Dakota's Pet Memorial Guest Book at Rainbow Bridge

From: Mama
On: 2/14/24

Boop.... Hi Baby girl. Just came to say hi and change out your memorial from Christmas and Football season to just winter. That dreary sad time of no holidays. Just cold and dark until spring comes again. I still miss you so much and I think it's always worse this time of year. The most obvious because you died before Christmas, but also because it's just so dark. All the time. I just want to hug you so bad some days it hurts. I pray all the time you are doing good and having fun with Sis and Chloe and Charlie and the kitties. I know deep down that you are, I just wish you were all here with me and Sophie. Some day my love. We will all be together again. I can't wait. Be my good sweet boop a loop until I see you and kiss you and hug you. I love you so much. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 12/7/23

My sweet boop my loop. Yesterday was the 5th anniversary of you going to heaven and it was rough. Not gonna lie. In fact the whole week leading up to that day was hard as usual. Seeing you in my mind laying in the bathroom and my bedroom sick and lethargic, remembering taking you to the beach and taking pictures, and then of course the dreaded minute the vet came over and you were all perked up and on high alert and my instant doubt and hesitation. I still hate myself to this day for handing you over for that shot. And the struggle you had after that. It will haunt me the rest of my life on this earth. I regret it daily and will never forgive myself. I miss you so much my love. So much. I just pray you are happy and running free and the Lord is reminding you over and over how much I love you and how sorry I am and I will be there to hold you soon. Be good my sweet love. I love you with everything I am. See you soon sweet girl. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 8/22/23

Hi boop. I came to wish Sis a happy 10 year in Heaven anniversary tomorrow and change you guys to Fall since it's just around the corner. Soon it will be your anniversary in December. 5 years. 5 VERY long years without you. I still grieve for you my sweet. My heart. And that dang Sophie is so like you I swear the Lord let part of you be in her to give me a glimpse of your soul from time to time. It's so crazy. You two are the most high maintenance exhausting girls but I wouldn't have it any other way. She is still definitely her own person, but just enough like you to keep you fully alive in my heart. I can't wait to see you baby girl. I love you so much. Be good and Sophie and I will see you all soon! Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 4/25/23

Miss boop... Well Savannah has now joined your pack. She took her last breath in my arms last month on March 19th. That little B kitty I had for 15 years is now with all my loves and is reunited with all of you. I'm happy for her and I'm happy the original pack is back together, but I miss her more than I thought I would. She got sick so sudden and left so sudden that even a month later I think I'm still processing. So tired of this. And please tell miss Chloe I thought about her alot two days ago on her 3 year anniversary up there. I can NOT believe it's been 3 years. You all have been gone so long and I miss you more than words can say. I'm so glad I still have Sophie because boy does she keep me occupied. But, that doesn't stop me from waiting for the day until we will all be reunited. I so look forward to that day. Be good my love. I can't wait to see you again. I love you so much. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 2/28/23

Hi boop. I can't believe I haven't been here to talk to you since I changed your background to Fall. And while it is still snowing outside, tomorrow is the first day of March so I'm changing your site to Spring. You and Sis loved Springtime. Not too cold, not too hot, running outside and be-bopping along. I know it's like that for you in Heaven and I can't wait to see you run to me when I get there. I have my hands full with Sophie right now who is definitely your spirit sister. And I do love her but boy does she remind me of you so much that you are so much more on my mind. All the time. I miss you my love. Every day. Be a good girl with Sis, and Chloe and Charlie and the kitties. Wait for me and know I love you more than I can ever put into words. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 12/6/22

Oh gosh...my sweet sweet boop. 4 years ago today I lost you. Or lets be honest. I let you go. I still have so much regret around that day and I don't know that it will ever be completely gone. I miss you so much today I have broken down a few times at work. I would do so many things different if I had another chance. Why is that? Why can't we do what we think is the right thing when we are in the situation? Why is it always in hindsight? I love you my baby girl. Please forgive me for letting you go. I just wanted you to be able to breathe without effort and have no more pain. I thought I was doing what was best for you. I really did. But man I miss you. So much. Be a good girl boop. Wait for me and know I love you and think about you constantly and I will see you soon. My heart dog, my sweet girl, my best friend. Love you. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 10/25/22

Happy 16th birthday my boop. I'm so glad you have all your friends to celebrate with you. (Sis, Chloe, Charlie, Cairo and Paris.) I miss you all so so much and I would have given anything to have a 16th birthday with you here this side of Heaven. I'm so glad I have Sophie now because she is the closest in personality to you of anyone, so it gives me glimpses of you every day, but it also makes me miss you so much more because of how alike you two are. I have had a hard time lately. So much going on and you were always my rock. The constant in my life who was always there and who always made me calm. I miss you so much. I really really can't wait to just be done with this life and be with you and be in eternity forever. Jesus take care of my babies. Give me peace until the day I am there to join. I love you Lord and I love you my Koda boop. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 7/1/22

Hey my sweet girl! I wanted to come change you and Sis to Summer and also to tell you something. I just adopted another little girl and her name is Sophie and oh my goodness my boop. She reminds me SO much of you it's insane. She has some of the same things wrong with her and has your personality almost to a T. I even have so many people saying to me to be careful what I wish for in wishing I had you back because her craziness is like a reincarnation of yours. And while it's giving me some PTSD and making me miss you even more, it's also a little comforting to have part of you back. I do miss you and love you so much sweet boop loop. I hope you and Sis and Charlie and Chloe are all doing so good. Wait for me my sweet girl and tell everyone I love them. Love you so much. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 3/15/22

Hi Boop.... I just realized that I hadn't changed your site to Spring so I wanted to come do that and write to you and tell you how much I still miss you. So So much. Every single day. I think about you constantly. I get triggered by things all the time and sometimes I can have a fleeting moment of you popping in my head and be ok, and other times it knocks the wind out of me and brings me to my knees and the hammer hits my heart and I lose it. I sob and sob again like it was yesterday and the regret and pain and all of it comes rushing back. I'm just so sorry you aren't here and so sorry still how it all went down. I love you so much my sweet special girl. so much. I can't wait to hold you again. I just want to kiss you and tell you how much you mean to me. Some day love. Be a good girl, play with your siblings and tell them all that mama loves them and I will see you all soon. Love you boop loop. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 12/6/21

Boop my loop....My sweet sweet baby. 3 years today since you left my arms to be in the arms of Jesus. I miss you so much. Every single day. This has been a hard few days leading up to this day. I have had dreams about you and you have felt closer than ever in my thoughts. I just don't know if life will ever be the same without you here. Actually, it just isn't. And now with Charlie gone and it just being me and Savannah, it's so lonely. I miss you all so much. Be a good girl my boop and I will see you so very soon. I love you so much. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 10/29/21

Happy 15th birthday my baby girl! Sorry I didn't write on the actual day. I of course thought of you every single minute on the 25th though. I can't even fathom that you would be 15 right now if you were still here. I remember you at 8 weeks old fitting in the palm of my hand. And then holding your sweet gray haired face in my hands when you left my this life for a life in Heaven. Oh my sweet boop. I know the gray is gone and the aches and pains of your old bones and sicknesses are as well and I'm so happy you are celebrating up there. I just miss you so. Wait for me my baby girl. I will hold you again soon. I love you. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 10/20/21

My boop loop...by now you are playing with Charlie and welcoming him into the group. He joined you guys on 9/16 and I really don't know how much more I can take with all of you gone. I feel so alone with just me and Savannah left. I am SO happy you are all whole and happy and have no aches and pains and can breathe freely and run and play. So Happy! I just miss you all so much. Be good and enjoy being with the Lord until I see you guys again soon. Love you so much! Take care of my babies Jesus. Love you boop. Love Mama

From: Mama
On: 8/23/21

Boop. I miss you. So much. I came on here to tell Sissy happy 8 year anniversary in Heaven and so I can't not come talk to you too. I can't believe some days that you are all gone. You and Sis and Chloe and the boys too. I feel so so empty most days. I do have Charlie and Savannah, and I think that's the only way I feel sane most days since I have them to take care of, but you my love? I will never ever be ok with you not in my life. I still ache if I think of you too long. Some day soon my love. And I DO hope it's soon. I will be with you all. I love you so much. You guys be good, enjoy every single day in Heaven and know mama loves you to the moon and will be there to hug you soon. Love you. Mama

From: Mama
On: 4/30/21

Hey my boop loop. I meant to come visit on the anniversary of Chloe coming to Heaven with you on the 23rd, but just haven't had a free moment to just come say hi to you two. Chloe, I can't believe it's been a full year that you've been gone. And I'm so sorry that I haven't given you the same respect that I've given Sis and Koda. With Charlie here taking so much of my time and energy, I fear my grief over losing you has been suppressed. I worry about the day I lose him as I think it will all come to a head at that point. I so need a break from all of this pain. One thing having Charlie HASN'T done is make me stop thinking about you Koda. My bond with you never breaks and I'm just sad. So sad. All the time. I'm so glad all of you girls have each other though. It's the only thing that gets me through. Knowing you are with Jesus all together. I can't wait to see you and hold you all soon. Be good girls. I love you all. Love Mama

From: mama
On: 3/5/21

Boop....Oh my goodness. It has been too long since I came to write to you. Does this mean I have stopped thinking about you? Well....actually the complete opposite. I have been struggling lately more than ever. Having huge triggers that make me regret letting you go, huge meltdowns of grief, almost like at the beginning. My therapist says grief isn't linear. It can be dormant and then return. For years. After losing your sister years ago and how long it took to feel somewhat normal, I should have known this, but I guess I was hoping the hate for myself and regret would subside some day. You were just so much my whole heart baby girl. I still ache to have you back. I would do anything for one more day with you. I will never NOT be sorry I let you go. Wait for me my love. I love you so much. And know I think of you every second and always will. Love you my boop...my heart. Love Mama

From: Mama
On: 12/6/20

My sweet sweet boop. Well today is the day. The day you left me two years ago. I have had a hard week leading up to this day. I still miss you SO much. You still have my whole heart and nothing can fill your loss. I miss Chloe too. Every day. It's been almost 8 months that she's been gone. I can't believe that either. Charlie being here has helped, and I do love him as well. But Koda....you are my soul....my heart. I ache for you and I always will. I can't wait for the day I see you in Heaven. I will hold you and never let you go. Enjoy your anniversary today with Jesus. Play and have so much fun with Sissy and Chloe and Cairo and Paris too. I'm so glad you are all together. My loves, my babies. I love you so much my sweet sweet girl. I will see you soon. Merry Christmas to you in Heaven as well my love. Be good. Love you to the moon. Love, Mama

From: Mama
On: 10/23/20

My boop loop. The 6th of this month It was 22 months you've been gone. And in a couple of weeks on the 6th of November it will 23 months. Which means the part I'm dreading-Dec. 6th, it will be a full two years you have been gone. I can't fathom it some days. Your birthday is in two days on the 25th of Oct. and you would be 14 this year. I'm SO sad we can't celebrate your golden years here together. I know you will have another wonderful birthday in Heaven, but I miss you so much it still hurts if I think of you too long. Will it ever get better? I miss Chloe too and I don't know why the pain isn't as great even though she's only been gone 6 months today. Maybe because Charlie reminds me of her and it's almost like she's still here? Maybe it's because she was so sick I knew she was so ready to be in Heaven with you? Or maybe it's because I just miss YOU still so much there is no more room for the grief. I can't wait to be with all of you soon. Be good my love until then. Love Mama

From: Mama
On: 9/16/20

My sweet Boop. 21 Months on the 6th. I have been missing you SO much lately. I have had some triggers happen that have made it almost like I just lost you. Even almost two years later I can break down in devastation and regret and have the past couple weeks. I don't know if I will ever forgive myself for not doing more for you and the ache in my heart is just so raw. Still. My brain plays tricks all the time and tells me I killed you. That I killed my healthy beautiful girl. I know when I force myself to be realistic that it's not true but sometimes I can go down that rabbit hole and it breaks me. I never do that about Chloe and I'm not sure why. I miss her terribly too. It's only been 5 months she's been gone, but for whatever reason I don't beat myself up or drown in despair over losing her like losing you. You were just my whole heart. My only consolation is that you two and Sis are up there together waiting for me. Be good sweet girl. See you soon. Love you so much. Mama