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Memories of Andy
He loved his car rides.. loved his treats and LOVED me...My Best friend and the love of my life, my heart was broken when he left me I WILL FOREVER LOVE HIM and ALWAYS HOLD HIM CLOSE IN MY HEART.
03/04/2019, I have archived many of my letters to you. This way I have more room to continue to write to you. I have it all saved on my computer, so nothing will ever be lost. 03/13/19 It is getting hard to select entries to archive off from this site.. I want people to know how special you were and how much I LOVE YOU.
Happy Anniversary MY LOVE. Today would have been 10 years we would have been together. We almost made it, just came up 97 days short. I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS will. You will always be my BABY BOY. I MISS YOU so much still, and still cry everyday. I want to give you a present to celebrate our anniversary but I can't, so will have to settle for just remembering all the days we had together. Have a wonderful day MY LOVE, I hope you think of me sometimes or often, YOU are ALWAYS in my HEART and Thoughts. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. Thank you for being my special BABY BOY. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 98, to many long and lonely days that have been empty without you here with me. I felt you with me yesterday, it was just a fleeting moment while I was writing my anniversary note to you. It was like you were in my office again sleeping on one of your beds, it made me smile to know you came to me on our anniversary to say you LOVE ME. THANK YOU. You are my LIFETIME LOVE, no one and nothing can replace you in my life, heart or mind. I am looking forward to being with you again and for eternity. Until then, sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. I LOVE YOU... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 103 and the day before Christmas. This is going to be the worst Christmas EVER and I wish I could just ignore it. This would have been our 10th Christmas together. I wanted to buy you a present but that seemed stupid so instead I will put some ham in your food bowl tomorrow so you can share at least in memory the day with me. For some reason I woke up crying for you this morning, I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU so much and I want to be with you again, forever and ever. I hurt BABY BOY, you STOLE my heart, were my BEST FRIEND and my TRUE LOVE, you still are and always will be and my heart is forever yours. Please come visit me tomorrow, I LOVE YOU and NEED YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVE. Day 104, and this time 10 years ago we were celebrating our first Christmas together, we had only been together one week. I don't remember what we did, probably just played on the floor with your new toys. I hope your are here with me in spirit today, I am and will be thinking of you and crying much of the day. Do you know how much I MISS YOU and how very much I LOVE YOU. Give Jinx and mom a lick (kiss) from me I hope they are taking good care of you. I am so alone without you.. I just want to be with you again, forever this time, Please let me know you are near, I can't bear to think that you are gone from me forever I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY ANGEL. Have a wonderful day, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning BABY BOY, day 105. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas, mine sucked as usual but even more so because you were not with me to snuggle up on the couch, go for a walk or beg for some of the ham, but you were in my thoughts and hopefully near to me all day. I hope you know how very much I LOVE you, you were my BEST FRIEND, my CO-PILOT, my EVERYTHING. I so very much want you back with me, but that isn't possible, so I just write to you everyday, think of you every minute of the day and cry. Will you come wish me a Happy Birthday tomorrow, let me know you are still in some way with me and still love me. I think you do, you so loved me in life and I don't think that goes away in death. After tomorrow I don't want any more birthdays, I just want to come HOME and be with you again, forever!!! I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 106 and my birthday. This will be the first one in 10 years that we haven't shared together. I at least was able to celebrate your 10 year birthday with you, and then 12 days later GOD took you home and away from me. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH, as I have said before YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING. I still go for our walks every morning, just your picture and me, I pretend that I can see you, I stop at all your favorite trees and bushes I can't not do that routine, it was US and I still need to believe in US. Have a good day LOVE BUG, send me a birthday kiss or feather if you can, or just an I LOVE YOU thought. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOU OLDER but ALWAYS LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 111 and New Years Day 2019. I had hoped and prayed that we would see this day together but that wasn't to be. This would have been our 11th New Year together but now it is the first New Year where we aren't together sitting on the couch and watching the parade. I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY BOY, you were and still are MY EVERYTHING. I am trying to move on a bit but I really don't want to, I just WANT YOU. I want to SEE YOU, TOUCH YOU, KISS YOU, take YOU for a walk and car ride not just your picture. I don't know how to live without you, and to be honest I don't want to,but I don't have control of that. Please let me know you still love me and are with me... I NEED YOU SO MUCH, I HURT SO MUCH. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 121 and the 4 month mark. So many days and nights without your sweet handsome soul here with me, so many days I have not been able to look into your beautiful brown eyes. They say eyes are the window to the soul, YOUR eyes always said I LOVE YOU.. I hope and pray that you saw the same thing in my eyes. You know YOU WERE MY EVERUTHING, I pretty much would not go anywhere unless you could come with me. You were MY BABY BOY and I wanted you with me. I LOVE YOU ANDY, and MISS YOU SO MUCH. Thank you for the anniversary feather this morning, it was your color and it says you miss me and think of me too. Have a good day MY LOVE, you are ALWAYS IN MY HEART. I wish I could deliver these in person, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. I LOVE YOU... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY BABY BOY, day 125, 18 long, lonely and sad weeks that we have been apart. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, you were the best pup ever and you made it so easy for me to fall HOPELESSLY IN LOVE WITH YOU, I will ALWAYS be in LOVE WITH YOU. You took my heart when you died, I wish you could have taken all of me so we would still be together, but that wasn't in YOUR power. I MISS YOU MY LOVE and NEED to know that you have not forgotten me, that you are still watching over me, helping me and LOVING ME. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and you still are, which is why my heart is so broken, I WANT YOU WITH ME, I still try to do a lot of the things I did with\for you when you were alive, I cannot break with those things, doing so would mean you ARE GONE, which I know you are but our traditions LIVE ON and with those traditions I can fool myself that you are still here in some small way with me. It sounds stupid perhaps but it is what I NEED to do. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 129. I saw a beautiful star this morning, there were only two in the entire sky, the other one didn't shine as bright, I hope the bright one was you watching over me and letting me know that you are still here loving me as much as I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I don't know what to do with this sadness I feel all the time. I want to HUG you again, KISS you and look into your beautiful brown eyes, the eyes that always said I LOVE YOU MOM!!! I hope you know how very much I LOVE YOU and MISS you. Have a good day LOVE BUG. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 130. I saw your star again this morning. I stood outside staring at it and talking to you for awhile and yes crying, when I looked again about 2 minutes later it was gone. Can I fool myself and think that is really you watching over me? Now I am in a bad mood, I want your star back and I want YOU back. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and I don't know how to make it stop. Do you know how much I LOVE YOU, I hope you do, I told you often enough and am still telling you. There isn't anything I wouldn't have done for you. You are my Angel now, help me Andy, I hurt, I am so sad and today I am angry. I know you LOVED ME, I could see it in your eyes, I wish I could look into those eyes one more time, but if I could I would NEVER let you go again, not having you with me hurts so bad. Send me your LOVE BABY BOY, I NEED YOU! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY EVERYTHING!! Day 153 and five long months that you have been gone from my arms. YOU are ALWAYS IN MY HEART but I cannot KISS, HUG or TOUCH YOU and I SO MISS ALL the things we used to be able to do. I saw your star this morning, the rain clouds cleared and there you were, shinning so bright, watching over me and letting me know you are OK, that YOU STILL LOVE ME and ARE WITH ME. I LOVE YOU ANDY, I will NEVER stop LOVING YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE, I MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 159 and again I woke up missing you and started crying. I don't know how to stop missing you and I will NEVER stop LOVING YOU. I saw your star this morning, but it fades away faster these days so I guess I will have to get up and go for our walks earlier so we can spend that time together. I hope you are not as sad and lonely as I am but I know you miss me too. We were inseparable, I wanted you with me always and you always wanted to be with me and I feel the same way now which is why I CANNOT stop doing our routines, a walk, filling your water bowl, talking to you and taking you (your picture and pillow) on daily car rides. I will NEVER FORGET YOU and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 167. Let me start off with I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with my whole being. I never knew I could love anyone or anything as much as I LOVE YOU, and YES it is present tense still because I STILL DO LOVE YOU. That didn't stop just because you died but the problem is I have no place to show that love, YOU are not here to HUG and KISS, to physically take on car rides, to feed and brush, you are not here to sleep beside me so I can hear you dreaming, or hear you snoring. You were and still ARE MY EVERYTHING. I am having some fun with Gracie, but she isn't you and YOU WERE PERFECT. I saw your star this morning, we almost completed the whole walk together, I love it when you are with me on our morning walks.. yes you are ALWAYS with me in spirit and I thank you for that even if I don't always feel you near. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 173. Another day that I didn't see your star on our morning walk, but like yesterday I know you were there with me. I SO WISH I could see, touch, hug and kiss you again but I have to settle for your pictures. I wish I hadn't lost my phone and almost 5 years of pictures, and I wish I had taken videos so I could replay your silliness but those are my bad and I can't do anything about it now. Please KNOW that I LOVE YOU, and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. YOU are MY BABY BOY and nothing will ever change that. Have a good day MY LOVE, send me a KISS from Heaven to let me know you are here with me and that YOU STILL LOVE ME. Have a good day, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, Day 174.It stopped raining for today, but the clouds were still blocking me from seeing your star, our star, but you did leave me a feather where I usually sit and talk to you in the mornings.. THANK YOU. I MISS YOU MY LOVE.. so very much, I want to touch you, kiss you, brush you, laugh at your silliness and look into your beautiful trusting and loving eyes. I hope you felt me with you at the end, when I picked you up to put you on the rug in the family room, I thought it was just a seizure but when I put you on the floor I knew it was something much worse and then you were gone.. I want you back...I NEED YOU, YOU were MY BUDDY, MY BEST FRIEND, MY EVERYTHING, I NEED to know that you are still near and that you KNOW how MUCH I LOVE YOU. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!! Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 180. Tomorrow will mark 6 months since GOD took you HOME and left me with a broken heart that LOVES and MISSES you as much now as when you first left. I know that you knew how VERY MUCH I LOVED YOU and I KNOW YOU LOVED ME TOO. I wish I could HUG and KISS you again but that will have to wait until GOD calls me home, then we can be together for eternity. Until then BABY BOY, KNOW that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU, you are now and ALWAYS will be my BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, today is 6 long months that we have been apart, 181 days and I still cry for you every day, multiple times a day. I wish I could have you back, but I would eventually only lose you again and the pain and heartache would be even greater. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and MISS YOU so VERY VERY MUCH. I saw your star this morning and said HELLO, I hope you heard\felt me, but by the time it was light enough outside you had faded away. You are still there, in the sky watching and in my heart being so VERY LOVED. This is not a happy anniversary, how can the date you died be such but know that I am always thinking of you and LOVING YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS, YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 184, 6 months and 3 days since GOD took YOU HOME with HIM and left me with a BROKEN HEART. I am so lost without you,YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and we DID EVERYTHING TOGETHER. You were always so patient, calm, LOVING. I could see the LOVE in YOUR EYES for me, could feel it in the way you would snuggle with me and follow me everywhere. ANDY, YOU are SO LOVED and MISSED. Your star was beautiful this morning, the winds are blowing so the skies are clear and we could walk and sit together for awhile. Did you see me, hear me, see my tears. I don't want to make you sad but I AM SO VERY SAD.. I WANT YOU BACK, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH and I hope you know that, I hope you know I DIDN'T LEAVE YOU, GOD CALLED YOU HOME to HIM. Please send me a sign that you are still with me... I know YOU STILL LOVE ME. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 186. Another day that I wake up knowing you are not here with me anymore, not in body, but perhaps in spirit although I don't usually senses you here with me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so very much. As I have said before YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING. I am trying to get on with life without you but I really don't want to, and to be honest I don't know how. We were 24 x 7 companions for the last 6 years, it is hard to have that special friend (YOU) ripped away. I LOVE YOU so VERY MUCH BABY BOY, please send me a sign that you are still here with me, I can't lose your spirit too. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 188 and I MISS YOU as much if not MORE that the day you had to leave me. Everyday I still go for an early morning walk with your pillow and picture, I look for the feathers you have left me from the day before and we just have our quiet time... just YOU and ME. The emptiness just doesn't go away, I WANT YOU BACK!!! Thank you for the feather this morning, they make me smile as does your star, and if that is all I can have, then so be it. Please send me a sign that you are still here with me... I am trying to let you know that I am ALWAYS and WILL FOREVER BE HERE FOR YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 192, another day where I will for the most part just go through the motions of living. Yes I smile a bit now, sometimes even laugh but in the background MY HEART is STILL in PIECES. Maybe that's because I gave YOU MY HEART to take with you, so you will ALWAYS KNOW that I LOVE YOU. I am here for you BABY BOY, I kiss you goodnight and good morning every day, I hope you see \ feel that, I wish YOU could kiss me back but the feathers I sometimes find are YOUR KISSES to ME. Have a good day MY LOVE, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 194. I was late again to walk with your star this morning but I saw it shining brightly over our house earlier, watching over me om the night, and I found the 5 little white feathers you left for me on Bonnies driveway. I know you are watching over me but I WANT TO WATCH OVER YOU, TOUCH YOU, KISS YOU and tell YOU HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU. The pain and sadness since you died just doesn't go away I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH. YOU WERE and ALWAYS will be MY BABY BOY. Have a good day MY LOVE, dream that we are together again, we will be someday, I promise. Until then sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 195. Your star was out for our complete walk this morning, it makes me happy but also sad because I want YOU. I want to watch YOU trot down the street stopping at all your favorite places, and YES we still stop and I remember how you would always watch me, to make sure I was still there, but it isn't the same now I am left with ONLY my memories. Thank you for the 4 little feathers in front of my house again this morning, it's like you are saying HI MOM, I am OK and I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and I can't get over the ache and emptiness in my heart. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 205. To many days and nights without you next to me. So many things I want to do with you again, walks, car rides, watching TV, listening to you dream and snore, brushing you, kissing you buying you toys and treats but I can't do any of them anymore except in my memory. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much ANDY...and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! You took my heart with you when you left.. it was yours to take because it belonged to you. Have a good day MY BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 211 and the seven month mark. My heart is still broken, and I have become angry at the world and am pushing everyone away. I only want you with me and that cannot be so I have isolated myself and don't want anyone around me anymore. Sandy is the one exception, YOU LOVED HER and SHE LOVED YOU but she is the only one. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU ANDY, you were MY LIFE, MY EVERYTHING and when you left it all slipped away. Please KNOW that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with all MY HEART and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 218. Thank you for the beautiful feather on my sidewalk this morning, nowhere else on the block did I see one so I KNOW YOU left this for me. I was able to walk with your star for almost the whole walk today, getting out early has it's perks, you were so bright and handsome in the sky just like you always were in life. I'm not doing to well these days, which I am sure you see. I am more angry and sad and I don't know how to change that. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I just don't know how to cope with you not being here and never being here again. Please, if you can let me know YOU ARE STILL HERE WITH ME,,, I NEED YOU!!! Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 220. Do you know how VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU? Yes I am sad because we are apart but we have so many good memories that also make me cry when I remember them. I MISS YOU MY LOVE, I don't know what to do without you and I am becoming more of a recluse that I was before. No one understands so I don't bother to try to explain, I just say I MISS YOU which most probably don't understand because you to them were just a dog, but to me you were my EVERYTHING. Please KNOW that I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. Thank you for the two perfect white feathers this morning... they do make me smile. Have a good day BABY BOY. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 222. We went to the grooming salon today and you got to see Sandy. You no longer seem confused that you don't stay for your bath, I guess you have accepted that you died, but I can't. Yes I know you did but I STILL WANT YOU BACK, I want to be with you, hug you, kiss you and look into your beautiful trusting eyes. I hurt so bad still... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I hope you know that. There was a beautiful fluffy feather on the parking spot that you left for me, I need to find it in my car or maybe just let it stay there, one more part of you that I can take on car rides. I MISS YOJ and LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 226. Have I mentioned recently that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH... YOU WERE and STILL ARE MY EVERYTHING and THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I have NEVER LOVED anyone or anything as much as I LOVE YOU. Once again it is cloudy so I couldn't see your star this morning but I know you were there with me on our walk and I found 11 small feathers that you left, all in or in front of our house. Please keep leaving them, they make me smile, and yes cry too. I LOVE you BABY BOY, and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 227. The clouds were still obscuring me from seeing your star on our walk this morning but I KNOW YOU WERE THERE with me. Thank you for all the beautiful feathers, each one is so special to me because I find them only in our yard or Bonnies. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY and MISS YOU SO MUCH, I really don't know how to continue to get through the days without you. I don't have or want any friends, I ONLY WANT YOU. Please let me feel your presence in the house, maybe that will help. Have a good day MY LOVE. I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 230. I am learning to smile sometimes when I think of you, but unfortunately as my thoughts of our life together continue I start to cry again. We had so many good days, months, years, but not enough of them, you died 12 days after your 10th birthday, no warning that GOD was going to take you with him and leave me with a broken. heart. I have said it before but I am glad you didn't suffer, that you made it home to me before the end and forever thankful that I didn't have to make the decision to put you down. I will ALWAYS and FOREVER LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. I think of you ALWAYS and ALWAYS WILL. Thank you for going on our walk with me this morning, you know how I like to talk to you when we walk, and thank you for the feathers.... I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 231. I saw your beautiful star this morning and we walked together around the block. I was so happy to see your star, I know you are there even if I can't see you, but seeing it makes me fell like we are together again. Thank you for the big beautiful feather and the little white one, you know how I look for those every day and tell myself that you have left them for me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much, I can't and won't let go EVER. Have a good day BABY BOY, I hope you know HOW VERY MUCH YOU ARE LOVED and MISSED. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 232. Time is going by so fast and yet so slow, soon it will be one year that we have been physically apart. You are and WILL ALWAYS be IN MY HEART and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I missed your star for our walk this morning, but you left me two feathers to tell me you LOVE ME and that in spirit you ARE STILL HERE WITH ME. I pray that YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU... YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and now it feels like I have nothing because YOU ARE ALL I WANTED AND NEEDED...but you are gone, and my life is so empty. I wish I could touch you one more time, but I know I would never let you go again... I LOVE YOU ANDY, MY BABY BOY and I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 235. How was your day yesterday? Do you go play with Molly, with my brother, or do you just sit under a tree and wait for me? I hope you feel the hugs and kisses I give you everyday, I MISS YOU BABY BOY and LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH... I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!! Please know that YOU ARE and ALWAYS WILL BE MY EVERYTHING. Thank you for the four feathers... I LOVE THEM.. and LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 236. I saw a beautiful rainbow over our house this morning, was that a special gift from you. We don't see rainbows much so I loved seeing it. The clouds blocked your star but the rainbow made me smile. I KNOW you are with me on our walks, you would NEVER MISS your walks, besides you left me a feather to say you were there.. I LOVE YOU ANDY, and MISS YOU SO MUCH, I wish with all my heart that you were still here with me but that can't be on earth, so I have to wait for GOD to call me home so we can FOREVER BE TOGETHER. Please KNOW and NEVER FORGET that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 238, week 34 and the seven month mark. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH. Your star was covered up again this morning, but I know you walked with me. Today is Tuesday, your grooming day. I told you Sandy wasn't coming in today but you wanted to go by the shop anyway, so since I can't deny you anything that's what we did and I poured water at the spots you used to pee at so it looks like you were there with me. I HURT BABY BOY, I am so lonely without you. I keep thinking about dying and I have to admit that I am a bit afraid, but I want to be with you again so when the time comes I know I will find peace, but GOD has to choose the time so please wait for me and let me know you are still here in some small way with me. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY. Have a good day, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 239. We still have clouds so I couldn't see your star this morning but I KNOW you were there walking with me. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY and MISS YOU so very much. I wanted more time, but truthfully I wanted forever with you, and we will have that someday but I need to come to HEAVEN and I don't know when that will be. Wait for me BABY BOY, but for now PLEASE let me know you are still here with me in some small way, I think you are but it could all be in my mind. Have a good day MY LOVE. I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 240. It's cloudy again but I know you were walking with me this morning. It's been to many days and months that we have been apart... I hurt BABY BOY, without you my life is so empty. You were MY EVERYTHING and I feel so lost, lonely and angry without you. I so wish I could look into your eyes again, your eyes would calm me, they always showed YOUR LOVE FOR ME. I want to KISS YOU and HUG YOU but I can only do that with pictures now. Please let me know you are here with me, that your spirit still lives on in this house I NEED YOU. PLEASE KNOW that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day MY LOVE..HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 241 and it is still cloudy bur I saw a cloud that looked like your face and it appeared to wink at me. I'll take any sign imagined or real to tell myself that you are still here with me. I LOVE YOU and MUCH, MISS YOU so much, you were MY EVERYTHING. Thank you for the beautiful little feather this morning... I love finding your feathers. I wish I could stroke your handsome head, rub your ears and gaze into your loving and trusting eyes .. I wish for a lot of things than cannot be, but someday we will be together again and NEVER EVER be parted again. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 242 and the 8 month mark.. I saw your star this morning... shining so brightly and looking down on our house. I wish I could have come out to walk with you then but it was only 2:30 in the morning and that wouldn't have been a safe thing to do. Unfortunately by 5:45 it was gone again, but we still took our walk and you left a feather on the sidewalk, I didn't want to keep it but you said it was OK, you put it there and you wanted me to have it. Thank you for LOVING ME, thank you for spending your life with me. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY and MISS YOU so much. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 243, 8 months and one day. It's a beautiful clear cool morning but your star had gone in for the day by the time we started our walk. It was there earlier I saw it, so bright, so handsome, just like you. Thank you for the big feather you know how they make me smile too. BABY BOY I LOVE and MISS YOU SO MUCH, please know that you will ALWAYS BE LOVED and IN MY HEART. Have a good day BABY BOY, someday we will be together again and will never ever be parted again. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 244. How are you MY LOVE... are you missing me as much as I MISS YOU, I hope that my family is able to help with some of your loneliness or sadness, at least you have them... I am all alone, no family anymore, you were MY EVERYTHING and YOU were ALL I WANTED. I got up even earlier thins morning for our walk but again the clouds hid your star, I know you were there, you are always where I am and I KNOW you will NEVER LEAVE ME AGAIN. Thank you for the two little feathers, I will cherish them as I ALWAYS CHERISHED YOU! Have a good day BABY BOY, know that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 246. We just got in from our walk, clouds and all but you left me 5 little feathers to add to my memory box. I need to should write down memories too and put them in another box in case I get so old that I can no longer remember. I hope GOD spares me that and someday soon lets me come HOME to HIM and to YOU.. then we WILL NEVER BE PARTED AGAIN. Please wait for me BABY BOY, they say the passage of time is but a blink of an eye in HEAVEN, not the same here... just long, lonely sad hours, days, months for me. I LOVE YOU ANDY and MISS YOU so very much. YOU are ALWAYS IN MY HEART and WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED BY ME. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 247. It's a grey, cloudy morning and it is starting to rain, I like it but the clouds keep me from seeing your star. I know you walk with me, I can sometimes feel you with me, stopping at all you favorite places. I MISS YOU ANDY, MY HEART is SO EMPTY without you. Do you hear me talking to you everyday.. I don't know what I did right to have deserved you, and I don't know what I did wrong to have lost you so soon. I LOVE YOU and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 248, so many days and nights apart and I have cried for you each day and maybe always will, YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING, YOU WERE MY LIFE and I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. I would so love to have you next to me so I could touch you, stroke your beautiful fur, shake those big fluffy paws, see your nub tail, look into your beautiful eyes and tell you HOW VERY MUCH YOU ARE LOVED. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU ANDY. You gave me so much LOVE, so much HAPPINESS, but now I am having trouble finding happiness because you are gone. I am trying, but can't say I am trying very hard. Isaw YOUR STAR was this morning for the first time in a nuber of days, so you were there for part of our walk.. I know you watch over me, and I KNOW YOU LOVED me. THANK YOU for that and for everything you gave me throughout the almost 10 short years. Have a good day MY LOVE, I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 249.I'm sorry to always dump the sad, heavy stuff on you, but you are my best friend and I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH. I know that doesn't make much sense but in clearer words YOU ARE ALL I HAVE. I haven't figured out how to deal with the pain and loneliness of losing you and I HURT. I don't want to see anyone, do anything, I JUST WANT YOU. I saw your beautiful star this morning, but it was so dark to go out and walk, so by 5:30 when I got up it was gone but I know you still walked with me, YOU ARE ALWAYS WITH ME! Thank you for the little feather. I may have to go find a bigger box but hopefully I won't have to collect them much longer, Maybe GOD will call me home so we can be together again. I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING!!! Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 250. Do you know that YOU ARE STILL MY EVERYTHING and that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so VERY MUCH. I didn't see your star this morning, clouds and rain. We didn't even get to finish our walk because of the rain. I'll wait for it to stop then we will go out and finish it.. it's a tradition and we can't break with tradition. How are YOU LOVE, I hope you are not as sad and lonely as I am and that my family is taking good care of you. I wish they could send me pictures but don't think cameras are allowed in HEAVEN :). I am sitting here surrounded by your pictures and your eyes always had love and patience in them... as I have said before you kept me calm. I LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 251. I am sounding like a broken record but I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH. I NEED to touch you, hug you, kiss you but I can't, I only have your pillow, toys. pictures, the feathers you leave me and your star in the morning. YOU were MY SPECIAL BOY, my HANDSOME BOY, and the LOVE OF MY LIFE. I LOVED YOU more than I have EVER LOVED ANYTHING or ANYONE and I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. YOU are MY ANGEL NOW, watching over me and loving me from Heaven, but I WANT\NEED MORE. Please try to send me a sign that you are still here with me, YOU are MY LIFE and MY LOVE and that will never change. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 252. Do you know how much I LOVE and MISS YOU, I still cry multiple times a day, my heart is in pieces and I am angry at everything and everyone these days. You kept me calm but with you gone I am angry. Angry at incompetence and angry that YOU ARE GONE. I want YOU BACK but I can't have that either so I am angry. I wasn't able to see your star on our walk together and didn't find any feathers but I know you were with me.. I know you will ALWAYS LOVE ME as I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Please KNOW that I MISS YOU SO MUCH and I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 253. It's a chilly morning today, I would have put your jacket on to keep you warm. You liked your red jacket and you were always so toasty when you wore it. I LOVE YOU and NISS YOU so VERY MUCH, I WANT TO HUG and KISS you, feed you snacks and curl up on the couch with you again... but I can't and my HEART BREAKS again knowing I can't. Someday MY LOVE.. when GOD calls me home then we can and WILL be TOGETHER FOREVER. Until then please KNOW THA I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU and YOUR MEMORIES are with me ALWAYS. Have a good DAY MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 254 and another cloudy morning but the clouds didn't stop you from leaving one beautiful tiny feather for me. I MISS you so MUCH... I want\need to look into your beautiful eyes.. they grounded me, they always said it's OK, I am here and I LOVE YOU but you aren't here anymore and I am so sad, angry and lost without you. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART and I hurt because you are gone. Please let me know you are still here with me... I NEED YOU and ONLY YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 255. The days keep mounting up and my heart is still in pieces.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and MISS YOU, YOU WERE MY BABY BOY and MY EVERYTHING. I am glad for GRACIE, she at least occupies some of my time and makes me smile and laugh but she ISN'T YOU. I WANT YOU BACK BABY BOY, I NEED YOU, I feel so LOST without YOU. I don't mean to make you sad, but I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I really don't know how I am supposed to go perhaps for years without you. HELP ME MY LOVE... Let me know YOU ARE STILL HERE WITH ME. I saw your star earlier but it was gone by the time it was light enough to go for our walk but I know you still walked with me. I LOVE YOU!!! Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 256 and I am sitting here crying as usual as I write to you. THANK YOU for all the little feathers you left for me in OUR front yard, no feathers anywhere else on the block, one in our yard. They make me smile but then I cry .. again.. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and I am so thankful that YOU LOVE ME TOO, now if only we could be together again, this time FOREVER. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU and the LOVING part will never change, but once we ae together again my broken heart will heal. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 257. Thank you for the pretty white feather you left in our driveway this morning. You know I look for them and recently I only see them in our yard, so I know they are from you. I LOVE YOU so very much and MISS YOU. I want to SEE YOU, TOUCH YOU and KISS YOU... I NEED YOU BABY BOY. YOU were MY LIFE, MY UNIVERSE, everything I did centered around you. If you couldn't go with me somewhere I pretty much didn't go and not I don't do anything, see anyone, go anywhere now. Without you my life is empty. I'm sorry, I don't want to make you sad, but I MISS YOU so very much. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 258. I keep waking up to another day without you here with me. I don't know why since I just want to be with you but GOD has HIS plans and it isn't for me to question. Do you KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. Do YOU KNOW HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE and HOW VERY BLESSED WE WERE to have each other. I didn't see your star this morning but I know you still walked with me.. and you left a pretty feather for me. I LOVE YOU. BABY BOY, YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING and ALWAYS WILL BE... that will NEVER change. Have a good day MY LOVE.. I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 259. In about two more weeks it will be 9 long, empty months. Today is Tuesday so instead of OUR one on one walk we went by the shop. Whatever it takes for me to try to fool myself into believing that you are still hear in spirit with me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU, I hope you KNOW how much you are LOVED. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 260. I want to THANK YOU for the beautiful cloud this morning, it was your left front paw print, toes, feathers and all. I know your paws so well and this was the one you always High 5'd with and the one you always pawed at me in the car asking for me to scratch you. It was so beautiful and so very special, I should have taken a picture before it drifted apart and away. THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME and for letting me know that you are in some way still here. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, YOUR ARE and ALWAYS WILL BE MY EVERYTHING and MY BABY BOY. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 261. I had a bad day yesterday afternoon, something tried to tell me that the paw print in the sky yesterday was you saying goodbye.. I don't know why that thought popped up but I cried my eyes out until I felt you saying NO... YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE ME.. and I KNOW YOU WOULDN"T... I know that now but some mean spirit tried to tell me otherwise. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU and BE HERE FOR YOU and I KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME and will WAIT FOR ME!!! Thank you for the tiny feather this morning.. I like the little ones, they are so soft and fluffy, like you ... soft and fluffy and SO HANDSOME. Have a good day BABY BOY, please know that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU MY LOVE... HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 262 and I HURT, My heart feels like it is being torn from my chest, if it is you that wants it then I am happy to let go of it especially if it means we can be together again... FOREVER. I MISS YOU MY LOVE I just want to touch you again, look into your beautiful eyes, I NEED to know if YOU are ALRIGHT. I NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU are STILL HERE WOTH ME. I wish I knew how long it will be before we can REALLY BE TOGETHER AGAIN but that might make me more depressed than I already am. I know that YOU KNEW THAT I LOVED YOU and I HOPE YOU STILL KNOW and can FEEL THAT I STILL LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 263. It's a cloudy morning so I didn't see your star this morning, but I know you still walked with me and I found the four little feathers you left for me...Thank YOU!!!. Have I mentioned lately that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and MISS YOU with EVERY BREATH I TAKE. I am so alone, YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and YOU STILL ARE but I can't touch you or see you. I try to do the things we used to do but it isn't the same without you here with me. I don't know how to live without you so I just exist. Please let me know your are still here with me.. I NEED YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 264. It's cloudy again and misting a bit but I don't mind and you didn't either.. you left me two little feathers. I know I keep repeating myself but I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much, I want to touch you, kiss you, look into your beautiful calming eyes and see the love FROM YOU TO ME. The days without you are so long and the nights so lonely. I miss the sounds you would make when you would dream or your snoring... I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!!! Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 265. Yesterday was a VERY BAD DAY for me, probably the worst day other than the day you died. I cried and screamed most of the morning and I am crying again now. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much.. I WANT YOU BACK or I WANT TO BE WITH YOU but one isn't possible and the other is not in my control. It's cloudy again today so I didn't see your star but I KNOW you are always watching over me... YOUR SPIRIT WILL NEVER LEAVE ME and YOU WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME just as I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!! Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 266. This time next week it will be NINE LONG MONTHA that we have been apart. We went by the grooming salon this morning to see Sandy and take our walk around the block.. it isn't the same without you but it what we used to do every Tuesday and I cannot bring myself to stop doing it. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.. I ALWAYS WILL.. you were and STILL ARE MY EVERYTHING. Thank you for the feather this morning you know how I love it when you leave them for me..it helps me a bit to know that you haven't forgotten me and that YOU STILL LOVE ME. Have a good day MY LOVE..HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 267. I hope you are OK and that my family is giving you lots of love and affection. I wish WITH ALL MY HEART that we could still be together and do all the things we used to do or just do nothing and be couch potatoes. I MISS YOU ANDY.. so VERY MUCH and LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. Thank you for the feather this morning and for all the ones I found in our yard yesterday afternoon, they are all safe in my Memory box and I will have them scattered along with our combined ashes after I die... Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 268. The days are getting harder, I MISS YOU SO MUCH and nothing fills my heart with true happiness like I felt with you. Thank you for the beautiful feather in our driveway this morning, it wasn't there when we started our walk but you left it for me to find as if to say you are HERE WITH ME STILL. It's the little things I try to hang onto, they are all I have. I am looking at your pictures here in my office and looking at your beautiful TRUSTING and LOVING eyes... you are telling me YOU LOVE ME. Please KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 269 and I don't want to go on living without you, my heart is so empty and I am always so sad and so very alone. We never had many outsiders in our lives, but those we did have I am slowly pushing away, no one seems to understand why I can't let you go but they didn't know you and LOVE YOU like I DO. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING, MY BABY BOY, and I MISS YOU SO MUCH. Thank you for the three beautiful feathers this morning, the biggest was right in our yard where you knew I would find it at the start of our walk, you know how I miss seeing your star, so you left me a feather instead. Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning my LOVE, day 270 and only two more days after today until we hit the 9 month mark of you having to leave me. I am a wreck, I am crying more and more each day and getting angry at everything and everyone for little or no reason and I am becoming more of a recluse. No one understands why I am still so sad, no one understand the emptiness I have in my heart now, no one understand that my life stopped when you died, unfortunately my body didn't follow suit. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and MISS YOU, and miss the calm grounding effect you always had on me.. I am sure others miss that in me too. It's overcast again today but I know you walked with me, thank you for the three little feathers. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 271, one more day and we will be at 9 long, lonely empty months apart. I want to be with you, there isn't anything holding me here, Gracie is young and would be taken care of by Sandy and I have no friends per se so no one would even know I was gone. I NEED to be WITH YOU!!! The LOVE I HAVE for YOU is FOREVER and I will be so happy when we can BE TOGETHER FOREVER, but I have to wait for GOD on when I can some home. Please wait for me and please let me know you still linger here in my world in some small way. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 272. Nine months ago this was the last full day we had together, I had no clue you were going to die the next morning, but you did and my life is becoming a HELL on EARTH because I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH... All I want IS YOU, ALL I think about IS YOU. YOU were MY WORLD and MY EVERYTHING and I don't know how to live without you, and to be honest I don't want to live without you. Tomorrow is going to be HELL times ten. I promise we (just you and me) will go by the shop early we will go early to avoid anyone else.. it will be OUR TIME, it can only be OUR TIME because no one else cares, but I CARE I will ALWAYS CARE and REMEMBER OUR LIFE TOGETHER and I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING and MISSING YOU. I saw your star this morning, thank you, you are still watching over me and your house, and you left me seven pretty feathers which I always love finding. Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 271 and today is 9 months since you had to leave me. My HEART is STILL IN PIECES and I don't know what to do with myself and to be honest I don't want to do anything except be with you. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH, I NEED TO LOOK INTO YOUR TRUSTING EYES that ALWAYS told me the EVERYTHING WOULD BE OK. BUT it isn't OK anymore, you are gone from my arms and I AM LEFT WITH THIS HOLE IN MY HEART and UTTER EMPTINESS IN MY LIFE. I don't know when but someday WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN and from then on NO ONE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO SEPARATE US. Have a good day MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY LOVE BUG. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, ay 272, nine long months and one day since you had to leave me. We went by the shop yesterday to see Sandy, it would have been your normal grooming day, every TUESDAY ...I didn't take Gracie, yesterday was just a YOU and ME day, but then EVERY DAY is and was JUST a YOU AND ME DAY, YOU were ALL I WANTED and ALL I NEEDED. I saw your star early again this morning, to early to go walk with you but I was able to stand and the window and look at your star and talk to you, tell YOU HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. If you can, PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOU are HERE WITH ME STILL... I NEED YOU, LOVE YOU, and can't wait for us to be together again....soon! Have a good day MY BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 273, to many long lonely days and nights. I need to apologize for how I acted yesterday, I was selfish and I shouldn't have been and I scared Gracie and that will never happen again I PROMISE. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH and sometimes all my emptiness bubbles up into anger, you could tamper that anger but Gracie just intensifies it. I wish you could just snuggle with me on the couch for awhile of lie under my desk, I need to feel your spirit, your love, your presence. Thank you for the feathers this morning, hopefully they mean you are not completely disappointed in me. It is cloudy this morning so I didn't see your star at all but I know you walked with me this morning and I KNOW you watched over your house all night. I LOVE YOU... and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 274, and yes I am crying again, that seems to be the constant in my life these days. I don't know how to not MISS YOU and there is no force strong enough to make me stop LOVING YOU. YOU ARE IN MY HEART AND MIND FOREVER,, I just wish YOU WERE HERE IN MY ARMS.. I so wish I could HUG YOU, KISS YOUR HANDSOME FACE, BRUSH YOU, SMELL YOU again... How are YOU DOING MY LOVE... I don't want to think of you being sad like me, I would like to think there is no sadness in HEAVEN and that to you it seems like only a few hours we have been apart instead of the nine long months that I know. Please keep asking GOD to LET ME COME HOME SO we can be TOGETHER AGAIN FOREVER. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 275. Have I told you recently or enough THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART... I DO and ALWAYS WILL. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I didn't see your star this morning again, to many clouds but I KNOW YOUR ARE HERE WATCHING OVER YOUR HOUSE and ME. I am becoming such a recluse... I don't want to see anyone I just want to be left alone with YOU and OUR MEMORIES. Thank you for the two little white feathers and the one large one, you know how I like to find them and put them into our little memory box. I will ask Sandy to scatter them along with our ashes when die so we can all float on the wind one last time. I don't know when that will be MY LOVE, but someday (hopefully soon) we will be together again... for eternity. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 276. I just got in from our morning walk.. it is quiet so this is OUR TIME, no interruptions. Your star was behind the clouds again, but I know you walked with ne and I know you watch over me. I would prefer us being together again but I have to wait for that call to be allowed to come home to you in Heaven. I LOVE YOU so MUCH ANDY and MISS YOU. My arms ache to hold you. I want to brush you, kiss you, get your famous HIGH FIVE shakes and look into your loving eyes... I can only do that in my memory or pictures, but someday WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART and SOUL. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 277. Your star was hidden behind the clouds again this morning but you walked with me. The mornings are OUR TIME.. just you and me walking and me talking to you, telling YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU and perhaps in your silent way you telling me you LOVE ME TOO and are still with me. I so wish I could TOUCH, KISS, HUG YOU but I can only look at pictures and imagine. Thank you for the two beautiful feathers this morning.... you told me where to look and there they were... Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and MISS you with all my heart. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 278, nine months and one week. Today would have been your grooming day, but you aren't here to get pampered like you so loved to do but we still went by the shop to see Sandy. I LOVE YOU... and MISS YOU so much, you are still MY EVERYTHING and ALWAYS WILL BE and I can't seem to find a way or want to stop doing the things we always did together. I didn't see any feathers this morning but I know you walked with me as you always do. I so wish I could hold you again and look into your trusting eyes but all I have is pictures... at least I have that. Have a good day BABY BOY, sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 279 and as usual I am sitting here writing to you with tears streaming down my cheeks. I want to know that you are OK, but I guess the feathers you leave for me tell me that you are and that YOU LOVE and MISS ME as much as I LOVE and MISS YOU. Today there were 7 feathers in our yard or just in front of it, I know you leave them for me to say YOU ARE OK and that YOU LOVE ME. I saw your star last night but the clouds hid it from me this morning but you were still there on our walk. We will go for a car ride a bit later, you loved your car rides and I KNOW YOU LOVED ME. Have a good day BABY BOY. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 280. It's cool and cloudy so I didn't see your star this morning but I did find the seven beautiful feathers you left for me. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I KNOW YOU MISS and LOVE ME too. We are FOREVER PARTNERS and while we are separated for now in spirit we can NEVER BE SEPARATED and in HEAVEVN we will BE TOGETHER for ETERNITY, I just have to get there first. Think of me today as I think of you ALWAYS. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 281. ANDY MY LOVE, I MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. I want to be with you again, I NEED to be with your again. You ARE MY LIFE, YOU HAVE MY HEART, YOU ARE and WERE MY BABY BOY. You kept me grounded, and now I am totally unhinged. I just seem to walk in circles.. I don't want to do anything, see anyone, I just want you but all I have are OUR MEMORIES and YOUR PICTURES. Sorry they fall flat in comparison to the LIVING YOU!! Thank you for the little feather, you know how I love finding them. Have a good MY LOVE, and think of me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE. day 282. I just came in from our walk and I found the two feathers you left for me, THANK YOU!! I didn't see your star but you were there with me, you are ALWAYS HERE WITH ME. I wish I could actually see you and touch you again, but then knowing what I know now, I would NEVER LET THEM TAKE YOU away from me again. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART and I am so very much looking forward to the day that I can join you and then be together for ETERNITY. Until them BABY BOY, have a good day, think of me and know that I am thinking of you and LOVING YOU ALWAYS and FOREVER. HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 283. I saw your star in the early morning hours.. so bright, so beautiful and you were right above our house watching over me in the night. Do you watch over me during the day too? If I could I would watch over you, but all I can do is remember our time together, look at your pictures and cry. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY BOY, YOU will ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE, you are and always will be the LOVE OF MY LIFE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 284. Thank you for the beautiful feathers this morning and especially the big fluffy one in our yard. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH, finding feathers lets me dream that we are still connected, that you remember me and LOVE ME. Hopefully I will come HOME TO YOU SOON, but I have to wait for GOD's hand, so please KNOW THAT I WANT to be WITH YOU, and WE WILL SOMEDAY BE TOGETHER AGAIN!!! Have a GOOD DAY BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES, and BELLY RUBS. YOUR OVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 285. Today would be your grooming day so we went over to see Sandy and do our walk around the block. It isn't the same, it can never be the same but I still want and need to go by, it was a routine and I can't NOT do the things we used to do together. I LOVE YOU, and MISS YOU so much and I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO. I wish you could be enjoying your spa morning today, but just close your eyes and remember... and pretend like I do. Have a good day BABY BOY... HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY.
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