Big was the best present ever - a gift for my birthday. The boyfriend who gave him to me has long been out of the picture but my sweet boy was with me for over 18 years. He was skittish and untrusting at first. Apparently found on a car engine just daring someone to move him, he was rescued and taken to the local vet clinic. Lucky for me! |
He became fast friends with my dachshund, Dapper, who passed over the rainbow bridge in 2010. I often wonder, though straddling two different worlds, if they kept in touch all these years. Regardless I love to picture them reunited now. As I was saying goodbye to my sweet Big, I focused on picturing Dapper losing his little doggy mind seeing Big come over the bridge after all these years! It's a happy thought -one I return again and again when I miss them and my other cat - Baby Kitty who passed in 2014. All three finally reunited - healthy, happy and running free.
Big grew to be more trusting over the years. He even loved to cuddle in his later years. I would spoon him - throwing an arm over him and tucking him into my chest as we slept. He was fond of naps in general. He was always a picky eater but loved the organic treats his aunt sent him at Christmas. He loved to sleep in the back of the closet and under the bed. There was also a special spot for him with a big, fluffy comforter on the couch. He liked to pretend he was tough but was really just a big softie. And that inner love bug came out more and more as he mellowed into old age.
I had three years where I worked from home and it was wonderful to spend so much time with him. I think he got used to me and so regret that - for his last year of life - I had to return to work and be away so much. He was also sick with pancreatitis which was hard. Seeing him suffer was the worst. For a while, there were many more good days than bad but soon the ratio changed and the meds increased. I pray I did right by him as he was an amazing friend to me all these years -through six moves, new relationships, different jobs, setbacks and celebrations. He was always there to share it with. I miss him like crazy.
Rest well my sweet angel. Run, play and eat lots of treats! I'll keep you in my heart always and look forward to being reunited with you some day. xo