Bailey is the light of our lives. She brought so much unconditional love and happiness to us and to everyone who knew her. |
She loved to sit on the back of the sofa and look out the front window to see and bark at all the people and other d.o.g.s coming down the street. She loved to be warm and would always burrow in blankets and snuggle with me in bed. She loved her sister kitties and they would love to antagonize each other.
She was usually cold and would love to be warm. She would sit at the dryer and bark, telling us that she wanted a warm towel. We would put towels in the dryer and when they were warm, we'd take them out so she could snuggle in them. We would do this over and over for her until she was content.
Bailey did not know where she stopped and I began, to her, we were one. She didn't know she was a d.o.g., nor did we tell her. She was just one of us.
In taking walks around the neighborhood, her little legs would tire quickly so we would put her in stroller and she would ride in style, the envy of all the other d.o.g.s in the area. Taking car rides was another fun activity for her and she would sit on my lap and watch everything while we drove.
She would get so excited every year when we put up the Christmas tree. She would dig through all the presents under the tree until she found hers. She could open her own gifts and we enjoyed watching her do so.
Our lives were altered when she joined our family and forever altered when she left us. We pray she is at peace and knows that we will love her and miss her forever. Rest in peace, our precious Angel, my little Ginger Snap.
12/12/13 - Oh my precious little baby. It's been a week since you left us and I can't begin to tell you how much we miss you. I know you were ready to go but we weren't ready to let you go. Your little body is whole again and you no longer have stomach pain or distress and there are no more pills. Your little legs are just fine and you are able to leap through the meadows chasing other d.o.g.s and kitty cats.
12/19/13 - Oh my precious little baby. It's been two weeks since you left us and it feels like an eternity. I dreamed about you the other night that I was holding you in my arms and you jumped up and kissed me. The kiss was so real that it woke me up and I started crying. Addressing Christmas cards this year was quite different as you weren't here, sleeping in my lap, helping me. I do hope you met some wonderful little friends at the Rainbow Bridge, my precious Bailey.
My baby's ashes and urn were delivered to us Monday and it's like having her home again. There is some feeling of being complete again and a sense of peace has come over us. My little Bailey, we love and miss you so much! I will see you again!
12/26/13 - Hello my little Angel. Well, Christmas Day is over and it just wasn't the same without you. Oh how we missed singing carols with you as your howling always brought such joy to us. And we missed watching you sleep under the Christmas tree. You would always dig in the pile of presents under the tree and pull out the ones for you. We never knew how you knew but you did. I miss holding and kissing you. I miss sleeping with you and I miss smelling you. I continue to pray for you and pray you never forget us. I know you are safe, free of pain and there are no more pills. I hope you found Pice and L'il Kitty. We love you Bailey, and we miss you so much!
01/30/14 - It has been eight weeks, my love, but it feels like eight years. I long to touch you, smell you and hear you. I wish I could feel your little kisses on my face and hold you once again. Oh my precious little Bailey, I pray that you are making friends at the Rainbow Bridge and I pray that you haven't forgotten me. Run free my precious little girl and Mommie will see you once again. Until then, know that my love for you is never ending! "Give kisses!"
02/27/14 - Hi my sweet little girl. It's been 12 weeks that you left us and I cannot begin to tell you how much we miss you. I'm so sorry that we were not able to fix your illness and that you had to leave before us. I am forever thankful for the 16 wonderful years we had with you and I'm grateful that I was with you at the end. Being your Mommie is the best honor and I'm glad you chose me. I love you so much my precious little bundle. You are my everything. "Who's here to see me?"
03/13/2014 - Oh my sweet little Bailey. When I came home from work last night, I automatically said "who's here to see me". Saturdays afternoons are the worst as that was our special time. I cherished the ritual of me holding you in my lap as you slept. I miss everything about you my angel and pray that you are healed, that you remember me and that you still love me. I love you so much my precious Bailey.
04/17/2014 - Hello my little Bailey. Thank you for sending "orange" to me. The orange was a glimmer of hope that you still love me. I continue to write in our journal every night as you are always on my mind and in my heart. My thoughts are of you constantly. I've had my share of heartache and loss over the years but this has been the worst ever. I was thinking today of how you danced in a circle when you knew we were going for a ride in the car. You are the smartest little girl ever. You were the best baby to care for and the most perfect companion. I am so thankful I was chosen to be your Mommie. I will love you forever my little baby. I miss you so very much!
05/15/2014 - Oh my sweet Bailey. I feel numb inside lately and not sure how to move forward. You left your paw print on my heart and in my mind forever. Sometimes the words I write don't capture what I truly feel. I know you are healed and playing with your new friends at the Rainbow Bridge, but the ones left here miss you so very much. Your memories are all over the house and we talk about you all the time and reminisce about many of your antics. I pray for another sign and thank you for the ones that you have sent before. I also pray that you visit me in my dreams. You were/are the light of our lives. I love you forever my little angel and miss you so much.
06/12/14 - Hi my precious little bundle of love. I know I say this all the time but I miss you so much that it hurts. The house seems quite different without you and Spice misses you too. I wish I could hold you again and snuggle with you. I miss sharing the pillow with you at night and I miss your sweet kisses. I pray for peace as I know there was nothing we could do to fix the cancer but I'm so thankful that you no longer are suffering. You are forever in my heart and will forever be a part of me. You are the best part too I love you forever!
07/10/2014 - Hello my little Angel. I saw Dr, Bonny and she said that she thinks of you all the time. You were/are one of her favorite patients. I pray for Orange and the other day I saw so much Orange and was very happy. I miss you so much it hurts. I don't know how everything changed so quickly but it did and there was nothing that could be done to change it. My little precious bundle, you are the world to me. I love you forever.
08/07/2014 - Words cannot express the void in my life since you are gone. What I wouldn't give to hold you again. I miss those beautiful wet kisses, you attacking my face when I laid on the floor to exercise, our walks, feeding you... I miss everything about the life we had. I asked for another sign and it came in a song, a song I never heard before. As soon as it came on I started crying and I knew our Lord was taking care of you and that I will see you again. I love you forever my sweet little girl!
09/04/2014 - Its almost nine months since you left this world. I can't even begin to express how much we miss you. Daddy and I talk about you all the time and we think back on all the wonderful memories you gave us. I still say goodbye to you when I leave for work every morning and I kiss your urn good night every night. I say special prayers for you all the time. I am thankful that you are no longer sick but the void consumes me. Bailey, I love you forever. You are in my heart for eternity. I love you.
10/16/2014 - I'm struggling my little girl as it was this time last year that your health starting to dramatically change. I have all these memories and what-if questions. There will never be anyone else like you and no one will ever take your place. I talk to you all the time and I hope you know that. I pray that you visit me in my dreams. Your love is indelibly engraved in my heart. I love you forever, my sweet little Bailey!
11/27/2014 - It's Thanksgiving day and it seems so different this year. I miss you sitting in the kitchen hoping I'll drop some morsel of goodness for you. Today, I am thankful that you were with me for 16 fabulous years. I'm thankful for the love you gave me and I'm thankful that you chose me to be your Mom. I remember our last Thanksgiving, you had so much fun eating turkey and then falling sound asleep. I still look at that picture of you sound asleep on my lap after dinner and remember how sweet you were. Little did I know that you would be gone in just one week. I love and miss you forever my little Angel.
12/05/2014 - One year ago today, you left this world. I relive those last moments constantly and it takes my breath away and nothing is the same anymore. Our lives were intertwined and you didn't know where you stopped and I began. I look at your pictures constantly and I write in your journal and talk about my day and memories of you. I am so thankful that I was your Mom and you gave me 16 glorious years of pure love. You left this world, sweetheart, but you never left my heart. I love you forever, Bailey, my little angel.
01/01/2015 - Oh my precious little Bailey. It's the new year and its another year without you. You have been on my mind so much lately. I found myself singing one of our special "Christmas" songs about you today. It actually brought a smile to my face. You seemed to enjoy singing with us and howling along and then you'd lick my face so much. I talk about you often and tell people that you were the most profound bundle of love that was ever created. I pray for you every day. I love you forever my angel. Always, and forever!
02/05/2015 - Hello my precious little Angel. Well, its 14 months since you left this world, I can hardly believe it. It's a struggle to not have you with me as I miss you terribly. Thoughts of you run through my mind constantly. I still dread coming home every day knowing that you aren't there. I get so emotional thinking of you. The void in my heart and in my life is overwhelming. I pray that you visit me in my dreams. I pray that you haven't forgotten me and that you still love me. I love you so much my Bailey.
03/05/15 - Oh my little baby, I can't believe how long its been since I physically held you, kissed you, touched you. Every night I thank our Lord for holding you and caring for you until I come home. I know you are in the best hands now but I wish I was with you. Life just isn't the same and its been such a struggle. The words I write here don't come close to what I feel. I go through a range of emotions each day and sometimes I think of you and smile and sometimes I cannot control the tears. My little Gingersnap, you are/were the best package ever and I love you forever.
04/02/2015 - Hello my little Angel, I don't know where to start as my emotions are all over the place right now. Everything I see, smell, hear reminds me of you. I heard a different song on the radio this morning and my thoughts went directly to you as though you were sending me a sign. My love for you never changes but intensifies as the days go on. I don't know why things happened the way they did and I don't know why you had to get so sick but I'm thankful for all the fabulous years to have you with us. This is an honor I'll always cherish. My little baby, I will always love you, forever!!
05/05/15 - Oh my little precious Bailey, I miss you terribly. Time continues to pass but it is time without you. Most days I think of you and your adorable antics and smile, then other days the grief is overwhelming. Walking out to my car after work to come home really affects me as the reality of you not being there to greet me is difficult. I pray for you every day and thank our Lord that you are safe in his loving arms. But, I wish the arms were mine and I was holding you. My love for you has no end.
06/05/15 - I am at a loss for words, but I am not at a loss for emotions. There are so many days that my emotions are just all over the place as I miss you so much my little angel. When I am running at the Greenway, and alone in my thoughts and prayers I think about you and your memories overwhelm me. I often find myself crying, rethinking the last moments that I held and kissed you. I love you so much Bailey and I miss you terribly. I'm praying for orange!!
07/04/2015 -- My angel, oh how I miss you. I say this all the time but it is so true. The life that I loved is no longer the same. I think of you all the time and when I'm running, listening to my music, the emotions are so strong and I end up crying. I can't turn back the clock or change anything but one day I will hold you again and I'll never let you go. I pray you remember me and love me. I love you forever!
08/05/2015 - Oh my sweet little Bailey, I think and talk about you all the time. Some days are better than others but you not being here beside me is so difficult. I struggle with the fact that you had to leave and I only wish there were other options but we chose the one that gave you dignity and respect. My love for you is unending and immeasurable. My little Gingersnap, I will love you forever and I pray that you are safe and that you remember me.
09/05/2015 - My darling little Bailey. I miss you so much but I have wonderful memories of you and I hold them dear to me. I relive these memories all the time and wish I could turn back the clock. I want to hold you one more time, shower you with kisses, play with you and sleep with you. I sometimes think you are right here by me, I'll feel you brush up against me and when I look down, I don't see you, but I know, you are there. I will see you again my little baby.... I promise I will. I love you forever!
10/05/2015 - Hello my L'il Gurl! I'm really struggling lately and I guess it because there are so many memories around this time of year. Some days are worse than others but I try to remain focused on all the wonderful years we shared. However, my thoughts quickly revert to your last days with me and the pain I feel is unbelievable. I look for signs and pray that you send me another one. When I say my evening prayers, I thank the Lord for holding you in his arms. I know you are safe there. I miss you so much Bailey and I love you forever
11/05/2015 - Hi my little baby. I was holding your fall sweater the other day. When you wore your "Packers" shirt, everyone commented on how adorable you looked. It's getting closer to Thanksgiving, one of your favorite times. You were always right under foot as I cooked Daddy's turkey. You watched carefully to see "when" I would drop something so you could scarf it up. Opps, did I drop that on purpose? I miss you my precious Bailey. I miss you so much that I feel that my heart is ripping apart. I pray that you remember me and know that I love you forever
12/05/2015 - Oh my precious little girl, it's now 2 years that you left us. I cannot put into words what I feel and how much I miss you. I relive your last moments constantly and it overwhelms me. I pray every day that you are wrapped in our Lord's arms and he is protecting you. I also pray that you never forget me and that you still love me. Our worlds were so intertwined and now there is just me and I struggle with that. But, I know you are running free and basking in the sunlight. Please know that I love you forever and that you are always in my heart.
01/05/2016 - It's another new year and another year without you. Christmas was a struggle but I talked to your pictures and urn every day and made sure your stocking was hung on the tree. Of course, we sang your Christmas songs in your honor. I think of you all the time and reflect on the fabulous life we had together. Words cannot express what I feel so I'll just simply say I miss you so much and love you forever!
02/05/2016 - Hello my precious little Angel. I was talking about you to a dear friend recently. I was telling her all about the fun we had and how you were the most perfect bundle of love ever created. There are days that the memories fill my heart with happiness and other days that the memories hurt and I feel great sadness and emptiness. Today has been one of the overwhelming days and I miss you so much. I long to hold you again, but since I can't, I will continue to dream about you and hold you in my mind and in my heart. I love you my little girl. I love you so much.
03/05/2016 - I don't know how to put my feelings into words anymore. I don't know how to convey the emptiness that I feel in my heart. I think about you all the time and I talk to your pictures and your urn every day. I pray for you all the time and I pray that our Lord is holding you and protecting you. I know He is but this void is almost unbearable. My love for you is endless my precious little girl. I love you forever!
04/05/2016 - No matter what I'm doing, no matter where I am, my thoughts drift to you Bailey. Sometimes my thoughts take me to very happy and loving times but all too often, my thoughts take me to the day we said "good night". I still see you wrapped in your blanket laying in my arms as I kissed your face and stroked you, whispering to you that it was okay and that I love you forever. My heart is breaking all over again as I relive those last moments. My little Angel, I pray you are safe in our Lord's arms and that you will run to me when I come home. I miss you so much and I love you today, tomorrow and forever!
05/05/2016 - I miss you Bailey, I miss you so much. Your picture is on my desktop at work and so many people comment on how beautiful you are and it brings such a smile to my face. Although the emptiness and loss is overwhelming I do think of our happy times and it brings me comfort. I pray you remember me and pray that you are healed and playing with all your new friends at the Bridge. I will come for you sweetheart, I promise. I miss you terribly and love you forever!!
06/05/2016 - Hello my precious little Angel. A song keeps playing in my head about a broken heart and how it broke while trying to be strong. That's how I feel lately and I try so hard to be strong but my heart just aches for you. It seems like forever since I held you and kissed you. I do kiss your urn everyday but its not the same. When God created you, he created the most perfect bundle of pure love and I am so honored that I was allowed to be your "mom". I miss you terribly, Bailey, I love you forever!
07/05/2016 - I'm struggling my little baby, struggling with going through the motions like everything is okay yet inside my heart feels so empty. It's over 2 and a half years that you left and I miss you so much. I just never thought you would leave before me. No matter what I'm doing I think of you. I stare at your pictures, your little sweaters and your special toys and I can see you in my mind, but I want to see you in person, at home. If there were visiting hours at the Rainbow Bridge, trust me, I'd be there every day. I love you my little girl, I love you forever.
08/05/2016 -- Another month has gone by and nothing's changed. I was looking at the clouds today and for some reason, this overwhelming emotion of loss came over me. I have such mixed emotions and struggle, even after all this time, sorting them out. I know you were so sick; we exhausted all our options and we allowed you to leave with dignity, but it hurts. It hurts so much and I hate that I you're gone. I'm so sorry that you had to leave..... I'm so sorry my little baby. I love you with all my heart and I miss you so much, so very much!
09/05/2016 - Hello my little Sweetheart. Well, looks like summer is finally winding down and a feeling of Fall is in the air. I love this time of year. Everyone enjoyed admiring you when you would wear your football sweaters; you were always so adorable. Oh I miss you so much, I miss all the little things that we did together. Like going for rides around the neighborhood in your stroller, sitting with you in the sun, holding you while you slept and just snuggling with you. I wish for one more day, all the time and every day. I pray for my little baby, I miss you and love you forever.
10/05/2016 - Hello my little angel. The days are getting shorter and the temperatures are cooling off. This would be the time that you'd start wearing your little shirts and sweaters again. I still have all of them and touch them frequently. I believe you are still with us but just not in the same form. There are times I think I see you out of the corner of my eye, but when I look again, you're not there. I know one day I will be with you again and I will savor your wonderful kisses and love. I miss you so much it hurts. I love you always and forever.
11/05/2016 - Well, it's the fall season again and my thoughts go back to when you started to get sick. This time of year I struggle so much as I wish things could have changed and you would still be here. I pray that you are running free and making friends at the Rainbow Bridge and I pray that when the time is right, you'll be there to greet me and we'll be together forever. I wish I could feel your wet kisses and body warmth on me again. Bailey, you are truly an amazing perfect bundle of love and I miss you so much. I love you forever my little Angel.
12/05/2016 - Three years ago today you left this world. Three years ago today a part of me left too. There hasn't been one day that I didn't think of you, didn't smile about a memory and didn't shed a tear over missing you. The pain of saying goodbye and holding you while you took your last breath overwhelms me and I can barely stand the pain and emotion. I love you with all my heart my little Bailey. I miss you so much, and I pray that you remember me. I love you my little girl, I love you forever.
01/05/2017 - In a perfect world, I'd be hugging you and telling you Happy New Year, but it's not, and I'm not. I miss you my sweet little baby. Christmas came and went. I had your stocking and ornaments hanging on the tree as always but it just wasn't the same. I pray for you every day and I kiss your urn goodbye when I head off to work. I pray that you send me another sign. I pray too that you still love me. I know you are now whole and safe but I miss you. I will always love you my little angel!
02/05/2017 - Oh, sweetheart, I'm not sure what to say anymore except that I miss you with every fiber of my body and soul. You are/were the most perfect little package of fun and love. I often think of your little antics and how much fun we had. I can still see you sitting on the back of the sofa, looking out the window and barking at anything that moved. I remember the time you almost caught a chipmunk while running through the yard. Luckily, the chipmunk out ran you. These fabulous memories just fill my heart and one day we will make more wonderful memories. Until then, I pray for you and love you forever.
03/05/2017 - My dearest Bailey. What I wouldn't give for another moment with you, another snuggle, another kiss, another walk, just another minute. You were such a part of my life and I often joked that we didn't know where one stopped and the other started. But, looking back, that wasn't a joke and it is real. Part of me left with you and the void is overwhelming. I miss you my sweet baby, I miss you very much. I love you forever and ever!
04/05/2017 - Hello my little Angel. I saw Dr. Bonny the other day and she said that she still thinks about you. You were one of her favorite babies and she misses you too. I don't always know God's plan and losing you absolutely altered everything that I knew, but I have to believe you were needed in heaven for another reason. I will see you again, my little baby, and I'll hold you forever. I miss you so much and I'll love you always! "Who's here to see me?". I love you!
05/05/2017 - My dearest little Bailey. I carry this guilt around and I struggle coming to terms with it. Little did I know that when you went to the doctor that day, that you would not be coming home. I knew the situation was serious but I figured you would heal in time. You always counted on me to come and take you home and I was there and I held you and loved on you as you took your last breath. I was always there to rescue you but this time I couldn't and this is the guilt I carry. You left this world as you entered it, with dignity and grace and surrounded by loved ones. Bailey, you are/were the most perfect bundle of love and I'm honored to be your Mom. I love and miss you forever!
06/05/2017 - Hello my little angel. It's been raining so much lately and we've had so many bad storms. I remember how you would love to lay in my arms and comfort you during them. And, boy did you hate getting your little feet wet when we would take you out to potty but you were a trooper and you endured it. I miss you so much, precious, every aspect of your life I miss. I pray that you are surrounded by little playmates and from time to time you think of me. You'll always be my precious little baby. I love you forever.
07/05/2017 -- My precious little Bailey -- you are always on my mind. There are days that I struggle with you not physically being here but I know that you are always in my heart. I felt you brush the back of my leg the other day. I felt it and looked down, there was no one there but the feeling was real all the same. I believe it was you, telling me that you are still with me, always and forever. I know that one day we will be together again. I love you so much and miss you terribly.
8/05/2017 - Oh sweetheart, it's been so long, so terribly long. There isn't a day that my thoughts don't focus on you. I was thinking about your rides in the stroller today and how much you loved sitting in it and taking in all the sights. You were so attentive and never missed any of the action on the trails. Of course, you captured everyone's attention and they all had to stop and talk to you. I miss you so much, my little angel. I love you forever and ever and I promise I will hold you again, I promise. I love you!
09/05/2017 -- Words cannot express what I truly feel in my heart, my sweet little girl. Time goes on but my mind continues to drift on that final day. I wish I had one more kiss, just one more tender hug, one more second with you. I love you so much and I know you are safe and well but I wish things were different. I will see you again my precious baby. I promise. Until then, know I love you forever and ever.
09/15/2017 -- Happy birthday my little angel. I hope you had a fabulous celebration at the Bridge with all your new friends. My heart belongs to you, Bailey, always and forever. I love you and miss you so much!
10/05/2017 - Hi Sweetheart -- Fall season is upon us and this was the season we both loved. You loved wearing all your sweaters and shirts and I loved dressing you in them. You always enjoyed sitting at the window and watching the leaves fall. Of course, our walks or stroller rides were such a treat too. I miss you so much my precious baby. Know that I pray for you all the time and am thankful our Lord is caring for you now. I love you forever!
11/05/20117 - Oh my precious little Bailey. You've been on my mind so much lately and I know we are coming up on another anniversary soon. My emotions are heightened now as I think back on how sick you were getting. I am at peace though as I know you are whole and running free. I know you are no longer suffering and you are living with our Lord. I will join you one day my sweet baby and when I do, we will never be apart again. I love you always and forever.