4/12/2024 5:34 am. Good morning sweet boy! It is so hard getting up now knowing that you aren't here! I go downstairs fully expecting to see you laying in your spot and it's empty! You would be eating breakfast now and getting ready to go outside. It's raining out this morning. There was a chance of thunderstorms overnight and I can't help but think how frightened you would have been to hear the thunder! Well, you don't have to worry about that noise anymore. You are surrounded by peace and beauty. Are you running with Timber? I hope so. Just don't let him boss you around. Remember you are older than him. I love you to the moon and back and my heart aches at your absence! You were the gentlest dog I have ever encountered and I feel so lucky to have been able to call you mine! Mommy loves you forever and always and I can't wait to see you again. All my love, always!

4/13/2024 5:51 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss you so much! It is such a beautiful morning with the sun just about to come up. You would have finished eating by now and have been outside. Right now you would be laying downstairs. But I know that after I let you in you wouldn't have let me pass you. You would have put your whole body into me so I couldn't pass. Then you would have kept your head right at my knee so I could pet you. That was our routine, right Jameson. I am going to miss that so much! I already miss seeing your sweet face. I miss hearing you bark! The house is too quiet and empty! Daddy and Phoebe sent me a whole bunch of pictures of you yesterday. Most of them I didn't even know existed. You were just so beautiful I can't believe it! I hope you found Timber and are getting to know each other. The mourning doves were back again yesterday. I will check everyday to see if they are under the deck. Please watch over Matthew. He is having an especially hard time. He loved you so much! Well play hard and rest easy my sweet Jameson! I love you to the moon and back!

4/14/2024 5:39 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! The house is so incredibly empty without you! The quiet is deafening! I want to hear your resounding bark. I remember when we first picked you up. The couple said that you never barked. I thought that was so strange but I resolved myself to the fact that we would never hear your voice. Lo and behold on the fourth day we had you, you barked at a dog you saw on a walk. I actually jumped because I was taken aback. From that point on you barked more and more. You sometimes even howled. I miss that so much already! I just miss seeing your sweet face in the morning and just leaning in for your pets! I hope you are running freely without any pain! Say hi to Timber and pa for me and know that we will be together again one day! I love you to the moon and back forever and always!

4/15/2024 5:38 am. Good morning Jameson! How is my sweet boy? I miss you so much! My morning routine is so different now. Right now you would be eating and I would be waiting for you to finish so I could let you out in the backyard. But you aren't here! You deserved so much more. I can't believe that you are gone! I haven't had the heart to pick up your water bowl. I still put fresh water in it. I know, I'm crazy. I just would hate to go downstairs and not see it there. I have packed up your other things. I have your towels, other bowls, shampoo, brush, toys (that you never played with), toothpaste and toothbrush, your medicine, even your heart guard and flea and tick. I have put all of that in a container next to Timber's. I kept your collar and leash out so when we get you back we will put them with your memorial. I hope you are running and playing and sniffing all day long. I would love to see that! I like to think of you and Timber together even though you never met while on earth. But I think the love of a family binds pets together in heaven! I love you forever and always to the moon and back and one day, sweet Jameson we will be together forever! Mommy loves always!

4/16/2024 5:17 am. Good morning my sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! I keep expecting to see you downstairs and my heart breaks all over again when you aren't there. I miss seeing your big head in the door waiting to come in. I miss hearing your booming bark. I miss everything about you Jameson! Do you like your memorial? I hope so! I chose spring because I think that was your favorite season. The flowers were coming into bloom, the grass was growing and you could smell nature coming alive. I know how you loved the flowers and bushes. I miss seeing you in the backyard, laying on the grass in your corner eating your yummy. How you loved your kebabs. Well a weird thing happened yesterday. A bird, a dove to be specific hit the kitchen window. I went out to see if it was okay and it was sitting on the railing of the deck. I like to think that you are sending me signs to tell me that you are still around and that you are okay! I love you to the moon and back forever and always! Keep sending mommy the signs and I will see you again one day! I love you sweet boy!

4/16/2024 2:55 pm. Hello my sweet boy! Well you are back home where you should be! I picked you up as soon as they called me so now we are with us forever! You are next to your brother Timber and hopefully you have met at Rainbow Bridge! I am so happy that I have you back and I can never lose you again! All my love Jameson forever and ever!

4/17/2024 5:21 am. Good morning sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! It is one week since we had to say goodbye and I can't believe that it has been one week since I have seen your beautiful face and kissed your sweet head! The house is so quiet! I keep waiting to hear you bark because you hear the dogs next door and you want to go out! I miss seeing you lay in the grass enjoying the quiet. I miss giving you your yummy in the morning and watching your tail wag in excitement! I have left your water bowl out and keep putting fresh water in it. I still say, "mommy will see you in a little while" when I leave to drop the kids at school. I cannot believe that you are gone! I will miss you until the day we are reunited forever! Stay with Timber and know that you are loved beyond measure! Mommy loves you to the moon and back forever and always!

4/18/2024 5:44 am. Good morning my sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! My morning routine is so different now. I actually get up later but I am still awake early thinking I have to get up to feed you. I miss seeing how excited you got when it was time to eat. Well it is chilly and drizzling out this morning. Just a few days ago we were at 82 degrees and now we are only getting to 50 degrees. You were so cute when it rained. You knew to come in and stop to be dried. I think you actually enjoyed being dried off. Sometimes I think it's because you felt like you were being petted. So opposite Timber who hated being dried. He loved to get soaking wet though. I hope the two of you have become fast friends. Stay with each other and go for walks together! One day mommy will be with you again! Play hard and rest easy Jameson and know I carry you in my heart forever!

4/19/2024 5:34 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! It's weird getting up and it being so dark. We used to keep the staircase light on in case you wanted to come upstairs. But now we shut it off and I still have to get used to that. Daddy get you an angel for your memorial. You are right next to Timber! Guess what, Julie turns 16 today. When we got you she wasn't even a teenager yet (12) and now she is so grown up. I still can't believe that you are gone. It feels like yesterday we picked you up in Manhattan. You were even more beautiful in person, I don't think your photo on the computer did you justice. I miss seeing your sweet face and getting hit with your paw. I will cherish those moments for the rest of my life! Are you running and playing with the other dogs and cats? I hope so. You used to bark at them but when they came right up to you all you did was stand there. I think you were a big softy. Mommy misses you so much! One day sweet boy we will be together again, forever! Say hi to pa and Timber for me and always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/20/2024 6:57 pm. Hello sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! Well we have your memorial all set up. You are right next to Timber! Daddy also ordered a new infinity sign that has both of your names on it. He already hang it and it looks beautiful. I have to still put a picture on your ashes like Timber has. Are the two of you walking and running together? I hope so. I also hope you are getting plenty of yummies! I know I already told you this but the house is so quiet. Not that you were loud, but we all miss your barking. I still expect to see you downstairs. One day Jameson we will be together again. Each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you again! Mommy loves you to the moon and back forever and always!

4/21/2024 8:00 pm. Hello my sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! It was chilly out today and I know that would have bothered your legs. But hopefully now you can walk and run without any problems. I still expect to see you downstairs and am heartbroken all over again when you aren't there. I saw Lori today. She told me that Addy keeps barking for you. She comes out on the deck, stares at the house and barks, waiting for you to come outside. I saw her today and it broke my heart knowing that you won't ever come out on the deck again. Daddy and I went shopping at Target for the first time in over a month and I could not go down the aisle they keep the dog treats. I am so used to buying your kebabs and I couldn't face seeing them hanging there without having to buy them. I hope you are getting plenty of yummies and cookies at Rainbow Bridge. I miss you beyond words and I hope to see you again very soon! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back! Say hi to Timber and pa for me sweet boy! xo

4/22/2024 1:15 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! I know it is really early but I can't sleep. I went to bed really early last night and now I am wide awake. The kids are off this week for spring break so I don't really have to get up. I miss seeing your beautiful face. I miss seeing you looking in the back door waiting to come in. The basement still smells like you. As soon as you walk in all I smell is Jameson. I hope that scent stays forever. Are you running and playing with other animals? I hope so. Keep close to Timber and know that one day we will all be together. Each day that passes brings me that much closer to being with you again. Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/23/3024 3:38 pm. Hello sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! I still can't believe that you are gone. I finally picked up your water bowl. It was becoming increasingly hard to see it there everyday. Well the weather has been really nice. The kids are off this week so you would have been in your glory. I am actually not feeling well. I have a really bad head cold. But I know Matthew would have taken care of you if you were still here with us. Are you hanging out with Timber and pa? I hope so! I hope the three of you are going on nice long walks together! On day Jameson, mommy will be with you again for all eternity! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!!

4/24/2024 5:09 am. Good morning my sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! Laura texted me to say how sorry she was to hear that you passes. She is Lindy's mom. She said that she knows you were greatly loved and that love never dies! I have to believe that your spirit is still alive and free. I wish I could see you running around without your legs bothering you! I hope you can keep up with Timber! Are you getting plenty of yummies? I hope so my sweet boy! One day, we will be together again forever. Each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you! I can't believe that you are gone two weeks today. It already seems like a lifetime ago that I saw your beautiful face. I can't wait to see you again and pet your soft head! One day I will be able to do those things again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/25/2024 6:14 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! Oh my sweet Jameson, I miss seeing your beautiful face and watching your eyes light up when you were going to get a yummy! I miss you leaning into me so you could be petted and never wanting it to end! I know we only had you a short while but I believe all of our lives were made better while you were here with us! We gave you a loving home and you helped our hearts heal from losing Timber! I just never expected to lose you so quickly as well! Having said that, I wouldn't change the time we had for anything in the world! You were and still are the sweetest boy ever and I miss you everyday! One day we will be together forever! Each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you again! Make sure you hang out with Timber and pa, okay! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/26/2024 5:53 pm. Hello my sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! Just to let you know about current events, Aunt Deb sent me pictures of you that she took the first time she met you back in September of 2020. We went in to Queens for pa's birthday. Do you remember that? Well she took some really nice photos and she sent them to me. So, today I put one of those pictures on your ashes and I chose another one for your paw print. Now your memorial is complete! I sent her a picture to show her how it looks. She loved it! Another piece of exciting news is that Matthew and Julie both got their driving permits today! I know, I can't believe it either. So hopefully soon they will have their own license and be able to drive themselves!! I know you, Timber and pa will keep a close watch over them! Right sweet boy!! The days have been so nice recently and I wish you were here to enjoy them. The backyard is so cool and shady in the morning, you would have loved having your yummy in your usual spot! I miss seeing you out there everyday!! Well Jameson, as I say, each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!!

4/28/2024 11:56 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! I'm sorry I didn't write to you yesterday, but it was Timber's 4th anniversary at Rainbow Bridge. I'm sorry that I got sidetracked and I did't write to you! Are you doing okay Jameson? Are you running and playing like a puppy? I hope so! Well the weather is going to get warm, fast. Yesterday was a cool and kind of gloomy day with a little bit of drizzle. Today, it is going to be in the mid 70's and tomorrow in the mid 80's. If you were still here with us I would probably put the air on. I would need to know that you were comfortable in an air conditioned house. Without you here I don't think I will put it in. The kids, daddy and I can just deal with the warmer temps for a few days. Are you hanging out with Timber and pa? I hope so my sweet boy! I miss you everyday and keep you in my heart! Hopefully you will come and visit with me in my dreams! I would love to see your beautiful face! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!!

4/29/2024 7:30 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! I miss seeing your beautiful face everyday! It is so empty downstairs now and I still expect to see you when I go down. I finally took your water bowl up. I washed it and I instinctively put it under the cabinet where I kept your extra bowls. It took me a minute to remember that you weren't here and wouldn't be using it. I still have it under the cabinet, I just have to put it into the container with all of your other things. Well it is going to be warm out today. They say middle 80's. That was too warm for you, I know. Oh Jameson, my heart is broken without you! I still have your yummies. We had just bought a bag of your chompeez and they remain unopened. I don't know what to do with them. I did throw away your bed. Honestly, you never really used this one anyway. The first bed we bought you was the only one you used. Well I hope you are going on walks and running around and playing! Say hi to Timber and pa for me! Remember to play hard and rest easy and always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/30/2024 6:31 pm. Hello my sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! I miss seeing your beautiful face in the door waiting to come in! You never did learn to just hit the door so I could hear you, instead you would wait patiently to be let in. Well it was cooler today. Over 20 degrees cooler than yesterday. It felt nice but it was humid out. The kids go back to school tomorrow so the routine begins once again. At least the school year is almost over. It will be weird not to have you here during the summer. The house is so empty without you. I don't really go out at all now. I had to go to the bank today and yesterday I walked with Phoebe to get coffee, but that's it. I have no reason to go outside. The backyard doesn't even appeal to me anymore without you here. I miss you so much! I miss your gentleness and just truly loving nature! I know I will see you again one day and I can't wait! Say hi to Timber and pa for me! Always know that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/1/2024 6:13 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! I can't believe that you are gone 3 weeks. In some ways it feels like yesterday and in others it feels so much longer. I still expect to hear you cry when you wanted to go out because you hear the dogs next door. Kurt and Addy still look for you. Lori told me that Addy goes to the fence where you would always be and barks for you. I guess she doesn't understand that you aren't there anymore. Maybe you could go and visit with her. I wish you would come and visit with me. Maybe come and see me in my dreams, okay Jameson. Well the kids go back to school today so the routine begins again. Just not the routine that I want. I miss you so much and long for the day we are together again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/2/2024 4:47 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! I know it is really early but I just couldn't sleep. This reminds me of when we first brought you home. I tried to take you for a very early walk like I used to do with Timber. You got right up when I said "walk" but then you kept sitting down along the way. I couldn't get you to move for anything! I tried I few more times but you weren't interested. Well May is your birthday month so I put a stuffed candle on your memorial. I wish you were here to celebrate another birthday with us later this month. I guess you will spend it with Timber and pa instead! I miss you so much sweet boy! We can all still smell you downstairs and fully expect to see you. I keep thinking that I am going to knock into your water bowl but I have already picked it up. One day Jameson, mommy will be with you again, forever! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/3/2024 5:32 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! You would be eating breakfast right about now. Most of the time as soon as you heard me you would be standing there waiting to eat. But towards the end you didn't get up. You just laid there and wanted to be petted. I missed the days that you eagerly ate! Then it was time for you to go out. Sometimes even this early in the morning you would bark but not always. You followed the same route each time to go to your spot on the grass. Sometimes it looked like you were patrolling the yard looking for anything that shouldn't be there. You were so funny! I miss seeing your sweet face each day and I really miss hearing your booming bark! Your bark was such a contrast to your sweet demeanor. I just miss everything about you! But I know one day we will be together again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back! Say hi to Timber and pa for me! I love you always!

5/4/2024 5:43 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! Breakfast would be done by now and you would probably be in the back right about now. All of those things that spin off of the trees are in the backyard now, so I'm sure when you would come in you would be covered in them. You always tracked them through the house because they stuck like glue to your fur. I miss our walks. Although we never went really far I just miss watching you smell the grass and the flowers. You truly loved nature! I hope you have plenty of flowers to smell and lots of grass to lay in! One day sweet boy we will be together again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/5/2024 6:43 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! I keep looking at your photos and the one that I put on your ashes almost looks like you are following me with your eyes. It's like you are really alive in the picture! It is such a beautiful photo of you! Well the weather is going to be up and down this week. Today basically rain all day and cool. You were so cute when you got wet. You knew to stop in the door and to wait to get dried. I think you actually enjoyed it. You were such a good boy. By far the sweetest and gentlest soul that there ever was! We all miss you so much! You helped our hearts heal after losing Timber but now I my heart is broken all over again! I just know that one day I will see you again and that being away from you is only temporary! I will love you forever and always and I cherish the few years that we had together! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/6/2024 6:06 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! You are always on my mind and forever in my heart! The basement still smells like you. Sometimes when I come in it is as if you are still here. Daddy says the same thing. I guess it's the carpet that is holding onto your scent. Guess what? There was a turkey sitting in the tree right near our house this morning. At about 5 this morning I could hear it making its gobbling noises. It was so loud. It finally came out of the tree and was on the grass next door to us. But then a woman walking her dog scared it and it crossed the street. I wonder what you would have done if you heard it? You probably would have barked at it. It's another gloomy day today. The weather is going to be all over the place this week. Hopefully we won't have to put the air on just yet. Are you hanging out with pa and Timber and going on walks together? I hope so! One day we will all be together again. Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/7/2024 5:49 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! You are always on my mind and forever in my heart! I hope you are running and playing without any pain! I hope you are getting plenty of yummies and watching down over us! I can't wait to see you again! I look at your pictures all of the time and I am still amazed at how beautiful you were! Your sweet face is forever imprinted in my memory and heart! I hope you and Timber are enjoying each others company and are best friends! I miss you every second of every day. Well the turkey wasn't back this morning so I don't know where he went. Even daddy was wondering what you would have done if you saw him in our backyard. I think you would have just barked at him. I don't really know. It would have been interesting to see though. It is going to be warmer today with sun and I know you would have laid outside for a little while. I wish I could still see you out there. I truly miss your beautiful face! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/8/2024 5:21 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss you so much! You are gone one month today and I can't believe it! The house is so empty without you! I just put your last bowl away into your container. I had washed it and instinctively put it under the cabinet. It looked so natural to be in its usual place but then I remembered that you won't be using it anymore. So yesterday I put it with all of your other things. Your container is right next to Timber's. It is going to be very warm today, about 85 degrees. I know you wouldn't have stayed outside long because that is too warm for you. We are also supposed to get some rain this morning which is going to make it humid. You would be eating breakfast right now so hopefully we would have missed the rain. You were so cute when it rained. You hated being wet and if it was raining out after you ate breakfast, you would go outside, hurry to do your business and then come right back in. You knew to stand there and waited to be dried. I miss those days! I can't believe it has been a month since I have seen your beautiful face! I just miss and love you so much sweet boy! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/9/2024 4:42 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! Phoebe and I were talking about you yesterday. We both miss you so much and are so happy that we had you in our lives! She thinks you were really happy here and that you loved it here and I agree! Even though your time with us wasn't nearly long enough, we are so happy that you came into our lives and we cherish the few years we did have with you! You are by far the gentlest dog I have ever met and I miss your sweet nature! You also had the most soulful eyes and I miss seeing your beautiful face! One day sweet boy we will all be together again, forever! Well it is much cooler today than yesterday. Yesterday the house got up to 83 degrees, but the basement was almost 10 degrees cooler, so I think you would have been fine. But you definitely would have enjoyed today. I wish you were still here with us! I miss you every minute of every day! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/10/2024 5:44 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! You are gone one month today and I still can't believe it! We all miss you so much and wish that you were still here with us! It is raining out this morning and by this time you would have eaten and gone out in the back. I know you would have been quick to do your business and then hurry back in the house to get dried. You were so good about letting me dry you. I think you actually liked it! Well I gave a brand new package of chompeez away because you didn't get a chance to eat them. So another dog or dogs will be able to enjoy them now. I miss you sweet boy! The house is so incredibly empty without. I have had to come up with a new routine and I still haven't really found one. I kind of just flutter about all day long! I can't wait to be with you and Timber again! Remember mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!!

5/11/2024 9:13 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! It is so beautiful out today! You would have enjoyed the weather and maybe would have laid outside for a little while! The house is so quiet and empty without you! This morning two dogs were barking outside, I guess they came across each other during a walk and I fully expected to hear you whine or bark to go outside. I know you are gone one month but I still expect to hear and see you! I wish you would come and visit with me in my dreams. I would love to see your beautiful face! I hope you are going on walks with Timber and pa! I also hope you are running and playing and enjoying not being in any pain! We all miss you so much and love you even more! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/12/2024 8:23 pm. Hello sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! I know its late, I'm sorry! I have just been busy all day long. Today's is Mother's Day and I slept in. Then I had wash to do, the kids gave me presents and then I laid down. I miss you so much! Daddy and I were talking about you before and how the house isn't the same without you! We can still smell you downstairs. Daddy said that sometimes he hears a jingle and he thinks it's you with your tags on your collar. Sometimes I think I hear you on the carpet downstairs. I don't know if I am losing my mind or you are still here in spirit. I wish you would come and visit with me! I would love to see your sweet face again! Well it was a rainy day today and this week is going to be a mixed bag. Yesterday I was sweeping up those helicopter things that fall from the tree. They are all over the concrete and the grass in the backyard. I can't help but remember how many you used to bring in the house because they would stick to your fur. I guess I don't have that problem anymore. Well its late and you would be down for the night! Sweet dreams Jameson and always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/13/2024 12:52 pm. Hello sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! My morning routine is so different now. I don't get up as early because I don't have to feed you and let you out. After I drop the kids off I'm used to letting you out, but no more. My day is just so different and quiet. I miss hearing your bark and seeing your beautiful face! Are you getting plenty of yummies? I hope so! Are you going for nice walks? Hopefully you are spending your time with Timber and pa! I tell myself that only space separates us and that each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/14/2024 6:05 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! You would have eaten and been outside by now. You would probably be lying downstairs and waiting for your yummy which you would get in about an hour. I still have a lot of your treats. You had multiple bags open and I don't know what to do with them. They are still in the same place where we always kept them. It is going to be cloudy out today and it looks like rain for the rest of the week. So far it hasn't been too warm and hopefully it stays that way. I love looking at your pictures but it makes me miss you even more! I just tell myself that you and Timber are together and waiting for me. One day Jameson mommy will be with you again and I can't wait! I hope you are watching down over us! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

5/15/2024 4:49 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! You would have eaten very early this morning. Daddy is snoring and I can't sleep. So you know on days like these you would have been eating breakfast right about now. I think it's raining out so you would have made a mad dash back into the house after you finished doing your business in the backyard. I think it is supposed to rain most of the day. Hopefully it will be a little cooler. Summer will be here before you know it. I keep looking at one of your pictures I have on your memorial and it's like your eyes are following me. Timber's picture also looks like he is staring at me as well. It's a little weird but comforting at the same time! I wish you were still here. I miss seeing your beautiful face and having you nudge me to be petted. I still have a bunch of open treats that I don't know what to do with. I don't want to get rid of them because then that area where they are kept will be empty. I miss you sweet boy and I can't wait until we are together again. Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!