Brooklyn loved everything about Christmas, laying in the garland, wrapping the presents, but most of all she loved the Christmas village, sleeping in the fluffy snow, her head resting on one of the houses. |
She brought me so much joy through all the years we had together and she helped me get through some really rough times. I miss you more than words can say, but I am thankful that now you can run and play again and not have anymore pain.
You are my sunshine Brooklyn. Hugs and kisses forever my beautiful angel, until we meet again.
I can't believe it has been a month. Sometimes it seems like it has been forever since I was able to hold you and pet you and feel you laying beside me. Other times it seems like yesterday, reliving that awful day when I had to rush to the vet. I had to be there with you, I didn't want you to think that I left you there alone. I prayed so many times that when it was your time that God would take you peacefully at home. Even when I got there all I could think was I can't do this, but when they brought you in I could see it in your face and I knew I had to let you go.
You're my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. I still fix the bed for you every morning so you can be comfy, I still find myself checking the litter box to see if you went to the bathroom, I still rush home from the store to make sure you're okay.
I have your blanket that I made you on the bed and the little lambchop catnip toy laying on it. You never really liked stuffed toys but you loved laying with your lambchop so I sent that one with you and got another one to have here with me. When I find myself getting too sad I try to remember how much you loved the ice cream I brought you. You were having a hard time eating the last few days and it was hot so I decided to try some ice cream. You were so excited, you couldn't eat it fast enough. It was so wonderful seeing you so happy and excited.
I've been going through all your pictures. I loved taking pictures of you. I wasn't a great photographer but I was enthusiastic. I am glad you were so happy to pose for me because now I have all these beautiful pictures to look at. I particularly enjoy looking at the ones that make me smile and laugh. You still bring me joy even though my heart is broken right now. Thank you for all of our wonderful years together. It's true that forever wouldn't have been long enough. We will have our forever someday and I can't wait to see you running and playing like a little kitty again.
Good morning my beautiful angel. I can't believe it's October, your favorite time of year, getting close to Thanksgiving turkey and Christmas. Don't know how I'm going to get through that, one day at a time I guess. That's all I can handle right now. I hope Daddy is giving you lots of hugs and kisses for me. Looking back over the past few years and everything that has happened, I realized the 1 good thing that came out of it was that I got to spend more time with you. I didn't know what I was going to do when I finished school and had to go back to work. I am so grateful that I had that extra time to spend with you, take care of you and be there whenever you needed me. By your side was the only place I wanted to be. I love you Brooklyn. You are my sunshine and my joy. Looking at your pictures every night still makes me smile and laugh and gives me peace. Hugs and kisses forever my beautiful angel.
Hello my beautiful girl. It's turkey day. I have been dreading this day for awhile. I didn't even want to buy a turkey this year because you wouldn't be here to share it with me. You always got so excited when you smelled turkey cooking. When you were younger you even jumped up on the table when Dad was carving it because you couldn't wait. Wherever you were in the house you knew when it was done and you would come running. I miss that so much. Today I will try not to be sad, at least for this moment, I know if you were here with me you would still be hurting and I never wanted that for you. So, today, I want to tell you how thankful I am for having you in my life.
I am thankful for all the wonderful years we had together and all the beautiful memories I will always have of you until we meet again. I am so thankful for your unconditional love and for teaching me how to love unconditionally. Thank you for being my best friend, my love, my joy, my sunshine. Hugs and kisses forever my beautiful angel.
Well, it's December 1. How's my beautiful girl today? I'm not sure how I feel about Christmas this year but without you here I needed some joy in my life so I started decorating a little bit. The lights on the tree make me happy and sad, happy thinking of our Christmas's together and sad that you're not here with me now. One day at a time. I have a ton of Christmas pictures of you that I want to add so I am going to start now. I love you Brooklyn, hugs and kisses forever.
Merry Christmas my beautiful angel. Is it beautiful there? Are there Christmas villages in heaven for you to rest your head on? Christmas hit me pretty hard this year. I put the tree in our room and for the longest time the only thing I had on it was a picture of you and that was enough. A couple days before Christmas I finally decided to put a small village under the tree, just for you, with some of your favorite houses. I always loved shopping for your presents and I missed that so I got some things for shelter and rescue cats this year. I tried to keep busy and keep my spirits up because I know you don't want me to be sad but it just doesn't feel like Christmas without you. I love you Brooklyn, hugs and kisses forever my beautiful angel, until we meet again.
Hello my beautiful angel. New year, another birthday. Do you remember when Daddy bought me the kitty decorations for my birthday. You looked so cute sitting next to them. I wish we could be together. If it's possible, I think I miss you even more now. I love you Brooklyn, hugs and kisses forever my beautiful angel.
Happy valentine's day my beautiful angel. The last valentine's day Dad was with us he got me a card from the cat. It said "You do a lot to keep me happy and healthy and in return all I do is sleep, shed and complain about the food. So since it's valentine's day, I want you to know - I'm worth it." Love Brooklyn.
I love you and miss you today and every day. It's been a little over 6 months since I held you in my arms and it still hurts so much not having you here with me. I thank God every day for all the wonderful years we had together. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and helping me through the difficult times. If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever. Hugs and kisses forever my beautiful angel.
Hello my beautiful angel. It's so hard to write today. I keep reliving that day a year ago, the horrible phone call from the doctor when I was at the dollar store, the song on the radio when I was coming to see you, "There was Jesus," still makes me cry. I still think maybe if I had done something differently you would still be with me.
I've been working on the garden the past couple months. I wanted to make sure your spot was extra special. I got some new memorial stones. One is a heart with your name that says, If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever. The other has a picture of a sunflower and says, You are my sunshine. It reminds me of the music box bear that played You are the sunshine of my life. Sometimes when you were really sick I would sit next to you with the bear and sing that song to you.
I added some pictures of you in the garden today, some I just love, and one of you on vacation with us. It sure was a long drive and you weren't crazy about the beach and the ocean but you sure loved the comfy bed and air conditioning in the room and you got to see a lot of new sights. I'm glad you and Dad and I got to do that together. I always ask Dad to give you lots of hugs and kisses for me.
I still feel so lost and lonely not having you here with me but I thank God everyday for you and all the wonderful years we had together. I know you are safe in God's arms, running and playing and happy and that gives me comfort. Hugs and kisses forever my beautiful Brooklyn, until we meet again.