweetie. Harlee is doing much better at going potty outside now, so I think I have that taken care of, but she still doesn't come to me when I call her. She's too busy sniffing around outside. Hope she learns soon to come, don't want her to get away and we can't catch her. You always stayed right by me all the time - I know you were afraid of losing us. Well, my little girl, Mommy will be back again soon to talk to you and you be a good little girl and run with Gretchen and Buster. Your little legs are all better again, so you can just enjoy romping around like you used to. I love you so much Duch. XXXXX00000000, Daddy loves you too and he has pictures of you in the den and talks to you. I hope you know that.
APRIL, 27, 2015 - Hi Little Duchess - my sweet little girl - how your Mommy misses you. Every day I cry still for you, and today is a bad day, don't know why. I see you everywhere little girl and don't know what to do. Don't take you out for lunch every day that we go, but I try to take you at least 3 or 4 times a week. It's so lonesome with having you around in the car and out for lunch. What's my little girl doing today? Hope part of your little spirit is with us at home. Harlee is wondering why I cry so much and when she hears me sobbing and talking to you, she runs in up in my lap and licks my tears away. She's a sweetie, but she's not you. I don't know how to deal with your loss sometimes. But I talk to you all the time, and it makes me feel you're around us. I don't want to lose your little spirit. My heart aches for you all the time - some times it's not too bad, but other times I can't quit crying for you and today is one of them. I know in time I'll get past the grieving just like I did with Gretchen and Buster, but you were so special because you were with Mommy and Daddy day in and day out, no matter where we were - we always had you with us. If we go on a trip, it's just not going to be the same without my sweet girl laying in my lap. Harlee loves to go by-by too, but she can't calm down and lay in our laps like you did. She just wants to look out the window with me holding her, and that's okay, but it's hard for Mommy to drive sometimes like that. Well, my precious little girl, Mommy will be back to talk to you again soon. But you already know that I talk to you everyday at home and pick you up with love and kisses. Even have your robe down on the floor in the morning while I'm getting ready for the day, just like I did before. Harlee comes in and sleeps on it like you did, but I think the other half is for you. She never takes up the whole robe. Maybe she senses you're spirit is there. I love you so much my little girl. Come home, please! OOOOOXXXXXXX
JUNE 20, 2015 - My precious little Duchess - it's been exactly 6 months ago today you left us so alone and heartbroken. Mommy cries for you so much - I know it will get better in time, but for now I just miss your little face, kissing your little head every morning. Wish you were still with us, Duch - having a hard time adjusting to little Harlee. She's just more of an independent doggie and does what she wants. You were so different. How are you doing little girl? Do you still feel your Mommy and Daddy close by? I have your little box and picture in your bed on your blanket in the front room. Can't put you away. It'll come eventually, but in the meantime, please know how much I love and miss you every single day. I so want you back even if it is in spirit. Just want to know you're close by and will always be here. I knew eventually we'd have to deal with this, but just couldn't come to terms with it. I love you so much, my little precious Duchess. Run, run, and have a wonderful life with Gretchen and Buster. It's been so many years you couldn't use your little hind legs to do what you wanted, but now you can, so Mommy doesn't want to take that from you. Just remember to run back to see us once in awhile, like every day. My sweet Duchess. I love you and always will. Hugs and kisses til I see you again.
OCTOBER 30, 2015 - Hello my precious Duchess - Mommy still misses you so very very much. Some days are worse than others, and I just wish you were here to give me licks. I keep your little box in your bed in the front room, and Duchess gets in and lays beside you. Some times I feel your little spirit is in her or at least beside her, so I can feel you too. We almost lost her yesterday = she ran off wanting to check new places out, and I couldn't find her. I called and called and finally she came running around the corner of a building. We were so scared we'd never see her again. I gave her a good little pat on the butt - she probably didn't even realize why I was upset with her. You would have never done that - you always stayed right by my side. We have to have a leash on her at all times when we're out in the front or at lunch. Can't trust her. My little girl, are you happy and do you play with Gretchen and Buster? I hope so, because I don't want you to be sad. Your Mommy's sad enough for both of us. Some days I just cry and cry for you. Mommy talks to you all the time and I hope you can hear me. It just makes me feel closer to you. Well, little girl, Mommy's going to close for now, but I'll be back - Thanksgiving and Christmas will be here soon, and that's really going to make me sad. It's so hard to believe you have left us almost a year ago now. Christmas just won't be the same. I hope Harlee will open up gifts like you, Gretchen and Buster always did. I love you with all my heart, little one. XXXXXXXOOOOOOOO
DECEMBER20, 2015 - My precious little girl, it's been a year today that you left your Mommy and Daddy, and it's so hard to believe you've been gone that long. That morning was so devastating for us. I think back now, I should never have let you go the way you did. I just wanted you to be home and die peacefully with our love around you. Instead you had to fight to breathe and you shouldn't have had to deal with that. My little "Muchkin", as Cindy would call you, Mommy talks to you all the time and we still take you places with us once in awhile. It's been so cold here lately, I don't like to get your little chest out in the cold even tho you have your blanket wrapped around you. Harlee senses when I'm sad and crying for you, and some times when I start to talk to you, she comes right up and gives me licks, just like maybe your little spirit is with her telling me you're okay and are close by us. I do want to believe that.
Christmas is just a week away, and I have your little stocking up along with Gretchen, Buster and Harlee. I'll still put a little milk bone in your sock, hoping you sense that. You loved your little milk bones Mommy made for you. Oh, I have to tell you, that Harlee does the same thing for her breakfast as you used to. She just doesn't want to come and eat, and I have to either pick her up and carry her to her food, or just leave her alone, and eventually she will go eat. She's just like you were at eating your breakfast. She does look forward to dinner, tho. Well, precious, Mommy will be back at Christmas to give you a big hug and kiss. But I do that all the time anyway. I love you very much little girl - just miss you so much. Mommy.
DECEMBER 25, 2015 - Merry Christmas my little girl. I hope you're having a good Christmas with all your little furry friends, but most of all I wish you were here with Mommy, Daddy and Harlee. Last night was so sad without you here to watch you open up your gifts. Harlee just didn't know what to do with her wrapped toys. She didn't dig in trying to get the paper away from her squeak toys, like you, Gretchen and Buster did. Of course, she may not have ever had a toy to open up before we adopted her. Mommy didn't put any treats in your stocking this year. I just knew you wouldn't be here to beg for it. Last year, I did but it was still there the next morning. Well, my little precious girl, Mommy and Daddy will be back to talk to you again soon but I talk to you all the time. I know you must hear me and see how sad and depressed I am without you. I love you very much. XXXXXXX0000000
FEBRUARY 14, 2016 - My precious little Duchess, Mommy and Daddy wish you a Happy Valentine's Day and Birthday. You should still be here to celebrate your 17th birthday. Mommy cries for you each and every day, sweetie. I just can't get past losing you. I hope you're happy in Heaven with Gretchen and Buster. Do you know that Mommy still takes your little box with us when we go for lunch, or for a walk in the morning? I hope you can feel that. Maybe your little spirit is walking with Harlee and me. I hope so, even tho you didn't care for walks, your little legs are all well again and you can run, walk or jump around like you did when you were younger. Mommy will be back to see you again soon, sweetie.I love you. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN. Hugs and kisses
MARCH 11, 2016 - Hello little Duchess. Mommy just came to visit a little bit. I still cry every day for you little girl - can't help it. I just miss you so much. Harlee is a sweet little girl and so loveable, some times I just pretend I'm holding you when I hold her. She licks my tears when she knows I'm crying. I hope you're close by, even tho I know you have to be with all the other little fur babies up in heaven. I know Gretchen and Buster takes care of you, and keeps you from being afraid. That's my worst fear - you were always afraid of being out of our sight. Always my little shadow, just like Gretchen was. Well, precious, Mommy will be back again soon to visit you. I love you so much. XXX000
NOVEMBER 5, 2016 - We strolled the lane together
Duchess, this song makes me cry for you every time I hear it on the radio. Mommy can't seem to get over the fact your gone from me, so in my memory, we'll always be together! I love you my sweet precious girl. Almost 2 years now that you left your Mommy and Daddy. Where has the time gone to. I'll be back to see you very soon my little girl. I love you!! XXXOOO
DEC 20,2016 - My precious little girl, it doesn't seem possible,but you have been gone from us two years today. I still cry for you every day. You are always in my thoughts, and when I do cry, Harlee comes up to kiss the tears away, as tho it may be your little spirit saying, "it's okay Mommy, I'm right here with you and Daddy". I hope you'll be home at Christmas. I'm lost without kissing your little head and rubbing that little behind of yours. Mommy will be back on Christmas. I love and miss you more than you'll ever know, little girl.
DECEMBER 25, 2016 - Merry Christmas my precious little Duchess. I hope you're having a wonderful day with Gretchen and Buster. Mommy and Daddy spending Christmas Eve and Christmas Day alone. Cindy and William got snowed in at their house, so they're coming over Monday to celebrate Christmas. I wish you were here to help Harlee unwrap her gift. She just doesn't do it like you, Gretchen, and Buster. She hasn't done it that much, so hopefully as the years go by, she'll know just how to dig into the paper. Christmas just isn't the same with you gone. I think of you so much, and cry every day for you, even after two years. I hope you come home to see Mommy and Daddy sometimes, but really I wish you were with us EVERY day. Be a good little girl and Mommy will be back to see you soon. I love you so much, my precious girl. XXX000
FEBRUARY 14, 2017 - Happy Birthday my precious little Duchess. If you still would be with us, you'd be 18 years young! How we miss you sweetheart. I hope you're a very happy little girl on Valentine's day. You are our little Valentine! Little Harlee still comes and lays next to you on your bed. It's as tho she feels you close by. I hope so - I hate to think I'll never see you again. But just like this song, we will be together again. Mommy and Daddy love you so much, but I think I love you a little more, because Daddy is so happy having Harlee in our lives now. We say the same things to her that we did you, so I think he feels the closeness to you that way. You be a sweet little girl like you always were, and Mommy will be back again to see you. I talk to you everyday, so I hope you hear me. Sweet Valentine kisses to you, precious Valentine! XXXXXXX
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