My Precious Ziggy, Just wanted you to know that Mommy is so struggling without you. I cry, nonstop, I miss you so much

Ziggy, my baby boy, I have not stopped crying over you. Mommy misses you. I'd give anything to have you back

My precious Ziggy, two weeks today I had to let you go, Mommy is so sorry, I can't stop thinking I should have done more, please find it in your heart to forgive Mommy, I miss you so very much

My baby boy, three weeks today, since I last kissed you, stroked you, told you how much I so very love you and then had to let you go. Your passing just cannot escape my thoughts. I am so lost without you.

My precious baby boy, one month today since I had to let you go. I will forever for the rest of my days hate Wednesdays for it was on a Wednesday morning that my world crumbled. I am so so sorry that you suffered. I cry still everyday over you. I would give anything to hear your Meow again. My heart is aching and I feel like I am slowly dying inside. I love you so much, Mommy

My precious baby boy, five weeks now, I still just can't accept the fact that you are gone, the pain and the heartache still nonstop, as well as the tears. I just keep picturing you being here with me. You were and forever will be Mommy's soul kitty. I love you, wish I could kiss your sweet face.

My precious baby boy, six weeks now since I had to let you go, and still a lifetime ahead of me of the constant misery, pain, tears, relentless heartache, loneliness - Oh God, how I miss you so. Mommy loves you

My precious baby boy, seven weeks now, Mommy is still so devastated without you, life is so cruel and unkind, you were not suppose to have to die, I so want you here with me. This new "norm" of my life now is not how I want to exist. Mommy loves and misses you so.

My precious baby boy, eight weeks have passed now, since I had to let you go, Mommy wants you to know that the pain has not gotten any easier, I still have to attempt to live without you and go through the motions of living, but I so still feel that I can't exist without you. This has been a pure hell for me and I am numb inside, just a shell of a person of what I used to be when you were here with me. I miss and LOVE you so much.

My precious baby boy, don't know why but somehow today has been really hard for me, I don't know but for some reason the weekends are even harder for me than just a regular week day, I have been crying more today than I usually do over you, and I know it's because it is the start of the weekend, when you and I always had more time to cuddle on the couch. Mommy loves and misses you so much

My precious baby boy, nine weeks today, the pain has not let up, I am still in such agony and finding it so very hard to believe that I will have to go on feeling this way. My existence is nothing without you. Oh, if I could just have you back one more day. Please always remember and never forget how desperately I miss and love you so, Mommy

My precious baby boy, people still often think or say, "he was just a cat, why are you still grieving? That is so not true, you were so much more than just a cat to me, you gave me so much more than any person in my life has or ever will, you made my world somewhat more tolerable and gave me a purpose, to be your Mama, to care for you, and in return you gave me such companionship, love and gratitude. My world has literally shattered without you. Mommy is sending you so much hugs and kisses

My precious baby boy, ten weeks now. Mommy wants you to know that I think of you nonstop, my heart is so aching for you. I will never be the same without you. I hope you are okay. I cry still everyday, if only all my tears could bring you back to me. Mommy loves you so much

My precious baby boy, Mommy just wants you to know that my life has changed for the worst because I no longer have you here with me where you should be, my baby boy I miss you so much and carry the grief with me constantly. I love you so MUCH

My precious baby boy, eleven weeks now, all I can say is that I miss you so much, your not being here with me is a continuous reminder of the pain and haunts me daily. Mommy loves you so MUCH

My precious baby boy, it's now twelve weeks, Mommy wants you to remember that you were so much more than "just a cat" to me, the amount of love, comfort, and companionship you gave me was almost "human like", in fact, the what few humans that are in my existence, have never compared to you or the happiness, joy and unconditional love you gave me. I am still so struggling without you, what a blessing it would be to once again hear your Meowing, to have you snuggle on the couch with me with our blanket. Mommy LOVES and MISSES you so. Sending you so much hugs and kisses, your Mommy

My precious baby boy, thirteen weeks now. Mommy wants you to know that my world without you no longer in it, is just me existing, my life as it once was, ended when you had to leave me and it will never be the same again, I am just cold and hurt inside and that pain will never go away. I just miss you so much

Fourteen weeks now, since you had to leave me, my precious baby boy, I still am constantly reminded in my mind and heart, everyday, that your not here with me - I grieve and the pain just will not go away. I miss you so much

My precious baby boy, sixteen weeks now, I have to relearn how to survive each day, because you are still gone. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO TERRIBLY -

My precious baby boy, although all I have left of you now, are your ashes, and an 8x10 portrait, Mommy wants you to know that I miss seeing your sweet loving eyes, the cuteness of your sweet face, the every night snuggles with you on the couch, your insistent meowing and just being able to touch you. Your bowl and your favorite cat bed are still where they have always been and I will never move them. I miss you so much.

My precious baby boy, seventeen weeks now, I want you to know that even if I had one more day with you, it still would not be enough, I would ask for one day repeatedly until my last breath. My heart is still aching, it just hurts so bad to have to face each day and night without you. I LOVE and MISS you so much.

My precious baby boy, eighteen weeks now, Mommy misses the Me I was was when You were here. You were my Baby that I didn't birth. All I do is constantly think of you. This emptiness inside is never going to go away. I would give anything to have you still here with me. I miss and love you so much.

My precious baby boy, it's now nineteen weeks, somehow I still awake each day, although I truly don't understand how or why, cause my life just no longer has any meaning or purpose since I lost you, but as I awake it's only to remember that you are not here and I have to feel that ache all over again. Mommy misses and loves you so much.

Oh my precious baby boy, I am still counting the weeks, instead of months, since you left me, so here we are now at twenty weeks, and this week has been especially harder on me for some reason, my mind is still not able to wrap itself around the fact that you are gone, Mommy just misses and loves you so so so much

My precious baby boy, twenty-one weeks now, as the sun rises each day I dread another day without you. My heart will never be the same since I lost you. Sometimes I need to remind myself to breathe, because the pain of losing you makes me breathless. Mommy misses and loves you so so much.

My precious baby boy, twenty-two weeks now, I miss the me I was when you were still here. My life was only capable for me to go through by having you in it, with your sweet loving face, and your loving eyes that showed me how much you loved me, the way you always spoke to me with your meowing and our nightly cuddles on the couch. I am still merely existing without you. Mommy loves and misses you so much.

My precious baby boy, twenty-three weeks now, I have not lost you just once, for I will continue to lose you everyday for a lifetime. I still cry everyday from this constant ache and pain in my chest that just will not subside. Mommy misses and loves you so much.

My precious baby boy, twenty-four weeks now, A million tears, will never bring you back to me, I know because I have cried. Mommy just wants you to always remember how everyday I grieve over losing you. When I wake, I think of you, when night falls, I think of you the most, you were my "cuddle buddy", and everyday, sadness, just overtakes me and takes my breath away. Mommy loves and misses you so much.

My precious baby boy, twenty-five weeks now, Mommy wants you to know that I have felt no greater pain than the day and moment that I had to let you go and now being forced to go on without you, it is just such a tremendous struggle. My heart is broken and breaks over and over again each and everyday. I miss you and love you so very much.

Oh my precious baby boy, twenty-six weeks now, Mommy misses you oh so much, you were my baby, my heart, my life, my "soul kitty" you brought me calmness and gave me purpose. I still can't believe your are gone and yet I am forced to awake everyday with the constant reminder that you are. I love and miss you so so much.

My precious baby boy, Mommy is so very sorry that I missed talking with you last week, when it was twenty-seven weeks since I lost you. So now here we are at twenty-eight weeks and I know that because I love you so deeply is why I am hurting so badly. So the Fall season is now here and all I find myself doing is thinking of this time last year when you were still here with me. I still cannot believe and am forced to accept that I had to lose you and that I have to go on and attempt to exist without you in my life. Mommy's heart aches for you. I love and miss you so much.

My precious baby boy, 29 weeks now, and Mommy wants you to know that no matter how long it's been, there are still times, and those times are more often than not, when I think of you and it gets harder to breathe. Mommy misses and loves you so much.

My precious baby boy, 30 weeks now, Mommy wants you to know that all I want is what I had, when I still had you here, preciously with me, I miss you so much, it hurts nonstop and haunts me to the core. I love you.

My precious baby boy, 31 weeks now, Mommy keeps asking "why can't this grief over losing you ever release me?" It is just a constant haunting of the what once was and the what I wish could be again. Seven months have come and gone and it still is not any easier for me to accept you are gone. It pains me so that I had to let you go. My love and yearning for you is just more unimaginable than I can endure. Please, never forget, how much I love and miss you.

My precious baby boy, 32 weeks now, this weekend Mommy will be having a Birthday, which believe me, is not a big deal, I am just older and now lonelier because I don't have you here with me and on this day as I think of you, it saddens me all the more that I am reminded that this time last year I was so blessed to still have you here with me. Mommy loves and misses you so much.

My precious baby boy, 33 weeks now, Mommy wants you to know that thinking of you is easy, it is something I do everyday since I lost you, missing you though, is the heartache that never goes away. I miss you so much.

My precious baby boy, 34 weeks now, Mommy wants you to know how very much I still miss you, I am still constantly thinking of you everyday, from losing you, I've lost enough to never need another lesson in heartache again. I love you and miss you so much. Mommy is sending you so many kisses and hugs.

My precious baby boy, 35 weeks now, Thanksgiving was yesterday and it was a more difficult day for me without you than any other day, for it marked the first major holiday of this god awful year without you. My grief comes in waves, and lately, I've been drowning. Mommy misses and loves you so much.

My precious baby boy, 36 weeks now, "My wish will go ungranted, but it always will be true . . ., I'd trade many of my tomorrows for one more yesterday with you". I miss and love you so much.

My precious baby boy, Mommy is so sorry that I missed talking with you last week, which was 37 weeks, so anyway, here we are now at 38 weeks, every time that I talk with you here, the tears just flow, it's in the quiet that I miss you most, when my mind has the chance to wander and my heart has a moment to remember how happy I once was and am now forever saddened with the despair of losing you. I miss you so, so, much. I LOVE YOU.

Oh my precious baby boy, well here we are now, it's been just a little over 9 months, since I lost you, I think it's time to start doing this based on months now rather than weeks, and in just a few short days from now, it will be a new year, 2024, not that that means anything to me, nothing will change, as I will continue to reflect on how bad of a year 2023 turned out to be, cause I lost the most important companion (as a matter of fact the only companion) that existed in my life, and that was you. You are and will always remain to be my heart and my sole. I so WISH that I could LOVE YOU BACK TO LIFE.

My precious baby boy, so here we are, January, 2024, and I am still grieving you, even though I don't want to, even when I try not to, I just miss you so so much. If only somehow, someway, I could have you back in my life, especially now at this point and time. I am hurting so much, life is really keeping me down. God, I wish you were here. I love and miss you more each day it seems.

My precious baby boy, here we are, into the second week of January, 2024, I miss you, I miss you so so much. I was never prepared to live the rest of my life without you, and always very well knew, that when I would lose you, how much of a mess I would become. Your absence is so present, minute by painful minute, tear by abundant tear. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

My precious baby boy, so now the third week of January, 2024, is almost at an end, and the end of next week will bring the beginning of February. Nothing in this new year has yet to bring me any relief from the pain of losing you, there still remain the jagged million pieces that are digging in my chest and the tears that I still weep over losing you. God, I miss you so much. How am I ever going to get through this? You are and forever will be my PRECIOUS BABY BOY. Mommy loves you.

My precious baby boy, so it is now February, Mommy wants you to know how I should know enough now of the loss of you should make me realize that I will never stop missing you, that I must just learn, and it just kills me knowing that I must try to do so, to try to live around the HUGE gaping hole of your absence. I miss and love you so much.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, my precious baby boy, how I wish you were here with me today. I would give you so many kisses and hugs, hold you tight and close in my arms and never let you go. Mommy luvs and misses you so much.

Oh my precious Baby Boy, if people only knew how much I truly missed you, they would wonder how it is that I am still breathing. I MISS and LOVE you so so much.

My precious baby boy, all these hours, in all these days yet to come, how pointless they all seem, when none of them will ever hold you again. Mommy LOVES and MISSES you so so much.

Oh my precious Baby Boy, I cannot believe that it was a year ago today that I lost you, so today has been especially harder on me than any of all the days, months and now a year since I had to let you go. Mommy wants you to always remember that still not a day goes by that you are not always on mine mind, the tears still flow, and that forever sadness ache in my heart that stabs like a knife will always remain until my dying day. I MISS YOU as much as I LOVE YOU with every ounce of my being.

My precious Baby Boy, I still find it incredibly hard to comprehend that you are gone, your beautiful energy used to fill up these walls and now inside these walls - all is so empty - so silent - - - Mommy LOVES and MISSES you SO MUCH.

My precious Baby Boy, Easter is this Sunday, and this will be my second Easter without you - - - If tears could build a stairway and thoughts a memory lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. Mommy LOVES and MISSES YOU SO MUCH.

Oh my Precious Baby Boy, Mommy wants you to know that I Missed You today, Just like I Missed You yesterday, Just as I will tomorrow and the rest of my life. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

My Precious Baby Boy, Mommy wants you to know and always remember that I am still to this very day trying to navigate and force myself to learn to live around this huge gaping hole of your absence. I LOVE and MISS YOU SO MUCH.