8/31/26. I miss you so much baby. We had your memorial on Saturday 8/29. We had turkey sandwiches and pizza just like you loved. And we had your cupcakes from your birthday party. We watched your video I made of all pictures and videos of you, there were so many to choose from because you looked so precious in every picture I've ever taken and we had so many memories I wanted to share with everyone. We talked so much about you and all the special things you did. You really were the sweetest boy in the world. You loved everyone and everyone loved you. I can't even believe you're gone. I miss you so much every second of every day. I think about you with everything I do. I'm so sorry that everything happened the way it did, I wish I could make it all better. You deserved so much more life and happiness and we still had so much to do together. I know we will be together again, I hope it's soon. Mommy loves you so much baby. I miss you. Please visit me soon.

8/28/26. Yesterday was 2 months without you. I got you a mum and some pumpkins for your headstone, I hope you like them. I miss you so much. Nothing matters anymore. You were my everything and now I have nothing. I'm so sorry I didn't save you baby. I did everything wrong. Mommy is so sorry for what she did. I wish I could go back and change all of it. I go to bed every night hoping I will wake up to you at Wendy. I can't wait to be with you again. I really hope it's soon. And I really hope you forgive me, but I understand if you don't. I would never forgive me. I love you. I'm so sorry. I will see you soon my baby.

10/18/2026. I miss you so much. I love you so much. Life is so worthless without you. I have no one and I'm nothing without you. I'm sorry my baby. I wish it never ended like this. I wish none of this happened. I would go back in a heartbeat to change it. I love you so much I hope you believe me. I'm so sorry. I would give up everything just to hold you and kiss you and tell you how sorry I am. I love you. I'm so sorry. I'm gonna see you soon. I hope you still want to see me.

10/27/26. Today is 3 months without you. I can't believe I haven't held you or kissed your sweet little face in that long. We have never gone longer than a week without seeing each other, and even then we got to talk on FaceTime so you knew mommy was still there. I can't believe I haven't seen you. I think about you every second of every day. I hope we are together soon, there is nothing I want more than that. I hope you know how sorry I am. I wish I can go back to a year ago and change how everything ended. I am so sorry my baby. I hope you know how much I love you. I hope you knew even when I didn't show it. I'm so sorry I didn't show it. You deserved so much better. I wish I could change it baby. I'm so sorry. I hope we will be together soon. I hope you will still want me as your mommy. I will live every day with regret of how things ended. I am trying to remember all the good things, and I hope that all of our amazing loving times outweighed our bad times to you. I hope one day I will feel that way too. I'm sorry you didn't have me when you needed me. I love you my baby. I love you, I love you, I love you. Forever and always. I can't wait to kiss you again. I love you my little boy.