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Memories of Andy
He loved his car rides.. loved his treats and LOVED me...My Best friend and the love of my life, my heart was broken when he left me I WILL FOREVER LOVE HIM and HOLD HIM CLOSE IN MY HEART.
03/04/2019, I have archived off many of my letters to you from days 1 - 95 and random days thereafter. This way I have more room to continue to write to you. I have it all saved on my computer, so nothing will ever be lost. 03/13/19 It is getting hard to select entries to archive off from this site.. I want people to know how special you were and how much I LOVE YOU.
Happy Anniversary MY LOVE. Today would have been 10 years we would have been together. We almost made it, just came up 97 days short. I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS will. You will always be my BABY BOY. I MISS YOU so much still, and still cry everyday. I want to give you a present to celebrate our anniversary but I can't, so will have to settle for just remembering all the days we had together. Have a wonderful day MY LOVE, I hope you think of me sometimes or often, YOU are ALWAYS in my HEART and Thoughts. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. Thank you for being my special BABY BOY. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 98, to many long and lonely days that have been empty without you here with me. I felt you with me yesterday, it was just a fleeting moment while I was writing my anniversary note to you. It was like you were in my office again sleeping on one of your beds, it made me smile to know you came to me on our anniversary to say you LOVE ME. THANK YOU. You are my LIFETIME LOVE, no one and nothing can replace you in my life, heart or mind. I am looking forward to being with you again and for eternity. Until then, sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. I LOVE YOU... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 103 and the day before Christmas. This is going to be the worst Christmas EVER and I wish I could just ignore it. This would have been our 10th Christmas together. I wanted to buy you a present but that seemed stupid so instead I will put some ham in your food bowl tomorrow so you can share at least in memory the day with me. For some reason I woke up crying for you this morning, I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU so much and I want to be with you again, forever and ever. I hurt BABY BOY, you STOLE my heart, were my BEST FRIEND and my TRUE LOVE, you still are and always will be and my heart is forever yours. Please come visit me tomorrow, I LOVE YOU and NEED YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVE. Day 104, and this time 10 years ago we were celebrating our first Christmas together, we had only been together one week. I don't remember what we did, probably just played on the floor with your new toys. I hope your are here with me in spirit today, I am and will be thinking of you and crying much of the day. Do you know how much I MISS YOU and how very much I LOVE YOU. Give Jinx and mom a lick (kiss) from me I hope they are taking good care of you. I am so alone without you.. I just want to be with you again, forever this time, Please let me know you are near, I can't bear to think that you are gone from me forever I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY ANGEL. Have a wonderful day, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning BABY BOY, day 105. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas, mine sucked as usual but even more so because you were not with me to snuggle up on the couch, go for a walk or beg for some of the ham, but you were in my thoughts and hopefully near to me all day. I hope you know how very much I LOVE you, you were my BEST FRIEND, my CO-PILOT, my EVERYTHING. I so very much want you back with me, but that isn't possible, so I just write to you everyday, think of you every minute of the day and cry. Will you come wish me a Happy Birthday tomorrow, let me know you are still in some way with me and still love me. I think you do, you so loved me in life and I don't think that goes away in death. After tomorrow I don't want any more birthdays, I just want to come HOME and be with you again, forever!!! I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 106 and my birthday. This will be the first one in 10 years that we haven't shared together. I at least was able to celebrate your 10 year birthday with you, and then 12 days later GOD took you home and away from me. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH, as I have said before YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING. I still go for our walks every morning, just your picture and me, I pretend that I can see you, I stop at all your favorite trees and bushes I can't not do that routine, it was US and I still need to believe in US. Have a good day LOVE BUG, send me a birthday kiss or feather if you can, or just an I LOVE YOU thought. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOU OLDER but ALWAYS LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 111 and New Years Day 2019. I had hoped and prayed that we would see this day together but that wasn't to be. This would have been our 11th New Year together but now it is the first New Year where we aren't together sitting on the couch and watching the parade. I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY BOY, you were and still are MY EVERYTHING. I am trying to move on a bit but I really don't want to, I just WANT YOU. I want to SEE YOU, TOUCH YOU, KISS YOU, take YOU for a walk and car ride not just your picture. I don't know how to live without you, and to be honest I don't want to,but I don't have control of that. Please let me know you still love me and are with me... I NEED YOU SO MUCH, I HURT SO MUCH. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 112 and the day after New Year's 2019. Yesterday was a bad day for me, think you could figure that out from the entry I wrote yesterday. I cried most of the day, I wanted you with me, wanted to be with you. I didn't feel you with me at all, maybe you were celebrating YOUR FIRST NEW YEAR in Heaven, that's OK, it is your home now. I know you will never forget me, I know you LOVED ME and I KNOW you KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day MY LOVE. I am sending your ALL MY LOVE and a million HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 121 and the 4 month mark. So many days and nights without your sweet handsome soul here with me, so many days I have not been able to look into your beautiful brown eyes. They say eyes are the window to the soul, YOUR eyes always said I LOVE YOU.. I hope and pray that you saw the same thing in my eyes. You know you were my everything, I pretty much would not go anywhere unless you could come with me. You were MY BABY BOY and I wanted you with me. I LOVE YOU ANDY, and MISS YOU SO MUCH. Thank you for the anniversary feather this morning, it was your color and it says you miss me and think of me too. Have a good day MY LOVE, you are ALWAYS IN MY HEART. I wish I could deliver these in person, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. I LOVE YOU... YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning BABY BOY, day 122. The days keep mounting up and my tears keep falling. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU so much. I just go through the motions each day, not accomplishing much, not wanting to do much without you by my side... you were my side-kick, my co-pilot, MY EVERYTHING... and we did almost everything together, I never wanted to leave you behind, but GOD called you HOME and you left me behind. What am I supposed to do without you? It may be years until I can be with you again, I don't want to wait years, these last four months have been hard enough. Have a good day MY LOVE, think of me and send me a message that your spirit is still with me I NEED YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY BABY BOY, day 125, 18 long, lonely and sad weeks that we have been apart. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, you were the best pup ever and you made it so easy for me to fall HOPELESSLY IN LOVE WITH YOU, I will ALWAYS be in LOVE WITH YOU. You took my heart when you died, I wish you could have taken all of me so we would still be together, but that wasn't in YOUR power. I MISS YOU MY LOVE and NEED to know that you have not forgotten me, that you are still watching over me, helping me and LOVING ME. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and you still are, which is why my heart is so broken, I WANT YOU WITH ME, I still try to do a lot of the things I did with\for you when you were alive, I cannot break with those things, doing so would mean you ARE GONE, which I know you are but our traditions LIVE ON and with those traditions I can fool myself that you are still here in some small way with me. It sounds stupid perhaps but it is what I NEED to do. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 129. I saw a beautiful star this morning, there were only two in the entire sky, the other one didn't shine as bright, I hope the bright one was you watching over me and letting me know that you are still here loving me as much as I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I don't know what to do with this sadness I feel all the time. I want to HUG you again, KISS you and look into your beautiful brown eyes, the eyes that always said I LOVE YOU MOM!!! I hope you know how very much I LOVE YOU and MISS you. Have a good day LOVE BUG. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 130. I saw your star again this morning. I stood outside staring at it and talking to you for awhile and yes crying, when I looked again about 2 minutes later it was gone. Can I fool myself and think that is really you watching over me? Now I am in a bad mood, I want your star back and I want YOU back. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and I don't know how to make it stop. Do you know how much I LOVE YOU, I hope you do, I told you often enough and am still telling you. There isn't anything I wouldn't have done for you. You are my Angel now, help me Andy, I hurt, I am so sad and today I am angry. I know you LOVED ME, I could see it in your eyes, I wish I could look into those eyes one more time, but if I could I would NEVER let you go again, not having you with me hurts so bad. Send me your LOVE BABY BOY, I NEED YOU! HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 135 and I think I am missing you more each day, I know I still cry a bucket of tears for you every day. I so much want to HUG YOU, KISS YOU, look into your big beautiful trusting eyes and tell you I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I want you HOME with me again, I HURT SO BAD, I MISS YOU so MUCH. You were my perfect BABY BOY and you Loved Me so much, you would have done anything for me but neither of us could change what was going to happen although I tried to at least keep you with me for as long as possible but it wasn't long enough, and now you have been gone so long and I am so sad and lonely. Please let me know how to find you, what to look for, some signs that you are still here with me, You are in MY HEART but I need to know your spirit is here with me to... I can't bear the thought that I have lost all of you. Have a good day BABY BOY.. I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE. Day 137. I seem to cry more easily these days and the tears last longer. Whenever I think of you I cry, yes I smile sometimes too remembering what we used to do together, car rides, walks, sitting on the couch, but the smiles always lead to tears again because we can't do those things anymore, we can't do ANYTHING TOGETHER anymore. I watched your star fade away this morning, and I cried, it made me remember when you died, one moment you appeared to be happy and healthy, and the next moment you were gone, no warning. For you and I guess in some ways me it was a blessing, you didn't suffer, but for me I wasn't ready for you to go, I wanted more time, but no amount of time would have made me ready to lose you. YOU WERE and STILL ARE MY EVERYTHING. Have a good day BABY BOY. I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 143. I saw your star above our house this morning again. Was that you saying good morning and watching over me? On on our walk this morning it felt like you ran up to me so I bent down and tried to give you a hug and a kiss. I hope you felt that. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I will believe almost anything to think that you are still with me in some way and I hope you know that I think of you always and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 145. I saw your star again this morning, you had GOD clear the rain clouds so I could see it and you could look down at your house. You didn't stay long, but long enough for me to see you and tell you how very much I LOVE and MISS you. You are my ANGEL now, and I want to believe you see me and in some way are still with me. I told you on our walk that I wish I could TOUCH, KISS and HUG YOU again but I will have to wait until we are together in Heaven. It will happen someday, I promise. For now, please KNOW that I LOVE YOU and am looking forward to being with you for eternity. Have a good day BABY BOY.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY.
Good morning MY LOVE, day 147, 21 weeks and one week away from 5 months that you have been gone. I remember that day as if it was yesterday, how happy and seemingly healthy you were, then 10 min later you were gone. My Handsome Boy, why did you have to leave so soon, I wanted more time with you, needed more time and memories and now all I have left are my memories. Almost 10 years wasn't enough time, but it is all I had. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART. Thank you for your star again this morning.. I love thinking that you are watching over me and you LOVE ME still. Have a good day MY BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 148. The days keep accumulating and my heart never heals I MISS YOU and want you to be with me again. Your morning star makes me smile and cry at the same time, I tell myself it is you saying good morning and watching over me and your house, it is a beautiful star and it shines so brightly and it is the only one left in the heavens each morning. I hope it never goes away, I never wanted YOU to go away and as I said I try to convince myself that in some ways maybe you haven't. Now if only I can find a way to trick myself into thinking I am hugging, kissing and looking into your beautiful trusting brown eyes. As I said at the beginning I MISS YOU, please know that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 149. Another day I have to wake up and know that I cannot feed, brush, kiss, touch or see you. I want you back, I want more time, a few more years but I know that isn't possible and I would hurt even more when I lost you. I never knew I could cry so much, that I could hurt so much. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU and I hope you LOVE ME too. I don't want you to be sad and lonely and I hope my family is taking good care of you, but I am all alone, yes I have Gracie but we are just getting to know each other... YOU on the other hand were my BABY BOY and we knew each other very well. Thank you for the star again this morning, I really do believe it is you saying you are still here and watching over me and I LOVE thinking that. Have a good sleep after watching me all night. I'll see you again tomorrow morning. I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 152 and tomorrow will be 5 long, lonely and sad months that we have been apart. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and MISS YOU and all that we used to together. Everything has changed since GOD took you HOME, OK not everything, MY LOVE for you hasn't changed and never will. I saw your star this morning, I didn't think I would since we still have rain clouds, but I looked up and there you were, shining so brightly as if to say HEY MOM, LOOK AT ME. You couldn't stay long because of the clouds but I know you wanted to say good morning too. Have a good day MY LOVE, know that I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. I MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, MY BABY BOY, MY EVERYTHING!! Day 153 and five long months that you have been gone from my arms. YOU are ALWAYS IN MY HEART but I cannot KISS, HUG or TOUCH YOU and I SO MISS ALL the things we used to be able to do. I saw your star this morning, the rain clouds cleared and there you were, shinning so bright, watching over me and letting me know you are OK, that YOU STILL LOVE ME and ARE WITH ME. I LOVE YOU ANDY, I will NEVER stop LOVING YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE, I MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 159 and again I woke up missing you and started crying. I don't know how to stop missing you and I will NEVER stop LOVING YOU. I saw your star this morning, but it fades away faster these days so I guess I will have to get up and go for our walks earlier so we can spend that time together. I hope you are not as sad and lonely as I am but I know you miss me too. We were inseparable, I wanted you with me always and you always wanted to be with me and I feel the same way now which is why I CANNOT stop doing our routines, a walk, filling your water bowl, talking to you and taking you (your picture and pillow) on daily car rides. I will NEVER FORGET YOU and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 160. Nothing has changed with me, I still cry multiple times a day and wish we could be together still. I would be lying if I said I just wanted to see, touch and kiss you, because if I were able to do that I WOULD NEVER LET YOU GO AGAIN. I know I really couldn't stop it but that's what I would want to do. NEVER LET YOU GO and TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER. I saw your beautiful star this morning, the clouds cleared away and we were able to take our morning walk together. It seemed like you wanted to linger longer than normal, as if to say you didn't want to say goodbye, so I stood outside and watched until you almost faded away. I'll see you again tomorrow morning (clouds allowing) and we will walk and talk again. I LOVE and MISS YOU so much and I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO. Until tomorrow, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning BABY BOY, day 161. Have i mentioned recently that I LOVE YOU with All MY HEART, that I MISS YOU that you are STILL MY EVERYTHING. If I could have one wish it would be to be with you and I would want to be with you in HEAVEN so we would be together for ETERNITY. On Earth one of us would ultimately die and we would be where we are now, MISSING EACH OTHER. I will get there someday so PLEASE WAIT FOR ME, YOU are what I want to see most when I get there. Oh to look into those beautiful eyes again, to hug you and kiss you again, what a JOY that will be but until then, please watch over me and let me see your beautiful star in the mornings. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, Day 162 and I MISS you as much now and I did on day one. I don't think I told you I LOVE YOU enough when you were with me... yes I said it often and hugged, kissed, played, brushed you with LOVE EVERYDAY, I hope you KNEW and still KNOW how very much I LOVE YOU and now unfortunately I have to add that I MISS YOU. YOU are STILL IN MY HEART and MIND and you will NEVER not be there but I wish I could have the physical YOU back, I would NEVER let you out of my sight and arms because I KNOW the PAIN of MISSING YOU. Know that I LOVE YOU ANDY, I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 163 since I was last able to look into your Beautiful Brown Eyes, KISS YOU, HUG YOU and TELL YOU that I LOVE YOU. Yes, I tell you that every day but it isn't the same because I cannot see the love for me emanating from your beautiful eyes. I know YOU LOVED ME and I hope you still do. I can't wait to be with you again and know that we will never be separated again, unfortunately I have no idea when that will be, so please wait for me and KNOW that I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU SO MUCH. Sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR SAD but LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 164. I saw your star early this morning, it was still faintly there when we went out for our walk, but it faded away before we got to our first pee stop. You wouldn't be to happy with the weather of late, very cold and lots of rain, you would have been soaked much of the last month or so but I would have warmed up towels to dry you off, I would NEVER let you be cold and wet. You know me, I always wrapped you up in blankets which you loved. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much, I want you back, I want to HUG and KISS you again, to sit with you on the couch and have you curl up next to me. Have a good day MY LOVE, and if you can please send me a sign that you are still here in the house with me. I LOVE YOU, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 165 and I am already crying, I MISS YOU and I LOVE YOU. Your star is disappearing earlier each day, I see it around 5 AM but that is to early to go out for a walk with you, a bit dangerous too so I wait until it light out but by then you are gone. I know the star will appear in Heaven again tomorrow, I wish you could come back to me like the returning star, so I tell myself it IS YOU in the heavens, I talk to you, but I want to touch you and kiss you and look into your beautiful trusting eyes. Please give me a sign to say you are still here with me.. I NEED YOU and LOVE YOU so VERY MUCH. Have a good day BABY BOY I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 166 that we have been apart. I hope you KNOW that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU and as the song say I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! I found two feathers on our walk this morning, perhaps you left them for me as a sign that YOU LOVE and MILL me too. Your star was up in the heavens when it was dark, but as it got lighter you faded away, maybe to get some sleep after watching over me all night. Have a good day BABY BOY and know that YOU WILL ALWAYS be in MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 167. Let me start off with I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with my whole being. I never knew I could love anyone or anything as much as I LOVE YOU, and YES it is present tense still because I STILL DO LOVE YOU. That didn't stop just because you died but the problem is I have no place so show that love, YOU and not here to HUG and KISS, to physically take on car rides, to feed and brush, you are not here to sleep beside me so I can hear you dreaming, or hear you snoring. You were and still ARE MY EVERYTHING. I am having some fun with Gracie, but she isn't you and YOU WERE PERFECT. I saw your star this morning, we almost completed the whole walk together, I love it when you are with me on our morning walks.. yes you are ALWAYS with me in spirit and I thank you for that even if I don't always feel you near. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 168. Today would be your grooming day, you would get your scrubbies with lots of scratches then your soaking bath, then your brush and blow out. You loved your Tuesdays and your time with Sandy. We will go by this morning as always, because it is what we did and I can't seem to break any of our routines. Your star was out this morning and you walked with me around the block, not that WE walked that far in the mornings but it gives US more alone time now. OH and I found the four feathers you left for me too...thank you. Yes I am crying as I write this, I just MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I want to do all the things we used to do (not the pills). Have a wonderful day BABY BOY, Thank you for the love and devotion you gave me, I hope I lived up to my end of the relationship. I think I did, you LOVED ME and that was all I wanted. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 169. I am learning to smile sometimes when I think of you, but unfortunately as my thoughts of our life together continue I start to cry again. We had so many good days, months, years, but not enough of them, you died 12 days after your 10th birthday, no warning that GOD was going to take you with him and leave me with a broken. heart. I have said it before but I am glad you didn't suffer, that you made it home to me before the end and forever thankful that I didn't have to make the decision to put you down. I will ALWAYS and FOREVER LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. I think of you ALWAYS and ALWAYS WILL. Thank you for going on our walk with me this morning, you know how I like to talk to you when we walk, and thank you for the feathers.... I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 171 and we are fast approaching 6 long months that we have been apart. I have cried for you each day and maybe always will, YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING, YOU WERE MY LIFE and I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. I would so love to have you next to me so I could touch you, stroke your beautiful fur, shake those big fluffy paws, see your nub tail, look into your beautiful eyes and tell you HOW VERY MUCH YOU ARE LOVED. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU ANDY. You gave me so much LOVE, so much HAPPINESS, but now I am having trouble finding happiness because you are gone. I am trying, but can't say I am trying very hard. It's going to rain again today, so YOUR STAR was hidden behind clouds but I know you were there on our walk.. I know you watch over me, THANK YOU for that and for everything you gave me throughout the almost 10 short years. Have a good day MY LOVE, I LOVE YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 172. It's raining again (or still)so I didn't see your star this morning, but like yesterday I know you are there watching and missing me as much as I miss you. Will you do something for me, please go to grandma (my Mom) and give her a big KISS from me, today is her 96th Birthday. I hope she gives you a KISS back from me because I know she knows\understands how much I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU. I wish so much that I could touch you again.. brush you, take ALL OF YOU for a car ride not just your picture. YOU ARE MY VERY LOVED BABY BOY and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I am looking forward to the day when we can be together again, this time for eternity. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 173. Another day that I didn't see your star on our morning walk, but like yesterday I know you were there with me. I SO WISH I could see, touch, hug and kiss you again but I have to settle for your pictures. I wish I hadn't lost my phone and almost 5 years of pictures, and I wish I had taken videos so I could replay your silliness but those are my bad and I can't do anything about it now. Please KNOW that I LOVE YOU, and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. YOU are MY BABY BOY and nothing will ever change that. Have a good day MY LOVE, send me a KISS from Heaven to let me know you are here with me and that YOU STILL LOVE ME. Have a good day, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, Day 174.It stopped raining for today, but the clouds were still blocking me from seeing your star, our star, but you did leave me a feather where I usually sit and talk to you in the mornings.. THANK YOU. I MISS YOU MY LOVE.. so very much, I want to touch you, kiss you, brush you, laugh at your silliness and look into your beautiful trusting and loving eyes. I hope you felt me with you at the end, when I picked you up to put you on the rug in the family room, I thought it was just a seizure but when I put you on the floor I knew it was something much worse and then you were gone.. I want you back...I NEED YOU, YOU were MY BUDDY, MY BEST FRIEND, MY EVERYTHING, I NEED to know that you are still near and that you KNOW how MUCH I LOVE YOU. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!! Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 175, next week will be 6 months, too much time that we have been physically apart but you have never left my heart and thoughts. I saw your star this morning but by the time I got up to go for our walk the clouds had covered it up, but I know it was there, I KNOW YOU ARE THERE watching me and LOVING ME. Please KNOW that I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART and I ALWAYS WILL YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and I won't let you go, EVER. Thank you for the two feathers I have them all saved and I will bring them back to you when I get to HEAVEN. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS< KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 176, It is getting hard to archive off my letters to you I want to leave them here as well so others can see how very much I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. It is raining again today but we took a short walk this morning anyway, I have always liked walking in the rain but you would get so wet. I don't think you minded, but those beautiful paws when wet would sure make a mess of the floors.. I could kick off my shoes :). Thank you for the little feather it is safe with the others. if you can Please send me a sign that you are here with me, a quick thought, anything, I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY BOY and I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 178 and I still MISS YOU SO MUCH. I cry on our morning walk as I talk to you and tell you how very much YOU ARE LOVED and MISSED. I wanted more years with you, more time... are YOU OK I wish I knew I don't want you to be sad like me but I don't know how to not be sad because I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH. I saw your star today, thank you for walking with me this morning, it makes me sad but also happy, that was our first walk of the day and I cannot not still take you on that walk. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 180. Tomorrow will mark 6 months since GOD took you HOME and left me with a broken heart that LOVES and MISSES you as much now as when you first left. I know that you knew how VERY MUCH I LOVED YOU and I KNOW YOU LOVED ME TOO. I wish I could HUG and KISS you again but that will have to wait until GOD calls me home, then we can be together for eternity. Until then BABY BOY, KNOW that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU, you are now and ALWAYS will be my BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, today is 6 long months that we have been apart, 181 days and I still cry for you every day, multiple times a day. I wish I could have you back, but I would eventually only lose you again and the pain and heartache would be even greater. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and MISS YOU so VERY VERY MUCH. I saw your star this morning and said HELLO, I hope you heard\felt me, but by the time it was light enough outside you had faded away. You are still there, in the sky watching and in my heart being so VERY LOVED. This is not a happy anniversary, how can the date you died be such but know that I am always thinking of you and LOVING YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS, YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 182. We went over to the grooming salon this morning so we could go for our walk with Sandy, I wish you could go in and have your SPA morning, but since we can't do that we can at least see Sandy and take our walk with her. Yesterday was a very bad day for me, I cried most of the day I MISS YOU SO MUCH and want to know if you are OK. Please KNOW that YOU ARE SO LOVED BY ME and that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 184, 6 months and 3 days since GOD took YOU HOME with HIM and left me with a BROKEN HEART. I am so lost without you,YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING and we DID EVERYTHING TOGETHER. You were always so patient, calm, LOVING. I could see the LOVE in YOUR EYES for me, could feel it in the way you would snuggle with me and follow me everywhere. ANDY, YOU are SO LOVED and MISSED. Your star was beautiful this morning, the winds are blowing so the skies are clear and we could walk ans sit together for awhile. Did you see me, hear me, see my tears. I don't want to make you sad but I AM SO VERY SAD.. I WANT YOU BACK, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH and I hope you know that, I hope you know I DIDN'T LEAVE YOU, GOD CALLED YOU HOME to HIM. Please send me a sign that you are still with me... I know YOU STILL LOVE ME. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 185. I saw your beautiful star again this morning, we almost finished our walk before you disappeared but you left two feathers for me which made me smile. I haven't been doing much smiling these days, more tears than smiles, but your star and feathers DO bring a smile to my face. I so wish I could HUG and KISS you again, and look into your beautiful, trusting and loving eyes, actually I do look into them in your pictures that I constantly look at during the day.... YOU LOVED ME I know you did... and I LOVED YOU WITH ALLY MY HEART and still do. Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 186. Another day that I wake up knowing you are not here with me anymore, not in body, but perhaps in spirit although I don't usually senses you here with me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so very much. As I have said before YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING. I am trying to get on with life without you but I really don't want to, and to be honest I don't know how. We were 24 x 7 companions for the last 6 years, it is hard to have that special friend (YOU) ripped away. I LOVE YOU so VERY MUCH BABY BOY, please send me a sign that you are still here with me, I can't lose your spirit too. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 187.It is getting hard to archive off from this site some of my letters to you. Special days, or notes just cannot be erased even though I have them saved off on my computer. You know YOU meant the WORLD to me and when you died my world crashed and I haven't figured out how to put the pieces back together, maybe I don't want to, I just know that I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I want to touch you, feel you lick my hand again like you did that last morning, look into your beautiful eyes, hug and kiss you and NEVER LET YOU GO. Thank you for your star this morning it makes me smile when you are out and walk with me. I am sad when you fade away but I know I will see your star the next morning. Until then MY LOVE, have a good day, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 188 and I MISS YOU as much if not MORE that the day you had to leave me. Everyday I still go for an early morning walk with your pillow and picture, I look for the feathers you have left me from the day before and we just have our quiet time... just YOU and ME. The emptiness just doesn't go away, I WANT YOU BACK!!! Thank you for the feather this morning, they make me smile as does your star, and if that is all I can have, then so be it. Please send me a sign that you are still here with me... I am trying to let you know that I am ALWAYS and WILL FOREVER BE HERE FOR YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 189. Have I told you recently the I LOVE YOU, I mean REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU and that you were MY EVERYTHING? I MISS YOU so much. I'm sorry I am always crying but you aren't here with me anymore and I want you here.The days are just to long and empty without you. We did our normal Tuesday groomer visit this morning... every Tuesday that is another routine I cannot not do. Please let me know you are still here with me I NEED YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE... I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 190. The days keep adding up and I keep crying but maybe I should look at it in a different light, with each passing day I am closer to being with you again. The only problem with that line of thinking is just how many days have to go by before we are together for eternity. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much, I thing of you always and I cry a bucket of tears for you each day and I still continue our routines, our walk, car ride, going to the grooming shop on Tuesdays.. I can't stop, those were OUR THINGS and I cannot lose them too. Have a good day MY LOVE.. you are and ALWAYS will be SO VERY LOVED BY ME. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 191. I am sounding like a broken record but I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH. I NEED to touch you, hug you, kiss you but I can't, I only have your pillow, toys and pictures. YOU were MY SPECIAL BOY, my HANDSOME BOY, and the LOVE OF MY LIFE. I LOVED YOU more than I have EVER LOVED ANYTHING or ANYONE and I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. YOU are MY ANGEL NOW, watching over me and loving me from Heaven, but I WANT\NEED MORE. Please try to send me a sign that you are still here with me, YOU are MY LIFE and MY LOVE and that will never change. Have a good day BABY BOY, sending your HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 192, another day where I will for the most part just go through the motions of living. Yes I smile a bit now, sometimes even laugh but in the background MY HEART is STILL in PIECES. Maybe that's because I gave YOU MY HEART to take with you, so you will ALWAYS KNOW that I LOVE YOU. I am here for you BABY BOY, I kiss you goodnight and good morning every day, I hope you see \ feel that, I wish YOU could kiss me back but the feathers I sometimes find are YOUR KISSES to ME. Have a good day MY LOVE, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 193. It's cloudy this morning so by the time I got up for our walk you were not in sight, but I did see your star earlier when I got up. I told you that you were so HANDSOME and that I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU ANDY, I MISS EVERTHING about YOU and ALL the things we did together. Yes I know we mostly just hung out together but that was good enough for me and I think for you too. Thank you for the three little feathers in the front yard today, there weren't any others on the whole block so I know these were from you. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY and MISS YOU SO MUCH.. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 194. I was late again to walk with your star this morning but I saw it shining brightly over our house earlier, watching over me om the night, and I found the 5 little white feathers you left for me on Bonnies driveway. I know you are watching over me but I WANT TO WATCH OVER YOU, TOUCH YOU, KISS YOU and tell YOU HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU. The pain and sadness since you died just doesn't go away I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH. YOU WERE and ALWAYS will be MY BABY BOY. Have a good day MY LOVE, dream that we are together again, we will be someday, I promise. Until then sending you HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good Morning MY LOVE, day 195. Your star was out for our complete walk this morning, it makes me happy but also sad because I want YOU. I want to watch YOU trot down the street stopping at all your favorite places, and YES we still stop and I remember how you would always watch me, to make sure I was still there, but it isn't the same now I am left with ONLY my memories. Thank you for the 4 little feathers in front of my house again this morning, it's like you are saying HI MOM, I am OK and I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and I can't get over the ache and emptiness in my heart. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 196. We went to the shop today so we could take our walk with Sandy, I wish I could have you groomed too but we can't see or touch you, but my heart is in the right place wising that. My HANDSOME BOY, I MISS YOU so MUCH. Please know that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. Thank you for the feather in front of my house today... YOU STILL LOVE ME TOO!!! Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, Day 197, thank you for the feathers again this morning, you know how I love to find them. Your star was not visible this morning, to many clouds but I know you were there watching over me in the night and with me on our walk this morning. I MISS YOU SO MUCH and I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART you ARE MY BABY BOY that will never change. My tears keep falling, I don't know how to stop them, I am still so sad and my heart is still in pieces because you are not here with me anymore... please know that YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING!! Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 198. I went out for our walk earlier than normal hoping to see your star but it was cloudy, by the time the clouds cleared it was to late, but I know you were there watching over your house and me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO MUCH, I so much wish I could touch you, hug you, kiss you and look into your LOVING EYES again. Wait for me BABY BOY, I don't know when I will get home to you but I promise YOU will be who I look for first, and then we will never be separated again. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 199. To many days that we have been apart. I hurt BABY BOY, without you my life is empty, You were MY EVERYTHING and I feel so empty and lonely without you. I so wish I could look into your eyes again, KISS YOU and HUG YOU but I can only do that with pictures now. Please let me know you are here with me, that your spirit still lives on in this house I NEED YOU and PLEASE KNOW that I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and ALWAYS WILL. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 200. Do you know how much I LOVE and MISS YOU, I cry multiple times a day, my heart is in pieces and I am angry at everything and everyone these days. You kept me calm but with you gone I am angry. Angry at incompetence and angry that YOU ARE GONE. I want YOU BACK but I can't have that either so I am angry. I was happy this morning to see your star and be able to take part of our walk together and was very touched and happy to see all the feathers you left for me on OUR driveway. You did that so I would know they were from you and they would maybe make me smile. They did, but they also made me cry.. again. I just MISS YOU SO MUCH and I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. Have a good day BABY BOY, know that I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE...day 201. The time since we were last physically together just keeps getting longer and I long to be able to actually touch, kiss and hug you but I can't so I have to settle for the morning walks with your picture and pillow and your star. I want to be with you but God has to make that decision so until then please let me know you are always near and that you LOVE ME still. You were my gift from GOD but he called you home and left me here with a broken heart. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU... YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING. Thank you for the three little feathers this morning.. they are beautiful and I always love finding them, they like your star make me smile. Have a good day my BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVINGH MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 202. I got up for our walk earlier as promised so I could walk with your shining star. You walked with me the whole way, I talked to you and told you how handsome you are, how much I MISS YOU and HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU, and ALWAYS WILL. I don't know how I can go on day after day, month after month and year after year without you my heart hurts just thinking about it, You know you were MY EVERYTHING, MY BEST FRIEND, the LOVE OF MY LIFE, YOU will ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART and THOUGHTS and hopefully sooner than later we can be together forever again. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 203 and as usual tears are running down my face as I start to write to you. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU so much, I hope you can feel the LOVE I have for YOU and will ALWAYS HAVE FOR YOU. Thank you for the two tiny feathers this morning, and thank you for your star watching over me through the night and walking with me a bit this morning. You are so SPECIAL, TRUSTING and LOVING and I hope you know I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 204. It's cloudy this morning so I couldn't see your star on our walk but I know you were there with me. Thank you for the four little white feathers in Bonnies yard this morning... they are safe with me now, and with all the other feathers you have left for me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much and I hope my family has welcomed you and are taking good care of you. I wish I was there to take care of you but we both have to wait.. someday we will be reunited and then will NEVER be separated. I wish I could just hug you one more time.. but I know I would never let go because the emptiness of you not being here and the silence hurts so bad. I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL BABY BOY, you are and always will be my LOVE ABUG. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 205. To many days and nights without you next to me. So many things I want to do with you again, walks, car rides, watching TV, listening to you dream and snore, brushing you, kissing you buying you toys and treats but I can't do any of them anymore except in my memory. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much ANDY...and WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! You took my heart with you when you left.. it was yours to take because it belonged to you. Have a good day MY BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 206 and I an crying still. I can't help it, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and MISS YOU SO MUCH and my life seems so empty without you. We knew each other so well... we loved being together but now your gone and my heart is broken. It's almost 30 weeks that you have been gone and it feels like only yesterday that you died. Thank you for the beautiful feathers this morning and for your star. We got to walk for a little bit together before you faded into the sky but I saw you and know you are there watching over me and our house. THANK YOU for ALL YOUR LOVE BABY BOY and for the JOY you brought into my life you are still and always will be MY EVERYTHING. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 206, my heart is still so broken and the tears keep falling. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, more that anyone. I wanted more time with you, it seemed like you were healthy, no slowness, no noticeable issues but your heart was just not up to the task of keeping you alive. I don't know what made you die that day, a blood clot or a heart attack, I just know you died and OUR LIVES WERE FOREVER ALTERED. Please know that YOU ARE and ALWAYS WILL BE IN MY HEART. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU BABY BOY. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 207, it will be 7 months in 4 more days, sever long, lonely months that we have been apart, I hope you know how much I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU, and I hope you have found my family and they are taking good care of you, I don't want to think of you as being as lonely as I am. YOU were MY EVERYTHING and YOU STILL ARE. Thank you for the feather this morning, I didn't see your star but I know it was there watching over me. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 208. I just got back from our morning walk and you left me 10 beautiful feathers in the night. You know how they make me smile and they did, but now I am crying again because I MISS YOU SO and want you back. Your star had disappeared before I got out to walk, but I know you were still there, walking and watching over me. Please give our family and pets a kiss, the kisses they give back will be from me. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU BABY BOY. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 209 and almost 7 months. Today would have been your grooming day so we tood a ride to the shop and did our walk with Sandy like we always did I wish you could still have your spa day but that isn't possible, so just pretend that you are getting your bath, blow dry and brushing, and dodn't forget the great fragrance spray she would put on you, I have some here and spray it sometimes on you pony tail that Sandy made for me. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY and MISS YOU so VERY MUCH. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 210. Tomorrow will be 7 months that we have been physically apart. You have been so generous with your feathers in the last few days, are they anniversary gifts of a sort? I would prefer ALL of you but will settle for the feathers. I MISS YOU so VERY MUCH and I still cry a bucket of tears every day. I so very much long to bury my face in your fur, rub your ears, chin and rub you belly but I can't except in my mind. Know that I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and I THINK OF YOU ALWAYS. HAVE a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 211 and the seven month mark. My heart is still broken, and I have become angry at the world and am pushing everyone away. I only want you with me and that cannot be so I have isolated myself and don't want anyone around me anymore. Sandy is the one exception, YOU LOVED HER and SHE LOVED YOU but she is the only one. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU ANDY, you were MY LIFE, MY EVERYTHING and when you left it all slipped away. Please KNOW that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with all MY HEART and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY.
Good morning MY LOVE, day 212, 7 long months and one day that you we have been apart. I LOVE and MISS you as much if not more today than when you first died. Everyday I hold your picture close and take a walk with you in the early morning. We stop at your favorite places, and I talk to you like I used to do. This morning I found 4 feathers from you and saw your star, so bright and beautiful. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 213. Have I told you recently that I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU with ALL MY HEART? My days are empty without you, but I think of you constantly and remember when you were with me and we could do all our favorite things or just do nothing. Just being in your company was good enough for me, YOU were ALL that I needed and wanted. I keep trying to feel you with me, but I can't, I can imagine you on our walks, the way you always looked for me, your beautiful brown eyes looking at me with so much LOVE and TRUST. I am sorry if I in some way let you down at the end, I tried everything to keep us together, but everything was just not enough. Please let GOD know you want to be with me again. I LOVE YOU MY FUR ANGEL.. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS.. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 214 and I am still crying and MISSING YOU with all my HEART, or what is left of it, so much of it went to HEAVEN with you so you would always have me near and would know that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I saw your star this morning and you walked with me for a short while and shared the beautiful sunrise. I LOVE YOU so much.. and MISS YOU. I don't know what to do with my time, I only know I want you!!! Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 214. I wake up excited to go on our walk, to see your star in the sky and know that you are walking with me, at least for a little while. Unfortunately my excitement soon turns to tears because I MISS YOU SO MUCH and wish with all my heart that you were still here with me and healthy. Thank you for the tiny feather this morning, they as you know make me smile because I feel like you drop them to say you LOVE ME TOO and to let me know you are OK. I wish I could hug and kiss you in person but we both have to wait on that. Have a good day MY BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 215. So many days we have been apart, so many kisses I wanted to give you but now can only kiss your pictures. It's Tuesday so would have been your grooming day and as usual we went by the shop and walked around the block with Sandy like we always did. I can't break from routines we had, doing that would make everything seem more final than it is. This way I can just play mind games and believe your spirt is still here and we ARE still doing everything together. Thank you for the two beautiful feathers, I didn't get to see your star this morning because of the clouds, but I know you were there. Please don't ever leave me... I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much. Have a good day BABY BOY, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 216. My heart still hurts so much, my days are empty without you. I think I finally figured out a good time to get up for our morning walk so I can walk with your star. The skies were clear this morning and your star was shining so brightly, we got through the entire walk before you disappeared. Thank you for the two tiny feathers, you know how much I love them. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so much, please let me know you still love me too. YOU WERE and STILL ARE MY EVERYTHING. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 217. Thank you for the five tiny feathers in my yard today, I only saw one other at another house in the entire walk, so I KNOW YOU LEFT THEM FOR ME. I only saw your star briefly there were wispy clouds obscuring you but again I KNOW YOU were walking with me. I MISS YOU BABY BOY and think of you and MISS YOU constantly. I so much want to look into your trusting eyes, KISS YOU, HUG YOU and NEVER LET YOU GO, but I can't, I only have your pictures and pillow which is why they go with me everywhere. I LOVE YOU ANDY, please know THAT YOU will ALWAYS HAVE MY HEART. Have a good day MY LOVE. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 218. Thank you for the beautiful feather on my sidewalk this morning, nowhere else on the block did I see one so I KNOW YOU left this for me. I was able to walk with your star for almost the whole walk today, getting out early has it's perks, you were so bright and handsome in the sky just like you always were in life. I'm not doing to well these days, which I am sure you see. I am more angry and sad and I don't know how to change that. I MISS YOU and LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I just don't know how to cope with you not being here and never being here again. Please, if you can let me know YOU ARE STILL HERE WITH ME,,, I NEED YOU!!! Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, MY ANDY. Day 219. The days and weeks keep mounting up and my tears never stop, my heart hurts I LOVE and MISS YOU SO MUCH. Do you know that you were MY EVERYTHING. YOU were the ONLY THING I cared about and LOVED. I remember the things we did together and times we did nothing but were still together. It didn't matter if we were doing anything, we just wanted to be with each other. I don't know how to stop the hurt or the tears and I don't know that I want to. I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU, how could I, YOU TOOK MY HEART WITH YOU when you died, it was yours to take. Thank you for the two feathers in our yard this morning... no others on the whole block, just in our yard so I know you put them there. Have a good day MY LOVE, HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 220. Do you know how VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU? Yes I am sad because we are apart but we have so many good memories that also make me cry when I remember them. I MISS YOU MY LOVE, I don't know what to do without you and I am becoming more of a recluse that I was before. No one understands so I don't bother to try to explain, I just say I MISS YOU which most probably don't understand because you to them were just a dog, but to me you were my EVERYTHING. Please KNOW that I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL. Thank you for the two perfect white feathers this morning... they do make me smile. Have a good day BABY BOY. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 221. The skies were clear this morning so we almost finished our walk together. Thank you for the three beautiful feathers, I have them in in your little box along with all the others you have left me. I didn't do anything for Easter yesterday, no special food so couldn't give you any ham snacks but know that I would have is you were here and could eat them. I am really becoming a recluse, I don't want anyone around me I only want you and the little girl you found for me. She can make me smile and then I cry again because she isn't YOU. Have a good day BABY BOY, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 222. We went to the grooming salon today and you got to see Sandy. You no longer seem confused that you don't stay for your bath, I guess you have accepted that you died, but I can't. Yes I know you did but I STILL WANT YOU BACK, I want to be with you, hug you, kiss you and look into your beautiful trusting eyes. I hurt so bad still... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I hope you know that. There was a beautiful fluffy feather on the parking spot that you left for me, I need to find it in my car or maybe just let it stay there, one more part of you that I can take on car rides. I MISS YOJ and LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY. Good morning MY LOVE, day 224. very soon it will be 8 months. My life changed forever when you died, you took my heart which I willingly gave you and now I am just an unhappy, sad, angry person. You kept me calm and grounded, and I LOVED YOU SO MUCH, there was happiness but now only emptiness. I MISS YOU so much, everywhere I look you used to be there and now it is just emptiness and only memories. I knew you couldn't live forever but I didn't know how much I WOULD MISS YOU. Thank you for the tiny feather this morning, the fog wouldn't let me see your star but I know you were there. I LOVE YOU ANDY. Have a good day BABY BOY. HUGS, KISSES and BELLY RUBS. YOUR LOVING MOMMY.
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