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Memories of Andy
He loved his car rides.. loved his treats and LOVED me...My Best friend and the love of my life, my heart was broken when he left me I will FOREVER LOVE HIM and HOLD HIM CLOSE IN MY HEART.
12/19/2018 - I archived off the journal entries from day 1 to day 30 so I have room to continue to write to you every day.
01/02/2019 I archived off another month so I can still write to you every day, I LOVE YOU.
01/09/2019, I think I write to you to much :) I had to archive off almost another month.
01/18/2019, I had to archive off a few more days to get more room to continue to leave you daily letters.
01/27/2019, I archived off days 60 to 65 so I can continue to write to yo each day. I LOVE YOU
02/01/2019, I had to archive off days 66 to 68 so I can keep sending you daily LOVE NOTES.
02/07/2019, I archived off a few more days so I can keep writing daily notes to you.
02/10/2019, I keep running out of room, but I have saved everything.
02/13/2019, Guess what MY LOVE, I needed to archive off again.
Good morning MY LOVE, day 80, to many lonely and empty days where I have longed to hug and kiss YOU, take YOU for a car ride, brush you, feed you but I can't and that hurts me so much, I MISS YOU so much. I looked at another puppy yesterday but I feel like you aren't ready to share me, but to be honest I am not ready to let go of you. So I guess we just have each other, but in reality we don't, we only have our memories. I have so many good ones of you, us but they are only memories. You took my heart with you and for now I just don't have one that I can give to anyone or anything. Thinking of you ALWAYS,LOVING YOU ALWAYS. KISSES, HUGS and BELLY RUBS. YOUR FOREVER LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 81. Yesterday was not a good day, I cried, stressed, worried but with your help I made a decision to get a new puppy. I will need your help to teach her to be as wonderful as you were. She cannot take your place but she can bring a little happiness into my life. I MISS YOU so much, YOU were and ALWAYS WILL be the LOVE OF MY LIFE. Watch over me my ANGEL, let me know you are here, some small gesture, I NEED to know that I have not LOST YOU. I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and lots of BELLY RUBS. YOUR FOREVER LOVING YOU MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 82, I feel like you are sad and disappointed in me because of the new puppy that I will be bringing home. Please don't leave me or stop loving me because of this decision, I couldn't bear that, YOU ARE MY LOVE, and maybe I will come to love her someday like I LOVE YOU but she is not going to replace you in my heart or mind. YOU ARE MY BABY BOY, my ONE TRUE LOVE please know that.. I will never leave YOU. I MISS YOU so much, hopefully this little girl can help me smile again and not cry as much. I WANT YOU BACK, my perfect HANDSOME BABY BOY or I want to come be with you but GOD hasn't made that happen. I would love to hug, kiss and scratch you, take you, not just your picture on our car rides or walks, sit on the couch with you, do all the things we used to do.. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. Please let me know you are OK and not mad at me I NEED to know that I have not LOST YOU. I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. HUGS, KISSES and lots of BELLY RUBS. YOUR FOREVER LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning BABY BOY, day 83, to many days that we have been apart. A week from tomorrow will be three LONG months. How are you doing, is my brother taking good care of you, have you found Molly again. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Please help me raise this new puppy I will need all the help you can give, because YOU helped me raise YOU. You will ALWAYS have my heart, will ALWAYS be in my heart and mind, I wish you were still here I WANT YOU BACK but I can only have you now in spirit. Please don't be mad at me about the puppy, I need something or someone to make me smile again, or at least try. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL and ALWAYS WILL. HUGS, KISSES and BELL RUBS.. YOUR FOREVER and ALWAYS LOVING MOMMY. Good morning my BABY BOY, day 84, 11 weeks since GOD took you HOME. You are my LOVE, and I MISS YOU so much but today I am going to go pick up a new puppy, a little girl, had to be a girl because you are my one and only BABY BOY. I need your help with her, to teach her and take her under your paw and help her try to heal my broken heart. I hope I can learn to love her, but my heart still hurts so much from losing you... my LOVE BUG. Please let me know you are OK with this, I don't want to break your heart. I LOVE YOU.. and MISS YOU. Wishing you were here so I could give you in person all the HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS that I want to give you, but until I join you in HEAVEN I can only dream about touching and kissing you again. Have a good day MY LOVE. I NEED to know that I have not LOST YOU. I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and lots of BELLY RUBS. YOUR FOREVER LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 85 since you left me. I know you would have stayed forever if you could have, but neither of us had that power. I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. I picked up Gracie yesterday, I am sure you saw that, she cannot replace you or my everlasting LOVE for YOU, she can only try to make me smile and maybe fill some of the emptiness in my heart. You were so perfect, MY BABY BOY the LOVE OF MY LIFE I will LOVE YOU FOREVER and ALWAYS. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. Good morning BABY BOY, today is 86 days we have been apart, to many days and nights. I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. You were the BEST little BOY ever I loved doing everything with you, spending all my time with you. I still cry everyday because I MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU EVEN MORE. I will NEVER STOP LOVING YOU. Come visit me LOVE BUG so I know you are still with me in spirit. I NEED YOU and WANT YOU even if only in spirit, and please help me with this new little puppy, its been a long time, almost 10 years since I had a puppy and you were almost double this little one's age, so I need the help and guidance, we turned out OK. Sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR FOREVER LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, today is day 87, coming up on three LONG months. I MISS YOU so much Still. I remember our drives, walks snuggling on the couch just watching TV, the way you would look at me each morning telling me you wanted fresh water (which I still change out every morning), the tap at your food bowl when you wanted dinner, the beautiful trusting looks at me telling me you would go anywhere and do anything with me. YOU ARE SO MUCH MY BABY BOY and you ALWAYS will be. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR FOREVER LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 88 and again I sit here crying while I am writing this note to you. Thank you for saying it was OK to get Gracie, she does make me laugh and smile, but in some ways she makes me miss you even more. I remember back when you were a puppy and your silliness, love and trust. I wish YOU could still be here with me, I just want to HUG and KISS you again. Please give me a sign you are still with me, I NEED to know I have NOT LOST YOU. I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 89. We have only two more days until we hit the three month mark. So very long to be apart, to not be able to see you, touch you, kiss and hug you. I hope you are OK, that my family is taking good care of you. I pray that in some small way a part of you is with me again in Gracie, she seems to have some of you silliness, especially with her paws. I hope part of you is back with me in her, I MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU even more. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning LOVE BUG, day 90, tomorrow will be three months and I MISS YOU as much now as I did that first day, I so want to HUG an KISS you again, nothing will ever be able to take your place in my heart, YOU were my EVERYTHING. I hope in some small or big way you are still here with me, sometimes I try to tell myself that you are, but maybe that is just wishful thinking. I LOVE YOU.. Have a good day my BABY BOY, as the song says I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning my ANGEL BOY, day 91, three long months. I MISS YOU so much and LOVE YOU. I wish this was all just a bad dream and that I could wake up and you would be beside me again, but that's not possible. I NEED you, please let me know you are still with me in spirit, I cannot stand the idea that you are GONE which is why I carry your pillow and picture everywhere and still take you on car rides. I LOVE YOU.. and MISS YOU so much. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 92. Time has passed so quickly and yet on some days it seems like such a long time. I think of you ALWAYS and wish you were still here with me. You were such a GOOD BOY and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I so want to HUG and KISS you you again but for now I have to settle for kissing your pictures on my phone or the framed picture I carry with me everywhere. I hope you still LOVE ME, but I also hope that my family is giving you love so you do not feel lost. GOD has to call me home for us to be together so we both have to try to be patient. Until then I am sending you ALL MY LOVE and as usual HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Hello MY LOVE, day 93, I LOVE YOU. The words that I leave here all say the same thing, I LOVE and MISS YOU but that is the most important thing I want you to know! I am starting to run out of writing room so will need to archive off the earlier writings so I can keep saying hello on a daily basis but I was technically challenged when I last tried that, I will see if I can do a better job this time. Have a good day LOVE BUG, and think of me as I ALWAYS think of YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 94 and my heart is still broken, YOU were the BEST BABY BOY EVER, you can never be replaced in my heart or my mind. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and want to HUG and KISS you, Brush you but I can't. Please let me know that you LOVE me still, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 94 and I am still crying, I MISS YOU my perfect handsome BABY BOY. You will always be my BABY BOY, nothing will ever replace you in my heart and I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU! I hope you have a good day MY LOVE, think of me and let me know you are near me still.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning my Handsome BOY. Today is day 95 and as usual I am sitting here crying as I write to you. Have I told you recently that I LOVE YOU, that you are my EVERYTHING and that I MISS YOU so very much. It's almost Christmas, this will be the first one in 10 years where we have not been together, you will not be here for my Birthday either this year. Why did you have to die so soon, I wanted \ needed more time. Wait for me MY LOVE, and please don't ever stop loving me, I will NEVER STOP LOVING YOU! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 96, tomorrow will be our 10 year anniversary, but we didn't quite make that date together. In spirit yes, but not in body. I LOVE YOU, and STILL MISS YOU so very much. I so long to look into those LOVING Brown Eyes and smother you with KISSES. Please know that in spirit I am doing just that. Sending you ALL MY LOVE and as always HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR FOREVER LOVING MOMMY. Happy Anniversary MY LOVE. Today would have been 10 years we would have been together. We almost made it, just came up 97 days short. I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS will. You will always be my BABY BOY. I MISS YOU so much still, and still cry everyday. I want to give you a present to celebrate our anniversary but I can't, so will have to settle for just remembering all the days we had together. Have a wonderful day MY LOVE, I hope you think of me sometimes or often, YOU are ALWAYS in my HEART and Thoughts. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. Thank you for being my special BABY BOY. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 98, to many long and lonely days that have been empty without you here with me. I felt you with me yesterday, it was just a fleeting moment while I was writing my anniversary note to you. It was like you were in my office again sleeping on one of your beds, it made me smile to know you came to me on our anniversary to say you LOVE ME. THANK YOU. You are my LIFETIME LOVE, no one and nothing can replace you in my life, heart or mind. I am looking forward to being with you again and for eternity. Until then, sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. I LOVE YOU... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Hello my LOVE BUG, day 99 and I am pretty much still a wreck. I cry multiple times a day still, I can't seem to stop, I MISS YOU SO MUCH. As I have said before, you were my everything, we spent all our time together and did everything together. You didn't like being away from me any more than I liked being away from you. I felt you here in my office again yesterday, THANK YOU, it gives me comfort and happiness to feel that you are still here with me. I will NEVER stop LOVING YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY, sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning ANDY, MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY EVERYTHING.. today is day 100 and the pain is as fresh and painful as day 1. I cannot stop crying, I MISS YOU SO MUCH and my life is so empty without you. I want to KISS YOU, HUG YOU, SEE YOU, but all I can do is look at and kiss your pictures. Nothing is the same without you. I don't feel happiness, I don't want to be around other people, they don't understand why I am still so sad. Christmas is around the corner but you won't be here with me so what's the point, you are all I had. Please come visit me, let me know in some small way you are still with me. I WILL NEVER FORGET you and will ALWAYS LOVE YOU! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 101. So many days, so many missed cuddles, rides and kisses, so many tears. I think I felt you with me on our walk this morning but can't be sure if it was really you or my wishing it was you with me. Christmas this year won't be the same, nothing will ever be the same. I want you back or want to be with you. The thought of years apart is so empty and painful. I hope that what they say about time in Heaven is true, that years seem to be only a blink of they eye I don't want to think of you as sad and empty as I am. Send me your love BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, and MISS YOU. I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, we are at day 102. I don't know were the time has gone your death is still so fresh in my mind, your beautiful body just lying there, first where you died and then on your birthday dog bed that you only had for 10 days. I had you with me for almost 5 hours before they picked you up to be cremated.5 hours to be able to one last time run my fingers through your fur, pet you, kiss you and hug you. I MISS YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE and I think about you always. I thought I saw you last night in the family room, just a blur of something tan, so maybe it was you letting me know you ARE still here with me. PLEASE STAY with me, I NEED YOU, MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 103 and the day before Christmas. This is going to be the worst Christmas EVER and I wish I could just ignore it. This would have been our 10th Christmas together. I wanted to buy you a present but that seemed stupid so instead I will put some ham in your food bowl tomorrow so you can share at least in memory the day with me, or me with you, whatever. For some reason I woke up crying for you this morning, I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU so much and I want to be with you again, forever and ever. I hurt BABY BOY, you STOLE my heart, were my BEST FRIEND and my TRUE LOVE, you still are and always will be and my heart is forever yours. Please come visit me tomorrow, I LOVE YOU and NEED YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVE. Day 104, and this time 10 years ago we were celebrating our first Christmas together, we had only been together one week. I don't remember what we did, probably just played on the floor with your new toys. I hope your are here with me in spirit today, I am and will be thinking of you and crying much of the day. Do you know how much I MISS YOU and how very much I LOVE YOU. Give Jinx and mom a lick (kiss) from me I hope they are taking good care of you. I am so alone without you.. I just want to be with you again, forever this time, Please let me know you are near, I can't bear to think that you are gone from me forever I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY ANGEL. Have a wonderful day, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning BABY BOY, day 105. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas, mine sucked as usual but even more so because you were not with me to snuggle up on the couch, go for a walk or beg for some of the ham, but you were in my thoughts and hopefully near to me all day. I hope you know how very much I LOVE you, you were my BEST FRIEND, my CO-PILOT, my EVERYTHING. I so very much want you back with me, but that isn't possible, so I just write to you everyday, think of you every minute of the day and cry. Will you come wish me a Happy Birthday tomorrow, let me know you are still in some way with me and still love me. I think you do, you so loved me in life and I don't think that goes away in death. After tomorrow I don't want any more birthdays, I just want to come HOME and be with you again, forever!!! I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 106 and my birthday. This will be the first one in 10 years that we haven't shared together. I at least was able to celebrate your 10 year birthday with you, and then 12 days later GOD took you home and away from me. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH, as I have said before YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING. I still go for our walks every morning, just your picture and me, I pretend that I can see you, I stop at all your favorite trees and bushes I can't not do that routine, it was US and I still need to believe in US. Have a good day LOVE BUG, send me a birthday kiss or feather if you can, or just an I LOVE YOU thought. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOU OLDER but ALWAYS LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 107. So many days and nights without you physically here with me. I want to think that your soul or spirit is here but I don't feel you most of the time, but sometimes I think I do. I know you love me as much as I LOVE YOU and that you would never leave me but GOD took you from me and took you HOME to Heaven. I will join you as soon as I can but the timing is not in my hands. Until then know that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 108. The days are getting longer without you and the nights more lonely. I miss hearing you dreaming at night, the little sounds you would make made me smile, I wish I had made recordings and videos that I could look back on but it never crossed my mind to do so. I only have your pictures to look at, and I lost 5 years of them when I lost my phone back in June. I tried to take as many more as I could because I knew what they said about how much time you probably had, I didn't want to believe them, you were doing so well on the medications, but something BAD happened on that fate-full 9/11 morning and you were gone. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Wait for me LOVE BUG, please don't forget me. I will get there as soon as I can. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. KISSES, HUGS and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 109. The days keep piling up an my tears keep falling. I left you some blankets yesterday and an ottoman for you to sleep on, you loved your blankets. I wish I could wrap you up in warm blankets like I used to do, snuggle with you, feel your warmth next to me. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU EVEN MORE. You were ALWAYS such a GOOD BOY and so very HANDSOME. Have a good day MY LOVE, think of me and let me know you are with me still, it is hard enough to know that your body left me, but I cannot wrap my head around the idea that your spirit has left too.. we LOVED EACH OTHER to much for that to happen. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Hello LOVE BUG. Have I told you recently that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU... I DO. Today is day 110, to many days without you, to many nights alone. I wish I knew what you are feeling, thinking, doing, I hope my family is taking good care of you and that you found Molly to run and play with again. Do you miss me too, do you still love me or even remember me? I think you do, I think we remember all our loved ones even though we die. You have my family around you now, I am alone with my memories and broken heart. Have a good day MY LOVE, and be safe, tonight is New Year's Eve :). Sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 111 and New Years Day 2019. I had hoped and prayed that we would see this day together but that wasn't to be. This would have been our 11th New Year together but now it is the first New Year where we aren't together sitting on the couch and watching the parade. I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY BOY, you were and still are MY EVERYTHING. I am trying to move on a bit but I really don't want to, I just WANT YOU. I want to SEE YOU, TOUCH YOU, KISS YOU, take YOU for a walk and drive not just your picture. I don't know how to live without you, and to be honest I don't want to,but I don't have control of that. Please let me know you still love me and are with me... I NEED YOU SO MUCH, I HURT SO MUCH. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 112 and the day after New Year's 2019. Yesterday was a bad day for me, think you could figure that out from the entry I wrote yesterday. I cried much of the day, I wanted you with me still, wanted to be with you. I didn't feel you with me at all, maybe you were celebrating YOUR FIRST NEW YEAR in Heaven, if so that's OK, it is your home now. I know you will never forget me, I know you LOVED ME and I KNOW you KNOW much I LOVED YOU and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day MY LOVE. I am sending your ALL MY LOVE and a million HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning LOVE BUG, day 113 and as usual I start the day off crying. Have I told you lately that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART..but the problem is I can't share that love with you anymore. I can't look into your loving brown eyes, can't kiss you, rub your ears, brush you and can't take YOU on car rides or feed you treats. It isn't fair, I didn't want you to die so soon, OK truth, I never wanted you to die without me going with you. I'm trying MY LOVE but when I was blessed with something as special as you it is hard to know what to do or even want to do anything without you. I hope you have a good day, please think of me and try to let me know you are near, I MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning my HANDSOME BOY, day 114 and my heart is still in pieces and hurts as much today as on the first day, maybe more because so much time has passed. I wish you were still here with me, I MISS YOU so much. You were the BEST BOY EVER and you LOVED ME as much as I LOVED YOU, I STILL LOVE YOU and will NEVER stop. It's early still here but I will take you for a ride shortly, I don't think I have missed a day (oops I did miss Christmas this year) but aside from that I took you on a ride every day of your life after your heart diagnosis, and have continued to take you, in spirit, since you died. I cannot bear to break traditions, that would be to permanent a change and the only permanent change I want is to be with you again. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY and MISS YOU... have a wonderful day, let me know you are near and still Love Me. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS, YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Hello MY LOVE, day 115, the day are all the same, I wake up, I cry, I go through the motions of living, I cry, I take you symbolically for a car ride, I cry. I MISS YOU, my perfect ANGEL. You were so Handsome, so good, so Loving. The only thing wrong with you was your weak heart, but you had a BIG heart and gave all of it to me and I gave all of mine to you. So where does that leave us... Me now with the broken heart and you gone from me until I can come home to heaven and be with you again. I have no clue how long we have to wait for that and I hope that while it will be so long for me, they say time in Heaven is just a blink of an eye so hopefully the wait won't seem as long for you. Thank you for the feather this morning, it was your color so hopefully you sent it to me to let me know you are watching over me. I hope you are. Please let me know you are here sometimes, I MISS YOU and NEED to know you are OK. Sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 116. Have I told you recently the I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, YOU are my ANGEL, MY LOVE, MY EVERYTHING and I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. If you were here right now I would be HUGGING you and smothering you with KISSES, I would tell you that you can NEVER leave me again, you have to take me with you, I don't want to be apart from you but GOD hasn't called me HOME, so we have to remain apart for now, I hope it won't be to long, but every day is to long for me. You ARE my ANGEL NOW, watch over me, LOVE ME, and know that I LOVE YOU. Have a good day LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 117. In the last 6 years I never wanted to be away from you for an hour let alone a day, and here we are, 117 days apart. If that fact wasn't hard enough to take I have add to it that I have no idea how many days, months, years we will still be apart. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, and I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART or what I have left because you took most of my heart with you when you died. Part of me died that day too, I lost my best friend, my partner in all things, MY LOVE. YOU were MY EVERYTHING and I MISS YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY, think of me and try to let me know you are near, I NEED YOU. HUGS, KISSES. and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Hello MY LOVE, day 118, in two more days it will be 4 months since GOD took you HOME and away from me. I hope you have made new friends and are not as sad and lonely as I am. For the last 6 years you were my life, we did everything together so now it is just so hard to want to do anything because you are not here to share it with me. I used to worry so much about you, those seizures you had occasionally and then the heart diagnosis, that one was a real kick in the stomach, a death sentence but with no specific date or timeline, just wait and worry. You made it almost a year after the diagnosis but I thought we had more time, I WANTED MORE TIME. The medications were working so well, or so I thought. then 9/11/18 came around and my world changed forever, yours too. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. Please let me know you are still here with me I NEED YOU!!!. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning my HANDSOME BABY BOY. day 119 and I MISS YOU as much today as on the day you died. The emptiness has subsided a bit, I guess I understand you passed away but it has been so many days and nights without you. It doesn't mean I don't still cry a bucket of tears each day and wish you were still with me, or better yet me with you. If I were in HEAVEN with you we would NEVER AGAIN be parted, but GOD has to call me home, so I wait and you have to wait too. Please know that I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART and you will get the biggest HUG when we meet again. Sending you HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 120, tomorrow will be four months that you have been gone and I LOVE and MISS you as much now as I did 4 months ago. I wish I could roll back time and have you with me a little longer, but then I would have to go through these long 4 months again, but I think it would be worth it to have you back for a little while. I slept in today, just didn't want to get out of bed, sometimes you would give me that look of just a few more minutes Mom and if I was real lucky and it was a cold morning you would come up next to me and snuggle, you did that a lot when you were younger, not so much in recent years except on the couch, there we always snuggled. Have a good day MY LOVE, know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and I am looking forward to the day we can be reunited for eternity. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 121 and the 4 month mark. So many days and nights without your sweet handsome soul here with me, so many days I have not been able to look into your beautiful brown eyes. They say eyes are the window to the soul, YOUR eyes always said I LOVE YOU.. I hope and pray that you saw the same thing in my eyes. You know you were my everything, I pretty much would not go anywhere unless you could come with me. I am sure many people didn't understand but I didn't care. You were MY BABY BOY and I wanted you with me. I LOVE YOU ANDY, and MISS YOU SO MUCH. Thank you for the anniversary feather this morning, it was your color and it says you miss me and think of me too. Have a good day MY LOVE, you are ALWAYS IN MY HEART. I wish I could deliver these in person, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. I LOVE YOU... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning BABY BOY, day 122. The days keep mounting up and my tears keep falling. I MISS YOU and LOVE you so much. I just go through the motions each day, not accomplishing much, not wanting to do much without you by my side... you were my side-kick, my co-pilot, MY EVERYTHING... and we did almost everything together, I never wanted to leave you behind, but GOD called you HOME and you left me behind. What am I supposed to do without you? It may be years until I can be with you again, I don't want to wait years, these last four months have been hard enough, to have to wait 10 or 20 years is just to hard to think about. Have a good day MY LOVE, think of me and send me a message that your spirit is still with me I NEED YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 123. Have I told you recently that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART? My days are pretty empty without you, but I think of you constantly and remember when you were with me and we could do all our favorite things or just do nothing. Just being in your company was good enough for me, YOU were ALL that I needed and wanted. I keep trying to feel you with me, but I can't, I can imagine you on our walks, the way you always looked for me, your beautiful brown eyes looking at me with so much LOVE and TRUST. I am sorry if I in some way let you down at the end, I tried everything to keep us together, but everything was just not enough. Please let GOD know you want to be with me again, I don't want to wait 10 or 20 years. I LOVE YOU MY FUR ANGEL.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. GOOD MORNING my LOVE BUG, day 124. It's raining here today, supposed to rain on and off for most of the week. I never figured out if you actually minded the rain but I know it made a mess out of your paws so I didn't like taking you out in it much. But no worries, we went out for our daily walk this morning, just like we do everyday, your picture your pillow and me, I stop at all your favorite spots, your pee places and poop lawns and I can sort of picture you in my mind, would LOVE to actually see you and touch you, but no matter what my wishes are that one doesn't seem possible on earth anymore. What do you do all day? Are you happy, have you found friends to play with, is my family taking care of you? I have so many questions about how YOU are but I have no answers. Please let me know that you are OK, and that you still LOVE ME and MISS ME, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY BABY BOY, day 125, 18 long,lonely and sad weeks that we have been apart. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, you were the best pup ever and you made it so easy for me to fall HOPELESSLY IN LOVE WITH YOU, I will ALWAYS be in LOVE WITH YOU. You took my heart when you died, I wish you could have taken all of me so we would still be together, but that wasn't in YOUR power and I don't think you wanted to die any more than I wanted you you to leave me. I MISS YOU MY LOVE and NEED to know that you have not forgotten me, that you are still watching over me, helping me and LOVING ME. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and you still are, which is why my heart is so broken, I WANT YOU WITH ME, I still try to do a lot of the things I did with\for you when you were alive, I cannot break with those things, doing so would mean you ARE GONE, which I know you are but our traditions LIVE ON and with those traditions I can fool myself that you are still here in some small way with me. It sounds stupid perhaps but it is what I NEED to do. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 126. The days keep piling up with no end in sight and my tears keep falling, again with no end in sight. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much. I wish I could touch you, hug and kiss you again, Look into those big brown eyes and see the love you always had for me. Please know that I loved you just as much and I tried to do everything for you to keep you happy, healthy and handsome. You loved looking your best and Loved going to the groomer. Sandy misses you too. Please know that you are always close to me in thought and dreams, please let me know you are near too. I LOVE YOU, and MISS YOU so much. Have a good day, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 127 and I MISS YOU as much now as the first day, perhaps more because the days keep dawning and you are never here anymore. I hope you knew how much I LOVED YOU, and I hope somehow you know that I still do. I never wanted to let you go your life or y9our lifeless body, and I was so happy when I could pick up your ashes after only 3 days instead of two weeks. I WANTED \ NEEDED you home with me even if it was only your ashes. It's raining again today, so we cannot take our morning walk but maybe later, we will still go for a ca ride I promise. I only missed one day in 15 months, a promise is a promise. Technically the promise was while you were still alive but it is so much a part of our routine I just cannot stop. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU. HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 128, so many days without you being here with me in body. I want to think that your are still here in spirit but I don't feel you with me very often. I wonder what you do with your days, things aren't the same in Heaven as they were here, no car rides, no walks with me, maybe no hugs and kisses and definitely no grooming. It's OK my days aren't the same either because you are not here to share them with me anymore. I am trying to figure out how to live without you but it is hard because I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU so much. My tears are never ending and my LOVE for you is NEVER ENDING. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 129. I saw a beautiful star this morning, there were only two in the entire sky, the other one didn't shine as bright, I hope the bright one was you watching over me and letting me know that you are still here loving me as much as I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I don't know what to do with this sadness I feel all the time. I want to HUG you again, KISS you and look into your beautiful brown eyes, the eyes that always said I LOVE YOU MOM!!! I hope you know how very much I LOVE YOU and MISS you. Have a good day LOVE BUG. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 130. I saw your star again this morning. I stood outside staring at it and talking to you for awhile and yes crying, when I looked again about 2 minutes later it was gone. Can I fool myself and think that is really you watching over me? Now I am in a bad mood, I want your star back and I want YOU back. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and I don't know how to make it stop. Do you know how much I LOVE YOU, I hope you do, I told you often enough and am still telling you. There isn't anything I wouldn't have done for you. You are my Angel now, help me Andy, I hurt, I am so sad and today I am angry. I know you LOVED ME, I could see it in your eyes, I wish I could look into those eyes one more time, but if I could I would NEVER let you go again, not having you with me hurts so bad. Send me your LOVE BABY BOY, I NEED YOU! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE. Day 131 and it still feels like day 1. I MISS YOU so much. I want you back, want to be able to do all the things we used to do, or just do nothing but be together. I hope you knew and know how very much I LOVED YOU and still do LOVE YOU that will never stop. You are my once in a lifetime love and even though GOD took you home my LOVE for YOU will never stop. I saw the star again this morning, it was shining very brightly, it will make me sad when I no long see it, I want to think it is you saying good morning and watching over me, silly I know but I can't bear thinking you are gone forever from me. Please give me a little sign that you are still here with me... I NEED YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning LOVE BUG, day 132. The days keep mounting up and sometimes it seems like they go by so slowly, but other times it seems they have gone by so fast. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I want to KISS your beautiful face and HUG YOU and NEVER let you go. I don't know how I came to deserve you, except for your heart you were perfect, so loving, so smart, so trusting. You would do anything for me and you knew I would do anything for you. I tried ANDY, I wanted us to be together for a lot longer but GOD had other plans and now I can only wait for HIM to take me home to YOU and to HIM. Wait for me MY LOVE, they say years in Heaven are just a blink of an eye, not so here, but I am waiting and hoping to be with you again soon, this time for ETERNITY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS..YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 133. How are you doing today, I don't think I have asked how YOU are, I just keep telling you how I AM. I hope you have made friends with pets that have been in my life and that my family is taking good care of you. I don't want to think of you as sad and lonely like I am. I would be hugging and Kissing you if you were here, but GOD took you HOME and left me behind. Do you still have the toy I put with you after you died... I hope so, maybe it gives you some comfort and memories of OUR HOME and ME. Thank you for all the feathers I found yesterday on our walk.. they made me smile just like your star. Have a wonderful day BABY BOY... I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 134. One Hundred and thirty four days since I was last able to look into your beautiful trusting brown eyes, since I was last able to KISS and HUG YOU, since our last car ride where you had your head out the window enjoying the air. I loved watching your ears fly with the wind, and you were good you only put half your head out most of the time and we never had the windows down on the freeway. The exception was going to the groomer, you were so happy to go and see Sandy that you would put one paw and your whole head and neck out.. Sandy took a picture of that because it was so cute. I wish you were still here to do that still. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. Thank you for your heavenly star and the feathers this morning, they make me happy but also make me cry because you are not in my arms, not somewhere that I can touch and kiss you for now. Wait for me BABY BOY, someday GOD will call me home and then we will forever be together. That is HIS promise and I believe that with all my heart. Have a good day MY LOVE.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 135 and I think I am missing you more each day, I know I still cry a bucket of tears for you every day. I so much want to HUG YOU, KISS YOU, look into your big beautiful trusting eyes and tell you I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I want you HOME with me again, I HURT SO BAD, I MISS YOU so MUCH. You were my perfect BABY BOY and you Loved Me so much, you would have done anything for me but neither of us could change what was going to happen although I tried to at least keep you with me for as long as possible but it wasn't long enough, and now you have been gone so long and I am so sad and lonely. Please let me know how to find you, what to look for, some signs that you are still here with me, You are in MY HEART but I need to know your spirit is here with me to... I can't bear the thought that I have lost all of you. Have a good day BABY BOY.. I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 136. The days are hurting more again and I just keep crying. I MISS YOU so MUCH. My heart hurts and all I want to do is have you back or be with you in Heaven. Each morning I look for the star that I am calling ANDY's star, I talk to it\you and tell you how much I LOVE and MISS YOU. I feel like in some way you are with me, watching over me, but I know some morning I will look for you in the sky and won't see your star. Yes it will come back in a month or so, but I don't want you to ever leave me again, I want you to stay with me, I want to be with you I NEED YOU ANDY.. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING. Please let me know you are here with me.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I know you LOVE ME TOO, together we can find a way, please let me know that is possible, please tell GOD that I NEED TO BE WITH YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE BUG.. I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE. Day 137. I seem to cry more easily these days and the tears last longer. Whenever I think of you I cry, yes I smile sometimes too remembering what we used to do together, car rides, walks, sitting on the couch, but the smiles always lead to tears again because we can't do those things anymore, we can't do ANYTHING TOGETHER anymore. I watched your star fade away this morning, and I cried, it made me remember when you died, one moment you appeared to be happy and healthy, and the next moment you were gone, no warning. For you and I guess in some ways me it was a blessing, you didn't suffer, but for me I wasn't ready for you to go, I wanted more time, but no amount of time would have made me ready to lose you. YOU WERE and STILL ARE MY EVERYTHING. Have a good day BABY BOY. I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, MY HANDSOME BOY, day 138, I woke up crying this morning, I MISS YOU so much and the pain and loneliness just doesn't go away. I don't want to go on without you any longer but I don't have a say in the matter, only GOD can call me HOME,the same GOD that took you away from me. Maybe it was your time, but I wasn't ready, not that fast, not that soon, you were only 10, that isn't so very old that I shouldn't have been able to enjoy you for a few more years, but I admit, if I had a few more years the pain would have been worse. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and YOU STILL ARE. If you can, Please let me know you are with me still, some sign, some sound, anything... I NEED YOU!!! Have a good day MY LOVE, please know that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, with ALL MY HEART and I can't wait to be with you again, for ETERNITY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 140, twenty weeks that we have been apart. I never knew I could cry this much, that I had so many tears but I do and they are ALL FOR YOU. We still go by the grooming salon every Tuesday and take our walk around the block, there are just some things I cannot let go of. I had no choice in letting go of you, but our activities and the memories of them I continue to remember and do. I remember all the stops you wanted to make on our walks, I remember your cute little butt trotting down the street in front of me, the lawns you liked to stop at and the bushes you liked to pee on. I can see you in my mind when I take those walks and stop at those places, I MISS YOU ANDY...and I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH. I hope you remember me and can see me in your mind, our car rides together, sitting on the couch, our walks, your treats. I know I keep asking but please let me know you are still here with me... I NEED to know I haven't lost your spirit too. Have a good day MY LOVE.. HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 141. I hope you had a good day yesterday, mine wasn't so great, my body hurt due to the fall I took on Sunday, my patience was non existent and I was MISSING YOU SO MUCH. This new Puppy is definitely NOT YOU and that makes me MISS YOU even more. You were SO PERFECT and I think you were that way almost from day one... I know you were HANDSOME from day 1. I didn't see your star this morning, it's supposed to rain tonight so there are to many clouds but I still talked to you as I always do on our morning walk and I found a tiny feather that you left for me. Thank you.... Have a good day BABY BOY, think of me and send me your love. I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 142. All to soon it will be 5 long months that we will be apart and I MISS YOU as much now maybe more than when you first left me in GOD's loving arms. I am LOST without you, I have no purpose and no desire to do anything without YOU here with me. Tell me YOU LOVE ME STILL, that YOU are here with me.. I NEED YOU, I MISS YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY, please know YOU are ALWAYS IN MY HEART and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 143. I saw a star above my house this morning again, just one and it was right above where we lived. Was that you saying good morning and watching over me? On on our walk this morning it felt like you ran up to me so I bent down and tried to give you a hug and a kiss. I hope you felt that. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I will believe almost anything to think that you are still with me in some way and I hope you know that I think of you always and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 144. It's raining this morning so I didn't see your star, but we did still go for our walk and hit all your favorite pee and poop places. I know, I didn't like taking you out in the rain because your furry feet would get so wet and then both of us made a mess of the wood floors but its different now...and I wish I had the old times back. I MISS YOU MY LOVE, nothing is right without you. I want to know what you do all day, I don't want you to be as lost and lonely as I am. Have a good day BABY BOY, please let me know you still LOVE ME and are NEAR. HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 145. I saw your star above my house this morning, you had GOD clear the rain clouds so I could see it and you could look down at your house. You didn't stay long, but long enough for me to see you and tell you how very much I LOVE and MISS you. You are my ANGEL now, and I want to believe you see me and in some way are still with me. I told you on our walk that I wish I could TOUCH, KISS and HUG YOU again but I will have to wait until we are together in Heaven. It will happen someday, I promise. For now, please KNOW that I LOVE YOU and am looking forward to being with you for eternity. Have a good day BABY BOY.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY.
Good morning MY LOVE, day 146. I again saw your star this morning, shining over the house and watching over me and maybe letting me know you are still here with me. I HOPE YOU KNOW that YOU are SO LOVED and MISSED I wanted you to stay longer with me, but GOD said no and he gently took you HOME but away from me. I'll join you as soon as HE calls me home, but for now knowing (ok, hoping) that you are here watching over me is all I have and I will keep telling myself that you are here in spirit, in the star, in my HEART and MIND. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 147, 21 weeks and one week away from 5 months that you have been gone. I remember that day as if it was yesterday, how happy and seemingly healthy you were, then 10 min later you were gone. My Handsome Boy, why did you have to leave so soon, I wanted more time with you, needed more time and memories and now all I have left are my memories. Almost 10 years wasn't enough time, but it is all I had. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART. Thank you for your star again this morning.. I love thinking that you are watching over me and you LOVE ME still. Have a good day MY BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 148. The days keep accumulating and my heart never heals I MISS YOU and want you to be with me again. Your morning star makes me smile and cry at the same time, I tell myself it is you saying good morning and watching over me and your house, it is a beautiful star and it shines so brightly and it is the only one left in the heavens each morning. I hope it never goes away, I never wanted YOU to go away and as I said I try to convince myself that in some ways maybe you haven't.Now if only I can find a way to trick myself into thinking I am hugging, kissing and looking into your beautiful trusting brown eyes. As I said at the beginning I MISS YOU, please know that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 149. Another day I have to wake up and know that I cannot feed, brush, kiss, touch or see you. I want you back, I want more time, a few more years but I know that isn't possible and I would hurt even more when I lost you. I never knew I could cry so much, that I could hurt so much. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU and I hope you LOVE ME too. I don't want you to be sad and lonely and I hope my family is taking good care of you, but I am all alone, yes I have Gracie but we are just getting to know each other... YOU on the other hand were my BABY BOY and we knew each other very well. Thank you for the star again this morning, I really do believe it is you saying you are still here and watching over me and I LOVE thinking that. Have a good sleep after watching me all night. I'll see you again tomorrow morning. I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 150. It will be 5 long months in just a few more days it will be 5 months, 5 LONG and SAD MONTHS. Your star was watching over our house again last night and you waited again until we finished our walk to fade away. I LOVE YOU so much and MISS YOU, I want to RUB YOUR EARS, SCRATCH YOUR CHIN look into your Beautiful Brown Eyes, so trusting and always so full of LOVE. Please know and remember that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, that is a Promise. Crying again\still but as always, sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning my LOVE, day 151. It's raining again. Rain was always an issue for us.. you weren't wild about it but would go out, the coming back in was what I didn't like.. you were like a wet mop :) ... I would keep towels at the front door to TRY to dry your feet at least, but mostly that didn't work. It wasn't a big deal, floors can be mopped, I just didn't want you to be cold and get sick. I never wanted you to be sick I never wanted to loose you, but you died anyway. Unfortunately the clouds today blocked your star but I know you were there walking with me, I know you are ALWAYS THERE with me, I just can't see or feel you. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 152 and tomorrow will be 5 long, lonely and sad months that we have been apart. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and MISS YOU and all that we used to to together. Everything has changed since GOD took you HOME, OK not everything, MY LOVE for you hasn't changed and never will. I saw your star this morning, I didn't think I would since we still have rain clouds, but I looked up and there you were, shining so brightly as if to say HEY MOM, LOOK AT ME. You couldn't stay long because of the clouds but I know you wanted to say good morning too. Have a good day MY LOVE, know that I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. I MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY EVERYTHING!! Day 153 and five long months that you have been gone from my arms. YOU are ALWAYS IN MY HEART but I cannot KISS, HUG or TOUCH YOU and I SO MISS ALL the things we used to be able to do. I saw your star this morning, the rain clouds cleared and there you were, shinning so bright, watching over me and letting me know you are OK, that YOU STILL LOVE ME and ARE WITH ME. I LOVE YOU ANDY, I will NEVER stop LOVING YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE, I MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, today is 154 days, broken down is 22 weeks or in hours it is 3696 hours that we have been apart. Anyway you look at it , it is to long and my heart still hurts so much. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU ANDY... MY BABY BOY, MY HANDSOME BEAUTIFUL BOY. I want to HUG you again and NEVER LET YOU GO! Today would have been your grooming day, so as usual I took you by the shop so we could do our walk with Sandy, Unfortunately you can't get your bath anymore and I know you LOVED them, but your beautiful body isn't here anymore to bath, brush or hug anymore. I LOVE YOU and I want you back. Please help me MY LOVE, I am so SAD. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 155. Another morning that I have to wake up and not find you next to me. I long to take YOU for a walk again, a ride, feed you heck even give you your medications that I haven't been able to yet take off the kitchen counter. I MISS YOU so very much, and am so sad most of the time because you are not here with me anymore. One of the things I MISS most is looking into your trusting beautiful eyes, they always said I LOVE YOU.. I am glad I didn't see any pain or fear in them when you died, it happened so fast I don't think either one of us knew what was happening until you were gone. We were blessed that it happened so fast, but I wish it didn't happen then, I wanted you with me for a lot longer. Please know that I STILL LOVE YOU and will ALWAYS LOVE YOU. HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 156 and I MISS YOU more than ever. Just one more HUG, one more time to brush you, feed you, take you for a car ride, but who am I kidding, one more would every day be one more, I wanted FOREVER WITH YOU, I NEVER wanted to lose you!!! It's raining this morning so we haven't been able to go out for our walk, I just tried but it started pouring so we will wait for the rain to subside a bit. We didn't go out in the rain much, you would get SO wet and you had so much beautiful fur that needed to get dry otherwise it would get so wavy. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY, and long to be with you again. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS, YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 157 and I am still crying and MISSING YOU with all my HEART, or what is left of it, so much of it went to HEAVEN with you so you would always have me near and would know that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I saw a cloud this morning, it looked like a picture of you that I have, laying on your side, one paw up saying HI 5 MOM, I LOVE YOU so much.. and MISS YOU. I don't know what to do with my time, I only know I want you!!! Have a good day my handsome boy, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 158. I cried most of the day yesterday, and started again once I woke up today. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH, my life isn't the same without you. You know that I have only few friends. they all have their own lives and most don't understand why I am still so sad so I just stay by myself and don't even bother. I saw your star this morning, only briefly but it was there, you were watching over me. I want you BACK BABY BOY, my heart is so broken without you, I NEED YOU. If you can, in some small way let me know you are still here with me, loving me, I NEED YOU, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU. HUGS, KISS and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 159 and again I woke up missing you and started crying. I don't know how to stop missing you and I will NEVER stop LOVING YOU. I saw your star this morning, but it fades away faster these days so I guess I will have to get up and go for our walks earlier so we can spend that time together. I hope you are not as sad and lonely as I am but I know you miss me too. We were inseparable, I wanted you with me always and you always wanted to be with me and I feel the same way now which is why I CANNOT stop doing our routines, a walk, filling your water bowl, talking to you and taking you (your picture and pillow) on daily car rides. I will NEVER FORGET YOU and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY.
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