Welcome to Taz Hayes's Rainbow Residency

Memories of Taz Hayes

Tazzie was born on September 25, 1995 in Amarillo, Texas, and left us on December 9, 2011 at 2:48 p.m. OH HOW I HURT! On November 13, 1995 you Tazzie became our first born hairy child. Shaye and I hand picked this baby out of a litter, and boy did we pick the best one! We gave him to his human daddy as a wedding and birthday gift, and so began our beautiful life as a new family with Pekingese children. Tazzie was the most perfect example of God's work I'd ever seen -- black as coal, with eyes that allowed you to see into his bright, beautiful, loving, and funny soul. Taz was attached to me at the hip, which was wonderful but me, but a little annoying for daddy, since we got him 'supposedly' for him. Ha. For many many years Taz would run from anywhere in the house if he heard me sneeze, jump on me and get right in my face, nose to nose, as if to say, 'mommy, are you okay? what just happened?" His playfulness with his buddy Jetson and loving kindness towards China, his wife, who is also at RainbowBridge, waa undeniable. Jumping through our screened-in patio windows cost us a lot of money, but worth every penny to watch him jump like a Mountain Goat to the outside, then back in to the shelter of the patio. I wish I had video of those times like I do of Tazzie jumping through 2 feet of snow like that darned goat, and sometimes even vanishing momentarily because the snow collapsed, so all you could see was his big head and eyes. He slept on me a great deal of his life, and boy, am I missing that broach now! Taz was, as all Pekes are, protective of his human family, and loved his human big brother Shaye a whole lot too. He gave us 16 years of pure and utter joy -- and when we knew it was the end for him, we chose not to be selfish and let him be free of pain, to hear birds singing again, and to run and play without hesitation. Although our hearts are broken, with daddy's being possibly even more than mine, if that IS an option, somehow we'll survive. We have Taz and China's adopted/rescued children to tend to. But there is a distinct and eery silence in our home now that he's gone, however, and although it hasn't even been a day since I last hugged and kissed him, it feels like an eternity. I take comfort in knowing that China and Jetson greeted him at Rainbow Bridge, and can't wait until all three of you see me and knock me down while jumping into my arms, no matter when that day comes, I'm ready for it. I LOVED THIS DOG LIKE I LOVED MY ONLY HUMAN CHILD AND KNOW THIS OLD HEART WILL GET BY SOMEHOW. I didn't know about Pekingese until Ricky opened my eyes to this breed, and boy, what an eye opener! I will NEVER be a mommy to any other breed. Ever. Hugs and kisses to my precious baby boy. I promise not to cry so much SOME DAY soon, so please don't worry about me. Saturday, the day after you left us. I hope by now you've found Jetson and China, my little king. I miss you too much to write anything else, but don't you worry, i promise i'll be okay. you were the love of my life, Taz, and no dog will EVER replace you. ever. i believe you and i were kindrid spirits, and my life will never be the same. Just play, run, jump, and have fun because now you don't hurt anymore and can hear and bark, so do all that. I'll love you for eternity, and don't forget -- i am counting on seeing you again when i get to Heaven; although I know we'll know each other instantaneously, here's the secret code in the event it is crowded -- i'll sneeze! LOVE YOU TAZZIE BABY, MOMMY. Sunday, December 11th -- two days seems like forever! all we both do is sit around and cry. Boo, Mattie, and Romo are sad; they just keep looking around for you, which then makes me and your daddy cry. I hope we can get through this baby boy -- daddy wants you to come visit him in his dreams. He sure is sad Tazzie -- you were his after all, even though you liked me more (heehee), but you loved him too and boy, did he love you! run and play now little boy, and i promise we WILL get better, after all, we have your three adopted children that need us too -- what i wouldn't give to see your little face again and hold you close. CritterCamp is going to take very good care of you and I've got a beautiful butterly urn to put you in right by China. You know how your mommy loves butterflies and so putting you in an urn with them all around felt right, since i loved you more than life itself. gotta go, can't see to type anymore. mommy. Wednesday, December 13th -- Ever since you left us, it has been dreary, foggy and cold. Hmmm, perfect description of my mood, except for adding the word 'sad'. mommy and daddy are still so very heartbroken and we miss you terribly! you ARE here though in that beautiful urn next to your perfect picture looking so sweetly into the camera last Christmas in your solo shot. Gosh we're so glad we got that picture!!! I'm having Traci blow it up for us and it will go in the mud room right when we walk in from the garage; that way, you're the FIRST face we both see after a hard day at work, which for 16 years was ordinary, so that'll be good. daddy is having to have surgery this week and it is our 16th wedding anniversary this week too baby. it isn't the same without you. I slept with your blanket and kept waking up smelling you. It was comforting in some small way. Daddy sure is sad baby. I've never seen him cry this much, ever. You were his dog after all (just keep letting him believe that) haha. I'm looking at your picture just below right now, and that expression shows love, adoration, kindness, and a soulfulness that i'll never find again, and don't want to. you were the most perfect creation in every way. i love you baby. i've got to try to sleep tonight, busy busy rest of the week at work. I MISS YOU TAZZIE! love and nite, mommy. January 19, 2012. Oh my sweet boy, i'm so sorry it has been some time since i've written you. the law firm re-structured and it has been a bit of a nightmare. couple that with chasing criminals and to say your mommy has been under immense stress is an understatement. All the while, I'm still grieving your loss. Daddy and i talk to you all the time as you sit in your beautiful urn next to your wife in our living room. I blew up daddy's favorite picture of you that he took where all you see if your beautiful face, and i'm about to give it to him as a surprise. He still grieves too. Our sweet baby Taz! God I can almost touch your face at times, and swear that i still smell you ever so often. I hope that you're watching over us baby. The 16 years with you was just too short - i'd like a do-over please! PROMISE ME TAZZIE THAT YOU'LL JUMP IN MY ARMS THE MOMENT I LEAVE THIS EARTH, on matter when that is. your eyes, your big heart, your beautiful face and soul are all so badly missed. One good thing that should make this home smile once again is the fact that we just rescued another Pekingese. He was about to be killed at the pound and my non-profit saved him, called me, and here he is. He's a big Peke, but has a face ALMOST as beautiful as yours. I think he'll fit in just fine. Daddy was VERY reluctant to save him, but like I told daddy, we would NEVER replace you. that is simply impossible. how can you replace perfection and a first born. But what we did is save another sweet soul from the death chamber. I know you'd like him. He has eyes like yours. He's big and a little scared, but we've just had him two days, so i know he'll adjust. Daddy can't decide what to name him. Jack maybe. What do you think??? Tell daddy in a dream and that'll be his new name!!! Just rest assured he's not a replacement, just another lost baby that needed loving human parents. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU TAZ. god i ache for you. Romo seems so sad at your loss, isn't that a hoot? Your nemesis misses you! We knew secretly he liked you, the little pill. Boo and Mattie were sad too, but have gone on. I re-framed all of your beautiful pictures in my office with adorable dog frames. Your face is always staring back at me while on the computer. Be good, run, play and mommy will see you some day. I'LL BE VERY DISAPPOINTED IF YOU DON'T LICK MY TEETH WHEN YOU JUMP INTO MY ARMS. I'M COUNTING ON IT. haha bye now my love, mommy. April 9, 2012 -- Tazzie my soulmate in a hairier form, I do hope you're thriving! Today as you know is China's two-year anniversary since leaving her home on Earth to run and play at Rainbow Bridge. Please be with her today. I am very sad AGAIN. I don't think my heart will EVER get over losing you, China and Jetson. The apple tree is blooming beautifully as is the plum tree, and the yard is looking so pretty. The only thing missing in the yard is you, China and Jetson. Chan is doing good. I think you'd like him. He is passive and knows his place in the herd; yes Taz we still have a Pekingese herd. I miss your soulful eyes. I miss your cuddling. I miss your perfect little self. Mommy at last got to semi retire and now am home most all day doing my private eye stuff. God I wish you were here with me. I was always gone during the day at work listening to lawyer gab and missed out on seeing you all the time. Romo seems to think he rules the roost now, isn't that funny? the runt thinks he's in charge. he 'attempted' the take over shortly after we lost you. So we just let him think he's king -- I do love him so, but he's not you. Boo is still sweet loving Boo and Mattie is still as perfect as always. I say your name baby boy and they both look around. See how hard you are to forget? Mommy is really sad now so I'm going to go. I LOVE YOU MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mommy. p.s. Daddy is still so sad too, but we both know some day we'll see you again, so don't let us down. just promise you'll run to me FIRST. bye baby king.

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