Clyde-Bailey began his battle with osteosarcoma on November 2nd. On the 3rd, he had his leg amputated and so began his rounds of chemotherapy. He seemed to be winning the war, but after five treatments, the cancer went to his lungs and we had to let him go. He deserved that gift.|
The kindest dog ever, he would never ask for anything; not a cookie, not to go out...he would do that when Zoe, our other standard poodle would go outside, or take a cookie. He was so gentle and would talk back to you when you spoke to him. He was silver and white and a showstopper, but he didn't know it. No vanity there. I am so grief stricken.. He would have been 13 years old on the 21st of April and how I would have loved to celebrate that milestone with him. 8/6/17DEAREST CLYDIE, LOVING AND MISSING YOU SO. I HOPE YOU ARE FINE AND WITH ZOE. I DON'T HAVE ROOM TO WRITE MORE. MSS U.9/6/17MISSING YOU AND CRYING. I LOVE YOU SO, CLYDIE.OCT 6,17 I MISS YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF. I LOVE YOU SO, SEND A SIGN; FOREVER, MOMMY. I TALK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME. IT'S NEVER GOING TO BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU. MY BOY, FOREVER.
YOU ARE ALWAYS ON MY MIND. PLEASE TELL ME YOU ARE WITH ZOE. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. MOMMY.
My Clyde-Bailey....how I pray you found Grandpa right away and you are together. Grandma, Daddy, Zoe and your Mommy miss you so.71 MONTHS AND I MISS YOU SO. I AM TRYING TO FIT IN HOW MUCH I MISS AND LOVE YOU. YOU ARE MINE FOREVER AND EVER AND I HOPE YOU AND ZOE AND TOGETHER AND FINE. ALWAYS, MOMMY. My friend Ken's cat, Miss M. is on her way to the bridge. She is mostly black with white. Take her in.
What a wonderful dog you were and still are. You are with me everyday, everywhere. I carry you in my heart and my head and talk about you all the time to whomever listens, and they do. I am surrounded by those who loved you, too. I cannot believe you are gone, but I have such a heavy heart, I know you are gone. It's so different without you; not as shiny, not as bright, not as sweet. We will try to carry on without you until we meet again, my darling angel Clyde-MY ANGEL, CLYDIE. I AM WRITING EARLY ONE DAY, BECAUSE TOMORROW, SEPT 6, 18, I AM GOING FOR SURGERY. DON'T WORRY. I KNOW YOU WILL BE WITH ME AND HELP ME THROUGH. I WANTED TO WRITE SO YOU WOULD GET YOUR LETTER TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU FOREVER. I HOPE YOU ARE WELL AND WITH ZOE. I MISS YOU SO AND I LOVE YOU SO. YOUR MOMMY
10/9/18 PLEASE DON'T HATE ME. I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM THREE DAYS LATE. I FEEL LIKE SUCH A BAD MOMMY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. I AM SO VERY, VERY SORRY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU SO DEEPLY. I AM STILL GRIEVING THE LOSS OF YOU AND ZOE. THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE. LIFE IS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU TWO. INCOMPLETE. THANK GOD FOR DELILAH. I KNOW YOU SENT HER TO ME. BE WELL, MY LITTLE BOY. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. I THINK I SAW A SIGN FROM YOU TODAY. A LITTLE WHITE BUTTERFLY. I KEEP YOU CLOSE TO ME. ALWAYS AND FOREVER, MOMMY
7/6/18 YOU CAN FIND THIS LETTER, EVEN IF IT'S IN THE WRONG SPOT. I MUST FIX THIS. SOMETIME, I PROCRASTINATE. I AM CRYING, CLYDIE. I MISS YOU SO. YOU WERE AND STILL ARE SO SPECIAL. EVERYONE LOVED YOU AND YOU LOVED EVERYONE. THINGS ARE NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU AND NEVER WILL BE AGAIN. YOU GAVE ME COURAGE TO FACE THINGS LIKE THE BRAVE SOUL YOU ARE, BUT I WAS NEVER AS BRAVE AS YOU. MY HEART HURTS SO WITH YOUR LOSS. IF ONLY I COULD SPEND FIVE MINUTES WITH YOU AND I PRAY THERE IS A GOD THAT WILL BRING US TOGETHER ONE DAY. I LOVE YOU SO, CLYDE-BAILEY AND WILL FOREVER AND EVER..STAY WILL ZOE. SHE WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU. FOREVER AND FOREVER. YOUR LOVING MOMMY
8/6/18 MY ANGEL CHILD, CLYDE-BAILEY. ANOTHER MONTH, ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU, MY BOY. NEVER WILL IT BE THE SAME. THINGS WILL NEVER BE RIGHT SINCE YOU ARE NOT HERE. YOU ARE MY ANGEL, MY FRIEND, MY EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU SO. I PRAY THAT YOU AND ZOE ARE ALRIGHT. KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO AND MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVER SAY. IF YOU CAN, SEND ME A SIGN TODAY. I WILL BE LOOKING FOR IT AND FOR YOU.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MY LITTLE BOY. MY CLYDIE. FOREVER AND EVER YOUR MOMMY. BE WELL.
Bailey. Mommy is with you all the time. Forever.6/7/17 I AM A DAY LATE.FORGIVE ME, MY ANGEL DOG. I MISS YOU SO. I AM CRYING. 6 YEARS AND 2 MONTHS. THE PAIN NEVER GOES AWAY. I PRAY YOU ARE WITH ZOE AND FEEL SO GOOD. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. MOMMY.SEND ME A SIGN. I MISS MY BOY. MY BUD DOG. MY ANGEL GLYDE-BAILEY. FORGIVE ME. I LOVE YOU SO.
1/6/17 I AM INSERTING HERE MY LOVE FOR YOU IN THE NEW YEAR. HOPE YOU ARE WELL AND I LOVE YOU SO. MOMMY. BE A GOOD BOY AS YOU ALWAYS ARE. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER AND MISS YOU SO. 5/7/18 I AM SO SORRY I AM A DAY LATE. I AM CRYING FOR YOU. I HOPE YOU KNEW YOUR LETTER WAS COMING. I WANTED SO TO DO RIGHT BY YOU, BUT WAS I SELFISH BECAUSE I COULDN'T LET YOU GO? I STILL CAN'T. YOU ARE MY BOY. I MISS YOU SO. IT'S SEVEN YEARS AND A MONTH AND ONE DAY SINCE I LAID BY YOUR SIDE, AND WHEN YOU WERE PUT TO REST, ALL THE DEER GATHERED AROUND AND MADE A CIRCLE. ZOE WAS THERE AND JOINED YOU SOON AFTER THAT. THE DARKEST TIME OF MY LIFE. SEND ME A SIGN. I THINK YOU DID THE OTHER DAY IN THE FORM OF A LITTLE WHITE BUTTERFLY. MY HEART ACHES AND I HOPE YOU ARE FINE AND WITH ZOE. I LOVE YOU SO. YOUR LOVING MOMMY FOREVER. 6/6/18 MY BOY. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO, CLYDIE. I AM SO SAD WITH YOU GONE. MY LIFE IS NOT THE SAME. I LOVE YOU SO AND MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME AND I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO. YOUR MOMMY ALWAYS.
My dearest Angel, Clyde-Bailey,MY GOD, CLYDIE. IT'S SIX YEARS TODAY AND I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE. I LOVE YOU SO. YOU ARE MY DOGGIE. LOVE YOU. HOPE YOU ARE FINE AND WITH ZOE. I WILL NEVER BE WHOLE WITHOUT YOU. SEND A SIGN TODAY AND LET ME KNOW YOU ARE GOOD. FOREVER AND EVER, YOUR MOMMY.5/1/17 I AM WRITING EARLY BEFORE I GO TO LONDON. IT IS SIX YEARS AND ONE MONTH AND I MISS YOU SO. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY SPECIAL BOY. OH, CLYDIE. BE ALRIGHT AND STAY WITH ZOE. I LOVE YOU. MOMMY, FOREVER NOV.7,2017. FORGIVE ME. I AM A DAY LATE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. I MISS YOU SO AND I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT WHAT A TROOPER YOU ALWAYS WERE. LIFE IS LESS JOYOUS WITHOUT YOU. YOU ARE MY LITTLE BOY YOU ALWAYS WILL BE. STAY CLOSE TO ZOE. SHE LOVES YOU AND YOU, HER.
WE ARE OK HERE. MISSING YOU TERRIBLY, CLYDIE. I HOPE YOU ARE FINE AND HAPPY. I AM YOURS FOREVER.
YOUR LOVING, MOMMY. SENDING YOU A MILLION KISSES AHD HUGS, MY LITTLE BOY. SEND A SIGN., IF YOU CAN.12/6/17 YOU ARE MY BOY FOREVER. I MISS YOU SO. WE SPEAK OF YOU OFTEN AND TEARS FLOW. I HOPE YOU ARE ALRIGHT WITH ZOE. KEEP AN EYE ON A WESTIE NAMED RILEY AND KNOW I LOVE YOU SO. FOREVER
In two days, it will be two months since you are gone. Of course, you know by now that Zoe joined you on the fourth of May, one month ago today. We knew she wasn't well, but it was sudden and not expected that night. My only consolation is that she went to be with you. It's so empty here and I cry and cry. I did write you that I went to see some black standard poodle puppies the other day. It is because of you and Zoe that I even would consider having another doggie in my life. There are none that look like you...and there won't be any like you. They threw away the mold when God created you, my sweet creature. How I love you and grieve for you. I cry every day, but I don't want you to worry. I will be ok but there will always be a hole in my heart. Your doctor, Clair, and I started a Pet Loss Grief Support meeting that meets every two weeks for those of us having a tough time with our losses. I certainly qualify. I will be writing you and hoping that you are fine. I miss your sweet face; miss sweet you. Gram and I and Daddy talk about you all the time. Rest and play and know how much I love you, Clydie-Bails. Forever and ever, MommyIT IS FEB 18 AND I DON'T BELIEVE I MISSED WRITING. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO. IT'S NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU. WE TALK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME AND I WATCH YOUR VIDEOS, LONGING FOR YOUR TOUCH. ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW MUCH I LOVE AND ADORE YOU AND WISH YOU AND ZOE WERE HERE. GRANDMA, DADDY AND DELILAH SEND THEIR LOVE AS WELL. CAN YOU AND ZOE COME VISIT ME SOMEHOW? I CAN ONLY DREAM. FOREVER, MOMMY3/6/18 MY ANGEL CLYDE-BAILEY. FACEBOOK SHOWED YOUR PHOTO TODAY FROM SEVEN YEARS AGO. I SENT IT ALL OVER. I MISS YOU SO. IT'S NOT EASIER. I LOVE YOU, CLYDIE YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BOY. I WILL FIX ALL THESE LETTERS. I NEED MORE ROOM. I WILL LOVE AND MISS YOU FOREVER. MOMMY
2/6/17NEW MESSAGE. I MISS YOU SO CLYDIE. 70 MONTHS. LOVE YOU FOREVER. BE WELL. MOMMY 4/6/18 TODAY, YOU ARE GONE SEVEN YEARS. OH, HOW I MISS YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY. IT'S NEVER BEEN THE SAME WITHOUT YOU AND NEVER WILL BE. I LOVE YOU SO, MY CLYDIE. OH, CLYDE. YOU WENT THROUGH SO MUCH. I HOPE I DID RIGHT BY YOU. IT HAUNTS ME. I TRIED TO GET YOU BETTER. YOU ARE SO SPECIAL AND LOVED BY EVERYONE. OH CLYDIE. I MISS YOU SO. THE TEARS ARE FLOWING. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY SPECIAL ANGEL. WE TALK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME. SEND ME A SIGN. I LOVE YOU SO, FOREVER AND EVER. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE LIFE YOU DID. I LOVE YOU. YOUR MOMMY.
My darling, sweet Clyde-Bailey,
Two days from now, it will be three months that you are gone. It will never be the same without you here with me. You are so missed, Clydie, it is immeasurable. There are no words to describe the loss I feel. I told you in a letter that we brought home a little black standard poodle and named her Delilah. She is nine weeks old; a lot of work, but very sweet. I told you months ago that there would be another dog in my life because of my love for you. It's terrible without you. It will never change. I only want to touch you. That can never happen, I know. Can you send me a sign so I know you are there? I will wait for a sign to see or hear you. Remember I used to sing to you a song I used to sing to Zoe, too? "me and Zoe and Clyde-Bailey, traveled like crystal and so we were three hot dogs on a hot summer night we were lookin' for love; three hot dogs on a hot summer night, we were lookin' for love......." I remember when you came home with me. Zoe was about a year and a half and you became so close right away. You made a great team. I miss you, Clydie, so much. I ache for you. Wait for me with Zoe. We will be together again one day. I love you. Forever and ever, Mommy
My darling Clyde-Bailey,
In forty-five minutes, it will be five months since you left for the Rainbow Bridge. I am crying now while I talk with you and want to tell you how very, very much you are missed and how very, very much you are loved. Everytime I think I may not have tears left, they come. You are such a good, special Bud dog. Oh, Clydie, how lucky I was and am to have you in my life. Delilah is getting more mature, and as I said to Zoe the other day, how I wish you were here to teach her all the wonderful things that made you, you. Gram, Daddy and I miss you so much and we talk about you all the time. There is never a day that goes by when you and Zoe are not on my mind. It was so hard the day you left, but I knew it was time because you were having a difficult time of it. That would be the last thing I would ever want for you. I hope I made the right decision about your leg. I only wanted to keep you from any pain and have you stay with me forever more. I know you will. Send me a sign today so I can know you are
May angel boy, Clyde-Bailey, it was just about this time 47 months ago that you left for the Rainbow Bridge. I am overcome with grief while I write this to you, my good boy. I can hardly see the page. I miss you so much...your sweet, gentle soul. No one like that on this earth. So selfless, never wanting for anything for yourself. I don't think I appreciated you as much as you deserved, but I love you so. You are talked about all the time with Grandma and Daddy. Everyone adored you, you special, special doggie. I will love you forever and will see you at the Rainbow Brhere. I know you are with Zoe. I love you and miss you forever and ever. Mommy
My darling Clydie-Bails,
It is six months today that you left us to go to the Rainbow Bridge. I know you didn't want to go. I know you needed to go. I look around the room and miss you so. It feels like so long since I have been with you and stroked your beautiful fur. You are such a wonderful dog. My Clyde-Bailey. There are always tears left for you; tears of sorrow at losing you; tears of love and a broken heart that I will always have. Gram, Daddy and I talk about you all the time. Delilah is now sleeping on the couch. She looks like Zoe which makes me miss you all the more. How I wish I could hug you one more time, but that is not to be until I come to the Rainbow Bridge one day to be with you and Zoe and we will walk across together. Say hello to Zoe and Grandpa, if he is there. It's so lonely without you. Forever and ever,
Mommy I love you so.
I am sorry that I am a little late. It is seven months since you had to leave, and I am now home recuperating once again from knee surgery. It was locking this time. Let's hope it's the last surgery on that knee. Wow, it's lonely and a different place without you and Zoe. It feels so long since we were together. I am ok and will try to recover fast. You and Zoe were here to take care of me the last time, and Delilah doesn't know enough yet. I love you so much, Clyde-Bailey and I hope you are fine and looking down on me. I know I feel your light, you angel dog. Stay close to Zoe and Grandpa when he comes to visit. We will all be together one day. I love you so and will forever and ever. Mommy
My darling Clydie-Bailey,
I can't believe it's been eight months since you last were here with me. I love you so very, very much and it has seemed like a small forever since you and I were together. We watched you go peacefully when you could no longer stay with us. Oh, Clyde-Bailey, how I miss you. Delilah is growing and is still very much a puppy. She sleeps sometimes on the couch you and Zoe slept on, and it is a comfort to see a dog there and remember. We talk about you so often and you are always with me. I am crying, but so much now I smile when my memories of you surface and dance around like little angels.....like the angels you and Zoe are. Please watch over me and over each other. God, Clydie, I love and miss you so. I hope you are fine and happy.
Forever and ever,
My darling angel Clyde-Bailey,
Nine months? I cannot be. I was crying just the other day over you, missing you so much. The house is empty without you and Zoe. Delilah is a crazy puppy and knows none of the manners that the two of you had. I hope that you are ok, getting much rest and enjoying the peace and beauty I hope is up there. I will look for a sign from you tonight. Maybe you can send me one, if it's easy for you.
I don't want you to go through any trouble. My knee is very good now, so don't worry about anything. I am wearing the wristband I had made for myself with your name and Zoe's name on the front, and forever and ever on the back. It is a gray/silver and I wear it all the time without taking it off. I miss you so much, Clydie. I wish you were here and able to feel well again. I know that cannot be, but we will be together one day. Wait for me with Zoe. We have nothing but time.
I love you so very, very much and will forever.
All my love,
Bud doggie Clydie,
Can you believe it? Ten months without you. I was looking at the picture above the fireplace of you, me and Zoe last night and I said to Daddy, "You know. I look at this picture and remember how I thought things would never change." I wish it never had to. I miss you so much and talk about you and Zoe all the time. You made my life so complete and wonderful. How are you, my darling dog? I hope you are feeling fine and are happy and comfortable. Life is not the same without you. Delilah is still a handful, but so sweet. We are ok here and Gram and Daddy also are loving you. Do you see Grandpa at all? I hope you are with him, too. My love, you are the best of the best and even Carol, from Clair's office, said to me yesterday, "Oh, your dogs were so wonderful!" No one has to tell me that. What a pair! Just incredible. You beautiful creature, I miss you and cry for you. Keep sending me messages and signs so I know that you are around. I can't bear not hearing from you. I love you so and will miss you forever and ever.
Love and kisses,
My angel Clyde-Bailey,
Eleven months since you are gone. My boy..my darling boy. I miss you so much, Clydie, and we speak of you all the time. How good you were. How wonderful you were. Oh my God, I miss you so. The perfect dog, the perfect angel and now you are gone. I love you so much, Clydie. How I wish you and Zoe were by my side. You both really are, I know. You would never leave me, nor I, you. I hope you are fine and comfortable and together with Zoe and Grandpa. I am sure he stops by the bridge to see you both. Why do things always have to change? Why couldn't we stay together forever. We were so happy that way. Now, you are my angel in heaven and I will love you forever and ever. That's what my wristband says with your name and Zoe's on it. I wear it always. Don't forget to send me a sign once in a while. I will look for it. Everyone misses you, you sweet, sweet dog.
Always and forever,
My darling angel dog, Clyde-Bailey,
It is one year today that you are gone. At one o'clock this afternoon, your heart stopped beating, and part of mine did, too.
Dearest Clydie. We miss you so. There is no other dog like you in this world. I am crying as I write this because you are not here with me. Zoe is not here with me. You know, from looking down on us, that there is a doggie named Delilah here, and that's only because of you and Zoe. I would not want to live without the company of a dog and so, we got her. Nothing could take your place,and although she is totally different than you and Zoe, I am glad she is here. I will look for a special sign from you today, my Clyde-Bailey. Please remember how much I adore you and miss you. You are my light in the sky. Stay close to Zoe and Grandpa, when he visits you. I love you so very, very much. Thank you for all the wonderful moments you gave me. I miss you so. Rest, play, and be well. I love you, my sweet boy. Miss you so.
Forever and ever,
My baby boy, Clyde-Bailey,
It is 13 months today that you are gone and I am missing you so. I worked an event today for the shelter. It is called Wag 'n Walk, and people donate and walk their dog. Some come and walk the dogs from the shelter. It's so sweet and so sad at the same time. It was a good turnout and the weather was perfect for walking. You and Zoe would have loved that walk. It goes from the Morey High School across the street from WaWa to Agway and then back. There is a water station for them at Agway and everyone comes back for hot dogs. Sometimes, we sneak a couple for the doggies, but I gave them all Beggin' Strips before they left. Delilah loves them. She is still a handful, even though we are going to training twice a week. I told Zoe the other day, that Delilah is becoming a really good friend, and you know I need that. I love you, sweet thing, and miss you so very much. Look for an old miniature poodle named Papillion. He was mine for 19 years, and one named KiKi. Both males, both black. They can reminisce about me with you and Zoe. Life will never be the same without you and Zoe and I told about you both all the time with Daddy and Grandma. I hope you are fine and waiting for me, but have a good time until I join you. I love you so and I will forever and ever. Mommy
My darling child, Clyde-Bailey,
Fourteen months have past since you left me. I miss you, Clydie-Bails. I miss you. We are doing ok here, but without you, of course it's not the same. It will never be the same. I just wish I could hold you for a while. Delilah is getting better. She is in an obedience class and an agility class. You would have been so good at that. You could jump and land like a little butterfly. I just didn't have the wherewithall at the time. I am so sorry, my darling dog. Please forgive me. It is just about summertime here, and I remember you and Zoe running outside and enjoying the weather. She would rest, but you would walk and walk, loving being with us and Zoe. The best! I am still volunteering for AWSOM and going to do an event on Saturday with them. I hope some dogs get their forever homes. Well, my darling, I hope you are resting comfortably and playing with Zoe and the other dogs. Say hello to Grandpa when you see him. We miss him so much, too. I love you, Clydie. Forever and ever, Mommy 7/6/17 UNBEARABLE WITHOUT YOU. IT NEVER GETS BETTER. I LOVE YOU SO, MY CLYDIE..I AM OK BUT YOU ARE NEVER COMING BACK AND I CAN'T ACCEPT IT. TALKING ABOUT YOU AND ZOE. SEND ME A SIGN. LOVE YOU FOREVER. MOMMY
My darling angel Clydie-Bails,
Missing you is one of the constants in my life. You are such a special bud dog. 15 months ago, you left and life has never been the same. Loving and missing you will always be part of my life and such a big part. I know you are with Zoe and that gives me great comfort. Delilah is much better than she was and is becoming a great lady..I have told her all about you and Zoe and of course, your photos are everywhere. Say hello to my new friend's doggies, Tiffany, Penny and Sadie. They are all poodles, too and very sweet. Continue to send me signs of you being around as they are very comforting to me. I see you everywhere....in the bird's flight, the butterflies, the sky and the trees. I love you so, you special dog. Love you forever and ever. Rest easy, breathe freely and enjoy. We will all be together one day. Mommy
12/6/16 I AM HERE, BOY. I AM WITH YOU MISS YOU SO MUCH. I AM FITTING THIS IN. I LOVE YOU SO. CLYDIE......YOU ARE MY BOY. I KNOW THIS IS OUT OF ORDER, BUT I AM SQUEEZING IT IN. FOREVER, MOMMY
My angel-child Clyde-Bailey,
Sixteen months and we are apart, still. I miss you so very, very much, I can't even put it into words. I know you are with Zoe. Have you seen Faith? Mark and Awsom helped send her to the Bridge two days ago. She has one eye and she is black and white. We are counting on you two to keep her safe with you. She had a really rough time as a stray and needs a peaceful time now. Delilah is a good girl and very sweet. You would love her, too. She has big shoes to fill with you and Zoe coming before her. Please send me a sign, Clydie-Bails. We all miss you so and will love you forever and ever, Mommy, always yours.
Please also visit Zoe.