I wanted to check on you. I see that you are still struggling. I get it. Some pets cannot be replaced in our hearts. But I want to tell you something that may give you hope. We have not been looking for a kitten, as I felt it would be disrespectful to our Molly. But almost three weeks ago, we were attending a BBQ at an apartment complex, and a sweet little kitten found us. She had not been claimed by anyone at the complex after a note had gone around. She never left us, and I felt it was a sign that we were meant to take her home. So I asked my husband, knowing he really wasn't ready, if we could take her. She will never replace Molly. But she has brought a light into a dark place, and fills our hearts with love. I hope that some day, Andy will let you know that it's okay to love another dog who needs the kind of love you can give. I promise, it will not diminish what Andy gave you, but be a different kind of relationship that will you some happiness when you're ready.