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Memories of MANDY

10.31.2001/12.02.2002 Your music... "TEARS IN HEAVEN" 12.12.2011... Well, it's almost Christmas. Your ornaments are hanging on the doggie tree. I hope you have welcome Grizzie with open paws. Keep her under your wing Mandy. I miss you so very much & I'm still sad over what little time we had together. I love you to the moon & back pretty girl. xo 01.01.2011... HAPPY NEW YEAR... xoxo 12.25.2010... MERRY CHRISTMAS... xoxo 12.02.2010... Another year at the bridge. You have no idea how many times I think of what you endured during your short life. And to think that Dakota had to deal with the same health issue. I miss you my Mandy girl. I hope you are having fun with Dakota. xoxo 11.24.2010... HAPPY THANKSGIVING... xoxo 10.31.2010... HAPPY BRIDGE BIRTHDAY my sweet girl... xoxo 08.29.2010... Hello pretty girl... by now, you have seen that Dakota has joined you at the bridge. We had to allow Cole to take her even though we didn't want to. She can tell you what was wrong with her. You have more in common than we thought. PLEASE stay close to her. You were her friend for many months before we had to release you at such a young age. Welcome her with open paws & know that you have a friend in Dakota. I LOVE YOU Mandy... with all my heart. xoxo 04.27.2010... Hello pretty girl... I came to say HI. I have been missing you so very much. And looking at your page & photos made me cry. I know that you wouldn't be with us right now because you would have been elderly BUT we only got to have you in our lives for a few short months. I STILL remember that day I had to say GOOD-BYE. That day will FOREVER be embedded in my heart. I just can't get it out. I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK...PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE know that. xoxo 04.04.2010... HAPPY EASTER... xoxo 01.01.2010... HAPPY NEW YEAR... xoxo 12.24.2009... MERRY CHRISTMAS my sweet Mandy. I miss you so much. My heart still breaks when I think of you. I hope the ANGELS make sure your stocking has your favorite treats. I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! xoxo 12.02.2009... well sweet girl, it's been 7 yrs. since we had to release you at such a young age. Not a day goes by that we don't think about you & miss you. I know that Dakota misses you too. You are always in my heart. You are such a sweet girl. I love you to the moon & back... xoxoxo 11.25.2009... HAPPY THANKSGIVING my sweet girl... xoxo Your holiday music is: WHAT CHILD IS THIS 10.31.2009...Happy Birthday pretty girl. Boy, do I MISS you. For some reason, this birthday is a tough one for me. I don't know why. But the tears won't stop. I want you back Mandy. We went to see Barry Manilow last weekend. When he sang your song...MANDY...I broke down. The words to that song ring true for you. "YOU CAME & YOU GAVE WITHOUT TAKING"... and I had to take your pain & confusion away. Please Mandy... please FORGIVE me. I would love to hold you one more time. I love you Mandy... love you to the moon & back!! xoxo Music...CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVE TONIGHT by Sir Elton John "I WILL REMEMBER YOU...WILL YOU REMEMBER ME" Mandy..Mandy..Mandy...We only had you for a short period of time but during that time, we learned so much about you. You're such a beautiful girl. But you are such a lonely girl. I hope that you have made many friends & you're NOT lonely anymore. You had a home before our home. I don't know what happened in that home, but you ended up at the shelter. You were ready to be put down but the tech couldn't do it once she saw your face. You gave her a look as if to say "GIVE ME ONE MORE CHANCE, I KNOW SOMEONE WILL LOVE ME". AND your prayer was answered. Along came a rescue group that pulled you out of the shelter. I saw you at one of their showings & I wanted you to share our home with us. They brought you to the house to see how you would handle the cats. Those pesky kitties. They didn't seem to bother you at all. You liked hanging out with the daycare children. I could ALWAYS trust you with them. I knew that they could play with you & you would be very gentle. During the only summer that we had you, we went through a lot of blow-up pools. You liked the kids so much that you would jump into the pool & when you did that, you would put holes into the bottom of the pools. But that was OK. You were having fun. AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERED. You loved to play with the children on the TRAMPOLINE. They would be jumping around up there & there you were. Right in the middle of them...HAVING A BLAST. You loved going into the playhouse when the kids were in there. You would give them SMOOCHES through the playhouse windows. You would sneak their kitchen toys out of the house & hide them. We would find them in all sorts of places. YOU WERE A GOOD GIRL. But once the children went home for the day, you would become unhappy again. Yes, you loved your humans but you needed something else. So, we decided that we would get you a friend. That friend would be Dakota. We found an ad in the paper for Dakota. She needed to be in a home where there was someone there all the time. PERFECT. I was home all the time. Before we brought Dakota home, you had several play dates with her just to make sure you would get along. After about 5 play dates, we brought Dakota home. You were happy. You had been together for several months when things started changing for you. You started doing things that was NOT you. You always ate your beds so that was not anything new for us. But you started getting freaked out when the wind would blow. Or when it would rain. If there was thunder, forget it. You would try to go through the sliding glass door. You started acting up around the cats. We could deal with that. We would make it so you wouldn't be around the cats. But then something happened that made us nervous. Your attitude changed towards the children. I couldn't trust you anymore around them. You would be just fine & then all of a sudden, as if the marble in your head went from side to side, you would get a look on your face that wasn't you. It was the look of "no one home". It was very blank. And dark. Then one windy night, you & Dakota were in the backyard. Before I could get you in the house, you & Dakota got into a fight. We were not able to get you apart at first. When we did, we had to take you two to the vet ASAP. You both had wounds that needed to be stitched. Poor daddy...one of you bit him pretty hard. But he didn't get upset with either one of you. He knew we needed to get you two apart. We had to keep the two of you apart from then on. That is NOT what Dakota wanted. She missed you. We even had your trainer come out to try & mend feelings between the two of you but nothing helped. You would go after Dakota for no reason. I was going to try & re-home you but I was afraid to do that. I didn't want you to bite anyone or have you taken away by the shelter. I didn't want you to do anything that would make them beat you or tie you up. You didn't get that treatment here. I was NOT going to let anyone else do that to you. We tried all sorts of things to fix you. Nothing worked. We had to keep a muzzle on you when you were around Dakota. The two of you had to be kept on leashes when you were together. That is NOT what we wanted for you or Dakota. We kept trying. Then one day you had to go back to the vet to have your wounds checked. Now, you LOVED the vet. You would go in the office,put your feet on the top of the desk as if to say "HERE I AM". This time you didn't do that. When Dr. Lowe tried to look at your wounds, you lunged at him. You had NEVER done that before. SOMETHING WAS WRONG. SOMETHING WAS VERY WRONG. When you did that, Dr. Lowe looked at me & said..."she has become a dangerous dog". I so DID NOT want to hear that. Now what do I do? I am at the vets by myself & I HAVE to make a decision. As I looked into your eyes, I could see sadness. I could see fear. And then, I could NOT see anything. You got that blank look on your face & in your eyes. THAT BROKE MY HEART!! I wondered if I WAS making the right decision. You & I HAD to say GOOD-BYE. THAT WAS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER HAD TO DO. PLEASE KNOW THAT. You had a very special person hold you for the SHOT. Michele held you like I had asked. But before I left, I did ask them one thing. And that was for you to NOT be thrown into the back of the truck that would be taking you to the crematory. And once again, I was assured that that would NOT happen. After all, you WERE STILL my girl. NO MATTER WHAT....YOU WERE STILL MY GIRL. You could no longer be trusted. THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG that no one could fix. BUT THIS WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. I called your daddy at work & broke the news to him. I told him what had happened with Dr. Lowe. He was very sad. He said we had to do it. We didn't want you to hurt anyone & we didn't want ANYONE to hurt you. This was done in YOUR BEST INTEREST...PLEASE BELIEVE ME. Since your daddy was at work & could not leave, he wasn't there to hold you as you left this world. I AM SORRY. DADDY IS SORRY. It's NOT that you weren't important to us because you WERE. You know that I can't do that. Lucky for you, Michelle worked for Dr. Lowe & she held you as you left this world. And I THANK HER very much for doing that for me. We don't consider ANY animal a "throw away" animal. Mandy meant the WORLD to us. In my heart, I know that I made the right choice but I went through a lot of guilt. Some was brought on by the rescue group. But that's not important. I was able to work through this with the help of Beverly & Jill at the Rottweiler Rescue. They helped me see that I HAD NO CHOICE. They felt that Mandys "wires" were crossed. My husband spoke with several of his work people who are also breeders & they ALL told him that Mandy most likely had a BRAIN TUMOR. Each person told my husband that they, too, had had to put down some of their babies due to the same behavior that Mandy showed. I ONLY HOPE THAT THEY WERE RIGHT. I DON'T WANT TO THINK THAT I DIDN'T GIVE HER A CHANCE AT LIFE. Mandy is with all of the Pfeifle children. She is romping & playing & not fighting. She has no head issues anymore. And we know that she will forgive us when she sees us again. I HOPE THAT SHE WILL FORGIVE US. I KNOW SHE WILL FORGIVE HER DADDY BUT I DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME. I hope she isn't holding any grudge. So this is the story of our beautiful girl Mandy. Named after the song "MANDY" by Barry Manilow. She will forever be in our hearts. WE LOVE HER & WE MISS HER VERY, VERY MUCH. SO DOES DAKOTA. Our Mandy-girl...until we meet again....xoxoxoxo 03.10.08** Hi Mandy girl..We miss you. Dakota misses you too. She has lost 2 very special friends in her young age. She wishes that you & everyone else were here with her. We do too!! I know that you are having a wonderful time with all of the family at the Bridge, & that you ALL get along. We love you!! Look at you. The trampoline was your favorite place to play with Dakota. You would take your kongs up there. I would catch the two of you taking little naps up there too. Oh Mandy, we so miss you. You would have had the best of life had you not had something wrong. Go play on the trampoline at the Bridge. xoxo 03.19.08...Hi beautiful girl. Would you give our Cole an extra hug today? And he will do the same to you. Cole knows that he has been gone from us for 29 days. So he might be a little sad. We are sad that ALL of you had to leave us. We miss you & love you with all of our heart. xoxoxo 03.22.08...Hello Mandy...Happy Easter. Tomorrow, I will thank God that we had you in our lives. I still wish you were with us. Something would have happened to you had we not done what we had to do. You were a special girl. We love you...xoxo 04.04.08...Hello Mandy...We hope you are having a fun time with all of your friends. We miss you & think of you often. xoxo We would like to THANK EVERYONE who has come to see our MANDY. Your kind words have helped get through this loss. 04.23.08...Hello my beautiful Mandy...last night I was asked IF I would trade all the pain that we have gone through with our babies. I didn't have to think about it. My answer was NO. Do I REGRET the pain you had to endure, YES I DO. Do I regret NOT being able to fix the crossed wires in your head? YES I DO!!! Do I regret having to say good-bye to you WAY before your time? YES I DO!!! BUT I would NEVER want anyone to hurt you & because you could no longer be trusted around ANYONE or ANYTHING, I had to PROTECT you. The rescue group that I adopted you from(NOT the Rottie rescue) accused me of "THROWING YOU AWAY". GOD KNOWS that is NOT what I did. We had every intention of keeping you through your old age. I HAD TO PROTECT YOU!!! I love you Mandy more than you will ever know. Please don't forget us. We will see you again. And if you are mad at me, I WILL accept that but please don't be mad at your daddy. HUGS & KISSES pretty girl. mommy & daddy I stood by your bed last night...Author Unknown I stood by your bed last night; I came to have a peep. I could see that you were crying, you found it hard to sleep. I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear, "It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine...I'm here." I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour your tea, You were thinking of the many times your hands reached down to me. I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore. I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more. I was with you at my urn today, you tend it with such care. I want to reassure you, that I'm not lying there. I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key. I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said, "IT'S ME." You looked so very tired, and sank into the chair. I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there. It's possible for me to be near you every day. To say with certainty, "I NEVER went away." You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew... In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you. The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning And say, "Good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning." And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide, I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side. I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see. Be patient, live your journey out... then come home to be with me. OUR MANDY...THIS WAS A VERY TOUGH STORY FOR ME TO WRITE...I HAVE SO MUCH GUILT FOR WHAT HAD TO BE DONE...I JUST HOPE THAT WITH TIME, SHE HAS FORGIVEN ME...IT WAS NOT SOMETHING THAT I WANTED TO DO! WE LOVE YOU MANDY-GIRL...PLEASE BE THERE WHEN IT IS OUR TIME TO JOIN YOU. xoxo 07.04.2008...Hi pretty girl...I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I hope you can feel it. Today is the big party at the bridge. Be careful. I have asked Cole to watch over you. Even though the fireworks are NOISE free, I know how scared you can get with just the bursts in the sky. He will make sure that you are safe. I miss you Mandy girl. Had you not been sick, hopefully you would have still been with us. I feel guilt to this day. BUT I know that you are in a much better place now where NO ONE can hurt you. And you can't hurt anyone. I love you Mandy. Like the song says....CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVE TONIGHT?? Until we meet again..... WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! 07.18.08...Hi pretty girl...I want to thank you for being with Dakota during her surgery. I know she felt your presence in the room. She really needed to see you & Cole. She really needed to know that you were with her. Watching over her. Making sure she came through the surgery. I know that you love her. And I know that you would not want anything to happen to her. I love you Mandy. Please know that. I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! xoxoxoxoxo 10.31.2008...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET MANDY...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. You would be 7 today. We wish you were here with us so you could have a wonderful day with your mommy, daddy & Dakota. What happened with you just wasn't fair. I don't know that anything could have been done for your brain tumor but I would like to think that you could have had a chance. But from what we were told, there was nothing that could be done. A surgery would have been risky with NO guarantee. But we didn't know what was wrong with you until AFTER you were gone. You were given another chance...by us. We WANTED you...we LOVED you. We DIDN'T throw you away like the rescue said. We would NEVER do that to ANY fur baby. And especially one that WE loved so very much. When I had to say good-bye, it was the toughest thing for me. And your daddy...he was heartbroken. And your friend Dakota...she was so lonely without you. You will always be our MANDY GIRL. Our sad little girl. I wish I knew what happened in your first home that made you so sad. We did everything to make you happy...maybe YOUR heart was broken by having your FIRST family dump you at the shelter to be put down. We don't know...and we probably won't ever know. We want you to know that WE wanted you & we loved you from the DEEPEST part of our soul. We ALWAYS will. And we will see you when it is our time to join all of you at the bridge. I ask you Mandy...PLEASE be there when it is our time. We want to see your lovely face. Now go have a good birthday & a fun party. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! xoxoxoxoxo 11.16.2008...well, it's almost holiday time so I thought I'd turn your page into a wintery wonderland. And I thought I'd give you a holiday tune. I hope you like it. As with Lady Wendy, Bucky, Tigger, Stray Kittie & K.C., we lost you during the holiday season. If only things could be turned around. But they can't. We miss you so very much but we know that you are so much happier at the bridge. There's no more confusion for you. You are healthy once again. Now I know you are doing your best to help Karley. She's so scared & confused still. Make sure she never leaves the gang. Make sure she's always safe & warm. Let her know what love is all about. She was loved by her real mommie & daddy...teach her how to send signs so she can let her humans know that she's doing ok. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! xoxoxo 11.27.2008...HAPPY THANKSGIVING cutie pie. We know that you are going to have such a great day. There will be LOTS of food & games. And I hear there will be cake, ice cream, cookies & cupcakes. That sounds so good. You are with your family & friends on this special day of THANKS. Please make sure that you watch over Karley. We are thankful that we had you in our lives, even though it was for just a short time. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! xoxoxo 12.02.2008...Hello cutie pie. You have been away from us for 6 yrs. & we miss you very much. We know that you are no longer in any pain or confusion. That makes us happy. I hope you understand that what we did was in YOUR best interest. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! xoxo 12.23.2008...MERRY CHRISTMAS cutie pie. How are you today? Are you getting ready for the big celebration at the bridge? Is your voice ready for all of the caroles you will be singing? And is your stocking ready for hanging? I know you will all get the most wonderful treats. Watch over everyone for me. And don't let anyone get you under the mistletoe. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS MANDY!!! xoxo 01.01.2009...HAPPY NEW YEAR cutie pie. I know you had such a good time last night & today at Ursa's party. Mandy...not a day goes by that we don't think about you. And we always...ALWAYS wish you were still with us. We loved you so very much. And we still do. I just hope that you will ALWAYS know that & that when it is our time to join all of you, you will come running to us with open paws & wag your stump & give us many smooches. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!! xoxo HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY pretty girl...we miss you with all of our heart...xoxo 04.03.2009...Hello pretty girl...how are you today? We miss you very much. xoxo 04.12.2009...Happy Easter pretty girl. You are going to have so much fun hunting for eggs. Help Karley & the others. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!!..xoxo 08.18.2009...Hello beautiful girl. How are you today? I miss you so much. xoxo 10.14.2009...Happy Fall beautiful girl. I am sorry that I haven't been to visit lately. I won't let that happen again. Mandy, we think about you all the time. We miss you so very much. So does Dakota. I know you are happy being with all of your friends. I hope you will be there to greet me when it's my time to join you & the others. WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!!!...xoxo Please also visit AKER, BUCKY, COLE, Dakota, Grizzabella, KARLEY, LADY WENDY, PFEIFLES' BABIES and URSA.

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