Though life feels unreal without him now, if I were given the chance to live it all again, I would take it without a doubt. I would relive every moment, every kiss, every night by his side, over and over again, even knowing the pain that would come at the end. He was worth every tear and ache of goodbye. He is the blessing I will forever thank the heavens for, the sweetest gift God could have ever placed in my life. My only prayer is that my angel is happy and free, surrounded by endless fields of flowers to sniff and more than enough love to carry him through eternity. If it were my choice, I would have held him until the oceans dried out and the sun stopped rising, until the stars quit shining and time itself ran out. But I don't have that power. Instead, I will forever cherish every walk we took, every kiss he gave, and every night I was blessed to have him sleeping by my side.

Looking back, I wouldn't change a thing about that day. Somehow, the timing was just right, and he passed peacefully, surrounded by everyone who loved him. Through tears rolling down my face, I told him over and over how loved and cherished he was, with every beat of my heart until his very last breath. Even though letting him go broke my heart, I know it was the right choice. I would never trade a few more months with him if it meant he would be in pain. I would do anything for him, even if it meant letting him go.

I miss you every second of the day, and I will carry our memories with me until we meet again. Fly high, my angel. Your love shaped my world, and I will cherish it always.