Memories of Cooper|
I first saw Cooper laying in a crate at a dog adoption event. He was a rescue cared for by the San Antonio Great Dane Rescue. At the time, I was volunteering for the City of San Antonio Animal Services. I would walk dogs, set up and break down crates, and help potential adopters. When traffic was slow, I would go talk to Cooper and take him for walks. This went on for 6 weeks. At every adoption event, I would sneak some time with Cooper. There was just something about him. For one, he had droopy eyes. Some people may think that his eyes take away from him beauty, but in my mind it made him unique and special.
On the 6th week I just couldn't stand being without Cooper. I filled out an application and waiting impatiently to hear back from the rescue. FINALLY I got the call. I was approved and I could go pick up Cooper from his foster mom. I probably drove faster than the speed limit to get there. When I arrived, Cooper was waiting at the gate with his foster mom. He got so excited!! He jumped up on the gate (got in trouble of course) and his tail was wagging a hundred miles an hour. His foster mom said she had never seen him like that and that he must really like me
I talked to Cooper all the way home. When I got home, I brought him in the house to introduce him to my beloved English Mastiff, Maximus. All went well. Maximus had his end of the couch and Cooper had the other. Bed logistics were interesting but we worked it out. Both of our dogs fit quite nicely next to my husband and I.
Only 5 months after we got Cooper, my beloved Maximus died. Cooper knew I was devastated and spent extra time by my side and slept a little closer to me. He truly helped me work through the heartache of losing my baby.
A couple of months ago we noticed a cyst-like lump on the right side of Cooper's neck. Of course we took him to the vet. Dr. Earl was not sure what it was due to its strange location. We agreed that we will go through a course of antibiotics to see if it is an infection. Unfortunately, the cyst got bigger. Dr. Earl removed the cyst and sent it for testing. Between the time the cyst was removed and the results were available, Cooper had lost most of his sight, was very confused (walking in circles for hours at a time), not eating or drinking, and getting stuck in corners. We knew it was bad even though we didn't have the test results.
It was cancerous; a cancer that does not respond well to treatment. We weren't going to put him through any treatment anyway. He was too sick. Dr. Earl said the cancer spread to his optic nerves and he was almost blind. And surely it had moved to his brain which caused the confusion.
I don't want to be selfish, but I wish my Cooper was here for at least one more day. We got to spend some time with him before he was euthanized. He got a good belly rub and got a good kiss in return. But then he ran into the wall and stayed there. He was confused and scared. It was time. We petted his side and face and told him we loved him. We told him that Maximus and Rosie are waiting for him and will make the change easier.
There is a giant hole in my heart that I hope will heal over time. Right now, I'm not sure how I am going to get through this.
Cooper rescued me and showed me that rescuing is my purpose in life. I have fostered many dogs since I first had Cooper and he let everyone of them into our home without much fanfare. He was special and I wish his life would have been better before he was rescued. At least he was loved and spoiled for part of his life. I love you Cooper with all my heart and soul.
8/19/12 - Hi baby! I miss you so badly. I got your ashes back the other day. I need to remember that your soul is at Rainbow Bridge. The ashes are only a symbol of your body. Dad and I are lost without you. It just isn't the same when we come home. The barking is either relatively quiet or non-existent. Your head no longer towers over the gate in the hallway. By the way, I knew you could get over that gate any time you wanted to:)
I hope Rosie and Maximus are helping you aclimate to the meadows of Rainbow Bridge. Having you three together provides some solace. But mom is still sad:) Please send your love down a rainbow and put your paw on my heart. I love you and miss you dearly.
8/6/13 - This is not an anniversary I can celebrate big guy. I miss you terribly. Although I must admit I didn't think about the exact date you crossed Rainbow Bridge, I felt in my heart that you were nearer to me. I used the coffee cup with your picture on it and stared at your picture on the bedroom wall. We are going through the same experience with Bram. Cyst is in the same place and everything. Please watch over him and mom and dad so we all can get through whatever comes our way. The loss of my fur babies is getting to be too much. I don't know that I can say goodbye again and again. Please reach down and give me a Cooper hug. I love you with all of my heart.
August 6, 2014
Another year to help ease the pain of your loss. We must have been thinking about each other a lot the past couple of weeks. I found the only picture of you and I together. I don't remember the picture and I have no idea how it was hiding. I look at my pictures often.
You are always on my mind and in my heart. I miss you so badly - I can still see you standing in the backyard sometimes.
With all my love
August 6, 2015
I can't believe it's been 3 years since we lost you. I still think of you often. Every time I see a Mini Cooper I get sad because I was going to buy a convertible Cooper for my Cooper:). That would have been so fun. I hope your brothers and sisters are keeping you company.
Love you always,
Mom & Dad
August 6, 2016
I didn't have the date of your passing memorized but I should have known it was today. I thought of you numerous times while at the vet office. Especially remembering your Christmas picture. I love that pic!!
You are still missed so completely. You were my first Dane. My window into the world of an astounding bred.
Mom misses you Cooper. I love you so much
Please also visit Maximus and Rosie.