September 1999, I worked at a Drive In root beer stand. Shortly before closing, a man came up to some of us and asked if we wanted a free kitten. Everyone said no, and he said "Too bad, your getting one anyways" and left a little kitten in the parking lot. She couldn't have been more than 7 or 8 weeks old. She was white and gray, but sadly was not well cared for. She was so infested with fleas that she had black patches where her fur was white. The owner of the restaurant took her in, and called an adoption agency to put her in their care. They had her dipped for fleas, treated for worms, first set of shots, and nursed her back to health. The owner kept her 'temporarily' until a permanent home could be found for her. Everyday at work, instead of eating lunch or taking smoke breaks, I played with this adorable little kitten. An immediate bond was formed between the two of us, I actually looked forward to going to work so that I could play with the kitten. Then one day, the owner said that a family was found, and she would be going home with them that night. While I was thrilled for her, I was heartbroken for myself. So that day, I took a longer break than normal because I knew it would be the last time I got to play with her. I didn't want to leave work that day, and when I did, I left with tears in my eyes (just like the ones I have now remember this story, ad I have not thought about it until she passed yesterday). I got home, and my husband (at the time, fiance) asked me what was wrong. I busted into tears and told him that the kitten was going to a new home. He says "I'm sure the person who is taking her in will love her just as much as you do, she will be in good hands". After he calmed me down, he asked if we could eat dinner where we worked, I reluctantly agreed. After we finished our meal, my husband went inside the restaurant saying he needed to get something (he worked there to). A few minutes later, he and the owner of the restaurant came out with the kitten. The family that adopted her was us! I was so happy! I think she was to:) I did have to give her back to the boss, because she said that the agency wouldn't release her to us until we got our male cat fixed, which she paid for so that I could take the kitten home. A few days later, she officially became my child..I've always referred to her as my baby before babies. |
I'm glad I wrote this story out, because it made me think of her fondly. This was one of the warmest feelings I had ever known, and it is helping during one of the most painful, as she just passed yesterday. I believe she had a stroke sometime between my husband leaving for work and me waking up to get ready for work. Before I left, I pet her, kissed her and through sobs, told her it was ok to close her eyes and go to sleep. My mom was with her when she passed 2 hours later. I'm thankful she didn't suffer. I love her so..She will always be the one true friend that loved me unconditionally no matter what. I will truly miss her more than words could express.
Sunday, June 10, 2012-I graduated college yesterday. I started back around the time I got you. This past year I made myself go full time to finally finish it. You always managed to find a way to sit on my books or laptop (even though it aggravated me a little, if I had only known then...) but what I am getting at is, yesterday as I sat in my black robe, I looked down at my lap. I had a straight white thick hair there! You were there with me, I know you were..It was impossible for that hair to get there before yesterday, because my robe was hanging in the closet wrapped in plastic, and I didn't put it on until right before walking out the door..It made me smile, and I thank you for it...I really needed it because these last few days are the hardest that I have ever gone through...I love you Dixie, and miss you more than you could ever know, baby
Tuesday, June 12, 2012-Hello my Dixie-Kitty! I just wanted to let you know that I am going to be getting flowers to plant on your grave today. I am also going to order a yellow butterfly bush to plant there as well. I think yellow is a fitting color, because 1)it is a bright and happy color 2)it is the representing color of true and enduring friendship. This way, when I visit your gravesite, I can enjoy beauty and life instead of mourning your death. You can help our plants grow big and beautiful. Butterflies, bees and hummingbirds will visit frequently, which will also bring happiness to me. Sasha-poofy has been missing you as well, she has been carrying her toy squirrel around and crying/whining, which is really out of character for her. She had to be inside the house yesterday all alone for the first time ever. I don't think she liked it very much, I felt really bad for her..I am still missing you something fierce, Dixie-Kitty. I am able to cry without getting hysterical or hyperventilating, but I am still crying for you. I still can't sit on our spot on the couch because I still expect you to jump in my lap..Daddy misses you to, even though he hasn't come out and said it, I know he does. He cried for you when we laid you to rest, and I have only seen him cry a handful of times in the 16 years he and I have been together. I miss you giving him the stink eye when he made me mad, now I have to give him my own stink eye, but it's not the same. I haven't had to give it to him yet, because he has been very compassionate in not upsetting me. I better get back to work, baby..I just wanted to let you know that I love you and miss you..Blessed Be, Dixie-Kitty.
Thursday, June 14, 2012-Good morning, Dixie-kitty. It has been a week today that I last pet you, kissed the top of your little head, and told you it was ok to close your eyes and go. When I woke up this morning, I felt like it was playing out all over again. I looked where you laid, and died. I bawled, I bawled so hard..I have been ok the past few days, but today I'm in tears and they haven't stopped falling. I saw your step-brother, Lynyrd at grandma's yesterday. I think he knew I needed a little affection, because he let me pet him, which we both know is pretty rare. I haven't been able to put flowers in the ground for you yet, I haven't found any that stand out to me. I guess that's the downside to being a perfectionist, especially when it concerns my baby. I would give 10 years of my own life to have had one more with you. I wish I could go back in time, and just let you sit on my lap all Wednesday night, I would never have gotten up to go to bed. I would have stayed there with you. I wish I had known. I don't think that would have prevented you from going, but I would have had that last lap time. I miss you and love you more than any words could ever say, I hope you know that. I hope you have adjusted well, and made new furfriends. I love you Dixie-kitty:'(
Monday, June 18, 2012-Hello my sweet Dixie-Kitty...I have had a pretty busy weekend. I think there have been some incarnations of you visiting me to. Friday night, I saw a white cat, that had some gray markings on (what I think is a her) tail, and a few patches..She was mostly white, but her body frame and the shape of her face was so much like you! I bent down to pet her, but she was skittish. She acted like she wanted me to pet her, but she was unsure..She ended up trotting away, but I couldn't help but think, "was that you, trying to see me?"
I also finally planted the memorial garden on your grave. It looks so much prettier now, not just a piece of land with recently-moved dirt..It has life, color, beauty..It is so much easier to look at now. I found the perfect garden stone to, it says "Planted as a Living Memorial" which is exactly what it is. All that I need to do is plant the butterfly bush (which will have to wait a few days, because of the storms that moved through) and get a personalized stone for you (that will take a while to, because they are a bit expensive, so I am putting money back here and there for it). I left the spot that I am putting your butterfly bush bare, and I swear I could see you sitting there, like you would when you found a nice sunny spot from the window coming through on the living room floor. Just smiling and snoozing away like the happy kitty you were/are. I also had a white butterfly that would constantly flutter around me as I did the planting. I think that was an incarnation of you to. You know how much I love butterflies, and how seeing them makes me smile. But that little butterfly just hung out with me the entire time, kind of like you would whenever I did something around the house. For the first time since I buried you, I was able to smile when I was at your graveside. I think your garden turned out absolutely beautiful, and will continue to be more beautiful with each passing year. That will help me from being so sad as time moves on. Please don't think I have gotten over you, because I haven't, nor do I think I ever could. I still miss you so terribly. I still can't sit on our spot on the couch, and I still tear up when I get ready for work, because my company isn't there, at least in her earthly form. I still wish I could turn back the hands of time to the Wednesday night before. I would never have got up to go to bed. You would still be sitting in my lap. It just wasnt' meant to be Dixie-Kitty, maybe you knew that, and I wish I did. But nothing can change that now..I am planning on starting a photo album for you, hopefully this week. I am on a mission to find your pictures. I know I only have a few, but I want to share you with the world. I want them all to see the beautiful cat you are, and to see the happiness and love you gave me. I hope you like your garden, and will visit me when I visit you..You are welcome to come to me anytime...I love you, Dixie-Kitty <3 :)
Friday June 22, 2012-Good morning my sweet Dixie-Kitty. Yesterday was two weeks to the day. I am starting to hate Thursdays. I miss you terribly. I have good days, and I have bad. I am thinking about letting Prancer "aka Fatboy" live with us. He and Tehya have got so attached, it is so funny to watch them. I think it would be nice to have a cat in the house again, but I don't know if I want one for myself. I miss you so much. I enjoy going to my mom and dad's, cause I get to see kittens (who are so cute, and one acted like he wanted to play)They were purring so loud, I haven't heard a purr in what seems like eternity. Lynyrd's sores on his neck are looking good, mom has been putting baby oil on them. Tux is doing good to. I enjoy petting them, because I don't have you to pet anymore. I would give anything to have you sitting on my lap again. Your garden is all planted, but the daisies aren't looking so good. I don't know if it's the drought or heatwave, maybe both. I'll keep watering it, hopefully it'll get to looking pretty again. All the other flowers are looking nice, and your butterfly bush is in place. Help it grow big and beautiful with lots of blooms (maybe won't see blooms til next year, but we'll see). I think about you all the time, and I miss you so much. I love you Dixie-Kitty.
Tuesday June 26, 2012-Good morning my beautiful Dixie-Kitty! I noticed that as I watered the flowers on your grave this morning, that one of the ground cover plants has a flower blooming, I didn't realize that they would have flowers. I thought it was just a nice soft looking plant to cover the ground, but yellow flowers are even better! The Red Yarrow is blooming to, and the butterfly bush has already doubled in size! What beauty it is! I am sure that you have noticed that we had 2 new additions yesterday, Chrono and Trigger. Daddy brought them home thinking that it will help my grieving process. I don't know about all of that, but he also said that they were about to be doomed to a shelter (and we know what that really means) and daddy didn't have the heart to pick one over the other, so now we have two. They are so adorable. As cute as they are, they are not you. You are still my baby girl. I still wish you were here, I miss you so much. Please don't be upset or angry with me as I could never replace my Dixie-Kitty. I found an old picture of you and Autumn when she was about 10 months old, which means you were about 2 1/2-3 years old. It is a cute and funny picture. It brings smiles to my face. I brought it to work with me, and put it in a frame. I miss you so much. Even with the new boys, I still can't sit in our spot. I held one of them in my lap yesterday and I lost it. He just sat there though, and went to sleep on me. I still wish you were here to sit on my lap. I love you Dixie-Kitty<3
Thursday July 5, 2012-Hello my sweet girl. Today has been 4 weeks since you made your journey. In some ways it feels like forever ago since I last had you sitting on my lap, or sleeping across my chest and in others it feel like just yesterday. I know you were with me in the kitchen the other day. I looked down at the sunspot coming through the window, and it seemed unusually bright, but it had a calm, warm feeling. The boys (double trouble as I like to call them) were in the kitchen with me, playing and whatnot but then suddenly stopped and came over to that sunspot. They started sniffing around, like they could smell someone there. That confirmed what I felt, you were there like you always were as I cooked supper. It made me cry, and the tears fell like a water faucet left running. But I think you were there to reinforce that you were still with me, and you are still my baby girl. You have nothing to worry about, because although I don't cry as much or as hard, I still miss you terribly and would have done anything to keep you alive. The boys are helping me cope, they make me laugh a lot. They are funny Dixie, you would just sit there with me and watch them, probably wondering "wtf are they doing anyways?" Oh Dixie-Kitty, I miss you so much..But I am so glad you came to me, even if only for a moment. I'm also glad you rode home with me the other night during that hurricane/tornado-like storm. I was scared, and while I miss you so much, I really don't want to rush our reunion! Thank you for riding with me, even if I didn't see or sense you. I know you watched over. I keep watering your flowers because it has been so hot and dry. One plant isn't looking too good, but it isn't dead yet. I'll keep taking care of it the best I can. They sure are looking pretty. I can't wait until next Spring when Corey moves the privacy fence so the neighbor can't bother you (or me) and I can get a nice bench so I can sit out there more..I love you Dixie-Kitty<3
Tuesday, August 7, 2012: Good evening Dixie Kitty..I hope that you know that even though it has been a long time since I wrote in here, I still visit every day. I still think about you all the time...I finally cleaned out that old pantry shelf in the kitchen that you used to like sitting in...I swear I found enough of your hair in the corner that I could have made a kitten-sized clone of you (not that the idea sounded too bad). I cried for you. It was the first time in a while that I cried like that. Your garden has gotten so large and beautiful. The butterfly bush has lots of pale yellow flowers on it now, and there was a little white butterfly on it when I visited you this evening. It's been 2 months since you left this world for the higher plane...You are still very much missed, sweetie. The boys are getting big, and I swear Trigger reminds me so much of you sometimes...I have a bathroom buddy again (although he tends to get into stuff, whereas you just sat there with me). I think Chrono is trying to say hello, as he keeps jumping up here. I hope you visit me sometime, you are always welcome anytime...Tehya showed me a lot of pictures that she took of you on her DS, and she made you into a pirate in one of them...Boy did the look you give her make it that much more believable...It made us laugh and smile as we remembered you...Always be with me, Dixie Kitty..I love you
Friday, September 7, 2012: Oh baby girl, it has already been 3 long months since you made your journey. There is still not a day that goes by that I don't think of you...In fact, here the past few days, I have thought very much about you, and at times I cry. Your butterfly bush has gotten so large that it has overtaken the entire garden (and killed some of the ground cover...but that's ok, I can replant it next year). There hasn't been as many blooms, but I think that's because of the drought. Tehya visits you almost every day, and she has dreams about you. I think you are visiting her, and have finally warmed up to my human children (after 11 and 8 years, it's about time baby! lol). I still think of you when I see white butterflies. I finally decided to change my facebook profile pic, it only took me until a couple of weeks ago, but you're still my wall paper on my phone. I don't think that will ever change, at least as long as I have that phone. Sasha got into a fight with a skunk (or was that you disguised just to mess with her?) and well, stunk the place up a bit. She got shaved yesterday (and I am sure your snikcering at her from the great beyond). The boys are huge now, I just told daddy the other day I think they are bigger than you ever were. You were kind of small and petite anyways. Even so, I am sure you would have no problem showing them who head kitty is:) Trigger seems to think Sasha is his mommy, it is so cute and funny...He reminds me of you so much, he kinda looks like you, sits like you, smiles like you and is constantly around me like you used to be...He wakes me up in the wee hours every morning crying because he wants me to pet him. So when I do, he starts purring, lays by me and leaves me alone..I swear it's like you have inhabited his body..That's ok, it has helped me heal so much...But remember, you are always my first. You are my Dixie-Kitty and I still love you and miss you more than words can say..Blessed Be!
Monday, Oct. 1, 2012: It's hard to believe almost 4 months have passed by without you sitting on the couch waiting for me to sit down...I don't know if it's all the death and sadness going on, change of seasons, or what but the last week or so has been tough...I think about you more often than I already do, and I bawl my eyes out...I was watching the video I have of you on my phone over and over...I redecorated your Residency to match the Autumn season that has moved in. I know you don't eat cake (or at least I don't remember ever seeing you eat it) but I did put one out for you. I know it's not your birthday (that was August/September) but I got you in October, so I guess it's more of an anniversary cake. Maybe that's just adding to my sadness because I don't even care to celebrate Sweetest Day anymore, because I will never get as awesome of a gift as I did when daddy got you for me...I guess the mama cat that hangs out at my mom's had another litter...One looks a lot like you (and of course they had to name her Whistling Dixie)..I miss you and love you so much baby girl:'(
Thursday, Oct. 18, 2012: Hi Dixie-Kitty! Did you notice the new addition to your residency? Ginny, the lady that founded this website listened to my suggestion for adding a flag that can represent the Pagan/Wiccan community and now we have one baby girl!! I am sure it will make us all proud:) I am sure you also know that Sweetest Day is fast approaching, I asked daddy not to get me anything...Not that I really liked the "Hallmark Holiday" anyways, but now I think of you and it only breaks my heart...I still miss you so much my baby girl..Blessed Be!
Friday, Oct. 26, 2012: Hello baby girl. I visited your grave the other day. I come to realize I have a lot of weeding to do in the spring! I can't believe how your butterfly bush continues to grow so large, it is taller than me now! It still has a few sweet smelling blooms on it to. I though about you so much over the weekend, as it was Sweetest Day and that's when I got you in 1999. I've just got over a pretty bad flu bug this week. It made me sad that you weren't around to sit by me, you always seemed to know when I wasn't feeling good. I sure do miss you Dixie-Kitty. I hope the weather will hold up so I can honor your memory in a Samhain bonfire. Either way, I will tribute your memory, it will just be better if I have a bonfire to do so, if not candle light works to. I hope to see or feel you that day, I need your presence a lot these days...I miss and love you so much :') <3
Thursday November 8, 2012: Hi Dixie-Kitty! Mommy is going to ask a favor of you. I had a very good friend that had to put her fur baby down today, and I know she is very sad. It made me cry every time I thought about it over the past few days because I know the pain she is feeling today. It opened up wounds that I still have from losing you. My favor is that you look out for a long haired black cat, his name is Zeus. He is a very pretty kitty, please welcome him to the Bridge, so he is not alone. I know it will make my dear friend and myself feel better. It also came to me that you have been gone for 5 months now. It seems so long. It is starting to get cold, and that thought bothers me. I know how much you don't like the cold, because you had a skin condition that gave you bald patches on your back (probably from the neglect you experienced in your first couple of weeks of life). I am so glad I took you in, and gave you a happy home and love while you were here. I wish you still were, but that is selfish of me. I knew your time was coming, because you were getting thin and sick and started to have twitches/mini-seizures. I miss you baby. Please look after Zeus. You are a sweet baby, even though I know you are territorial. He just needs someone there for him, so he isn't scared or alone. I love you and visit you every day. Blessed be baby girl...
Thursday November 29, 2012: Hi Dixie. The girls and I put up the holiday decorations and tree. It slipped my mind how you always loved laying on the tree skirt, until I put it around the tree. There was all kinds of Dixie-Kitty hair on it where you always laid, and I made sure to turn it just right so you are beside me when I am sitting on the couch. It made me happy and sad at the same time. I enjoy the physical reminders I find here and there, even if they do break my heart because you are not there physically anymore. You are very much in my heart all the time. I also miss that you never got into the tree, unlike your adopted "double trouble" brothers. Chrono is really bad about it, I find the garland strung out on the floor about every morning, and my tree is taking a beating. Would you do me a favor and spook him a little so he will stop? I love the little guys, but I am not loving them destroying my tree! I also read the letter that Tehya wrote to Santa, and I bawled my eyes out. The very first sentenced said "Dear Santa, this is my mommy's first Christmas without Dixie, and that makes her really sad. Please make sure she has a extra special Christmas". I will put it on your residency tomorrow. She says she sees you all the time. I am glad that you visit her. I changed up your residency a little, please don't eat the holly, it's bad for kitties, but very pretty. I left you a blanket cause it is getting cold out, and I know you didn't like the cold. I would keep you warm forever if I could. You are getting lots of visitors these days and that makes me feel good. Your yellow yarrow flowers are still blooming, which is amazing. They are supposed to be the plant of the After-life, maybe that is why they are continuing to bloom so much. I am sure they won't for long thought we have had a couple of hard frosts now, and it's snowed once or twice. I am sure you are hating that, and I don't like that thought either...I miss and love you so much.
Thursday, December 27 2012: Another Yule/Winter Solstice has come and gone...I still miss you as much as the day you made your journey Dixie-Kitty. I didn't have you there to help me wrap gifts, but Chrono was more than willing to accomodate (to my annoyance). But it was so strange how he was all lovey-dovey that night and even wanted to snuggle with me. I think he caught your spirit or something, because he never wants anything to do with me but that night he was very affectionate with me. Or maybe he sensed my sadness because it was heartbreaking to see your hair on the tree skirt, knowing you loved to lay on it. I also realized I need to find the other few pictures I have of you. I wish I could find the one that I love so much, with you sitting on my lap. I am sorry that your grave has a foot of snow on it, I am sure you don't like it (and neither do I!) But maybe it will help the flowers bloom beautiful for us in the Spring. The boys don't sit and snuggle on my lap like you did, and I miss that so much...I love you...
Wednesday, February 6, 2013: It has been too long since I wrote in here. I visit you every day. We have had a lot of snow, Dixie-Kitty. I know I haven't visited your graveside as much as I would like to. But I know you see Tehya going over there everyday. She has even been writing messages for you on your graveside in the snow. Tomorrow is going to mark 8 months since your passing, before I know it, it will be a year. I hate thinking about that. I still love and miss you so much, baby girl. Lynyrd isn't looking so hot these days, and grandma (my mom) asked me what I wanted to do with his body when that time came (which we hope is no time soon). I told her to bury him at her house, as he never made a "home" at our home, and he is more her cat than mine. I don't think you are ever alone out there, as I said, Tehya visits you everyday, and I do when it's not snowy or muddy out. I was cleaning photos out of my phone the other day and watched the video of you playing with daddy's shirt. I cried and laughed at the same time, because it is so funny, but sad because you aren't here anymore...The boys don't sit on my lap like you did. Chrono did lay on my hip the other day when I was laying on the couch not feeling well. He has been a lot more friendly/lovey recently, especially with Autumn. I just wanted to drop a few lines to you letting you know that I love and miss you, and you certainly are not forgotten. Even if it has been a while since I posted in here. I love you, Dixie-Kitty...Blessed Be!
Monday, April 22, 2013: Good afternoon my sweet Dixie-Kitty! It is starting to get warm out, and the perennial plants I planted on your grave are starting to bloom! I can't wait to see what beautiful flowers I will see this season when I visit you! I will have to add a few annuals, but that's something I will worry about in a few weeks. I have been going for walks on my lunch breaks across the road from my office. There's a lovely walking path there, and today I saw little white butterflies. They made me think of you, maybe you were walking with me as those butterflies seemed to follow me. I am sure you have noticed the rock collection that you are acquiring, thanks to Tehya. She likes to leave love notes on them for you. I think about you everyday, and tears still fall. I love and miss you so much!
Friday June 7, 2013: It's been one year today sweetheart. It was about this time a year ago, grandma texted me to let me know you passed on. I have been crying on and off today. It pains me so much that you are not hear anymore, but I am glad that you didn't suffer, at least I hope you didn't. It's been a year since I had you sitting on my lap while I watched tv. It was a bit of an annoyance when I was trying to do homework or finish up my final exams, but I wish I knew that our time was so limited then. I would have put that stuff off. I would have given 10 years of my own life to have you for one more...I just want you to know that there isn't a day that goes by that you aren't on my mind. I think of you often, especially on my lunchtime walks. I see so many little white butterflies and they remind me that you are with me in spirit...I love you baby, my Dixie-Kitty!
Friday, July 26, 2013: Hey baby, I told Tehya that I would tell you to be on the lookout for a Monarch butterfly that she tried to save. But I am asking for you to look out for her hermit crab, Gigi. She died while Tehya was camping with her grandparents. I haven't seen her to tell her, but I know as much as she loves animals, she is going to be devastated. She still visits you everyday, and she asked for the butterfly to be buried with you. We will bury Gigi there to. We love you sweet baby girl. I miss you so much. Your butterfly bush has gotten so tall and smells so pretty. The yarrow has pretty much taken over your memorial garden, but that is good, because you don't have any bare spots on your grave. Watch over Tehya's animal friends that passed, I know that will bring her some comfort knowing you are there. Blessed Be, Dixie-Kitty!
Tuesday, October 8, 2013: Yesterday was 16 months since you made your journey. About a month ago, I was cleaning out the garage and found the little "kitty guardian angel" charm I bought when you were just a kitten. Naturally I bawled my eyes out, but I am glad I found it. One day when I get around to clearing out the garden area (which I have neglected this summer, and I am so sorry I have) I will put it on the fence that borders your memorial garden/grave. Things aren't good for me right now, and I wish I had you there to make me feel better like you always did. You always knew when I needed someone. I really do need someone now, and I feel like I have no one. I am sorry for being so depressing, but I need someone so bad right now. I feel alone. I love you.
Thursday October 31, 2013: Blessed Samhain/Happy Halloween, Dixie Kitty! Daddy found a bunch of your old picture last week, and one of them is my favorite one of the two of us together! I uploaded it here for you and the world to see. While I cried a river because it ripped my heart, I am also so happy this picture was found! I will keep it safely with me for always! I have a few others that I will upload over the next couple of days (been pretty busy at work). I had to stop what I was doing to get that picture on here. I am so happy to have it! I hope all is well with you in the higher plane. I know you come around sometimes, I can feel you. I think Chrono is taking on some of your personality here as of late, he has been clingy to me and acting like you did in the mornings (follow me to bathroom, rub up against the back of my head on the toilet, watch me get ready for work). I have to say it's a nice feeling. I still miss you so much, but having attention like that makes me think fondly of you, and appreciate him more as well. I better go, I just wanted to get that picture on here and wish you a Blessed Samhain. There won't be any fires tonight as the weather is pretty nasty, but I would still love a visit from you :)
Thursday, December 5, 2013: We put the tree up last weekend, and once again, when I got the tree skirt out, I bawled. It still has your hair where you used to like laying. The boys have become more hyper around it, and I think they have messed it up so much that what was left of you there is now gone. We also brought Prancer home last week, but I don't know if it will work out. He isn't adapting real well and not eating/drinking, mainly because he is scared of Sasha. Please send good energies to him, let him know she's not bad, her poor and bark are much worse than her bite (as you know, she is a big sissy). I love you much, and hope you like the new decor on your residency. I never did make it out to your real resting place to clear out the weeds, and we're supposed to get a nasty snow/ice storm overnight tonight and in to tomorrow. Maybe if we get a decent day (and not too muddy) I will make it to clear it out. Maybe even get a poinsetta to place on your grave. I remember not keeping one in the house because you always tried to eat it, silly girl! Well, back to work. I love you Dixie!!
Wednesday, May 7, 2014: It's been far too long since I wrote here, and it's hard to believe that it's gonna be 2 years since I last saw you here with me next month. Things have been rough going at home, and I fear that we may lose our home soon. What saddens me most thinking about it is that I would leave you behind. That kills me. I wish I had you cremated instead of buried. I could take you with me anywhere. I still miss you more than words can say, my sweet little girl. I hope that I will be able to renew your residency next month also, please forgive me if something happens between then and now. I love you Dixie-Kitty...
Thursday May 8, 2014: There is an angel among us, when I almost gave up on their existence in this world. We are very blessed, Dixie Kitty-and make sure to let Jamie know we appreciate her daddy and his kindness. I'm hoping for nice weather on Sunday-it's Mother's Day. I always play in the dirt/garden as its tradition. Tehya and I want to clean up your memorial garden and add some new flowers this year.
Thursday June 5, 2014: It's hard to believe in two days it will have been 2 years since you left this life. It hit me like a ton of bricks last night as I was feeding the boys, I broke down. I cried so hard I gave myself a headache. I miss you baby girl. I hope you are happy and warm. Your butterfly bush is getting rather large, but we've had so much rain the past two weeks (a major flood 2 weeks ago) that your garden area is getting covered in pesky weeds again. It's okay daddy is getting ready to pull all the hedges around the yard so that they won't get as bad once I can get it cleaned out again. Plus I will have more room to come sit and visit with you. I love you!
Friday June 13th: Hi sweetheart. Last weekend came and went, and I know you stopped by the wedding to see me. I saw the little white butterfly flying around during the ceremony and I smiled thinking of you. I hope you are being good to the new addition, Mr. Crabs. Sadly, Tehya lost another crab while camping (just like last year). She took the news better than I expected-but we sort of knew he was dead, we were just hoping that he was just molting. Anyways, he was laid to rest with you and Gigi. I think I am going to add your "stepbrothers" photos to the album. Prancer acts so much like you, especially since his buddy Tehya is gone. He follows me EVERYWHERE (especially the bathroom) just like you did. He's such a sweet boy, like you were a sweet girl. Lynyrd is still hanging on, but I think grandma is trying to get the courage to take him to the vet. He did turn 15 last month and he is certainly showing it, poor boy. I better get back to work now, I just wanted to let you know that I loved the visit you paid me Saturday. Love you Dixie-Kitty!
Friday November 14, 2014: Oh Dixie-Kitty...Your brother has joined you today. Poor Lynyrd fell ill the other day, and grandma Hord took him to the vet yesterday. They though that maybe giving him diet supplements and special food would help. But I went to see him last night and got flashbacks to you and I's last moments together. It pained me so much to see him that way. I am glad I had a chance to say "I love you" to him and kiss and hold him one last time, because I feared it would be the last. I hope you were there with him to make his journey. He will be missed, just as you are. I love you both so much. I will make him a memorial as soon as I can. Blessed Be to both my babies....
Tuesday, June 9, 2015: Hi Dixie Kitty, it was just the other day that your 3-year anniversary came and passed. Daddy finally got the brush cleared so that I can tend to your memorial garden while we still have the house. It makes me so sad to know that at some point in time, I will have to leave your garden behind. We did all we could to save the house, but it just isn't in the stars for us. I will take your butterfly bush with me when it's time to go. I also saw a white butterfly Sunday, I think it was you coming by to say hello. I think of you often and still miss you something fierce. You are in my heart and mind always, Blessed Be and I love you.