I will never forget the day I adopted you from the shelter. I sat on a bench and asked God to give me a sign that I was doing the right thing. Just then you walked over to my bench and licked my hand. I knew at that moment we were meant to be together.
When I brought you home you went into the back yard and lay on the deck. I just watched you. Your hair was blowing in the wind and you were probably wondering what was going to happen now in your life. Finally you came through the doggie door and into the house. You lay at my feet by my couch. From that moment on you were totally mine.
You were a tough little boy! If anyone came near me you were ready to grab them (and a few times you did)! I could not walk out of the room without you following me (right from day one to the last day of your life).
It was hard this past year watching you grow old. You couldn't go down/up the deck anymore. Mommy used to let you out in front and walk with a flashlight next to you.
Everyone on our block knew you. You loved to walk with Daddy to the end of the block and back (even when you were hurting so bad).
I did everything in my power for you to make you happy. I gave up going away because you would not eat while I was gone and everyone else was afraid of you! But I never minded that. I was happy at home with you.
You will be my last fur baby Cocoa. My heart cannot go through the agony of a loss again. I was always afraid I might die before you and then who would take you?
As weird as it may sound to some people, I know take your doggie bed mat into bed with me. I cover myself with it and it eases the pain a little. That was your "sleepy bed" and it will ALWAYS be in bed with me.
Well, it's starting to hurt bad right now so I will say goodbye to you. I like to think of you with no more pain running around Rainbows Bridge. Please go visit the "sister" you never knew who died before you came to me. Her name is Natasha. She is the sweetest little girl you will ever meet. Love her and protect her like you did me. She died in 2003 and lives on Rainbows Bridge.
Watch over me from heaven and be waiting there for me when my time comes.
Tom and I love you with all our hearts.
1/7/16 It hurts to be writing to you but you know that I talk to you EVERY NIGHT. Watch over me, my dear Cocoa until we meet again.