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Memories of Tanner

Tanner was a very unique dog. He was our 145lb dog that quickly dropped to 113 lbs at the end. He was our gentle giant. He was so sweet and loving, but could be stubborn at the same time. He was never shy about "expressing" his feelings to the world. If he didn't want to do something he would lay his big ol' booty on the floor like he couldn't get up because he knew we couldn't move him. Just as so when we went on walks and he only wanted to go a certain direction or he wasn't ready to go back home. He would sit his booty down on the concrete and would not budge until you went where he wanted to go. So hard not to give in to such a cute face and that is why he probaly acted like that cause he was so spoiled. He loved his water, food and treats for sure and would bark and cry if he wanted more or if his water bowl was empty. He even did his high pitch cries if there was a "kernel" of food he couldn't get around his bowl so someone would come and help him get it. He slept with us a lot, snored like a man and farted like one too. He always had a sensitive tummy. Couldn't take him swimming without him pooping in the water and or throwing up all the water he drank in. Even got us kicked out of the doggy day at the pool from pooping in it cause he was so excited! Swimming was his favorite activity to do with his sister, Tilly. I would throw in a water toy or their duck and they both would swim as fast as they could and raced to get it. When they got there they would dunk each other fighting over the toy. Tanner always gave in to his sister. He was so loving and nurtering to her. Always licked her ears and let her jump all over him and he just took it. He was always a great pillow to lay on too. He was so soft. He had the softest, prettiest fur I have ever seen and touched. I miss most of all just touching him. In his final days he got a lot of bones which he loved and got to "play" as much as he could tolerate in the snow. Playing in the snow and eating it was his 2nd favorite thing to do. Loved to play frisbee in the backyard too but didn't like to give it back. He also loved his tennis balls being thrown high up in the air for him to catch in his mouth. He didn't like to give those back either. Probably the most favorite thing he liked were rides in the car. He couldn't hold his excitement in when he knew I was taking them somewhere. His high pitched squeals of excitement could hurt anyones ears. He loved going to sonic and Mcdonald drive-thrus after a day at the park with Tilly, grammy, and momma to get some ice-cream or plain cheeseburgers. We didn't want to let it happen too often but it was thier special treat. Sometimes went to an outside custard shop where they sold "puppy" cones which he could eat in one bite. I loved watching his big head out of the window and his BIG, floppy, drooly lips flapping in the wind. So many memories we had and so much more to talk about but can't fit it all here. He was taken from us at just 7 years of age and it just was not fair to him. I felt so bad for him just seeing his body dwindle away. I still feel so horrible that such an awful disease could attack such a wonderful dog, my child. I LOVE him so much and he was my first dog (and later my husbands). He has taught me a lot about myself. He and Tilly have given me a sense of self worth by having them. Dogs can change your life and teach you patience, respect, loyalty and unconditional love. They love to please and have been the most devoted animals I have ever had. My heart breaks so bad for him. We all love him so much. I still cry everyday for him. We love you TT! 2/7/11: You are being tributed tonite at the RB candlelight ceremony. I am having a hard time being without you. You are my heart and soul. I feel like my soul has changed now that you are gone. I am not my old self without you. We all love you and wish you could come back to us. 2/14/11: Happy Valentines Day my sweet T! I always loved having you guys as my favorite valentines! Miss you so much and LOVE you LOTS. I think about you everyday, all throughout the days. Its still like a knife in my heart with you passing away. XOXO P.S. we will light your candles again tonite for you. 2/26/11: I have been so distraught not knowing your exact diagnosis, it has been eating me up inside. I felt I owed it to you to investigate and I am almost postive it was Hemangiosarcoma. I feel so upset that no one could give me a reason why and couldn't figure out what you had exactly. I really hope that is what you had cause it is fatal and fast. Atleast I know I couldnt have done anymore for you. I tried my hardest to fix you my love but the illness won. I still have regrets and question myself and I had to find peace somehow with my decision. Daddy Erik agrees with me that this is probably it. We knew you probably had cancer but didnt know for sure and what kind. He is going to talk to vet to get some more answers for me. I just need more closure, to have peace with our decision. Wish I could wrap my arms around you one more time. I am sorry I didn't stay longer after you passed. I was in complete shock, I just didn't want to believe it. I had to let it all out and their was a lot to let out and I didnt want to do it in that office. I am glad we got to be by your side and comfort you and give you one more treat in the final minutes. I just wish I would have stayed there longer after you already passed to touch and hold you. I just couldn't stand seeing you lifeless, pale, and worst of all your lifeless eyes. I still can't believe your not here anymore. I feel so guilty that you had to have that happen to you and you were so young. You were my world and still are. I will never get over you TT. 3/6: Thinking about you a lot today. Really miss you and sad you are gone. Still hurting really bad. Its sad here without you. I feel sorry for Tilly too. I know she always thinks about you. Good Night. Its been a bad day. 4/11: Happy Birthday week Big T! We are celebrating this Wed. (the 13th). Wish you were here! 4/16: HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY MY SWEET BABY! Wish you were here still. I love you so much!! XOXO 6/26: Miss you real bad. Cooper, our new puppy is sweet, but I wish you were still here. I miss your sweet face and putting my arms around you. XOXO 9/5: Thinking a lot about you and have cried for you lately. Wish you could be here for this next chapter in our life. Your life was too short with us, but I will never forget what you brought in our life and souls. Big kissy on your big nose from mama. Love you! 12/29/11: One year has gone since your passing. I can't believe it has been that long. It seems like yesterday when you left. I miss you so much and can't believe this happened to you and us. Missed you this holiday. Life for me will never be the same without you in it. You have changed me. I wish I can touch you and hear you again. May you always be free of pain and in peace. I love you so much. I hope you come around us. I know Tilly misses you too. 4/16/2012: Happy-would-be 9th Birthday big boy! 5/20/12: Missing you a lot! Wish you could meet our new baby girl, Stella.

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