I know you are running and jumping and free. I'm free! I'm free! Remember running along the ocean and over the rocks? How you ran to daddy after you jumped through the camper window? No way were you going to stay in there by yourself when Mommy and Daddy were outside!

My tears come too quickly now and Chrissy says that is you, tugging at my heart, letting me know you are here. I know you are Sweet Pea. I talk to you every night and every morning. I say hello and good night to you. It is the only way I can get through this.

Lilly misses you terribly. She hasn't eaten since Monday. It's been hard for me to eat too. I know you don't want us to get sick, but we need to mourn. We hurt so much. Lilly and I take comfort in each other. She looks for you and paces the hall. Truman, well he's just the puppy. The baby who needs attention. He misses you too, but doesn't understand what happened to his friend.

Casco, until we meet again my friend, I will miss you with every breath I take. I love you

January 1, 2009. Happy New Year Casco. So many people have sent there love to you. Everyone who met you, loved you. I am doing better but my heart still aches. One of the mommy's who signed your guestbook wrote a beautiful Indian proverb~ "The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears". My soul is definitely full of rainbows these days.

Lilly still hasn't eaten and is looking for you. I comfort her and give her tummy rubs. She did eat a little bit last night from Daddy's hands, but not much. We both miss you terribly. I will follow you my friend.....until then. I love you.

January 4, 2009. It has been one week and my tears still come so frequently. I miss you so very much my big boy. Are you being a proud boy, running around with all of your new friends? When you can, find Mac and give him a big kiss from you and me, ok? He deserves it Sweet Pea. He was such a good baby. I think of you every day my love and miss you with every breath I take, still. Until we meet again, I love you.

January 6, 2009. Hi My proud boy. I am bringing you home to me tomorrow. I know your soul and spirit are all around me. Remember: "You may only be one person to the world.But you may also be the world to one person."~ by Anonymous ~ You were my world.

I dedicate this to you my Casco, for you loved, trusted, needed, wanted, accepted and desired me:
Love me without fear
Trust me without questioning
Need me without demanding
Want me without restrictions
Accept me without change
Desire me without inhibitions
For a love so free....
Will never fly away.
~ by Dick Sutphen ~

January 7, 2009. Hello My Sweet Pea. I brought you home today. You are home with your Lilly Girl, Truman and Mommy. I want you back in my arms big boy. I can't stop hurting. I miss you so.
January 11, 2009. Hi Proud boy. Katie wrote you a beautiful letter and she misses you so much. Did you feel her kisses and hear her prayer? Thank you for the rainbow over the moon.Lilly is eating a little bit, but not much. She still misses her friend. I feel better having you home and close to me. I miss getting up in the middle of the night and seeing your cute face looking at me. My heart is still broken. Until we are together again proud boy. My Casco, I love you and want you back in my arms to hold and kiss and have you lick my hand and reassure me. You always reassured me when things were too hard for me to bear.
January 19, 2009-It isn't getting "easier" and my heart is still broken. I miss you so very much Casco. I still talk to you every day, do you hear me? I am listening with my heart for you in the silence of the snowfall, on the wings of the birds at the feeders. I never thought I could hurt like this.
Hey Sweet Pea, it's January 27, 2009 and I am having a bad day because I miss you so much. Did you have a chance to find Alex yet? Tracy is missing him something awful. When you can, go say hi and ask him to please send her a rainbow, ok? I'm sorry I'm crying, I just miss you so, so much. I love these words.....Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears, but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you...I loved you so - 'twas Heaven here with you.-Isla Pachal Richardson. I love you Sweet Pea.
March 8. It has been a while since I last wrote here, but not one single day goes by that I don't look for you, say good morning or good night to you my beautiful boy. I still miss you with every breath I take, every tear I shed and every beat of my heart. Letting you go to the Rainbow Bridge was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. You will always be in my heart Sweet Pea. Thank you for the gift you sent my way, he's pretty wonderful. I guess you loved me enough to send him to me. I will cherish him as I cherish you. Until next time..........Love mom
March18, 2009. Hello my love. I miss you terribly. Do you hear me say good morning every day I wake? You were so much a part of my life, you got me through so very much. I wish you were here beside me again. I love you.
May 22, 2009 Hello my love, you have a new friend to play with today. Linda lost her beloved Buster. Even though you never met, I hope you'll look for him and show him around, ok? I know the pain she is feeling, I feel it every day my friend. I miss you more than I can express to you. I hope you know how very much you are loved, still. I miss you with every breath I take and love you so.
Hello My Sweet Pea. I'm having a hard time again. It seems I miss you more and more every day you are not here on earth with me. I look at your picture and my heart aches for you, your tenderness, the way you knew when I was sad and came to comfort me. I love you and miss you.
June 22. Hi Sweet Pea. Another hard day for me. I want you to know how much I miss you. Do you see me or hear me every morning I say hello to you? My heart aches for you. You always knew when my heart hurt and you would come and put your head on my knees and just be there for me. I hope I was there for you. And more importantly, I hope and pray with every ounce of my being that you know letting you go was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and I hate myself for it. I hate it more than anyone will ever realize. The tears are falling as I type this for what I had to do. I hate it Casco, I just hate it. But I had to give you your dignity back. You are such a proud boy. Will you forgive me? I hope so. I love you so much and I miss you so.....Have you found George? He crossed over last week. I can't bring myself to mourn for him, although I suspect that is what started my thoughts of sadness tonight. Take care of him as you did me, ok? He might be scared and not know what's going on, just as I am sure you were. Did you feel my love and my arms around you, loving you with my whole soul? God I miss you.

Good Morning my beautiful boy. It's been awhile since I last wrote but seconds since I thought of you. The pain is still as fresh today as it was this time last year, knowing how you were suffering so. My heart still aches for you. I miss you and hope you can somehow know that. Are you happy and running free again? That is my biggest wish for you. That you are running and jumping again. I wish I could turn the clock back to the first day I saw you and freeze time there. Thank you for the joy, compassion, understanding and unconditional love you gave me. You are always in my heart Sweet Pea. I think of you with every breath I take. Still.

It's that time of year. Almost Christmas, and I miss you so much. I've cried every day for you my big boy. My heart aches so much for what I had to do. The pain is as fresh as it was the day I said goodbye to you. I go on but my life is so empty without you. I do see you and feel you everywhere. I want you back Casco. I want you back. Are you playing with Judge? You would have loved him. I hope he found you and you met him when he crossed the bridge on my birthday. My heart can't take much more pain. I love you so......
December 29, 2009. Hello my big boy. It has been a year and my heart still aches so much for you. I have you on my heart. It was a rough Christmas. I so hope you know how much you are loved and missed. I can see you running around the house, jumping and being proud boy. I will always hurt, because I will always care. I still want you back in my arms. I miss you, my heart aches for you. I love you with every breath I take Sweet Pea.
HAPPY NEW YEAR MY BEAUTIFUL BOY!! We all seemed to have made it through this hard part of every year. Smiles and tears, aching hearts all around. I just wish I had you to know my heart, lay your head in my lap and understand. The pipsqueak is good to cuddle with when he's sleepy but it's not the same.. ..I love you so much............
My funny Valentine. I love you! Are you running and playing and having a good time? I miss you and would so love to wrap my arms around you, Big Boy. Do you hear me say good morning every day to you? I hope so. Happy Day Proud Boy. I love you so......
December 24, 2010. Not a day has gone by that I don't touch your picture that hangs in my car and tell you how much I miss you. It hasn't gotten any easier missing you, the tears still flow so easily when I think of you. I wish, with every teardrop, I had you back in my arms. I hope you understand why I had to let you go. I hate it. I wish it could have been me but I am grateful for the love you gave me and I hope I made your time here on this earth as incredibly loving as you made mine. Missed with every breath I take. And never, ever forgotten. I love you so...
December 29, 2010. There are no words to describe how I feel. I looked around for you, a shadow, a sign, and found you in my heart. You never leave. Your essence is everywhere my big boy. Love, respect, admiration, adoration~words I use to try and describe my feelings for you. Let forever stay in your heart Sweet Pea, until we meet again. Know how much my heart hurts today for you, letting you go....I want you back.

Hey Sweet Pea. Do you hear me saying good morning EVERY day? I tell you how much I miss you and want you back. Happy Easter proud boy. I miss you more than you will ever know. You touched my life in a way I can not describe. You saved my heart and for that, you will always be there. I love you so Casco. I want you back. I love you. I miss you. I ache for you. Missed with every breath I take.
September 21, 2011. Do you hear me in the morning my Sweet Pea? I still hold you in my heart. The pain is softer but still there. Missing you sometimes becomes unbearable. I relive so many of our times together. I love you more than anyone can possibly know............

FOR ALL I'VE BEEN BLESSED WITH IN MY LIFE. THERE WAS AN EMPTINESS IN ME. I WAS IMPRISONED BY THE POWER OF GOLD. WITH ONE KIND TOUCH YOU SET ME FREE. LET THE WORLD STOP TURNING, LET THE SUN STOP BURNING. LET THEM TELL ME LOVE'S NOT WORTH GOING THROUGH. IF IT ALL FALLS APART,I WILL KNOW DEEP IN MY HEART,THE ONLY DREAM THAT MATTERED HAD COME TRUE. IN THIS LIFE I WAS LOVED BY YOU.
FOR EVERY MOUNTAIN I HAVE CLIMBED. EVERY RAGING RIVER CROSSED. YOU WERE THE TREASURE THAT I LONGED TO FIND. WITHOUT YOUR LOVE I WOULD BE LOST. LET THE WORLD STOP TURNING. LET THE SUN STOP BURNING. LET THEM TELL ME LOVE'S NOT WORTH GOING THROUGH. IF IT ALL FALLS APART I WILL KNOW DEEP IN MY HEART, THE ONLY DREAM THAT MATTERED HAD COME TRUE.IN THIS LIFE I WAS LOVED BY YOU......

Oh Casco, you are the only dream that mattered. Thank you beautiful boy.

December 25, 2011. Merry Christmas My Sweet Pea. I still have a broken heart. Do you hear me every day tell you how much I want you back in my arms? Running and jumping and knocking me down and licking my face. But most of all when I was sad you would sit in front of me and put your paw on my lap to tell me you were there for me. You are my treasure and I love you so. You will never be forgotten beautiful boy. I love you so very much~still.

December 29, 2011. I miss you so much. I love you proud boy. Mac, I say good morning to you every day. You, little one, are always remembered in my heart as well. I hope you both are running free of pain, happy and having the time of your lives. You both are sadly missed beautiful angels.

January 2, 2012. Hey Beautiful Boy. I want to let you know how much I miss you. This job is beating me to death. It re-enforces the hatred, stupidity and ignorance that runs rampant in humans. I am so thankful I found you and was able to know your love. I hope I did right by you Sweet Pea. Know that I can't wait to be with you. I have to believe you are in heaven, or somewhere animals are treated with kindness, respect and dignity. Hopefully they will treat us humans the same, if we are worthy. I don't know how they can use "human" and "kind" in the same word. I love you Sweet Pea. Until we are together again. Run free. Hey, have you found beautiful Stanley? Please give him a hug and tell him Mommy misses him terribly too. I wish I could have been with him when he crossed the Rainbow Bridge. Daddy misses him too.

March 19, 2012. It still has not gotten any easier. I miss you so very much, especially on hard days like today. My beloved fur babies, I miss you all. I love you Sweet Pea, give Stanley, Mikey, Cody and everyone big kisses for me. Happy Spring tomorrow beautiful boy.

January 14, 2013. My heart still aches beautiful boy. Do you know how much I love you, still? I hope you found Stanley and Steve's kitties and they are all curling up with you, running with you and loving you. I can not express to you what joy you brought to my life. It is not any easier. Missing you with every breath I take Sweet Pea. xoxo Mommy.

March 31, 2013. Happy Easter Sweet Pea. I still love you and miss you with every breath I take. I am glad for the pain in my heart, it means we had a never ending love. I know I will love you and miss you until we meet again. Truman and Lilly send their love up to you. I hope you are running free and playing hide and seek with all of the other fur angels. Until we are together again, know you are always in my heart. I adore you Casco, and did from the moment I saw you.

May 20, 2013. Casco, I had to let Lilly go today. Go meet her at the bridge Sweet Pea. Stick together until I can join you. My heart hurts all over again and now I will be saying hello to you both. I want my dogs back. I love you both with every breath I take. Run free Lilly Girl, run free beautiful. I love you so~

December 24, 2013, Casco and My Beautiful Lilly Girl. My heart still aches for you both. I miss your kisses, I miss you more than my heart can express. I hope you hear me talking to you every single day. You both filled my life with such joy and happiness and letting you go was the hardest thing I have ever done. Lilly's last kiss on my face is embedded in my memory and on my broken heart. I want my dogs back. I love you both and miss you with every breath I take.

ANYONE WHO CARES FOR ANIMALS AND WANTS TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE, PLEASE CLICK ON THIS LINK. IN MEMORY OF MAC, MAYBE WE CAN ALL MAKE A DIFFERENCE TO THOSE WHO DO NOT HAVE A VOICE TO SPEAK AND BE HEARD.
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http://www.petitiononline.com/j4mac/petition.html

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December 31, 2014. I still miss you with every breath I take. So much has happened in this year Sweet Pea. I lost Lilly girl, I lost daddy, Grammy just lost Angus. Go meet him at the bridge Sweet Pea. Another broken heart was made yesterday. I moved in with the love of my life and am trying to put back together the pieces of a broken heart. I am doing it but it is a heavy heart. I miss you so much and I miss Lilly Girl. This time of year always makes my heart break. Did you find Daddy? I cant believe he is gone. I hope you are running and he is laughing, without a care in the world. Another year has come and gone, seemingly in the blink of an eye. I miss you and Lilly with every breath I take. I love you Sweet Pea. Until we meet again.

March 29, 2015. Hello Casco and Lilly Girl and Angus! Did you meet Lady Bug at the bridge yesterday? Heaven got another angel. Show her around and keep her close, she will probably be a little scared for a while. Let her know she will be thought of every day, how much she was loved and to send a rainbow sign when she can that she is running free of pain once more.
If tears could build a stairway
and thoughts a memory lane
I'd walk right up to heaven
and bring you home again...
Run free babies, run free. Until we meet again.

December 27, 2016. Almost Happy New Year my babies. Casco and Lilly girl, I miss you both so much. Did you hear my whispers Christmas Eve? There isn't a day that goes by that I don't say your names out loud and how terribly I miss you both. I hope you both, along with Angus and Lady Bug are running free and having an amazing time. I love you babies, until we meet again.

December 27, 2018. Hello my babies. Casco and Lilly, I hope you are together and met Truman at the bridge. I lost him in September suddenly and my heart broke all over again. The pain of losing all three of you is gut wrenching. We had a wonderful family, the four of us. I miss you all with every breath I take. Christmas Eve was hard this year, but I made it. I hope you got the prayer and love I sent up to all of you. I hope too, that my love for you will carry on in your hearts. Take care of each other until we meet again. I love you all so.

January 1, 2020 for December 2019. My babies. It's hard this time of year for so many reasons. My heart hurts because I miss you all so much. My little Truman, I hope you are having fun with Casco and Lilly. I donated your toys yesterday to babies who are less fortunate and waiting for a forever home. I hope that's ok. Casco, are you and Lilly running fast and strong? Don't forget to wait for Truman! His little legs aren't as long as yours.
Angus, Lady Bug, Casco, Lilly and Truman.....until we meet again babies. I miss you with every breath I take.