Ava, I miss you so much it hurts. I've been so blessed to have met you 15 years ago and you have been teaching me ever since to enjoy life. You've been showing to me how. You are the best companion and I love you so much. You're my soulmate girl. I wish we had more time to go to the beach walks, give each other kisses, hugging you, hearing you drinking water. I miss everything about you. I can only hope one day we will meet again and I get to see you and give you kisses. It's been little over a week since you left the earth, and I've hiked over 40 miles now since then. I've seen the signs you've send me, I collect the kisses you pass my way at the beach, I connect to nature because that's what we've done and continue to do my browned eye girl. This is the new journey I am in with you, spiritually. I am still adjusting and having hard time every day not seeing you in the physical form. I have you in my heart forever and you have become part of me and I have become part of you. The best gift in my life is you. I love you Ava. Kisses and hugs, your mama.|
12/05/2022 It's been a lil over 2 weeks now and at times I just don't believe you left the earth. I just don't want to believe it. I am so lost without you. But I will keep on going because I know you are watching me as you've always have here in Earth, just a little different and more difficult to adjust to the new ways you watch over me. I've got beautiful encouraging cards and messages on your memorial site. They help and I am very thankful. I am happy to hear you've met new friends from this site. I hope to hear about it when I'll hold and kiss you one day. Love you forever my girl, your mama.
12/20/2022 My baby girl, it's been a month and though you are not here on Earth anymore, I can feel you around and inside me. I miss you so much. The pain of grief isn't getting that much better, just duller and more numb. Daddy and I have been hiking every wknd with you. Last Saturday it was 8 mile hike and you showed us some beautiful places. I can't wait to see where you are taking us this Saturday. I come on beach walks with you every day to your beach. Thank you for building me up through the last 15 years, to be able to face this heartache. I love you my Ava-baby.
12/25/2022 Ava baby, Merry Christmas my beautiful girl. It's so hard not having you physically on Earth. Don't forget, I am taking you to the mountain tomorrow for 5 nights to stay in the cabin and play in the snow. I'll be taking you back to the beach when we get back on 31st. I love you Ava. I miss you so much and sorry I am still crying for you every day. your mama
01/19/2023 My Ava, it's been 2 months. I am learning the new ways to be with you. Yet, it will never be the same without you here on Earth. I miss you baby so much. I am just glad you gave me so many happy memories. I see them every day on the new digital photo frame dedicated to you, every picture and video on it is you. I love seeing your face every day, every hour. I love you so much Ava. Thank you for watching over me all these years. I love you!