It has been 3 months now since you went to Heaven. At first when mommy told us you had went to rainbow bridge we thought you would be back soon. But then mommy started to cry and that meant something bad. I knew that mommy would not be crying if you were comeing back soon. I still hoped that you would though. I know now that you are not comeing back. It seems different here without you. There are times I think I hear you at night, but mommy says it's just the wind. Kayla I am so sorry I was mean to you at times. You were already 10 years old when I came into your life. There you were trying to rest while an 8 week old puppy used you for a drag toy. Very seldom did you snap at me. But when you did it only made me want to drag you around some more. Everything in the house became mine and you seemed alright with it. As I got bigger and you got older and sicker I would snap at you. I think it was because I did not understand why you would have those fall and shakeing fits. They scared me. Mommy called them seizures. I did not understand why you always got the soft food and I got that old dry hard stuff. Mommy said your teeth was bad. No matter how hungery you were if I walked up you would back away and let me have what you had left. Mommy began to feed you in the bathroom so I would not take it away from you. I am sorry I did that.
Well Kayla christmas is here again. Santa brought me and Cheyenne and Holly a gift. But no matter what it is it want be the same here this christmas. I wish you could come home for christmas, but mommy says that you were to sick and that she would not want you back here to suffer the way you had. I got stung by a wasp right after you left and now let me tell something that hurt. If you were hurting like that then mommy is right, you need to stay where you are. I will be 5 in Jan, so if I live to be as old as you were I have 10 more years to wait to see you again.
Kayla I miss you so much. I really did love you. Please have fun up there this christmas. When it is my turn to come up there will you come get me? Well I better go. Mommy says I can write you some more later. I just hope you can find someone to read this to you. Mommy said that Jesus could read it to you. Word has it that he is top dog there. Remember we all love and miss you.
Your doggie sister
Bump.