And so, my beloved one, I will tell our story one last time.

The day was cold and windy, I believe it was spring, but winter's chill hadn't completely left us yet. I arrived at the SPCA, in Montreal, to take a quick look and see what cats they had.

I remember walking into the room, and to my left, I remember when our eyes connected, I thought you were a boy kitty. I went to your cage, and saw the number 4 and thought they meant months, and that you weren't declawed. The person that was with me, wanted one that was declawed, but you tugged at my heart. I went around to see the others, but they were all hidden in their little places. When I came back to see you, you were curled up against the door of the cage, no sooner had I said 'oh she's sleeping..' thinking that you wouldn't wake up. I was so very wrong, the minute you heard my voice, you woke up in an instant and when I held you, you gave me so many head bumps!

When I took you home, you hopped out of the box and started looking around the apartment right away. The way you walked, it was as if you had always been there, that you were meant to be there.

As the weeks and months became years, our bond only grew stronger. At night, when I would go to bed, you would always come along. you would be in another room, sleeping or just staring out the window, but for some reason, you could feel it in you when I was in bed. I would hear the soft tinkle of your collar, and then hop! You would always lay on my chest, every single night. You would always have your little paw on my face, and many times I could feel your little toebeans holding my face, stroking my skin. When I was sick, you would crawl under the covers and you licked my arms while I was in a fever. You were always there for me, in sickness and in health.

I am honored that you chose me, to help me through so many hard times. Truly, heaven has another angel, and I know that bright star in the sky in you.

You are no more in pain, or suffering, I see you in the sun, feeling nothing but pure bliss. I will always miss you my baby, My Queen, my Princess Peanut.

Godspeed until we meet again.

July 15, 2023

It's hard to believe that you've been gone for just over a week and i still miss you so much. Many times now, I can still feel your little paw tapping on my leg to come up while I'm sitting as my desk. I also miss how you'd jump and run across my desk and keyboard while you had the zoomies lol

Many people have sent the most beautiful words and posts for me, I want to thank you all, the support and love you have all sent have helped immensely.Our furbabies are so precious, I await the day when we'll all be reunited with them.

August 23, 2023

I still can't believe it's been over one month, and i cannot get past this devastating grief. When i lost you, my soul and my heart shattered into a million pieces that will never mend. I miss you so much, the nights are the hardest, because you would always sleep with me, you'd make sure i was tucked into bed and then you'd lay on my chest close to my face, i can still remember how your whiskers used to tickle my face, and the kisses you'd give me. Your love was unconditional, as was mine with you. We bonded, and that bond will last into eternity, of that i have no doubt. I see you everywhere, sometimes out the corners of my eyes, and other times a shadow. A couple of times, even though my door was shut when I'd sleep, it would open, and i knew that was you, because you knew how to open doors, i can't see you, but i feel your spirit so near to me. I love you more than words could ever convey, you were and will always be, everything to me, irreplaceable forever. I hope we meet very soon, because this life holds no joy without you, it is so very cold now. May you rest well in Summerland, i know you are very well taken care of, mommy will be home soon, and when that time comes, i will cry tears of joy that we are reunited at last. I love you forever, My Queen <3