For My Cleo|
Perhaps love is like a resting place
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home
Perhaps love is like a window
Perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer
It wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself
And don't know what to do
The memory of love will see you thru
Oh love to some is like a cloud
To some as strong as steel
For some a way of living
For some a way to feel
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
Some say they don't know
Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict full of change
Like a fire when it's cold outside
A thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you
Cleo was a surprise Christmas gift in 2004, after we just moved into our new home. I didn't know she was hidden in the basement until I kept hearing crying. Only then, my husband and son let me come in to the basement.After about 5 minutes, I was in love and we spent the night together in the family room. The next day, she played and got used to the house a little bit. We didn't know what to name her so my family came up with different names. We settled on Cleopatra Rose, because she was such a regal dog, like royalty, and her second name was my grandmothers, who I was very close to and loved very much.
She grew pretty fast and was a perfect puppy, so cute and fluffy. People would stop me all the time when we would walk at the park near us because she was so beautiful. She acted like a lady all of the time. She would lay next to me when I was watching TV and always right under my feet when cooking dinner!! She would hardly ever beg for food-unless it was something extra good! For as agile as she was running and jumping, she could never catch a doggy treat in her mouth! But, she could open doors around the house and let herself in from outside.
Cleo was so smart. I think she understood what I said sometimes! She never disobeyed and always came to me when called. She loved to run and so it was great that we backed up to the woods and have a big yard. She could jump off of the porch and catapult herself 8 or 10 ft before she would land! I would let her out and she and my other dog, Rudy, would race to see who would make it to the woods first. She was beautiful when she ran and you could tell she was in her element when she did.
Cleo was a beautiful, loving, wonderful companion. She would quietly stay by me and follow me from room to room just to be with me, because to her, that was her job. She was very sensitive to how I was feeling and just stay with me if i was feeling down or sick. Most times she would lay on my bed at night and move to under the bed later on. She would wait until the other dogs would wake me up and then come up on the bed to get petted. Always a lady.
Cleo became ill and deteriorated very quickly. I noticed she lost an extreme amount of weight in what must have been a few days, because I am with her all the time, but had gone out of town for a few days. We tried different things to see if it was her food, or just the weather or maybe doggy depression-we lost our kitty cat about a month ago. We had a vet appointment for her, but she couldnt make it and was taken to the ER vet for help. She was too ill to save and I had to make the decision to let her go. It was truly the hardest thing I have ever done. I spent an hour with her before she went to doggy heaven and held her paw as she left me.
I have placed her on the hillside in the wintertime, since I lost her soon after the blizzard of 2010.
I didnt realize how much she meant to me until she was gone. The hole in my heart is big and will never be filled with the loss of my Cleo-baby. I love her now and always will.
Run like the wind now my precious baby...I will meet you at the bridge. I love you so.
3/3/10 Hi Baby..tomorrow will be a week since you walked over the rainbow bridge. i am getting a bit I better but miss you terribly. i love you. good night baby
3/5/10 Sweet Cleo..I brought you home today my love. You are back with me again and I am glad, although I did cry when they gave you to me.
3/10/10 Hi baby..I miss you still but each day it gets a bit better and now I can laugh about some of the silly things you used to do.
3/23/10 I miss a lot right now. Maybe I have realized that its close to one month since you went away. I wish you were here right now to be with me because I have a lot going on and could use you next to me for comfort. I love you cleo
4/25/10 Hello my baby...2 months now since you left me and it still hurts. I try not to think about the sadness and try to remember your beauty, grace and the silent support you gave to me.
I miss u so much.
6/14/10 Hi baby..its been awhile since I have written, but you are in my thoughts alot. I still cry often and so sometimes i have to put you out of my head because it still hurts. I miss you so much. I'm crying now-I guess it will just take more time. I hope that you are having fun-it should be so beautiful there. Go make some new furry friends and I will see you soon. I love you
8/27/10 Hi baby girl, its been six months now since you went away to be free in the fields of the Rainbow Bridge. i thought if i waited a day or so to write to you that maybe i wouldnt cry, but it didnt work. Crying like crazy right now...I miss you so much still! There will never be another one of you and that just tears me apart. I miss you I miss you i miss you. You are supposed to be here next to me, sleeping (and dreaming) as i lay in bed checking e-mails and watching tv. Some days are better than others, but you are often in my thoughts. You were my little shadow and i miss that. You know that big matt brought another aussie home soon after you left me. i guess he thought it would help me but it was too soon...its a little boy dog and he runs under my feet when i am standing in the kitchen just like you used to do. i forget and call him cleo sometimes! i walk around the back yard sometimes and remember you running like crazy thru the yard with rudy, seeing who was going to win getting to the woods first. You almost always won! Well, my love, go and find some friends to play and run with. i know you will be there when its my time to meet you. I love you and miss you, my Cleobaby.
2/25/2012 Hello My Sweet Baby Girl. Today marks 2 years since you went to the bridge. It has been awhile since I have visited because it still hurts so bad when I think of you. I cry too much still when I think of you. I thought time would heal and most times it does, but you were so special. Lots has happened since you left us. We have moved away and started a new life. You would like it here, we dont have a big yard, but there are lots of places to walk and people to watch and critters to see. Rudy is with us, but I know he gets lonely too without you around. Matthew is in college now! Please know I carry you in my hear but its still too painful for me to visit you. You are in my room on my window, watching over me each day. I wish you were here with me, I could use your company curing this time of change. I thought people were a little crazy being to attached to their pets, but now I understand. There will never be another Cleo in my life. I miss you so much. I love you little girl.
2/3/2014 Hi Baby girl. These last two years have been pretty hard on us. I havent forgotten you, but it still hurts to think of you gone. I had other issues to deal with but things are starting to calm down a bit. Rudy is fine, but lonely still. I hope to get him a playmate soon. Matthew is doing well and takes good care of Rudy. You are still next to my bed, watching over me each night. I get upset (which I am right now) everytime i think of you. I just hope I did the right thing and that you didnt suffer. I love you and miss you still.
2/10/2015 Hi my sweet girl. It still hurts and I am crying as I write this. Things are getting better for Matthew and I. We have some security and I have a full time job. Rudy is still doing well, but getting older. I can see the gray around his mouth. We have 2 kitties we adopted and they keep Rudy company. I still love you and always will.
2/25/15 Hello my love. Today is the day I lost you. You are in my thoughts more than you will ever know and i still miss you terribly.