Calvin Charlie you were born on the 17th of October 2001, you were the only black fur baby and the smallest of the litter. Your mummy Ruby loved you but you were pushed out by your siblings so you were with me always - you slept with me and I would take you to your mummy for feeds. You grew slowly and the vet told me to love you and give you a wonderful life as they didn't think you would live past 6 months. You were strong and handsome like your daddy Otis who I hope you are with now. You proved everyone wrong and went on to become my best friend, my companion, confidant, my rock and strength through many challenges in my life. You were always there to lick my tears or just sit with me, never leaving my side.|
So many more fur babies were born into our home and you were always there to watch over them, giving their mummies time out and you would sit in the whelping box just watching them to make sure they were safe and happy.
When I got cancer you and my children were my strength to get through it and get back home to you. I remember every night my children placing you on the phone so I could talk to you, they would tell me how your head went from side to side listening to me and I could hear you grunting. You always slept at the end of my bed and when I came home you knew my tummy was sore and never jumped on me and just laid by my side. You always knew when I was sad and would come to me with your big eyes and look into mine and lick my face - we had many animals in our home but you never got jealous or upset as you knew I loved them all but knew you were my darling man and love of my life. We named our new home after you "Calvin Manor" as I always said it was your home.
Your beautiful lounge has your cushion on it with your harness and lead, your blue opalite crystal is still hanging from your harness, along with a small book I made dedicated to you, a beautiful sign and candle along with the many cards I received and your beautiful silver heart which now contains your ashes. I have a beautiful silver heart pendant that I will put some of your ashes in so I can wear it and know you will always be with me. I know you are still with me in spirit and I feel it even more now your ashes are back home with me. I sit you with me like you always did and when its bed time I pop you back on your lounge for the night.
You promised me you would always be with me but cancer came and took you just before your 13th birthday. You knew you were going and never let on, but showed me a special puppy, always cleaning him and loving him, white the opposite to you, I think you were trying to tell me he was a special puppy and I should keep him from that litter of puppies that had been born in April and were about 7 weeks at the time. I was given 6 extra days to love you and have you with me before I knew I had to be kind and do what I thought I could never do. It was your strength that got me through that terrible day. Oh how I have pondered over and over if I did the right thing at the right time for you.
My beautiful boy, I miss you so very much and cry every day. I still call you and make your bed next to me, I doubt that this heartache will ever leave me. I hope you know how much I loved you and if I could have given up 5 years of my life to have an extra 5 years with you I would have done it in a heart beat. Pollo is with me and yes he has helped me but he will never be you nor will he ever replace you what we had was rare and special.
Always and forever in my heart the love we shared will always be with us, until we meet again your mummy Robyn xoxo P.S. Your mummy Ruby left to join you on the 25th March 2015 I hope you have found her. All the animals in this crazy house of love look for you and your mummy every day.